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#AmWriting is a podcast and Groupstack hosted by KJ Dell’Antonia, Jess Lahey, Sarina Bowen, & Jennie Nash. Listen, read and join up for hard-won advice and inspiration to help you play big in your writing life and finish work that matters. amwriting.substack.com

  1. Hot Seat Coaching: Choosing to Write Big with Andrew Parella

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    Hot Seat Coaching: Choosing to Write Big with Andrew Parella

    Producer Andrew Parrella Claims His Own Gothic World In this follow-up session, Jennie Nash checks in with producer-turned-novelist Andrew Parrella, who returns to the “hot seat” with a major breakthrough. After a week of “staring at the screen and walking the dog,” Andrew realizes he has been “writing small” to keep the project manageable. By leaning too heavily on the existing framework of Bram Stoker’s Dracula, he was inadvertently stifling his own creativity. He decides to “embrace the big,” shifting the story from a cautious tribute into a standalone Historical Gothic Mystery. This evolution includes a high-stakes world-building choice: making vampires a known, though unaccepted, part of the public consciousness in 1920s London, adding a layer of modern resonance and social tension to the atmosphere of dread. The duo also digs into the “glaring holes” that surface when a writer decides to expand their narrative scope. Andrew identifies a need for deeper research into the Suffragette movement to ensure his protagonist’s familial history feels integrated rather than “tacked on.” By connecting the mystery of the protagonist’s mother to historical activism, Andrew finds a way to ground the supernatural elements in a more 3D reality. As they grapple with the structural puzzle of Point of View—weighing the benefits of including voices from the past versus staying close to the present—Jennie challenges Andrew to choose the perspective that best amplifies the protagonist’s transformation and the secrets hidden within a mysterious Gladstone bag. Visit Andrew on the web: https://www.andrewparrella.com Listen to the first session with Andrew: #AmWriting is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Transcript Jennie: [00:00:00] Hi, I’m Jennie Nash and you’re listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast, the place where we help writers of all kinds play big in your writing life, love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most. This is a hot seat coaching episode where we work through a real writing challenge in real time. Today I’m talking again with Andrew Perella, the hashtag am writing podcast producer who stepped out from behind the mic to work on his novel. He completed our winter blueprint challenge and is now working on blueprint revisions, which is such an important stage in the writing process, digging into what you really want the book to be, what you really wanna say. And Andrew’s told me he just had a revelation, which I’m dying to hear about. But um, before we get to that. Um, when we’re talking here today, the first episode where we did hot seat coaching launched out into the world, and I wanted to ask how [00:01:00] you’re feeling about that. Andrew: Um, it feels a little weird. Um, you know, I’m used to being behind the mic. I’m used to, um, helping obviously produce a lot of audio over the years and, and, and helped get a lot of podcast episodes out into the world. It’s strange to. Kind of be featured in a podcast episode. Um, that is a new experience for me. Um, uh, you know, when we recorded it, it was just you and I talking, but now it’s like out in the world and, uh, and, and people can listen, um, and, uh, and, and, and judge, um, which of course they’re welcome to do. Uh, but uh, but yeah, so it’s a little, it’s a little weird, but it’s fun. It’s fun. Jennie: Yeah, that’s, that’s you, you hit the nail on the head, the, the judge part. As soon as you put anything into the world, you put yourself up for judgment. And what we’re doing here in these sessions is, is really, in some ways so intimate because we’re getting to watch [00:02:00] somebody’s thinking as it’s unfolding, as it’s progressing before they know what they want it to be. And we’re watching someone hopefully, um. You know, hone in on their, their voice, their story, their point, their whole thing. And it’s, um, it’s really special to get to see it unfold, I think. Um, so thank you for. Putting yourself out there. Andrew: I’m, I’m happy to do it. This is, this has been a really value, this is a really valuable exercise for me personally. So, uh, happy to, happy to share that with folks. Jennie: So what happened last time was you left with some, uh, homework, which you did. Mm-hmm. And what was interesting from my point of view was when I. Looked at what you did. My first thought was, well, he didn’t do very much. And I, I sort of thought, uh, okay, that’s funny. Andrew: I kind of felt the same way. Jennie: Oh, that’s really funny. But