AuDHD and Then Some™ | Hosted by Ellie AuDHD Capstick

Ellie AuDHD Capstick
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AuDHD and Then Some™ is a podcast about neurodivergence, trauma, recovery and the complicated reality of being human. Hosted by Ellie AuDHD, conversations are honest, down-to-earth and often deeply personal, exploring ADHD, autism, AuDHD, burnout, relationships, addiction and recovery, mental health, identity, trauma and the experiences that shape us. Alongside Ellie's lived experience, you'll hear long-form conversations with guests from around the world sharing their stories, knowledge and perspectives. On the 1st of every month, Ellie is joined by co-host Tasha for a free-flowing AuDHD conversation, taking one topic and properly getting into it. You'll also find occasional solo episodes where Ellie talks candidly about AuDHD, life, recovery, relationships and whatever else her brain has decided needs discussing that day. No pretending we've got everything figured out. No perfect version of neurodivergence. Just real conversations that help us understand ourselves and each other a little better. Learn. Connect. Feel less alone. 🎙️ New episodes every Tuesday & Thursday. 👕 Ellie AuDHD: https://www.ellieaudhd.com/ 🔗 Community, events, support & everything else: https://ellieaudhd.co.uk/ Want to be a guest on AuDHD and Then Some™? Send Ellie AuDHD a message on PodMatch here: https://www.podmatch.com/hostdetailpreview/ellieaudhdhostlink

  1. 4 days ago

    Why Do We Lose Ourselves in Relationships? Divorce, Heartbreak and Self-Trust with LiYana Silver

    Content note: This episode discusses divorce, heartbreak, abandonment, grief and the emotional impact of relationship loss. Please listen with care and step away if you need to. Why do so many of us lose touch with our own needs, identity and intuition inside relationships? What happens when the relationship ends and we are forced to meet ourselves again? In this episode of AuDHD and Then Some, Ellie speaks with relationship coach and author LiYana Silver about divorce, heartbreak, self-abandonment and rebuilding a life rooted in self-trust. LiYana is the author of Feminine Genius and Waking Up in the Dark Night of Divorce. She has spent more than 20 years supporting individuals and couples through relationship difficulties, heartbreak and profound personal transformation. Together, Ellie and LiYana explore why divorce can feel like a dark night of the soul and why it should not simply be treated as a failure or covered over with positive platitudes. Advice such as “everything happens for a reason” or “you will find somebody else” can create even more disconnection when what somebody truly needs is to have their pain witnessed. LiYana explains the phases we experience during relationship loss and why grief cannot simply be rushed or skipped. They discuss the difference between trying to get over heartbreak and allowing ourselves to move through it with honesty and care. Ellie also shares her own experiences of abandonment, rejection sensitivity and repeatedly losing herself within long-term relationships. Together, they examine the moment when rebuilding self-trust begins with one vital decision: “I will not abandon myself.” The conversation also explores the cultural messages that teach women to be endlessly giving, selfless and responsible for everybody else’s feelings. When we become consumed by maintaining harmony, we can lose contact with what we want, need, know and feel. Topics include: • Divorce and relationship loss • Heartbreak and the dark night of the soul • The phases of grief and transformation • Self-abandonment and rebuilding self-trust • Abandonment fears and repeating relationship patterns • Why positive platitudes can make grief feel lonelier • Losing your identity within a relationship • Women, emotional labour and cultural conditioning • Learning to be present for yourself • Moving romantic relationships away from the centre of life • Creating intimacy between two people of equal worth • Breaking generational relationship patterns This is an honest, compassionate and frequently funny conversation about what happens when a relationship ends, the identity we thought we had begins to dissolve, and we slowly learn how to become somebody who will no longer leave themselves behind. Connect with LiYana Silver: Website and coaching: https://liyanasilver.com/ Waking Up in the Dark Night of Divorce: https://liyanasilver.com/wakingup/ Free Breakup Transformation Map: https://liyanasilver.com/map/

  2. 6 days ago

    Finding Your Voice After Childhood Sexual Abuse with Cathy Beck

    Content warning: This episode discusses childhood sexual abuse within a family, suicidal thoughts and the lasting effects of trauma. Please listen with care and step away if you need to. What happens when experiences you could not speak about as a child continue to shape how you feel about yourself as an adult? Cathy Beck joins Ellie for an open conversation about her experience of childhood sexual abuse, the memories that emerged during therapy, and the years she spent trying to understand feelings of shame and low self-worth. Ellie shares parts of her own experience too, including how difficult it can be to make sense of what you remember and what you don’t. They talk about the silence that often surrounds sexual abuse, the complicated feelings that can come with being harmed by someone you love, and what it meant for Cathy to find a therapist she trusted. Cathy also shares how writing her memoir helped her tell her story in her own words. Topics include: Childhood sexual abuse and family relationshipsTrauma, memory and self-worthSuicidal thoughts and seeking supportTherapy and Internal Family SystemsFinding your voice and writing a memoirTalking with children about safety and consentThis is a personal conversation about being heard, finding support and making room for a life beyond silence.

