Notes from the Edge

Lisa Lacy

Notes From the Edge is where polished stories end and the truth begins. Hosted by writer, trauma educator, executive advisor, and author Lisa Lacy, this globally ranked podcast explores survival, identity, trauma, addiction, recovery, leadership, relationships, and reinvention through raw, deeply human conversations. No scripts. No small talk. Just the stories we were taught to hide, the roles we performed to survive, and the truths that set us free. What did you perform in order to survive? Welcome to the edge. www.lisalacy.com

  1. 1 day ago

    Living With an Invisible Illness: The Unbearable Fear and Loneliness

    In this deeply personal solo episode of Notes From the Edge, Lisa Lacy records at 3 a.m., during the hour when the world grows quiet and every unfamiliar sensation in the body becomes impossible to ignore. Lisa lives with hereditary antithrombin deficiency, a rare congenital blood disorder that allows her blood to clot even while she is taking medication designed to prevent it. After surviving multiple pulmonary embolisms, permanent lung damage, years of medical dismissal, and surgical menopause, she knows what it means to live inside a body that cannot be completely trusted. But this episode is about more than illness. It is about the unbearable loneliness of carrying something no one else can see. It is about looking capable while quietly monitoring every cramp, pressure, breath, and unfamiliar sensation. It is about needing accommodations without appearing visibly sick, explaining limitations other people cannot understand, and constantly trying to determine whether the danger is physical, hormonal, psychological, or all three. Invisible illness can turn a person into the patient, investigator, advocate, and frightened witness of their own body. It can make ordinary life feel like a continuous negotiation between vigilance and joy. Lisa explores medical trauma, mortality, menopause, fear, purpose, and the exhausting expectation that people living with chronic illness should perform strength simply to remain worthy of care. This is not a story about becoming fearless. It is a conversation about learning to live fully while acknowledging that fear is sometimes reasonable, uncertainty is real, and invisible does not mean imaginary. Learn more about Lisa and Notes From the Edge at:https://www.lisalacy.com See you at the edge.

  2. 1 day ago

    The Call That Cannot Go Unanswered

    Recovery, AI, and the Human Cost of a Missed Moment in Addiction Treatment What happens when someone finally finds the courage to ask for help, calls a treatment center, and no one answers? To an organization, it may look like a missed call or a dead lead. But on the other end of that phone is a human being standing inside a brief and potentially life-changing moment of willingness. In this episode of Notes From the Edge, Lisa Lacy sits down with David Sichel, founder of Blueshirt Media and a person in long-term recovery who understands this experience personally. Before entering recovery, David reached out for help with his addiction and never heard back. Today, he has built a HIPAA-compliant AI platform designed specifically for addiction treatment centers, helping them answer calls around the clock, reconnect with people who previously asked for help, and transfer qualified callers directly to admissions professionals.  Together, Lisa and David explore: The performance of appearing okay while actively drowningWhat silence communicates when someone finally asks for helpThe human being behind every so-called “dead lead”Whether AI can protect human connection rather than replace itWhere technology must stop and trained professionals must step inThe ethical, emotional, and human cost of an unanswered call This is not simply a conversation about technology. It is a conversation about timing, shame, recovery, responsibility, and what can happen when someone answers at exactly the right moment. Host: Lisa Lacyhttps://www.lisalacy.com Guest: David Sichel, Blueshirt Mediahttps://www.blueshirtmedia.com What did you perform in order to survive? Welcome to the edge.

  3. 3 days ago

    Mother of 6 Found Slain: For Cletha

    On August 9, 1969, while the world’s attention turned toward the Manson murders across town, another woman was killed on what society considered the wrong side of Los Angeles. Her name was Cletha, and she was my grandmother. She was a poor mother of six whose injuries left her face unrecognizable, yet her death was recorded as natural causes. The man responsible never faced a courtroom. There was no justice, no public outrage, and no lasting headline to make sure the world remembered her. But her story did not end there. In this deeply personal episode, I honor my grandmother and confront the generational trauma, domestic violence, silence, and survival that traveled through the women in my family. This is a conversation about what happens when pain is inherited, when women are denied justice, and when one generation finally decides the cycle will end with them. Cletha, you are the reason I teach trauma-informed martial arts in domestic violence shelters. I cannot help but believe that if you had been given the skills I have today, you might still be here with us. I pass those skills on to other women so they do not suffer the same fate and so they know how to defend themselves, their bodies, and their lives. My grandmother may never have received justice, but she will not be forgotten. Her legacy lives in every woman who learns to protect herself, reclaim her voice, and refuse to disappear quietly. This one is for Cletha. Welcome to the Edge.