then when I read it, it was like, oh no, you worked out a [00:03:00] lot of things that we had been circling around. And primarily the, um, I would say the. Personal familial history of abriana and her connection to this famous vampire hunter. So that all got really sorted. Um, but the, the one that really made me chuckle was you have this beautiful description of your ideal reader in the blueprint, and it, it’s probably. I don’t know, it might be 500 words. It’s, it’s like, you know, this ideal reader really well, and I can tell that you actually really love this ideal reader and want to I do, I do. Yeah. It’s really sort of beautiful, um, the specificity of, of who she is, but you added like three lines to the end of that. That was part of what you, what you did. And, um, [00:04:00] one of those lines was. In response to something we talked about, which was, does your ideal reader, are they familiar with Dracula? And you said, now, no. So that was really interesting to me. Do you wanna talk a little bit how you landed on that? Because I, I do think it might impact the genre. Andrew: Uh, yeah, I agree. And I, I saw your note about the genre too, which, which, um, I’m, I’d be eager to talk more about, but yeah, I mean, as, as I was thinking about this, I say I feel like I didn’t do much. I spend a lot of time staring at the screen, uh, over the last couple of weeks and like. Walking my dog and thinking about these questions that you were posing. I feel like I spent hours doing it and like it, like, and, and like the words on the page since we last spoke, don’t, I don’t know, have reflect like the number of, the number of new words on the page. Don’t reflect that. But I spent, I spent a lot of time thinking about, about that question and [00:05:00] some of the other questions that, that you posed. And I think for a long time I wanted to presume a familiarity with Stoker’s Dracula, um, because it made my job easier. And, and so I think I, I kind of had to come to terms with the fact that though it is a popular book, not everybody has read it. And while many people, because it’s a popular book, many people have some. Passing knowledge about the structure, about the plot, about some of the characters maybe, but they won’t know. They won’t know the level of detail that I do having read it many times. And so I need to create, I need to expand the world. I need to create my own world. I can’t just live in Stoker’s world. I need to create my own world. These characters, while they have the same names as the characters in in Stoker’s novel. They are, they become different characters in my world, the [00:06:00] world I’m creating. And so I need to, I need to kind of accept that. And so it doesn’t matter if you’ve read Dracula before you pick up this book, and these, these characters have a rich backstory that I will allude to. And if you’ve read Dracula, you might pick up on some extra, some extra bits, but this is still going to be a cohesive, discreet novel that you’ll be able to enjoy. Regardless of, uh, whether you’ve read the, the, the original or not. Jennie: Okay. That’s huge. Is that the revelation or is there something else? Andrew: No, that is not Jennie: the Andrew: revelation. Jennie: Okay. So we’ll get, wow, okay. We’ll get to that in a minute. But that, the reason I said it impacts the genre is that you said your ideal right reader wouldn’t describe herself as a horror fan and that her. Most, she’s, she loves this, um, period of time. She loves London. Um, you know, there’s a lot of things that [00:07:00] connect her to this story, but not horror. And so my thought was, should, should it still be classified as horror? Uh, there are lots of other ways to classify it, you know, historic, um, a historic thriller, a historic mystery. You know, gothic could be in there, but what, what are your thoughts at this point about that? Andrew: Yeah, and I, I, I think we’ve, we’ve, we’ve used the term horror when we talk about it, but when I, when I, when I did the blueprint challenge, I think I did kind of identify more like historical gothic as the genre. And, and, and as, as you say in one of your notes, this is feeling more like a mystery, a murder mystery than it is horror. Like, I feel like the horror genre leans into the gore, and I don’t know that that’s where. My book lives, I think, I think the gothic kind of sense of imminent doom, pervading, you know, every page is definitely something I wanna lead into. So, so I think gothic is, is [00:08:00] relevant, historic, gothic, and ultimately it is a murder mystery. And so who, and so, and so solving that mystery is the protagonist’s kind of ultimate mission. Jennie: Right. So the, the sort of moodiness of the world and, and something, yeah. The dread, uh, that’s out there. Right. Um, which fits really nicely, uh, with what you’re doing. Okay. So what’s the revelation? Andrew: So it came from the question that you asked me last or two weeks ago now. Um, and one that I’ve been asking myself, which is. Are vampires part of the public consciousness in this world that I’m building. And for a long time I’ve been saying, no, no, no, no. They’re not part, they’re still, they

