I didn’t listen when you asked... I didn’t want to hear. We are funny like that huh? Denial is a powerful thing... it can bring about the most desperate escape and the adornment of our false pretenses camouflaged and play-acted in these silly meatsuits we wear. My own hiding has found me alone and missing that awesome connection to spirit and that solid connection I’ve felt from the start with YOU... my heavy heart and swollen eyes had a end point and a start tonight. I didn’t know it was in me waiting, but your words brought it to light. I thought I’d lost you and our love was dead... but I realize that regardless where we stand, the good I saw in you, IS YOU, and I’m proud of you for doing what was hard and taking action for yourself. I didn’t want to admit I needed you or anyone, just another layer of that onion suit survival armor I often wear. Tonight though, as I listened to this beautiful word with god spicing it all up, I put down my mask, my sword, my shield and feel my sick body release it’s built-up tension and I know that I can follow through now with my plans for today and my immediate wishes for health, wellness, and sanctity of spirit... I want to see you, in your light, and I want to expose you to more of mine..,I do believe, you only got a taste dear. 😌😉❤️
I realize now that your gone, that you fed me much of the life I craved, our spirits loved to sing together and our bodies Danes to a special tune... we just had the wrong lenses on... I think we both knew but didn’t want to deal with the inevitable life that those who need to see will eventually be... I miss my church, I love my church, I want to go back to church, see a doctor about my sight, and feel whole again... I love you Robby, bless your whole being for WELL, “being”... broken, tattered, torn, but also adorned with the willingness to rise, be ravenous, righteous... you’ll get where you want to go, I know... and I hope I’ll get to see, ... you realize my love, from the moment we met, you have affected the whole of me. ❤️🙏❤️❤️🙏❤️❤️😌
