Grief Is Not A Dirty Word

Nick Gaylord

Grief Is Not A Dirty Word is a weekly podcast that brings honest, real-world conversations about grief, loss, trauma, healing, and mental health into the light. Hosted by Nick Gaylord, the show creates a safe, compassionate space for anyone navigating the complicated emotions that come with losing a parent, partner, child, friend, relationship, or former version of themselves. Originally launched as Our Dead Dads, the podcast has evolved into a broader mission: to normalize grief and break the stigma around talking about it. Nick explores every corner of the grieving experience — from anticipatory grief and sudden loss to complicated family dynamics, unresolved anger, identity shifts, and the invisible pain people carry long after the world assumes they’re “fine.” Each episode features powerful, unfiltered stories from guests who have lived through loss and rebuilt their lives in deeply personal ways. Through conversations centered on resilience, vulnerability, courage, and connection, the podcast helps listeners understand that grief isn’t something to hide — it’s something that deserves space, honesty, and community. Whether your grief is fresh or decades old, whether it’s tied to death or to a different kind of ending, this show will help you feel seen, supported, and less alone. If you’re looking for meaningful discussions about healing, emotional wellbeing, and the human experience — you’re in the right place. New episodes every Tuesday. Listen on all major podcast platforms or at griefisnotadirtyword.com. Grief Is Not A Dirty Word — because every story matters, every emotion belongs, and healing begins when we speak the truth.

  1. Suicide Grief, PTSD, Sexual Trauma and Finding Hope Again with Erika Shershun - Episode 85

    6 days ago

    Suicide Grief, PTSD, Sexual Trauma and Finding Hope Again with Erika Shershun - Episode 85

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Anyone struggling with suicide grief, PTSD, sexual trauma, survivor shame, unresolved loss, complex grief, childhood trauma, ambiguous grief, or the long-term effects of living in survival mode. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: A powerful conversation about trauma recovery, grief healing, nervous system regulation, suicide loss, resilience, boundaries, and how healing remains possible even after decades of pain and silence. DESCRIPTION:Erika Shershun joins Nick Gaylord for a deeply personal conversation about grief, trauma, suicide loss, healing, and resilience. Erika shares the story of losing her father to suicide at age fifteen, the devastating impact of growing up without emotional support, and how unresolved grief shaped much of her life. She also discusses surviving multiple sexual assaults, discovering how trauma remained stored in her body for decades, and the moment she realized survival mode had been controlling her life. Together, Nick and Erika explore PTSD, ambiguous grief, nervous system dysregulation, boundaries, trauma-informed care, and the realities of healing after profound loss. Erika reflects on the later suicide of her brother, the lessons she learned through her own recovery, and the work she now does helping survivors reclaim their lives. This episode offers hope, practical insight, and an honest look at what healing truly requires. If you've ever felt trapped by grief, trauma, shame, or silence, this conversation will remind you that healing is possible and that you are not alone THIS EPISODE ANSWERS: How does suicide loss affect a child for the rest of their life?  Can trauma stay trapped in the body for decades?  What happens when grief and trauma go unprocessed?  Why do survivors often remain stuck in survival mode?  Is it ever too late to heal from trauma and grief? KEY TAKEAWAYS: Trauma can remain stored in the body long after the original event has passed.  Healing does not erase painful memories, but it can remove their power to control daily life.  Unexpressed grief often resurfaces physically, emotionally, and psychologically.  Recovery is rarely linear, but meaningful progress is always possible.  Boundaries, self-awareness, and trauma-informed support are critical parts of healing. Support the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 6min
  2. Addiction, Overdose and Broken Heart Grief with Kym Hinchey - Episode 84