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  2. 20 MAR

    10 Years of #amwriting: Looking Back and Moving Forward

    After ten years of the #amwriting podcast, KJ, Jess, and Sarina are marking a milestone—and a transition. In this episode, the longtime hosts reflect on what the writing world looked like when the show began and share their best advice for writers trying to do meaningful work. They also pass the microphone to Jennie, who will carry the podcast into its next chapter. Moving forward, Jennie will keep the show focused on helping writers do their best work and make smart decisions about their writing lives. Expect familiar features and new conversations, including Write Big solo episodes, Book Lab breakdowns of listener submissions, coaching sessions with writers across genres, and Margin Notes exploring the thinking behind creative choices. The mission remains the same: helping writers play big in their writing life, love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most. #AmWriting is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Transcript Jennie: [00:00:00] Hi, I’m Jennie Nash and you’re listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast. The place where we help writers of all kinds play big in your writing life, love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most. KJ: Hey everyone. I’m kj and you are listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast, the place where we help writers of all kinds play big in your writing life, love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most. So today is a big day. We’re we’re Jess: big day. KJ: Yeah. We’re celebrating the 10th year of the hashtag am writing podcast, which I have to say is officially the longest I’ve been able to sustain any job-like thing. Um, and we’re announcing that we’re going in a new direction. So this is really cool. After a decade of talking to y’all, um, Jess and I and then [00:01:00] Sarina, who is at minus a decade. I don’t wanna, um, have decided to step back and hand over the reins to Jennie. Jess: Yeah Jennie: It is, it is such a big milestone and such a big deal. And before we. Actually say goodbye to the three of you. I mean, it’s not forever. You’re coming back as guests, all of you, all the time, hopefully. KJ: Oh, heck yes. Absolutely. You, you, you and I have already planned all the things, so don’t get too excited and, and weepy here folks, but things are just, things are gonna be. New and fresh and more interesting and, uh, more craft filled and more inspirational. When I need inspiration to write, I look for one of our episodes. That’s Jennie. So I think this is gonna be, this is gonna be great. Jennie: I think it’s gonna be great too. But before we actually say goodbye, I mean, 10. Is a long time and I thought it would be fun to ask you all what it was like 10 [00:02:00] years ago when you started, and Sarina 10 minus whatever the time is, but what was the writing landscape like as a whole maybe for you, and then all this wisdom, all these years that you’ve shared. What’s, what’s the thing that sticks in your head the most is what you would want to leave with, with the listeners, what is the your best piece of writing advice from all of this time? So. Jess, why don’t you start? You’re the og. Jess: Well, I, I definitely wanted to start. For those people who have not been around since the very beginning, you have to understand that it’s really horrifying when people say they go back and like start from the beginning because, um, and we’ll be posting pictures in the show notes. I have a ton of pictures throughout the years, but we originally, um, we, we would go into this little, I had a tiny, tiny house and we would go into the eve space off of my daughter’s room. And it was raw insulation with a light bulb, and we sat on the floor and it was [00:03:00] like. Maybe at the tallest point, maybe four feet high, so you had to kind of crawl in. And I have a picture of us, um, podcasting from inside there. And it was, and it was very hot in the summer. It would get very, very hot. My house did not have air conditioning and um. But it was delightful and it was this thing that we had talked about doing for such a long time, and I was so proud of us. And mainly it was kj. KJ was the one who said, we’re not gonna talk about this anymore, we’re just gonna do it. So she got us into gear and just brought her stuff over to my house in her basket and said, let’s go. Let’s do it. And we bought microphones and everything and it was. It was a big new adventure. And if you had said, then, how long do you think this is gonna last? I don’t know that I would’ve said 10 years. But there’s, you know, then Sarina came in and, and Sarina has, has been a part of this as a guest since the very beginning too. And a couple of things that I