Spiritual Infinity

"Spiritual Infinity: Where stories of spiritual awakening inspire your own transformative journey, hosted by Zenzi Sewaah."

Spiritual Infinity is your gateway to deeper self-awareness, transformation, and connection with the limitless power within. Hosted by Zenzi Sewaah, Through inspiring conversations with guest speakers from around the world, we uncover personal journeys of spiritual awakening, the methods that transformed their lives, and how these practices can empower you. Whether you’re seeking healing, enlightenment, or a greater understanding of the universe, Spiritual Infinity provides wisdom and insights to support your journey. Join us as we navigate the infinite possibilities of spirituality, one episode at a time. zenzisewaah.substack.com

  1. 1 day ago

    The Stories Men Carry: Alexander Kopelman on Childhood Trauma, Masculinity & Emotional Healing

    In this deeply reflective episode of Spiritual Infinity, I speak with Alexander Kopelman, author and co-founder of the Children’s Arts Guild, about men’s trauma, emotional conditioning and the stories we learn about ourselves in childhood. Alexander shares his own journey from growing up in the Soviet Union, where emotional expression was highly restricted, to arriving in the United States as a 13-year-old refugee and later confronting how disconnected he had become from his own feelings. A turning point came through his involvement in a men’s group, where he discovered men of all ages still learning some of the most fundamental emotional skills: how to experience sadness, express love and confront shame. That experience led Alexander to a powerful question: why wait until adulthood to repair what we could nurture in childhood? It eventually inspired the creation of the Children’s Arts Guild, using creativity and conversation to help children understand their feelings and remain connected to who they truly are. Our conversation moves beyond men’s trauma into something even larger: how we raise the next generation. Alexander challenges us to examine the messages we give boys and girls about emotion, masculinity, vulnerability and identity. Rather than teaching children to suppress what they feel, what might change if we taught them to understand it? This is a conversation about men’s emotional health, childhood conditioning, masculinity, shame, fatherhood, emotional intelligence, conscious parenting and authenticity—and about breaking inherited patterns before another generation has to spend adulthood undoing them. Closing Reflection Perhaps one of the most important questions we can ask ourselves is not simply “Who am I?” but “Who taught me that this is who I am?” Alexander leaves us with a beautiful invitation: take a quiet moment and examine the story you tell yourself about yourself. Ask where that story came from—and whether it is still true. If it no longer serves the person you have become, perhaps you have permission to write a different one. And for our children, perhaps we can begin even earlier. Instead of immediately trying to stop their tears or take away their discomfort, we can first ask: How does it hurt? How do you feel? In doing so, we teach them that their inner world is worthy of being heard. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details Alexander Kopelman is an author and co-founder of the Children’s Arts Guild, an organisation focused on helping adults create environments in which children can remain connected to their authentic selves. His work grew from his own decades-long exploration of masculinity, emotional development and the impact of childhood socialisation. Alexander is connected with the book For Real: Helping Children Remain Their Authentic Selves in a Limiting World and the Authenticity Works initiative, which brings together parents, caregivers, educators and healthcare professionals to rethink the environments we create for children. Authenticity Works: AuthenticityWorks.orgBook: ForRealBook.orgLinkedIn: Alexander Kopelman Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

  2. 2 Sept

    Why Boys Learn to Hide Their Pain : Dr Gloria Vanderhorst on Male Trauma, Emotions & Men’s Suicide