  4. 4 days ago

    When Survival Becomes an Identity

    Childhood Trauma, Self-Destruction, and Reclaiming the Person Beneath the Performance Content note: This episode includes discussion of childhood sexual abuse, suicide attempts, addiction patterns, abusive relationships, and trauma recovery. Please listen with care. What happens when the version of you that learned how to survive becomes the identity you no longer know how to remove? From the outside, high-functioning survival can look like success. It can look like earning degrees, building businesses, raising children, creating projects, and continuing to show up for everyone around you. Underneath the achievement, however, may be a nervous system still running on fear, people-pleasing, overworking, perfectionism, and the relentless need to prove your worth. In this episode of Notes From the Edge, Lisa Lacy sits down with trauma specialist, embodiment coach, author, podcaster, filmmaker, entrepreneur, and founder of Victim 2 Victor, Anu Verma. Anu has survived childhood trauma, suicide attempts, addiction patterns, abusive relationships, financial manipulation, and years of self-destruction disguised as coping. While appearing successful and capable to the outside world, she was often disconnected from herself and driven by the identities she had created to feel safe. Today, she helps others understand the unconscious beliefs and survival patterns shaping their lives, rebuild self-trust, regulate their nervous systems, and move toward emotional resilience and lasting transformation. Together, Lisa and Anu explore: How high-functioning survival hides beneath achievementWhy people-pleasing and overworking can become trauma responsesWhat harmful coping mechanisms are trying to protect us fromHow childhood trauma can distort love, intimacy, and self-worthThe difference between being desired and being valuedHow financial and emotional abuse erode identity and boundariesWhat people misunderstand about suicide and hopelessnessWhy healing requires compassion for the person you became to surviveWhat rebuilding yourself actually looks like in the messy middle This is not a polished transformation story. It is an honest conversation about the masks we wear, the pain we numb, the roles we perform, and the courage it takes to reclaim the person underneath them all. Host: Lisa Lacy https://www.lisalacy.com Guest: Anu Verma, Victim 2 Victorhttps://linktr.ee/healing.journeyy What did you perform in order to survive? Welcome to the edge.

  5. 4 days ago

    Menopause, Insomnia, and the Disappearing Bullshit Filter

    The dogs woke me up. Menopause made sure I stayed awake. And suddenly my nervous system was hosting a 3:00 a.m. board meeting about every decision I have made since 1997. In this episode of Midnight Menopausal Meanderings, we are talking about the biology behind menopause-related insomnia, including hormonal changes, temperature dysregulation, nervous-system activation, and why one small interruption can leave you staring at the ceiling for hours. But this conversation goes deeper than sleep. What happens when exhaustion, hormonal changes, and limited emotional bandwidth make it harder to keep performing, accommodating, and pretending everything is fine? Maybe menopause does not create a new woman. Maybe it reveals the woman who no longer has the neurological energy to tolerate bullshit. We explore: • Why sleep becomes more difficult during menopause• How estrogen and progesterone changes affect the brain• Why hot flashes and nighttime awakenings can trigger hypervigilance• How sleep deprivation affects emotional regulation• Why your tolerance for emotional labor may suddenly disappear• How to listen to the truths that surface at midnight without immediately blowing up your entire life before breakfast You are not failing at sleep. Your biology has changed, your nervous system is adapting, and your body may finally be refusing to finance the performance.  Learn more about Lisa Lacy:https://www.lisalacy.com Notes From the Edge is where we have the conversations we should have been having all along. Welcome to the edge.