wanted to share were that one time Sarina and KJ and I, uh, were doing a [00:04:00] double, a double header episode and I forgot to hit record for both of them. And so. We did this incredibly fun, very long episode, broken into two pieces that, um, it went off into the ether and. I did learn from that. And then at the same time, by the time we were sort of on our game enough to be able to really interview people, we went up to Maine to interview Richard Russo and we went to record at his daughter’s wonderful bookstore in Portland, Maine. And um, I had three modes of recording. I had, um. Two microphones and I had a handheld digital thing that I had on the table between us and, um, mode one failed and mode two failed. And so the only thing we had was, you know, our little digital handheld on the table in between us. So. There’s a lot of stuff like that. There was the moment I got to text KJ and tell her that we were getting David [00:05:00] Sedaris, there was the day she emailed me to tell me that we were getting Anna Quinlan. You know, and I just so many cool things that, um. It makes me so happy that we’ve produced something good out of all of that. And one last thing. The, the, the thing that I think I’ve learned the most is there is no one right way to do this. That every single time I hear about, like whether it’s the, you have to write, writer write every day, you have to write every day, or you have to write in a certain way, or you have to write in a certain place, or you have to write with the door closed, or you have to write with the door open, all of those things. Um, none of those are rules. None of them are rules. They’re things that people do and I’m really glad that I’ve had the opportunity to talk to a lot of people about all the different ways they do it. Jennie: That’s amazing. Um, kj, do you remember this, uh, light bulb and no insulation time? KJ: Oh yeah. I don’t remember the time you didn’t record particularly just ‘cause it happened more than once. And [00:06:00] the other thing I would throw in is that the more famous, the guest, the. Less interesting. They were, it was almost KJ: always true. Jess: It wasn them. It was, yeah. I think we got all jacked up about like, I don’t know. It just, Jess: I don’t know. Wasn David Sari’s advice to young writers was the worst. KJ: Yeah. It advice really was Jess: anyone has ever given, it KJ: was, Jess: yeah, a writer. He said, don’t submit your work. Don’t ask. Don’t try to get you, wait for people to read it. Wait for people to ask you if they can read it. KJ: Yeah, Jess: that’s which this, this is, KJ: this worked for him. He is an NF one and it will not work for you. Jess: Right. Yeah, I think that KJ: my favorite, I’m just gonna, I’m just gonna lay it out there. I’m not even gonna put any caveats on that. That won’t work. Jess It won’t work. KJ: No. I think it’s always been the most fun when we get in deep into the craft and anytime someone is too practiced with their answers or it’s the same answer they’ve given a million times. You’re [00:07:00] right. It was cold and it was, um, it just wasn’t good. Sarina: Yeah. So the more fun people were always the people who were really in it with us. KJ: Yeah. Yeah. Jennie: So, Sarina, do you know when you came in, do you know what the, the n minus number is? Sarina: No, because I was a guest star even before we got out of the, the, um, kgs closet. It’s true. It’s true. KJ: One of those not recorded episodes was recorded in the eve space. That’s true. We had, we roped during fairly early. Jennie: Yeah. In that 10 years, you’ve probably written more. More than, well, how many books have you written in that time? Sarina, I mean, Sarina: um, 50. At 50 50 ish. Jennie: That’s crazy. That’s crazy. So what do you know now that you didn’t know then? Sarina: Oh, so much, so much that, like giving advice, you know, I, I [00:08:00] now feel like less qualified to give advice than I did then, you know how that goes. Like, the job gets harder, not easier. I have a, a good working vocabulary for why, but it doesn’t make me feel like anybody’s, you know, special savior. Jennie: Yeah. Yeah. What do you remember about starting in and the, the, um, all these episodes? What sticks in your mind as Sarina: you know? Um, I loved the opportunity to talk to people who I think are fantastic. I also learned that I am not a fantastic interviewer and that, and that, um. That isn’t a skill of mine that I, it’s, there’s so many things, like I’m so busy, I write so many books. I can’t learn to be the interviewer that you deserve. So I only. Did interviews selectively and sometimes they were just so fun. Like, [00:09:00] um, the, the person who broke broke the mold about the interview being interesting, the more famous they are was Emily Henry. ‘cause she was Oh yeah. She was fun to talk to. She was just right there with us and, and ready to have a good time and, and so wise and also so, so nice. And that, that’s really great when you can talk to somebody who’