    In this important episode of Spiritual Infinity’s continuing series on male trauma and men’s emotional wellbeing, I speak with psychologist Dr Gloria Vanderhorst about a question that reaches far beyond adulthood: what are we teaching boys about their emotions from the moment they enter the world? Our conversation begins with the concern at the heart of this series—the devastating consequences that can occur when men carry emotional pain without feeling able to express it or seek support. Dr Vanderhorst argues that the conditioning begins extraordinarily early. Through decades of working with boys and men, she has observed how normal male behaviour can be misunderstood from preschool onwards and how boys receive subtle—and sometimes explicit—messages that sadness, tears and vulnerability are somehow incompatible with masculinity. Boys learn: don’t cry, toughen up, be strong. Over time, these messages can teach them to disconnect from parts of their emotional lives rather than develop the vocabulary and confidence to express what they are experiencing. The consequences can follow a boy into manhood. Dr Vanderhorst describes adult men with profound emotional needs who may have close male friendships yet still feel unable to reveal what they are carrying. She gives the striking example of a grieving man who cannot cry publicly at a friend’s funeral but may finally allow himself to break down when alone in his car. She also recounts working with a man whose suppressed emotional tension manifested as severe physical pain despite doctors finding no underlying physical cause. This conversation also challenges women—mothers, wives, sisters, partners and caregivers—to examine the signals we may unintentionally give men. Dr Vanderhorst explains that creating emotional safety is essential. Instead of asking a distressed man a question that can easily produce the automatic response, “I’m fine,” she encourages invitations such as: “I want to hear. I want to know. I care about you. Talk to me.” At the centre of this discussion is a message we urgently need to hear: men have feelings because men are human. Allowing boys to cry, helping them develop an emotional vocabulary, creating safe relationships for men to disclose fear and sadness, and treating vulnerability as human rather than feminine may be part of changing the trajectory of male trauma. Dr Vanderhorst explicitly connects emotional suppression with concerns including male suicide, damaged relationships and men’s physical and emotional wellbeing. Closing Reflection Perhaps we have been asking men the wrong question. “Are you okay?” makes it very easy to say, “Yes, I’m fine.” But “Talk to me. I know something is happening inside you. I want to hear how this has affected you” opens a different door. If a boy learns from infancy that crying makes him weak, we should not be surprised when the man he becomes struggles to find words for sadness, fear, grief or emotional pain. And if we want men to speak before their suffering reaches crisis, then we must also be prepared to listen when they finally do. Dr Vanderhorst reminds us that creating this change requires conscious effort. We need to make it safe for men to talk about their fears without feeling diminished and to recognise that there is nothing inherently weak about a man crying or experiencing deep emotion. Our boys should not have to surrender their emotional selves in order to become men. Let us raise boys who know that strength and tenderness can coexist—and create a world in which the men they become know that their feelings deserve to be heard. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details Dr Gloria Vanderhorst is a psychologist whose extensive professional work has included boys, men, couples and families. In this interview, she draws upon experience beginning with preschool-aged boys and extending into her therapeutic work with adult men and couples, with particular attention to emotional expression, relationships and the cultural conditioning surrounding masculinity. She also provides a free feelings vocabulary sheet through her website, designed to help people identify and name emotional states—something she uses therapeutically to help men expand their emotional vocabulary. Website: www.drvanderhorst.com Books: GloriasBooks.com Her books mentioned during the interview include: Read, Reflect, Respond: The Three R’s of Growth and Change Return, Revisit, Renew: The Three R’s of Deeper Discovery Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

  3. 27 Aug

    The Wounds Men Carry : Mark Stubbles on Male Trauma, Childhood Wounds & Emotional Healing

