Lowkey Chaotic

Zoë Lilou

A podcast by Zoë Lilou.

  1. 1 DAY AGO

    Sobriety, Self-Love & The Decisions That Changed Me

    A reflective episode about sobriety, escapism, and the slow journey towards self-love. I share my experience quitting weed after eight years, my relationship with alcohol, and how my understanding of discipline and self-respect has evolved over the past two and a half years.

    40 min

  2. 21 FEB

    Women Perform Pleasure. Men Perform Control.

    This is a conversation about how, during sex, women often perform pleasure, comfort, and emotional regulation, while men perform control, composure, and stamina - roles shaped by culture, language, and expectation. We talk about performance vs presence, the aggressive language we use to describe sex, emotional labor during intimacy, and the feeling of being an experience instead of sharing one.

    33 min

  3. 14 FEB

    I Knew It Was Bad for Me, But I Stayed Anyway

    I didn’t stay because I was stupid. I stayed because the pain and relief cycle is addictive. A raw conversation about abuse, self-abandonment, and choosing someone else over yourself again and again.

    44 min

  4. 4 FEB

    I Feel Rejected All the Time (And Abandoned)

    I feel rejected all the time. Not just when the guy i caught feelings for ends things. Also when someone texts me with a dry tone. Or doesn’t reply. And it feels embarrassing to have such big feelings about such small things. So let’s unpack rejection.

    38 min

  5. 28 JAN

    Why I Hold Back in Bed

    As women, we’re constantly monitoring ourselves: on dates, in relationships, and in bed. This episode explores self-surveillance in dating and sex, why transactional intimacy can feel safer than romance, and why even with safe, respectful partners, being fully present can still feel impossible.

    44 min

  6. 18 JAN

    Women Who Love Too Much (You Were Never Too Much)

    A deeply personal and cultural deep dive into why women are taught to believe they love too much and why that was never true. From heartbreak and sensitivity to situationships, ghosting, and emotional detachment, this episode is about reclaiming your heart, trusting your instincts, and remembering that you were never broken. You were just loving in a world that taught men to love too little.

    1h 13m

  7. 9 JAN

    Let’s Talk About Kinks

    Let’s talk about kinks. About desire and shame. About power, safety, and what it means to feel truly seen by someone. In this episode, I share what I’m learning about wanting, boundaries, trust, and intimacy and why desire is never as random as we think.

    38 min

  8. 1 JAN

    Fuck Her Till She Falls In Love

    “Fuck her till she falls in love” is a phrase that gets thrown around casually as a joke, a warning, or a dismissal. This episode takes that cliché apart. Instead of framing women’s attachment after intimacy as weakness or lack of control, we look at what’s actually happening beneath the surface: nervous system responses, cultural conditioning, and the power dynamics that shape how closeness is experienced and judged. If you’ve ever been told you “caught feelings” as if it were a personal failure, this conversation offers language, context, and relief instead of shame.

    24 min
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About

A podcast by Zoë Lilou.

Information

  • Creator
    Zoë Lilou
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    35
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Zoë Lilou
  • Show Website
    Lowkey Chaotic

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