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  3. 13 MAR

    Hot Seat Coaching: Producer Andrew Parrella Steps Out From Behind the Mic

    Jennie Nash launches a brand-new Hot Seat Coaching series on the podcast—real, on-air coaching sessions where listeners get to hear a story develop in real time. In the first episode, Jennie brings #amwriting podcast producer Andrew Parrella out from behind the microphone as he begins work on his first novel. Fresh off completing the Blueprint challenge, Andrew shares his gothic horror premise: a Dracula-inspired story set in 1920s London, where Abriana Harker—the daughter of Mina Harker—faces a string of mysterious deaths unfolding against the backdrop of the suffrage movement. Jennie and Andrew pressure-test the blueprint together, refining the novel’s central point, exploring how Van Helsing’s legacy shapes the world of the story, and identifying ways to strengthen Abriana’s role so the plot is driven by her choices. Andrew leaves with clear next steps—and this is just the beginning: he’ll return in future episodes as Jennie continues coaching him through the process of developing the novel. You can connect with Andrew via his website AndrewParrella.com #AmWriting is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Transcript Jennie: [00:00:00] Hi, I’m Jennie Nash and you’re listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast. The place where we help writers of all kinds play big in your writing life. Love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most. Hi, I’m Jenny Nash and you’re listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast. This is something new. It’s a hot seat coaching episode where we’re gonna work through a real challenge in real time with a real writer. And today. I’m joined by a really special guest. His name is Andrew Perella, and he has been the producer of this podcast for many, many years and is stepping out from behind the microphone to write his first novel. Andrew participated in the Winter Blueprint challenge that we recently completed. Which is to say he answered all 14 of the blueprint questions during our challenge and, and produced a [00:01:00] finished blueprint. And so I wanted to get on with him and talk about what do we do next? How do we go from there to the next thing? And he agreed to do that to help show our listeners how it goes. And I’m so excited about it because. He just did incredible work and also has so much work to go, so hopefully we’re gonna get to, we’re gonna get to follow Andrew as he does this for a few episodes and bring you along on the journey. So welcome Andrew from Behind the Microphone. Andrew: So much work to go. Thank you, Jenny. I’m really excited to be here. Jennie: So Andrew is, has a long career in public radio and is a producer of podcast for many people and is a storytelling guy, you know, as well as a sound guy. So this is, this is a big move. I feel like this is a right big move for you for sure, for deciding. This is the time to embrace the fact that you wanna do this thing. Does it [00:02:00] feel like that to you? Andrew: It, it feels like a right big move for me that I’m kind of prioritizing now this writing project for me. I’m prioritizing my project, um, over, over, uh, the projects of others whom, whom I help with projects. Yeah. So this is a big, big a right big moment for me. Jennie: It is totally a riping moment and. You’re in the hot seat personal coaching, which I, I really appreciate you being willing to do So, um, where we stand today is, as I said, you, you finished the blueprint, you did all the work, you did the thing. So I’m just curious to sort of check in. How do you feel? Do you feel like that’s an accomplishment? Do you feel some momentum? Like, what, where are you feeling, what are you feeling? Um, Andrew: I, I feel like it is a, a really big accomplishment because as we were working through the blueprint, I was getting feedback, uh, from you and KJ Dium about, uh, about, uh, how I was, how I was creating my [00:03:00] blueprint. It got me, it forced me to think about the book in some very real terms, in ways that I hadn’t yet, and in ways that, you know, I had been kind of thinking about the book in more abstract notions. Um, and like this was putting pen to paper, uh, on so many things to think about, you know, beyond the, beyond the simple plot structure. Um, and I realized as I was going through this. How much I hadn’t yet considered, and I think this helped to show me where the holes in my story were. Um. And he, even, even as I’ve finished, quote unquote, finished the blueprint, it’s like I finished one inter iteration of it and like already the story has changed since I first started work on the blueprint. And so already I know I gotta go back and start reiterating on, on, on this, uh, uh, as we go along here. Jennie: Yeah. I mean, and that’s the point, right? Yeah. Is the whole point is this is a tool that reveals. [00:04:00] What’s working and what’s not working? Is this