  3. 8 Oct

    Finding Music Again After Injury and PTSD with Matt Hancock

    Content note: This episode discusses an accidental gunshot injury, chronic pain, PTSD, depression, divorce and the loss of a child. What happens when an injury takes away the instrument that has always felt like part of you? Matt Hancock grew up playing guitar. While serving in the US Army, an accidental gunshot injury left his left hand partially paralysed and changed the course of both his military career and his musical life. In this conversation, Matt joins Ellie to talk honestly about identity, loss, PTSD and the long process of finding a new creative path. He shares how playing drums led him back to music, how he discovered synthesizers and sound design, and how those experiences shaped DECO-LUXE and his album Eventide. They also talk about living without regret, making space for joy after painful experiences, and why nobody needs to compare their hardest days with somebody else’s. Find Matt and DECO-LUXE: https://www.instagram.com/deco.luxe.music Eventide is available on streaming platforms.

  4. 6 Oct

    What Does Bipolar Disorder Feel Like? Fourteen Lost Years, Recovery & Healing Humour | Dave Mowry

    Content warning: This episode includes discussion of severe depression, anxiety, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, an incident involving a firearm, psychiatric hospitalisation, homelessness and mental health stigma. Please listen with care and step away if you need to. What does bipolar disorder actually feel like from the inside, and what happens when years of silently struggling finally become impossible to carry? Dave Mowry joins Ellie to share the honest story of what he calls his fourteen lost years. Once a successful businessman with financial stability and a loving family, Dave experienced a devastating mental health breakdown that changed every part of his life. He discusses losing his businesses, experiencing homelessness, living with overwhelming anxiety and depression, and receiving a bipolar disorder diagnosis that finally helped him understand the cycles he had experienced for years. Dave also speaks movingly about his beautiful wife, Heather, whom he describes as the hero of his story, and about the love he has for his children. Their story shows the profound effect serious mental illness can have on an entire family, but also the extraordinary strength that can exist within those relationships. Recovery began to take shape when Dave joined a stand-up comedy class for people living with mental illness. Learning to find humour within some of his darkest experiences changed the way he related to his memories and eventually led him to perform comedy, teach others and help people tell their own stories one joke at a time. This is an open, funny and deeply human conversation about bipolar disorder, masking, mental health recovery, family, stigma and the healing power of feeling understood. Topics include: • What bipolar disorder can feel like from the inside • Mania, depression, severe anxiety and panic attacks • Masking distress and pretending to be okay • Psychiatric hospitalisation and receiving a diagnosis • Losing financial security and experiencing homelessness • The effect of mental illness on partners and children • Dave’s relationship with his wife, Heather • Finding humour within painful experiences • Teaching stand-up comedy to people with mental health challenges • Mental health stigma and the importance of honest storytelling • Dave’s books, OMG That’s Me! and Healing with Humor • Hope, recovery and helping people realise they are not alone Dave shares his personal lived experience rather than medical advice. If anything in this conversation resonates with you, please consider reaching out to an appropriate mental health professional or trusted source of support. Learn more about Dave and find his books at: https://davemowry.com/

  5. 2 Oct

    Octobers AuDHD and then some Membership Relationships with Tasha and Ellie

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  6. 1 Oct

    ADHD, AI and Burnout: Helpful Tool, Dopamine Trap or Both? with Florian Pariset

    Can AI genuinely support an ADHD brain, or can it become another source of hyperfocus, dopamine chasing and burnout? In this episode, Ellie speaks with Florian “Flo” Pariset, the ADHD founder of Notis, an AI assistant designed to do the work your brain refuses to do. Flo runs his profitable, bootstrapped company as a team of one, using AI agents to support research, content, follow-ups and everyday operations. But this is not a polished success story. Flo shares how two years of intense hyperfocus helped him build his company while also contributing to burnout, and how his ADHD diagnosis changed the way he understood both his work and himself. Together, Ellie and Flo explore both sides of AI. For many disabled and neurodivergent people, it can provide genuine accessibility, helping bridge the gap between wanting to complete something and being able to begin. At the same time, its speed, novelty and endless possibilities can intensify hyperfocus, feed the search for dopamine and remove the natural stopping points that protect our health and relationships. They also discuss the concerns people have about AI, including privacy, misinformation, employment, creative ownership, environmental impact and becoming overly dependent on technology. Topics include: • ADHD, AI and task paralysis • Hyperfocus, dopamine and burnout • Using AI for low-dopamine tasks • Running a company as a team of one • AI scepticism and legitimate concerns • What should never be delegated to technology • Accountability, boundaries and healthier guardrails • Using AI without sacrificing the life it is supposed to support This is an honest conversation about using AI intentionally, keeping human judgement accountable and recognising that technology does not have to be either the villain or the hero. Follow Flo and subscribe to his Sunday Scaries newsletter: https://www.notis.ai/mindtheflo/

