I Have No Idea What I’m Doing

Cassie Prmkhtr
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The world is weird right now, and so is my life. Recently, some life changing events have happened, and I need an accountability tool and a creative outlet. So here I am, trying this out to see if this can fulfill these needs. Everything is wild, and I have no idea what I'm doing. Also, I swear a lot most days, so I'll be marking all content as explicit, because I can't keep track of every swear I say.

  1. 07/31/2022

    Episode 97: Poetry Despite the Exhaustion of Adult Responsibility

    I talk about my continued medical garbage, writing, reading, and homebuying, panicking because of all of it. I also talk about grief, the grief book, shifting to more positive thinking, and aging pets. I also read a couple poems I wrote this week. As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. If you want to support the show, here’s a link to Listener Support: https://anchor.fm/cassieprmkhtr I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    18 min

  2. 07/24/2022

    Episode 96: Seven Days

    This one is all about the procedure I just had, some other medical/health updates, and about the house hunt and some exciting developments with that – and how all of this happened in seven days. Lots of stuff crammed into one seven-day period. I talk about D&D, resting, relaxing, and rejection, and I realized mid-recording that I really need to get my health back to a place where I can get back on my skateboard more frequently. I also mention the movie, The Sasquatch Gang. If you haven’t seen it, here’s a link to the IMDb: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0460925/ I also briefly talk about Indiana’s impending abortion ban and about protests in my area. If you want more info on that to go join them, get ahold of me. I won’t post those links here, but I will give them to you privately. As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    23 min

  3. 07/17/2022

    Episode 95: Is Today for Poetry or Sadness?

    Burnout, grief check in, looking for ways to be more positive, social isolation, a recent thing I wrote, rambling briefly about TV show Superstore and YouTubers Moist Critical and shoe0nhead. Yep, this episode has it all. https://www.youtube.com/user/penguinz0 https://www.youtube.com/c/Shoe0nHead As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    22 min

  4. 07/10/2022

    Episode 94: Reflection and a Story Named Crushed

    Migraines, other health updates, generally reflecting on how functioning the last couple of weeks has been difficult on a lot of levels, and creativity are the main topics for this one. I also share a brand-new, never publicly shared story here for the first time. It’s a short story: “Crushed” – really nervous about sharing, but I tried to promise myself that I’d work on writing more and I recently wrote this and felt decent about it. Since this is an accountability space for me, I figured I’d share it. The books I reference in this episode by title but not by author: Wool by Hugh Howey, Born to be Public by Greg Mania, and Spy x Family by Tatsuya Endo. Crushed is an original short story written by me. Do not reproduce it without expressed permission. (This is not permission.) As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    29 min

  5. 06/26/2022

    Episode 93: Supreme, My Ass: Another Rant About the American Dream/Nightmare

    Once again, I feel angry, frustrated, tired, but this time, full of fight, despite depression and grief, and I scream into the void about the decisions being made in this f*****g country. Then I switch gears and talk about some media I’ve interacted with this week along with how I’m trying to cope. I talk about the decent “Supreme” decision for a majority of this episode, so if you’re not up for that, you’ve been warned. As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    17 min

  6. 06/19/2022

    Episode 92: The Millennial American Dream/Nightmare Rant

    I feel angry, frustrated, tired, lost, hopeless, and I honestly just scream into the void about it for a while. Then I talk about what makes me happy, trying to focus on coping, wishing I could get some perspective on happiness and how to maintain a better mental/emotional state, some manic energy I was spiraling on last week and some decisions based on it. Then I read a journal entry and call it a day. As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    16 min

  7. 06/05/2022

    Episode 91: I Just Want to Call My Mom

    This one gets heavier than normal. I talk about emotional burnout, a very rough week, Pride, Indy 500, hobbies and routines feeling like forced obligations and wondering if it’s burnout or depression making it feel that way, and I also talk about how grief was wrapped up in the rocky week. I also read a VERY intense listener email. As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    31 min

  8. 05/29/2022

    Episode 90: 2022 Me Looking at 2012 Me in More Ways Than I Realized

    Self-love via Gaga circa 2010-2012 vs 2022, Anterior Pelvic Tilt, yoga, exercise, skateboarding, D&D, video games, reading, writing, COVID brain fog, emotional burn out, Indy 500, Texas and Oklahoma, and another glance at 2012 me vs 2022 me. This episode covers a lot in a short amount of time.  As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned. If you want to share your sad (or happy or anything in between) life-happenings that feel invisible, especially because of the pandemic, you can email me at IDKPandemicPodcast@gmail.com. Feel free to follow the podcast on Twitter: @IDKPandemicPod. I haven’t made time to participate in the Reedsy Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter. Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/) Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr) If you want a link to all my links: drum.io/cassieprmkhtr

    17 min
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The world is weird right now, and so is my life. Recently, some life changing events have happened, and I need an accountability tool and a creative outlet. So here I am, trying this out to see if this can fulfill these needs. Everything is wild, and I have no idea what I'm doing. Also, I swear a lot most days, so I'll be marking all content as explicit, because I can't keep track of every swear I say.

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