what I want? Does this reflect my vision? And you get to, to play with that wet clay of the idea. So that’s really what what we’re doing. But the reason that I thought you’d be such a good candidate for coaching live in this way is your story. It really hangs together in so many ways. It’s so great in so many ways and it, it would be easy to feel like, oh, I’m, I’m not that far. I got this. I could, I could start right? I can start writing. Yeah. But I hope, I hope what we’re gonna show is, is really pushing yourself to answer core questions is gonna just make it so much stronger. Andrew: Absolutely. Jennie: So, um, all that being said, do you. What do you think the best way to share what you’re writing with our listeners is? Do you think reading your book jacket copy feels good or do you wanna just say it out [00:05:00] loud? Andrew: Um, I feel like the book jacket copy, I. Um, that I, that I wrote doesn’t quite, doesn’t quite capture, I think in many ways what I think the book is going to be so Well, Jennie: and we’re gonna actually get Andrew: to that. So I, and we’re gonna get to that, I think. Yeah. Jennie: So why don’t you just, just share what, what it is. Andrew: So, uh, the premise of the book is this happens, uh. Uh, the, the novel, it happens 20 years after the events of, uh, Bram Stoker’s Dracula. Um, and so. It involves some of the same characters, and then it also involves the next generation of these characters. So these, those characters children. Um, the, uh, our protagonist is a Abriana Harker, who is the daughter of Mina Harker, who was, um, kind of the female, uh, lead in, in, in Dracula. And she was, she was bitten by Dracula in, in the original novel. [00:06:00] Um, and she is, uh, someone who is defended, um. Uh, by her, uh, by her friends and, and counterparts in, in that story, Abriana is her daughter. And Abriana is now facing a similar challenge. There are bodies that are turning up around her circle and uh, they appear to have similar injuries that Dracula’s victims had 20 years ago, and some people recognize that and are. Going to begin trying to unravel the mystery. And this is all set against the backdrop of the universal suffrage movement, which is also happening in, uh, you know, 1920s London, where, where the novel is, novel is set. And so in broad strokes, that is, that is the, the, the primary premise of the book. Jennie: So the genre is horror. Gothic and I, I did some, some digging. I’m not a big reader of horror, so I did some digging into the genre to make sure that that was right. Because there [00:07:00] there’s also thriller elements. There’s mystery elements. Mm-hmm. There’s, you know, there’s other elements and it is, I always liked to, to test. Is this right? Is this right? Could it be tweaked? Could it be better? And it feels, it feels like there’s really no question about the genre. Right. Do you feel that Andrew: I, I feel that, I feel definitely, definitely feel that. And I think I, I, like gothic is, is, is a genre that I really enjoy and I want to develop some of those gothic themes in the story a little bit more than I have so far. But yes, I think gothic and, and horror is very much where, where this, where this book lives. Yeah. Jennie: Yeah. And that is something I wanna talk about for sure when we get to the inside outline. But I wanna start with, um, the second question of the blueprint is what’s your point? And I know this is something you’ve struggled with a little bit. Yeah. Um, but so the current point that you have here is. I feel like maybe this came from me. So, [00:08:00] uh, I, it’s, you can’t change the world without upsetting people. The more you want to change, the more people you upset, and that’s fine, but it, but it doesn’t, it does, it doesn’t feel like it captures. There’s a real moral, philosophical debate at the center of your story. Right. Andrew: Yeah, absolutely. I think, you know, the, the characters are certainly, uh, in the midst of a paradigm shift, you know, there’s the, there, the, the world order is changing as, uh, as suffrage is, is being opened to more and more people. Um, and times a world order like that changes. There are people who are for it and there are a lot of people who are against it. And so I think that’s. That’s an element in, in play here in the, in the novel. And that, and that’s something that I wanted to explore. And obviously there are parallels in current times as well for, uh, for this, for this sort of change. So I think that’s, I think that’s, that’s certainly, that’s certainly part of, uh, of, of [00:09:00] the story. Yeah. Jennie: So I was, when I, when I review a blueprint, and for anybody who’s, who’s got one all on the page and, and you, you like it and it feels pretty good. The step is to, to really pressure test everything. So I, I read through the whole thing. I love looking at a blueprint. A blueprint as

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  4. 6 MAR

    "I Had the Full Heart of the Question In My Hand."