    In this deeply personal episode of Spiritual Infinity’s series on male trauma and men’s emotional wellbeing, I speak with hypnotherapist and author Mark Stubbles about what can happen when a boy’s emotional pain is carried silently into manhood. This series opens an important conversation about men who have been conditioned from childhood to “toughen up,” suppress their tears and contain their feelings—often without being given the emotional tools to understand what is happening inside them. Mark’s own story gives a striking insight into the long-term psychological impact of childhood dysfunction. He describes growing up in a troubled family environment and developing severe anxiety, insecurity, dissociation and a debilitating fear of blushing. The message he received was essentially to “get on with it.” His unresolved emotional pain subsequently affected his confidence, employment and intimate relationships, illustrating how male trauma can remain hidden while continuing to influence a man’s adult life. Mark also speaks candidly about the damaging patterns he himself developed, acknowledging that growing up around mental and emotional abuse taught him unhealthy ways of communicating. During a prolonged and distressing custody battle, counselling began to help him externalise some of the toxic shame and dysfunction he had internalised. Later, hypnotherapy helped him address his anxiety and rebuild his confidence, while spirituality and inner-child healing enabled him to look more deeply at the origins of his emotional wounds. Today, Mark describes himself as confident and emotionally well regulated, and he uses his experience and training to help others. His work particularly emphasises inner-child healing, trauma, anxiety and taking ownership of the wounds of the past without becoming trapped in blame. As he explains, understanding childhood trauma is not about condemning our parents; it is about recognising what happened, addressing its consequences and breaking patterns that might otherwise continue into another generation. For our wider conversation about men’s trauma and men’s mental health, Mark’s journey raises an urgent question: what happens when boys learn to suppress rather than process emotional pain? If we want men to seek help before reaching crisis, we must create spaces where they can speak about anxiety, shame, childhood wounds, relationship trauma and vulnerability without feeling that doing so makes them less masculine. Closing Reflection As I continue this Spiritual Infinity series on male trauma, one message is becoming increasingly clear: we cannot ask men to speak and then make them feel weak when they do. A boy who is repeatedly told not to cry does not necessarily stop hurting. He may simply learn to hide the hurt. And hidden pain does not automatically disappear when that boy becomes a man. Mark gives us a powerful image: suppressing painful emotions can be like holding a beach ball beneath the water. Eventually, what has been forced down wants to rise again. His message is that what we continually resist and suppress can become stronger. If we are concerned about men reaching emotional crisis, then our compassion must begin much earlier. We need to allow boys to have feelings, encourage men to speak, listen without immediately judging, and make seeking appropriate help an expression of strength rather than shame. Men need a voice. Men need to be heard. And men need to know that asking for help does not make them less of a man. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details Mark Stubbles is a hypnotherapist, author and speaker whose work encompasses inner-child healing, anxiety, trauma, emotional wellbeing and personal transformation. His professional path grew from his own experience of overcoming significant anxiety and childhood emotional wounds through hypnotherapy, personal development and inner-child work. Mark works with individuals and delivers workshops, including inner-child healing workshops. He is also the author of books including Hypnotic Conversations and Hypnotic Language for Positive Parenting. Website: MarkStubbles.comYouTube: Search Mark StubblesBooks: Available through Amazon, with selected titles also featured on his website. Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

  4. 24 Aug

    Why Men Suffer in Silence: Kristine Genovese on Childhood Trauma, Emotional Healing & Men’s Mental Health

    In this thought-provoking episode of Spiritual Infinity, I sit down with Kristine Genovese, transformational coach and creator of the Soul Intelligence Method, for a deeply insightful conversation about the hidden emotional wounds that shape so many lives—particularly those of men. Kristine shares how childhood experiences, emotional neglect, criticism, abandonment and unresolved trauma often become the unseen forces influencing adult relationships, anxiety, addiction, stress and emotional disconnection. Drawing from both her own personal journey and years of helping others heal, she explains why so many people spend their lives surviving rather than truly living. Together, we explore why men, in particular, are often conditioned to suppress their emotions instead of expressing them, creating cycles of silent suffering that affect not only themselves but also their families and future generations. Kristine offers a compassionate perspective, reminding us that we are not broken—we simply developed protective patterns to survive our earliest experiences. Once those patterns are recognised, genuine healing and transformation become possible. This inspiring conversation explores childhood trauma, men’s mental health, emotional healing, nervous system regulation, relationships, resilience, self-awareness and personal transformation, offering hope and practical insight for anyone seeking greater emotional freedom and a more authentic life. Closing Reflection Healing begins the moment we stop asking, “What’s wrong with me?” and start asking, “What happened to me?” Kristine’s wisdom reminds us that beneath every defence mechanism is a human being who once simply wanted to feel safe, loved and accepted. When we meet ourselves—and one another—with compassion instead of judgement, we create the conditions for genuine healing. May this conversation encourage you to look beyond appearances, to listen with greater understanding, and to remember that some of the strongest people you know may simply be carrying burdens they have never felt safe enough to share. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details Kristine Genovese is a transformational coach, speaker and creator of the Soul Intelligence Method, a holistic approach that helps individuals identify and release subconscious emotional patterns that influence their health, relationships and overall wellbeing. Following a successful corporate career, Kristine dedicated her life to helping others heal emotional wounds, regulate the nervous system and reconnect with their authentic selves. Her work focuses on emotional resilience, childhood conditioning, self-awareness and lasting transformation, empowering people to move beyond survival patterns and create healthier, more fulfilling lives. Website: www.soulintelligencemethod.com Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