  6. 4 days ago

    When Love Becomes the Way Back to Yourself

    What happens when the person you learned to abandon in order to survive is yourself? Many of us learned early how to stay quiet, become useful, keep the peace, earn approval, and make ourselves smaller so other people would remain comfortable. Those adaptations may have helped us survive childhood, but they can follow us into our relationships, our faith, our work, and the way we understand our own worth. In this episode of Notes From the Edge, Lisa Lacy sits down with international award-winning author, speaker, trauma-informed, faith-aware self-love coach, and relationship repair specialist Danielle Bernock. Danielle is a childhood trauma survivor who did not fully come into her own until her fifties. After publishing her memoir, Emerging With Wings, she transformed the story she was once afraid to tell into a body of work helping others move from survival into a life rooted in freedom, value, connection, and love. Together, Lisa and Danielle explore childhood emotional neglect, trauma that remains invisible, church hurt, spiritual bypassing, self-abandonment, relationship repair, and what it truly means to love yourself after years of performing for acceptance. They also discuss: How childhood trauma shapes adult identity and relationshipsWhy emotional neglect can be so difficult to recognizeWhat happens when pain is minimized or invalidatedHow to separate faith from the harm caused by religious institutionsWhy self-love can feel unsafe for trauma survivorsHow to tell your story without allowing trauma to become your entire identityWhy it is never too late to finally take up space in your own life Perhaps healing does not begin when we finally become worthy of love. Perhaps it begins when we realize we were worthy all along. Host: Lisa Lacyhttps://www.lisalacy.com Guest: Danielle Bernockhttps://www.daniellebernock.com https://dani-daniellebernock-com.kit.com/de9e550f64 https://dani-daniellebernock-com.kit.com/074c8b6335 What did you perform in order to survive? Welcome to the edge.

  7. 4 days ago

    The Stories Life Writes Through Us: Nursing, Hospice, Faith & Storytelling

    What happens when a lifetime of caring for people, witnessing loss, raising a family, and navigating life’s hardest moments becomes the foundation for storytelling? Join me for a new live episode of Notes From the Edge with author, legal nurse consultant, hospice specialist, teacher, and multi-genre storyteller Nancy Jasin Ensley. Nancy has spent decades working in professions that require empathy, discernment, and the ability to remain present during some of life’s most critical moments. Those experiences now inform the stories she writes across memoir, literary fiction, science fiction, mystery, thrillers, action and adventure, and children’s literature. Together, we’ll explore: • How nursing and hospice shape the way we understand life, loss, and what truly matters• Why writing can help us process the experiences that leave a mark• How family, faith, service, and lived experience become powerful stories• The identity of being the helper, the strong one, or the person everyone depends on• How writers turn real-life experiences into fiction, memoir, and meaningful conversations• What it means to preserve memory and make sense of life through storytelling This is a conversation about caregiving, creativity, resilience, reflection, and the stories that are quietly being written through each of us. Host: Lisa LacyWriter, trauma educator, speaker, and host of Notes From the Edge https://www.lisalacy.com Guest: Nancy Jasin EnsleyAuthor, legal nurse, hospice specialist, teacher, and storyteller https://nancyjasinensley.com/ What did you perform in order to survive, and is it still serving you? Welcome to the edge.

  8. 5 days ago

    When Skill Isn't Enough

    What happens to the surgeon after a patient experiences a devastating complication? Clinicians are trained to make life-or-death decisions, perform under extraordinary pressure, and remain calm when everything is at stake. But they are rarely taught how to process the emotional aftermath when an outcome goes wrong. In this live episode of Notes From the Edge, Lisa Lacy sits down with trauma and acute care surgeon, educator, author, and healthcare leader Dr. Daniel Eiferman for an honest conversation about the side of medicine most people never see. Dr. Eiferman is a tenured professor of surgery at The Ohio State University and a Castle Connolly Top Doctor. His book, Cut Open: A Surgeon’s Stories of Loss, Resilience, and Growth, explores the complications, difficult decisions, grief, leadership challenges, and moments of self-doubt that exist behind the operating-room doors. Together, we will explore: • Why clinicians often experience complications as personal failure• The psychological toll of a bad surgical outcome• How the culture of perfection creates shame and isolation• What it takes to rebuild confidence after failure• How clinicians can recover without becoming hardened or disengaged• What healthcare leadership owes the people working under relentless pressure This conversation is not only for surgeons. It is for anyone who has worked in a high-stakes environment, experienced an outcome they could not entirely control, and quietly wondered whether they still belonged in the work. Dr. Eiferman will also share practical tools for clinicians who are expected to remain steady, even when they do not feel steady inside. Access his complimentary guide at: https://integritysurgery.org/signup/ What did you perform in order to survive? Welcome to the edge.

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Notes From the Edge is where polished stories end and the truth begins. Hosted by writer, trauma educator, executive advisor, and author Lisa Lacy, this globally ranked podcast explores survival, identity, trauma, addiction, recovery, leadership, relationships, and reinvention through raw, deeply human conversations. No scripts. No small talk. Just the stories we were taught to hide, the roles we performed to survive, and the truths that set us free. What did you perform in order to survive? Welcome to the edge. www.lisalacy.com

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