    28 May

    Addiction, Overdose and Broken Heart Grief with Kym Hinchey - Episode 84

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Anyone navigating traumatic grief, overdose loss, child loss, spouse loss, pet loss, complicated grief, anger in grief or surviving after devastating family tragedy. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: A brutally honest conversation about grief, rage, survival, grief brain, addiction loss, codependency, trauma, emotional numbness and what it actually looks like to keep living after losing the people you love most. DESCRIPTION: In this deeply raw and unfiltered episode, Nick Gaylord sits down with grief educator and author Kym Hinchey to talk about the unimaginable losses that changed her life forever. Kym shares the story of losing her son Adrian to an accidental overdose after years of addiction struggles and losing her husband John just three months later to what she believes was a broken heart. Together, Nick and Kym dismantle the myths society teaches about grief, including the dangerous idea that grief follows neat stages or has an expiration date. They explore grief rage, grief brain, trauma, survivor’s guilt, pet loss and the emotional isolation grieving people often experience. Kym also opens up about the promise she made to her surviving son to stay alive and how that promise ultimately became the foundation for rebuilding her life. This conversation is honest, painful, compassionate and filled with the kind of truth grieving people rarely hear out loud.  This episode answers:  What does grief after overdose loss really feel like?  How do you survive losing both a child and spouse?  Why does grief create anger, numbness and brain fog?  What is grief brain and why does grief affect the body physically?  Why do grieving people feel pressure to hide their pain? Key Takeaways:  Anger is a normal and necessary part of grief.  Grief changes who you are permanently.  There is no timeline or checklist for healing.  Grief affects the body, brain and immune system.  Honest conversations about grief help people survive it.Website:  https://agriefsupport.com/ My Story Page: https://agriefsupport.com/my-story-%26-tools-for-you Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/agriefsupport Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/agriefsupport Substack: https://agriefsupport.substack.com/ Grief.com Directory Listing: https://grief.com/grief-certified-peer-to-peer/name/kym-hinchey/ Support the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 14min
  3. Healing After Sudden Loss, Survivor’s Guilt, and Grief with Lisa Spychalski - Episode 83

    19 May

    Healing After Sudden Loss, Survivor’s Guilt, and Grief with Lisa Spychalski - Episode 83

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Anyone navigating sibling grief, survivor’s guilt, traumatic loss, unresolved family trauma, or the lifelong emotional weight of grief after a sudden death. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: An honest conversation about long-term grief, therapy, trauma recovery, toxic family dynamics, survivor’s guilt, healing after sudden loss, and what it means to carry love and pain decades after losing someone. DESCRIPTION: Thirty years after losing her sister Regina in a tragic car accident, Lisa Spychalski returns to Grief Is Not A Dirty Word for one of the most vulnerable conversations Nick Gaylord has ever hosted. Released intentionally on the 30th anniversary of Regina’s death, this episode explores the lasting impact of sibling loss, survivor’s guilt, unresolved trauma, and complicated family relationships. Lisa opens up about the hidden reason she went to Florida before the accident, the emotional burden she carried for decades, and how therapy finally helped her begin reclaiming herself. Nick and Lisa discuss toxic relationships, grief anniversaries, signs from loved ones, emotional healing, and the reality that grief never truly disappears with time. Lisa also shares how keeping Regina’s memory alive through stories and family connections continues to shape her life today. This is a raw, deeply human conversation about grief, guilt, healing, and learning to finally put yourself first after years of emotional pain. This episode answers:  How do you cope with survivor’s guilt after losing a sibling?  What does long-term grief feel like after 30 years?  Can therapy help with unresolved grief and trauma?  How do toxic family relationships affect grief recovery?  Why do grief anniversaries still hurt decades later? Key Takeaways:  Long-term grief can remain emotionally intense even decades later.  Therapy can help people process unresolved trauma and grief.  Survivor’s guilt often keeps people trapped in “what if” thinking.  Setting boundaries with toxic relationships can become part of healing.  Keeping a loved one’s memory alive through stories helps preserve connection.Support the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 18min
  4. Hidden Suicide Loss, Lifelong Grief and Mental Health Healing with Lisa Sugarman - Episode 82