  5. 19 Aug

    The Modern Man's Silent Dilemma: Why So Many Men Are Quietly Suffering with Katarina Polonska

    In this compelling episode of Spiritual Infinity, I am joined by Katarina Polonska, relationship coach, behavioural science specialist and founder of the Success in Love Method, for a deeply insightful conversation about the emotional struggles facing men in today’s rapidly changing world. Drawing from her academic background, behavioural science expertise and years of coaching men and couples, Katarina explores why so many men feel isolated, misunderstood and under immense pressure to fulfil outdated expectations of masculinity. Together, we examine how changing economic realities, shifting gender roles and a lack of emotional education have left many men feeling disconnected from themselves, their partners and their sense of purpose. Our conversation challenges the belief that vulnerability is weakness. Instead, Katarina explains that emotional intelligence, honest communication and healthy relationships are skills that can be learned. We also discuss the vital role women play in creating safe spaces where men feel seen, heard and valued, encouraging a new generation to replace silence with understanding and partnership. This inspiring discussion explores men’s mental health, emotional wellbeing, healthy relationships, masculinity, self-worth, personal growth, behavioural science, communication, resilience and healing. It is a timely reminder that when we support men in embracing their full humanity, we strengthen families, relationships and society as a whole. Closing Reflection Perhaps one of the greatest acts of compassion is allowing another human being to be fully seen. For too long, many men have believed they must carry life’s burdens alone. Yet strength is not found in emotional silence—it is found in the courage to be authentic, vulnerable and open to growth. Katarina reminds us that healing is not solely a man’s responsibility or a woman’s responsibility. It is a shared journey. When we choose understanding over judgement and partnership over expectation, we create healthier relationships and a more compassionate world for future generations. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details Katarina Polonska is a relationship coach, behavioural science specialist and creator of the Success in Love Method. Her work focuses on helping individuals and couples build emotionally healthy relationships by developing self-awareness, communication skills and emotional resilience. With a background in behavioural science and relationship dynamics, Katarina works extensively with men seeking greater confidence, connection and fulfilment in both their personal lives and relationships. Website: www.successinlove.com Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