    It’s very rare for me to demand that the readers of my #AmReading substack pre-order something. And the bar to be my “Just One Book” is high. But here we go: The book is The Fountain—debut speculative fiction from Casey Scieszka—and you’ll want to read it, but even more, you’ll want to hear us talk about what it took to pull this big, beautiful novel from her Tuck-Everlasting-loving soul. And here’s the question her agent asked her that is now stuck on a post-it on my computer and may be my next tattoo: How can you reveal these things in action? Casey is reading: Open Throat by Henry Hoke (“It’s funny and deeply tender and unlike anything I’ve ever read.” Follow Casey on Instagram and Substack: Spruceton Inn. Transcript Below! EPISODE TRANSCRIPT KJ Dell’Antonia This is the Hashtag AmWriting Podcast, the place where we help you play big in your writing life, love the process, and finish what matters. I am KJ Dell’Antonia, and today we’re talking with Casey Scieszka. And I meant to ask Casey how to pronounce her last name before we started. How’d I do? Casey Scieszka I think you did great. Especially over in Poland, we say “SHESH-kah” over here, but I’ve been corrected many times. I think it’s supposed to be more like what you said. So… bravo! KJ Dell’Antonia Okay… SHESH-skah… SHESH-kah… all right, off we go. Y’all, you’re going to want to know how to spell it, because you’re going to want to order Casey’s debut novel, The Fountain, and it is spelled S-C-I-E-S-Z-K-A. But to carry on with my introduction, Casey is a ridiculously well-traveled innkeeper in upstate New York, and we are just going to let that fantasy sit there for a minute without talking about the amount of snow she’s going to be shoveling tomorrow, because we’re recording this in January and are talking about the fact that I can see her and she is wearing a full-on puffer. So… romance, Hallmark, innkeeper, debut novel—all the things—and also a puffer and snow shovels and pipes and, yeah. You will hear this episode just as Casey’s first book, The Fountain,, comes out, and that is what we’re here to talk about, because I happened to have gotten an advanced copy of it, and I happen to actually have read it—which does not always happen—and even more relevantly, loved it. Therefore, here we are. And Casey, welcome to Hashtag AmWriting. Casey Scieszka Thank you so much. I am so thrilled. I’m like really just beyond that you enjoyed it so much. KJ Dell’Antonia Ah, I’m so—I’m, I really did. I will be encouraging everyone to pick it up. It’s mind-boggling that it’s not… and it is your debut. So I’m going to go ahead and—is it, is it really? Like, I mean, I know it’s your debut, but like, is it the first book you’ve written? Oh no, you’ve, you’ve got a kind of a memoirs situation out, right? Casey Scieszka I wrote like a young adult travelogue with my now husband that he illustrated about when we lived like in China and West Africa and wound up literally out in Timbuktu. So I had some experience that way, but that was nonfiction and for a totally different audience. All that said, this novel is my first published one, but you better believe I have a bin in the drawer. KJ Dell’Antonia That’s what I meant. Casey Scieszka Drawer. (laughing) KJ Dell’Antonia Yeah. Yeah. So, The Fountain, is—just as briefly as possible—it’s the story of an immortal woman who really would like to die, for excellent reasons, because immortality is a weight that is really, really heavy, and you convey that beautifully and wonderfully in this book. And so I want to just start right off—I maybe should let you describe the book—and then I’ll just warn you that my next question is going to be, “Man, how did you have the guts to swing for the fences like this?” Casey Scieszka Well, I think it probably began when I read Natalie Babbitt’s Tuck Everlasting as a fifth grader in English class, which is about a family that—or a little girl who comes across a magical spring that an immortal family is guarding, and then she has to decide, ultimately, throughout the book, what she’s going to do with this information and this knowledge while other people are hunting it down as well. And those questions just haunted and delighted me for decades, and I kept returning to them, and at some point I was working on a novel, had a whole manuscript going, was deeply frustrated, and I started a little something on the side where I was like, this will just be a short story. We’ll see where this goes. This is nothing, and I think, because… I don’t know, maybe you’ve experienced this before too, where if you’re not looking it directly in the eye, sometimes it can just take off, and it all of a sudden had a life of its own. Essentially, this grown-up version of Tuck Everlasting, where it’s about a woman who has come back to her small hometown in the Catskill Mountains, where she was born in the 