    12 May

    Hidden Suicide Loss, Lifelong Grief and Mental Health Healing with Lisa Sugarman - Episode 82

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: People navigating suicide loss, childhood grief, traumatic loss, complicated grief, mental health struggles, depression, anxiety and anyone trying to better understand the long-term impact of losing a parent or loved one to suicide. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: An honest conversation about grief, suicide stigma, mental health awareness, childhood trauma, healing after loss and how vulnerability and open conversations can help people feel less isolated in their grief journey. DESCRIPTION: In this deeply emotional episode of Grief Is Not A Dirty Word, host Nick Gaylord sits down with author, mental health advocate and suicide loss survivor Lisa Sugarman for a powerful conversation about grief, trauma and the lifelong impact of losing a parent to suicide. Lisa shares the heartbreaking story of losing her father at just 10 years old, believing for 35 years that he died of a heart attack before learning the truth about his suicide later in life. Together, Nick and Lisa explore childhood grief, mental health stigma, suicide loss, survivor guilt, depression and the silence that so often surrounds traumatic loss. Lisa opens up about how that revelation reshaped her understanding of grief, mental illness and her father himself. The conversation also highlights the importance of vulnerability, emotional honesty and creating safe spaces for people to talk openly about grief and mental health. Lisa discusses her work with The Trevor Project , her platform The Help Hub and her podcast The Survivors Podcast , all focused on supporting people through trauma, crisis and loss. This episode is a raw and compassionate reminder that grief does not disappear when ignored and that nobody should have to suffer in silence.  This episode answers:  How does losing a parent to suicide affect a child later in life?  What happens when you discover the truth about a loved one’s suicide decades later?  How can people better support someone grieving a suicide loss?  Why is suicide still so stigmatized in grief conversations?  What are the long-term mental health effects of unresolved grief and trauma? Key Takeaways:  Silence and avoidance can deepen grief and emotional isolation.  Suicide loss survivors often carry complex layers of grief, anger, guilt and confusion.  Honest conversations about mental health and grief create safer spaces for healing.  Vulnerability helps normalize difficult conversations around suicide and depression.  Grief cannot simply be ignored or “gotten over” without emotional consequences. Go to Lisa's EPISODE page on www.griefisnotadirtyword.com for all of her links.Support the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 6min
  5. Grief, Anger, and the Loss of Stability in America Today with Mark Davis - Episode 81

    28 Apr

    Grief, Anger, and the Loss of Stability in America Today with Mark Davis - Episode 81

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Anyone navigating grief tied to identity loss, fractured relationships, or societal division. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: A powerful perspective on grief, uncertainty, and emotional conflict beyond death. DESCRIPTION: This episode of Grief Is Not A Dirty Word explores a different kind of grief—one rooted in division, identity loss, and uncertainty. Nick Gaylord sits down with Mark Davis to unpack how grief shows up when trust erodes, relationships fracture, and the world feels unstable. Together, they examine the emotional toll of speaking up, the personal cost of conflict, and the grief that comes from losing a sense of safety and belonging. Mark shares his journey from a middle-class upbringing to stepping into a public role, revealing how loss shaped his perspective long before politics entered the picture. This conversation goes beyond headlines, focusing instead on human experience, emotional resilience, and the unseen grief many people carry today. It’s a raw look at what happens when personal values collide with the world around you. If you’ve felt disconnected, overwhelmed, or unsure of where you stand, this episode will resonate deeply. This episode answers:  Why does political division feel like grief and emotional loss?  How do you handle losing relationships over beliefs or values?  What are people grieving right now beyond death and loss?  How do you speak up when it costs you personally and emotionally?  Can a divided society heal from identity loss and fractured trust? Key Takeaways:  Grief isn’t limited to death—it includes loss of identity, trust, and stability  Division creates emotional distance that mirrors personal grief  Speaking up often comes with real personal and relational consequences  Financial stress and uncertainty are major sources of modern grief  Healing begins with recognizing shared humanity beneath disagreement Support the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 1min
  6. What Grieving Parents Need After Child Loss and Sudden Death with Kelly Edmondson - Episode 80