  7. 29 Sept

    Beautifully Unbroken: Trauma, Survival & Finding Hope | Adriene Caldwell

    ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING This deeply emotional episode contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, physical and emotional abuse, incest, mental illness, addiction, eating disorders, homelessness, foster care, the drowning death of a child, violence and suicide. Please listen with care and step away if you need to. In this powerful episode of AuDHD and Then Some, Ellie AuDHD Capstick speaks with Adriene Caldwell, author of the forthcoming memoir Unbroken: Life Outside the Lines. Adriene shares her extraordinary story of surviving childhood trauma, abuse, extreme poverty, homelessness and the foster care system. This is an honest and deeply moving conversation about what happens when a child is repeatedly failed by the people and systems that should have protected them. But Adriene’s story is not only about surviving. It is about refusing to be defined by what happened to her. Together, Ellie and Adriene explore the lasting effects of childhood trauma, learning to recognise and manage triggers, the complicated subject of forgiveness, the people and moments that can alter the course of a life, and what it really means to move from surviving to thriving. Adriene speaks openly about the realities faced by former foster children and the importance of offering genuine hope without minimising the cruelty and pain people have experienced. This episode is raw, emotional and incredibly important. It is a reminder that even when somebody is living through their darkest chapter, their story is not necessarily over. There can still be a sliver of light at the end of an unimaginably dark tunnel. Learn more about Adriene, receive bonus content and sign up for updates about Unbroken: Life Outside the Lines at: https://www.unbrokencaldwell.com/

  8. 22 Sept

    Navigating Grief and Resilience with Caron Grossman

    # Navigating Grief and Resilience with Caron Grossman > A heartfelt conversation on loss, recovery, and self-discovery. Caron Grossman’s journey weaves through the threads of grief, addiction, and recovery, offering profound insights on how to rebuild when life takes unexpected turns. ## The Essence of Caron In a candid conversation, Caron reflects on her identity beyond her titles. "I truly think I am the same person I was when I was two," she shares, emphasizing that her core essence remains unchanged despite life’s challenges. This perspective invites us to explore our own identities through the lens of our experiences. ## A Life Marked by Loss Carons life took a pivotal turn at the age of 13 when she lost her mother suddenly to a heart attack. This loss shaped her understanding of grief, but she insists, "I was me before my mom died." The suddenness of her mother's death left a void, one that she grappled with in solitude as her family struggled to communicate their grief. Despite this, Caron highlights the importance of being seen: "I lost that feeling of being seen... I love to offer people that option of being seen." ## The Power of Boundaries In discussing her past, Caron acknowledges the challenges of accepting others' behaviors due to her empathetic nature. "It’s gotten me in a lot of trouble," she admits, but emphasizes how establishing boundaries has been crucial for her well-being. ## Learning from Grief Carons ability to process grief was shaped by the lessons imparted by her mother before her passing. "She helped us go through that grief... but nobody else took that lesson," she reflects, highlighting the isolation that can accompany profound loss. Through her story, Caron invites listeners to find strength in their vulnerabilities and to embrace the journey of healing, no matter how daunting it may seem. As we close this chapter of Caron's story, consider the moments in your own life that have reshaped your identity. How do you see yourself amidst your experiences? For a deeper dive into Carons journey and insights, listen to the full episode.

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AuDHD and Then Some™ is a podcast about neurodivergence, trauma, recovery and the complicated reality of being human. Hosted by Ellie AuDHD, conversations are honest, down-to-earth and often deeply personal, exploring ADHD, autism, AuDHD, burnout, relationships, addiction and recovery, mental health, identity, trauma and the experiences that shape us. Alongside Ellie's lived experience, you'll hear long-form conversations with guests from around the world sharing their stories, knowledge and perspectives. On the 1st of every month, Ellie is joined by co-host Tasha for a free-flowing AuDHD conversation, taking one topic and properly getting into it. You'll also find occasional solo episodes where Ellie talks candidly about AuDHD, life, recovery, relationships and whatever else her brain has decided needs discussing that day. No pretending we've got everything figured out. No perfect version of neurodivergence. Just real conversations that help us understand ourselves and each other a little better. Learn. Connect. Feel less alone. 🎙️ New episodes every Tuesday & Thursday. 👕 Ellie AuDHD: https://www.ellieaudhd.com/ 🔗 Community, events, support & everything else: https://ellieaudhd.co.uk/ Want to be a guest on AuDHD and Then Some™? Send Ellie AuDHD a message on PodMatch here: https://www.podmatch.com/hostdetailpreview/ellieaudhdhostlink

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