1800s, 214 years later, to figure out what did this to her so she can reverse it and finally be released. KJ Dell’Antonia Wow, you really have the… the short pitch. What’s your book about? Down! Congratulations! That’s a tough one. Yeah, you, you nailed it. That is what it is about. And I will say that it took—one of the things that I loved about it, and that I like in a book—is that not only was I not sure at some points what the protagonist wanted for herself, I was not sure what I wanted for her. All I knew was that I wanted “something” for her. And that makes for a really interesting reading experience. Because normally, you know, you find yourself sitting there going, well, just, you know, just tell the person, or just, you know, kiss them or accept your reality, or you’d normally—you know what you want—like, take the ring, Frodo, or whatever. Or don’t take the ring, Frodo. And now there’s no book. But, and in this one, we didn’t. How hard was—was that for you to write—sort of, I don’t know… did you know what you wanted the protagonist—or what you wanted the reader to want for her? Or…? Casey Scieszka Yes and no. KJ Dell’Antonia How did you feel about that? Casey Scieszka Right. Yes and no, and yes and no. I think when you’re writing, ultimately, later on in draft, you have to be very clear about what your character wants. But in the early process, I had no idea. The whole thing, like I said, began as a short story, and that’s really just the first chapter or two, and then I was essentially hunting with her. When I was writing that first draft, I was like, what are we looking for? What has happened in the past 200 years in your life that would make you feel one way or another? And then every time I had a different little angel or devil on my shoulder, whatever you will, who was the—well, what about this point of view? What if? Wouldn’t this type of—wouldn’t someone say, well, living forever would be amazing, because you could share that type of science with other people, and you could, you know, have these wonderful medical advances or, you know, things like that? I could then have other characters essentially embody those, those other points of view as well. Although, I’m really glad that you say that in your reading experience, you still weren’t quite sure what she wanted, because I definitely didn’t want, you know—I mean, no, no author wants characters to just be symbols for points of view. KJ Dell’Antonia Oh yeah, no, absolutely not. And I should say that I know that she wants to reverse this. That’s never in question. But this sort of—there—you’re always aware of the question of what does she really want? Because that’s kind of only part of it to want… Casey Scieszka Right. KJ Dell’Antonia An end to this pain, but, but why and what other alternatives there are. And then, of course, I just—I did not know how you were going to end it. I could not imagine how you were going to land that plane. It must have been a tough one. Did you always know where you were going? We will not in any way spoil this. Casey Scieszka Right. No spoilers. KJ Dell’Antonia No, no spoilers. Casey Scieszka I’d say that about halfway through my first draft, I just saw the ending. I was like, “Oh, this is…” KJ Dell’Antonia That’s amazing. Casey Scieszka This is like that very last moment. I was like, this is where I need to get. And those handful of chapters before the penultimate one, whoa, boy, those were the ones that are like I wrote, like seven different books, you know? KJ Dell’Antonia Oh yeah. Casey Scieszka Completely different versions to actually get there. KJ Dell’Antonia So what was your… what’s your hope for the reader experience of this book? Besides, you know vast entertainment and pressing it into the hands of their friends. Casey Scieszka Right. Naturally. KJ Dell’Antonia Yeah… Casey Scieszka Beyond that… KJ Dell’Antonia We love that. Casey Scieszka Um, I mean, I love books that essentially look at what it means to be human and what makes a life worth living. And those are the type of questions that I hope someone would then linger on in their own life after putting down the book. Even in between chapters, you know? That you would be able to reflect on the choices that each character is making and think, like, oh, I would do this. I wouldn’t do that. Or, you know, to kind of just bring that back into your own life that way. Because… I don’t know. Time is perspective, like ever—what is—what does it mean to live forever? What is a long life? Is it? You know, when you’re when you’re little, a summer lasts an eternity. I guess what I’m saying is like our perspective of time is always bendy, and that was an interesting challenge in trying to write a 214 year old woman, where it was very tempting to just turn her into a superhero, where I’d be like, “O

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