    21 Apr

    What Grieving Parents Need After Child Loss and Sudden Death with Kelly Edmondson - Episode 80

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Grieving parents, anyone navigating child loss, and those supporting someone through deep grief and trauma. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: Honest insight into grief processing, how to show up for someone in loss, and how to break the silence around death and healing. DESCRIPTION: In this powerful episode, Nick Gaylord sits down with Kelly Edmondson to explore the unimaginable grief of losing her son, Darius, to sudden unexplained death in epilepsy (SUDEP). Kelly shares the raw reality of child loss, the shock of sudden death, and the emotional aftermath that reshapes identity and life itself. Together, they unpack why silence around grief is more damaging than grief itself and how honest conversation creates space for healing. Kelly opens up about the importance of speaking directly about death, the role of support systems, and what grieving people truly need. The conversation also dives into societal discomfort around loss, the failure of traditional bereavement norms, and the long-term impact of unprocessed grief. Nick guides the discussion with empathy and clarity, reinforcing the mission of Grief Is Not A Dirty Word. This episode is both a tribute to Darius and a roadmap for navigating grief with honesty, connection, and courage. This episode answers:  How do you cope with the sudden loss of a child?  What should you say to someone who is grieving a major loss?  Why is silence harmful in the grieving process?  How can you support someone dealing with child loss and trauma?  What does healthy grief processing actually look like over time? Key Takeaways:  Grief is not the problem—silence is what isolates and damages healing.  Saying the words “dead” and “died” helps process reality, not avoid it.  Support matters more than perfection—showing up is everything.  Unprocessed grief can manifest as physical, emotional, and mental health issues.  There is no timeline for grief, and traditional expectations often fail grieving people.Website / Business https://thetimelypresence.com https://www.thememorybox.coLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/kelly-edmondson Instagram (Personal): https://www.instagram.com/the.kellyedmondson Instagram (Business): https://www.instagram.com/thetimelypresence Facebook (Business): https://www.facebook.com/TimelyPresence Support the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 15min
  7. Navigating Sudden Death, Widow Grief & Trauma Recovery with Lynn Stone - Episode 79

    14 Apr

    Navigating Sudden Death, Widow Grief & Trauma Recovery with Lynn Stone - Episode 79

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Anyone navigating sudden loss, widow grief, or traumatic death without closure WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: Real insight into grief processing, trauma recovery, and rebuilding life after loss DESCRIPTION: Nick Gaylord sits down with Lynn Stone for a deeply personal conversation about sudden loss, widow grief, and life after unexpected death. Lynn shares the moment everything changed when her husband Brian passed away overnight, and the shock, trauma, and grief that followed. Together, they unpack the realities of grief fog, parenting through loss, and the emotional aftermath that doesn’t end after the funeral. The conversation explores how people respond to grief, what helps, what hurts, and why most of us get it wrong. Lynn also opens up about PTSD, dating after loss, and the unexpected challenges that come with rebuilding life. Nick and Lynn challenge common grief clichés and offer real, practical ways to support someone in mourning. The episode closes with Lynn’s mission to help others prepare for death through planning, conversation, and awareness. This episode answers:  What happens emotionally after sudden, unexpected loss of a spouse?  How do you cope with widow grief and trauma after sudden death?  What should you say or not say to someone who is grieving?  How do you help children process grief after losing a parent?  Why is death planning important and how do you start? Key Takeaways:  Sudden loss creates trauma that extends far beyond the moment of death  Grief doesn’t end after the funeral, it evolves over time  Most people unintentionally say the wrong things to those grieving  Consistent support after the first few weeks matters most  Planning for death reduces chaos and emotional burden for loved onesCONTACT LYNN: Website:  www.authorlynnbstone.com Facebook: www.facebook.com/authorlynnbstone Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/authorlynnbstone/ LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/authorlynnbstone/ BOOK: ‘Til Death Do Us Part: A Practical Guide to Preparing for the Inevitable:  https://a.co/d/9dSBzjR PRODUCTS: Single Point of Failure Vulnerability Risk Assessment (FREE): https://forms.gle/z7KLWkugrKK4hJPb9 Resistant Conversation Toolkit: www.authorlynnbstone.com/store PODCAST: The Flip Side of Death Support the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 19min
  8. Sobriety, Identity, and Grief Recovery After Addiction with Faith C - Episode 78