  6. 15 Aug

    From Executive Success to Spiritual Calling: Ellen Edmondson's Inspiring Journey

    In this uplifting episode of Spiritual Infinity, I welcome Ellen Edmondson, spiritual guide, bestselling author and intuitive mentor, whose remarkable journey reminds us that true success is not measured by titles or achievements, but by how deeply we honour the calling of our soul. Ellen shares how she rose rapidly through the ranks of the U.S. federal government, becoming a senior executive while still in her thirties. Although she achieved everything society defines as success—status, financial security and professional recognition—she found herself feeling profoundly disconnected from who she truly was. That inner knowing eventually led her to take a courageous leap of faith, leaving behind a prestigious career to embrace a more authentic spiritual path. Our conversation explores the power of intuition, meditation and self-discovery. Ellen reflects on how childhood sensitivity, personal loss, motherhood and deep meditation awakened gifts she had long kept hidden. Over a decade of quiet reflection, those experiences became the foundation for her bestselling book, A Place of Love and Light, encouraging others to trust their inner wisdom rather than the expectations of the outside world. One of the most touching moments comes through the wisdom of Ellen’s young son, whose simple yet profound words—encouraging his mother to stop hiding her authentic self—became the catalyst for an entirely new chapter in her life. Together, we explore how children often retain a deep intuitive connection that adults can lose, and why nurturing creativity, compassion and authenticity may be one of the greatest gifts we can offer the next generation. This inspiring conversation explores spiritual awakening, intuition, meditation, authentic living, personal transformation, conscious parenting, emotional healing, purpose, creativity and unconditional love. It is an invitation to trust the quiet voice within and discover that the life we are truly meant to live often begins where certainty ends. Closing Reflection There comes a moment in every life when the soul whispers, “This is no longer who you are.” We can ignore that whisper for years, hiding behind expectations, achievements and the masks we wear for others. But eventually, authenticity calls us home. Ellen’s journey reminds us that our greatest purpose is not to become someone new—it is to remember who we have always been. When we trust our intuition, embrace our uniqueness and live from the heart, we become a light for others to do the same. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details Ellen Edmondson is a spiritual guide, intuitive mentor, bestselling author and speaker based in Maryland, USA. Following a successful career as a senior executive within the U.S. federal government, she dedicated her life to helping others reconnect with their intuition, purpose and authentic selves through meditation, spiritual guidance and personal transformation. Website: https://ellenedmondson.com Book: A Place of Love and Light Ellen also founded Highly Intuitive Kids, an initiative supporting children and families in understanding and nurturing heightened intuitive abilities. Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

  7. 6 Aug

    Former Army Colonel John Mark Wilson: The Truth About Military Trauma, Alcohol Recovery & Healing

    In this compelling episode of Spiritual Infinity, I speak with John Mark Wilson, a former U.S. Army Colonel, West Point graduate, technology professional and host of The Beaten Zone podcast. John shares his deeply personal journey through military service, alcoholism, recovery and the emotional challenges many men face but rarely discuss. After serving his country through multiple deployments, John appeared successful on the outside, yet privately struggled with the emotional weight of responsibility, trauma and the pressure always to remain strong. Alcohol gradually became his way of coping until he reached a point where he realised that true strength lies not in hiding pain, but in facing it. Our conversation explores the lasting impact of military life, the importance of processing emotions rather than suppressing them, and how recovery became the beginning of a much deeper spiritual journey. John speaks candidly about identity, purpose, family, resilience and the lessons he has learned since leaving the Army, reminding us that healing is not about perfection but about choosing honesty over silence. Today, through his podcast and advocacy, John encourages veterans, first responders and anyone carrying invisible burdens to seek support, embrace vulnerability and understand that asking for help is a sign of courage—not weakness. This is an inspiring conversation about mental health, emotional resilience, addiction recovery, military life, leadership, faith, purpose and personal transformation, offering hope to anyone seeking to move beyond survival and into genuine healing. Closing Reflection For many people, strength has become synonymous with silence. We are taught to keep going, carry the burden and never let anyone see us struggle. Yet the strongest people are often those who finally give themselves permission to say, “I’m not okay.” John’s story reminds us that healing begins the moment we stop performing for the world and start being truthful with ourselves. Whatever burden you have been carrying, know that you do not have to carry it alone. There is courage in vulnerability, wisdom in reflection and freedom in choosing to heal. Sometimes the bravest battle we will ever fight is the one within. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details John Mark Wilson is a retired U.S. Army Colonel, West Point graduate, technology executive, speaker and host of The Beaten Zone Podcast. Following a distinguished military career that included multiple overseas deployments, John has dedicated himself to raising awareness of addiction recovery, emotional wellbeing and the challenges faced by veterans transitioning into civilian life. His work focuses on creating safe conversations around mental health, resilience and personal growth. Podcast: The Beaten Zone Podcast LinkedIn: Search John Mark Wilson Website/Podcast: The Beaten Zone (available on major podcast platforms). Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

