Baat Kardi

Muhammad Abbas Merchant
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"Baat Kardi" is the spiritual successor of my first podcast "Project Manchala", it is a platform to talk about anything and everything. It is giving myself the opportunity to continue sharing and to continue telling stories.

  1. 4 APR

    Episode 15 - Let's Just Chat

    This episode was really difficult to produce. I'm not sure why that is as yet, whether it be the fact that it's two days after my late best friend's birthday, or even just because I feel like I'm stretching myself a little thin. I couldn't tell you what it is. Maybe I'm burning out. But whatever it is, I thought we could sit down and talk about it, so let's chat.

    17 min

  2. 27 MAR

    Episode 14 - Finding Oneself

    For the longest time I've struggled with finding an identity for myself. I've struggled to figure out where I fit in, where was my place among society because I just didn't know. My hair for the longest time has felt like the closest idea to having a defining trait, over the years it became a running joke among friends on how it had a mind of its own. In time, my hair became a big part of my personality, which in turn I suppose caused me to be unable to see myself apart from it. I still struggle to place myself among people, I'm not sure if it was because of how I grew up or the bullying but let's talk about it.

    25 min

  3. 20 MAR

    Episode 13 - Eid Mubarak Halfway Across The Globe

    Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim brothers and sisters celebrating across the globe. I hope this Eid and all future ones are kind to you and your loved ones. Eid is a time for community and being able to be with those you care for. I'm sure there are many like me who are spending this Eid far from who we usually spend it with, this was me trying to do my part in assuring you that we are not alone. Yes the traditions may not be the same and need to change things up, but, why not? Why can't we do something a little bit differently this time around? Let's talk about it.

    20 min

  4. 14 MAR

    Episode 12 - Laziness & My Inability To Do Things

    I struggle a lot with my inherently laziness. It leaves me unable to get most things done unless I can somehow find the strength within to get my sh*t together. I think of it as a sickness really, this feeling within that just leaves me paralysed and feeling as horrid as humanly possible. I feel the lethargy welling up inside and I hate it. I don't know if anyone else suffers from this but, let's talk about it.

    20 min

  5. 7 MAR

    Episode 11 - Urdu & My Troubles

    Growing up, Urdu and I never had the best relationship. I struggled to put my feelings into words that never quite seemed to flow off my tongue the way it did for my mother. I found myself distraught and dejected from a language that was meant to be home. I found myself relying more and more on English as a crutch to communicate with the world around me. Before long, my English was all I knew. I was lauded for my prowess over the language, so much so that it became part of my identity and my only identity within time. Over the past two years I have been trying to forge a new version of myself through trial and error. The words of Faiz Ahmed and the voice of Zia Mohyeddin, I am trying to find myself anew.

    30 min

  6. 27 FEB

    Episode 10 - Grief and All Things Encompassing

    So many of us struggle through life unable to function due to grief simply overwhelming us and taking over. Grief can be a deadly poison, but I also see it as a beautiful way to remember and cherish what we have lost. I'm no stranger to grief or loss, I have lost more than I care to have ever done in one lifetime but unfortunately we don't get to decide how much or how little time we get. This episode hits a little close to home because it was recently the death anniversary of my maternal grandmother's sister, and very soon it will be my paternal grandmother's death anniversary as well. This time of year can be rough but I realised that so many others must be feeling the same and many that I know are feeling it, so I thought to share in the grief. So let's talk about grief and all things encompassing.

    25 min

  7. 20 FEB

    Episode 9 - Away From Home, Ramazan & a Found Family

    Ramadan Kareem to all those observing the holy month, I wish all Muslims across the globe well during this time. Many of us will be practising away from family and friends, and while this is by no means a new conversation I do think it requires continued repetition as a reminder that whatever you're going through and feeling, you're not alone. Ramadan is a time for community and coming together to celebrate the joys of life among the countless blessings you've been given. One of the wonders of adult life is that you're no longer limited with the family you were born with, you have the ability to go out and find a family of your choosing. I've been blessed to have been able to create such a family and I hope that wherever you are in the world, you have the ability to find people that feel like home away from home. So lets talk about how life away from home and everything that encompasses being away.

    29 min

  8. 13 FEB

    Episode 8 - What Is Your Legacy

    Yesterday I had a guest speaker attending my lecturer at University, Fiona Meldrum from the Citizen's UK. Part of her topic for the day was around the idea of personhood and the legacy we leave behind. It was a very interesting conversation, partly I suppose because I've spent quite a while delving into the very same myself. It does require some consideration though, what does it mean to leave a legacy? What would be our legacy once we pass on? And honestly, all that I'm doing and all that I'm trying to do with my art will it amount to what I hope it will? I don't know. But, lets talk about that.

    25 min
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"Baat Kardi" is the spiritual successor of my first podcast "Project Manchala", it is a platform to talk about anything and everything. It is giving myself the opportunity to continue sharing and to continue telling stories.

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  • Creator
    Muhammad Abbas Merchant
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    15
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Muhammad Abbas Merchant
  • Show Website
    Baat Kardi