    7 Apr

    Sobriety, Identity, and Grief Recovery After Addiction with Faith C - Episode 78

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Anyone navigating grief, addiction recovery, trauma, or struggling with identity and self-worth. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: A powerful, honest look at grief, sobriety, healing, and what it takes to rebuild your life. DESCRIPTION: In this deeply personal episode, Nick Gaylord sits down with Faith C to explore the intersection of grief, addiction, trauma, and recovery. Faith shares her journey through alcoholism, emotional sobriety, and the long process of rebuilding identity and self-worth. Together, they unpack the hidden grief behind addiction, including loss of self, connection, and trust. Faith opens up about childhood emotional abuse, food addiction, and the pressure of perfectionism. This conversation goes beyond sobriety and into the ongoing work of healing and self-acceptance. Nick guides the discussion with depth and clarity, creating space for real, human moments. This episode is a powerful reminder that recovery is not about perfection, but about staying present and continuing the work. If you are navigating grief, trauma, or addiction, this conversation will meet you where you are. This episode answers:  What does grief look like in addiction recovery?  Can you heal trauma and addiction at the same time?  Why do people in recovery still struggle with identity and self-worth?  How does childhood trauma impact addiction and grief later in life?  What actually changes after getting sober and what doesn’t? Key Takeaways:  Sobriety removes the substance, but healing the underlying grief takes ongoing work  Addiction is often rooted in a deep need for connection and validation  Emotional sobriety is just as important as physical sobriety  Trauma and grief can resurface in recovery and require intentional healing  Self-worth grows through honesty, connection, and consistent inner workSupport the show GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!   FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!   BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.griefisnotadirtyword.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/griefisnotadirtyword Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/griefisnotadirtyword TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@griefisnotadirtyword YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nick-gaylord/

    1hr 11min

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Grief Is Not A Dirty Word is a weekly podcast that brings honest, real-world conversations about grief, loss, trauma, healing, and mental health into the light. Hosted by Nick Gaylord, the show creates a safe, compassionate space for anyone navigating the complicated emotions that come with losing a parent, partner, child, friend, relationship, or former version of themselves. Originally launched as Our Dead Dads, the podcast has evolved into a broader mission: to normalize grief and break the stigma around talking about it. Nick explores every corner of the grieving experience — from anticipatory grief and sudden loss to complicated family dynamics, unresolved anger, identity shifts, and the invisible pain people carry long after the world assumes they’re “fine.” Each episode features powerful, unfiltered stories from guests who have lived through loss and rebuilt their lives in deeply personal ways. Through conversations centered on resilience, vulnerability, courage, and connection, the podcast helps listeners understand that grief isn’t something to hide — it’s something that deserves space, honesty, and community. Whether your grief is fresh or decades old, whether it’s tied to death or to a different kind of ending, this show will help you feel seen, supported, and less alone. If you’re looking for meaningful discussions about healing, emotional wellbeing, and the human experience — you’re in the right place. New episodes every Tuesday. Listen on all major podcast platforms or at griefisnotadirtyword.com. Grief Is Not A Dirty Word — because every story matters, every emotion belongs, and healing begins when we speak the truth.