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Deconstruction, spiritual crisis, psychedelics, and what it feels like to discover the world and who I am again (and again) after a lifetime of Mormonism.

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  1. 05/11/2025

    #6 - Grief: What Happens when the Ego Meets a Clear Mirror

    In this episode I talk about a recent experience I had visiting a friend and spiritual mentor at her home on the East Coast.  What I thought was going to just be a vacation ended up being a direct confrontation with non-duality, which was very confronting and felt a lot like ego death.   I share my thoughts on what it means to have "clear mirrors" in our lives, and how directly encountering a clear mirror brought me face to face with my fear of loss and death. https://www.dara.energy/ for Dara's offerings

    41 min

  2. 22/10/2025

    #5 - Connecting to Empathy, Love and Humanity through the Shadow

    One of the greatest gifts of leaving a high demand religion has been feeling the depth of love and connection to my empathy and humanity greatly increase.  In this episode, I talk about my experience with spiritual crisis that occured after leaving Mormonism and doing psychedelics, but how this direct experience with the darkness connected me to a deeper level of empathy and love than I ever felt in Mormonism.

    45 min

  3. 16/10/2025

    #4 - The Hatred of Women, The Hatred of Men, and the Hatred of the Self

    In this episode I talk about my own experiences with shame and self hatred that have largely come from growing up in a patriarchal environment.  I talk about processing my internalized misogyny, and the healing I have found in accessing and tending to my shame.

    43 min

  4. 13/10/2025

    #3 - The Christian Psyche

    Why is Jesus such a powerful archetype?  So powerful that people will engage in marginalization and violence supposedly in his name? As someone who was Christian for 33 years, in this episode I share my thoughts on what it's like to be an extremely devout Christian, and why exactly I think Jesus has so much power in the Christian psyche.

    49 min
  5. #2 - Attachment Wounding, Codependency, and What We Call "Romance"

    09/10/2025

    #2 - Attachment Wounding, Codependency, and What We Call "Romance"

    How can we know we are showing up clearly in relationship when we haven't addressed the unconsious materials that we're building our relationships from?   In this episode I talk all about my own attachment wounds growing up in Mormonism, my unpopular views on "romance" and why I think that addressing and holding our own internalized shame, instead of asking others to do so, allows for deeper intimacy and more connection in our lives.     Shayne Case - https://www.shaynecase.com/   Darananda - https://www.dara.energy/   https://www.instagram.com/philemonisalive/

    45 min

  6. 06/10/2025

    #1 - What are the Mormons Doing?

    Stephanie Ann Again

    42 min
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Deconstruction, spiritual crisis, psychedelics, and what it feels like to discover the world and who I am again (and again) after a lifetime of Mormonism.

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  • Creator
    Stephanie Brinkerhoff
  • Years Active
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  • Episodes
    6
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    © 2025
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