  8. 28 Jul

    When Burnout Becomes a Spiritual Invitation: : Kenneth A. Posner on Nature, Purpose & Reclaiming Your Life

    In this inspiring episode of Spiritual Infinity, I sit down with Kenneth A. Posner, former CEO, author and passionate nature advocate, to explore a growing challenge facing millions of people today: burnout. After years of professional success in the corporate world, Kenneth reached a point where achievement no longer brought fulfilment. Instead, he found himself facing exhaustion, declining motivation and what he describes as a quiet desperation that many high achievers silently endure. Rather than pushing harder or simply accepting burnout as the price of success, Kenneth chose a different path. He turned away from constant productivity and back towards the natural world. Through an extraordinary personal challenge of climbing over 420 mountains across New York State—completed gradually over weekends rather than all at once—he discovered something profoundly simple: nature restores what modern life often depletes. His journey became less about conquering mountains and more about rediscovering clarity, vitality and a renewed sense of purpose. Our conversation explores how modern society constantly pulls our attention outward through technology, endless information and relentless demands, leaving little room for stillness or self-reflection. Kenneth shares why reconnecting with nature is not an escape from life but a return to it. Whether walking through a local park, sitting quietly beneath a tree, hiking a trail or simply feeling the earth beneath your feet, nature invites us to reconnect with our deepest wisdom, rebalance our energy and hear the quiet inner voice that is often drowned out by daily noise. Together we also discuss the pressures placed upon men to constantly provide, perform and succeed, often at the expense of their own wellbeing. Kenneth offers a refreshing perspective: burnout is not failure—it is often a signal that our lives have drifted away from what truly nourishes us. By reconnecting with the natural world, challenging ourselves physically and embracing periods of stillness, we rediscover not only our strength but also our authentic selves. This episode speaks to anyone navigating burnout, stress, emotional exhaustion, mental wellbeing, spiritual awakening, personal transformation, mindfulness, nature therapy, resilience, self-discovery and finding purpose in an increasingly technological world. Kenneth reminds us that sometimes the greatest breakthroughs begin by slowing down rather than speeding up. Closing Reflection We often believe the answers lie in doing more, achieving more or becoming more. Yet nature quietly teaches the opposite. It asks nothing of us except our presence. When we step away from constant noise and reconnect with the living world, we begin to remember that we are not separate from life—we are part of it. Burnout is not always the end of the road. Sometimes it is the soul’s invitation to return home to ourselves. — Zenzi SewaahFounder & Spiritual Visionary, Spiritual Infinity Guest Bio & Contact Details Kenneth A. Posner is a former technology company CEO, investor, author and passionate advocate for reconnecting with nature as a pathway to personal renewal. After experiencing professional burnout, he embarked on an extraordinary multi-year mountain hiking project that transformed both his outlook and his life. Today he shares his experiences through writing, speaking and encouraging others to rediscover resilience, wellbeing and purpose through the natural world. Website: https://barefootken.com Book: Chasing the Grid (available through Amazon and other major booksellers) Readers can connect with Kenneth, learn more about his work and contact him directly through his website. Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe

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Spiritual Infinity is your gateway to deeper self-awareness, transformation, and connection with the limitless power within. Hosted by Zenzi Sewaah, Through inspiring conversations with guest speakers from around the world, we uncover personal journeys of spiritual awakening, the methods that transformed their lives, and how these practices can empower you. Whether you’re seeking healing, enlightenment, or a greater understanding of the universe, Spiritual Infinity provides wisdom and insights to support your journey. Join us as we navigate the infinite possibilities of spirituality, one episode at a time. zenzisewaah.substack.com