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  1. Sep 23

    What If Your Purpose Is Already Inside of You?

    It’s almost one o’clock in the morning, and I’m sitting here simply in awe of what we get to bring into the world. If you listened to my last brain dump... testimony... whatever we’re calling these things... you heard a little bit of the origin story behind why spiritual gifts matter so much to me. Why being clear about your spiritual gifts... or at the very least becoming more informed about the possibility of what God may have placed inside of you... matters. Because honestly, even if this whole thing does nothing more than spark curiosity... It’s worth it. Every sleepless night. Every moment working through pain and exhaustion. Every time I stressed over whether I calculated something correctly, whether I represented a gift well enough, whether there were enough questions, enough options, enough Scripture, enough nuance. If one person walks away with a little more understanding of why God put them here with the rest of us in this crazy thing called life... It was worth it. Because everybody is searching for purpose. Maybe not everybody uses that language, but underneath so many of our questions is some version of: Why am I here? What am I supposed to contribute? What am I uniquely equipped to do? God... what do You want to do with me while I’m here? Purpose can become an almost insatiable question until we begin to find it. And I wonder if sometimes we start looking in the wrong direction. We look at jobs. Titles. Platforms. Careers. Opportunities. Success. Influence. And maybe one of the places we should start is much closer. Maybe we should start by asking: God... what have You already put inside of me? Not because discovering your spiritual gifts suddenly gives you a five-step map for the rest of your life. It doesn’t. An assessment cannot tell you your calling. A score cannot tell you exactly what God wants to do with your life. But it might give you clues. It might give you language. It might help you notice something that has been there for years. And sometimes a little direction is enough to stop a tailspin. I know that because it happened to me. For a long time, I was confused about spiritual gifting because my clearest model of someone who was spiritually gifted was also someone I watched use those gifts to serve himself. And I watched that destroy things around him. So for years I was trying to untangle it. What is the gift? What is the person? What does it look like when someone uses something God gave them for themselves instead of for others? And honestly... I ran from ministry because of it. But eventually I started asking God different questions. What did You put in me? How do You want to use it? Who is it for? And that changed everything. I began to understand that, by His grace, God had put gifts inside of me. Not trophies. Not proof that I was important. Gifts. Things meant to be used in the Kingdom. Things meant to be used in other people’s lives. Of course those gifts bless me too. There is joy in using something God has given you. There is fulfillment in realizing, Oh... I was made for this. But the gift was never supposed to terminate with me. It was meant to become fruit somebody else could eat. And once I began realizing that I was made a certain way... with a certain combination of gifting, experiences, wounds, relationships, personality, opportunities and history that nobody else possesses in exactly the same configuration... something changed. I began to understand that I belonged. I still don’t always know where I belong in a room. I’m still learning belonging in relationships. But I know that I belong to God. And I know that when God looks at me, He does not see an unnecessary part. He sees something He intentionally made. A little of this. A little of that. A little of something else. And somehow all of it becomes Joel. That understanding started bringing my purpose into focus. Not perfect focus. Soft focus. But sometimes soft focus is enough to know which direction to walk. I began noticing the things that made my spirit come alive. I started listening differently when people pointed something out in me. Somebody once told me I had the gift of faith. And I remember thinking... Really? Because I never thought about it as a gift. I just thought I had a lot of faith. I thought I was good at faith. But looking back over the last six years of my life... the pain, the losses, the uncertainty, the valleys... there has been a level of faith carrying me that I know I did not manufacture. Maybe I have that gift forever. God, I hope so. Maybe there are seasons when God gives us an extraordinary measure of something we desperately need. I don’t know. But I know this: That faith has saved my life. And then something else happened. In one of the hardest seasons of my life, God gave me an intentional, safe, faith-based friendship with my friend Diana. She was going through her own storm. I was going through mine. And somehow we kept showing up. We brought whatever we had into the room. Even when we didn’t feel like our gifts were working. Even when we didn’t feel strong enough to help ourselves. We brought them anyway. And looking back now, I can so clearly see mercy in her. I had become unbelievably hard on myself. My life had fallen apart. I was living in pain. I couldn’t right the ship. And week after week, mercy met me through another person. Maybe some of my faith rubbed off on her too. I hope it did. But what I know is that somehow, week after week, we left those conversations a little better. Not because we were brilliant. Not because we had all the answers. But because God had placed things inside each of us that the other person needed. And that is what I cannot stop thinking about. What if your gift is connected to somebody else’s survival? What if something God placed in you becomes encouragement for somebody who is ready to quit? What if your mercy makes somebody feel human again? What if your teaching helps somebody finally understand something that has confused them for years? What if your generosity changes the trajectory of a family? What if your hospitality gives somebody somewhere to belong? What if your faith helps somebody borrow hope until they can believe again? What if the thing that feels ordinary to you is extraordinary to the person who needs it? That is why we built this. Today, I’m releasing the Share. Your Spiritual Gifts Assessment. And I need you to understand what I believe this thing is... and what I absolutely do not believe it is. It is not a Christian personality test. It is not a prophecy machine. It is not a mathematical formula for your calling. It cannot tell you with absolute certainty what God has placed inside of you. Only God gets to be God. This is a tool. A starting point. A conversation starter. A curiosity generator. Maybe you take it and get your results and simply think: Huh. Interesting. Seed planted. Maybe you read the deeper descriptions in your results email and notice a gift you had never considered. Another seed. Maybe you see one of the additional strong signals and start watching for it in your life. Seed. Maybe you open one of the Scripture stories connected to a gift and suddenly see yourself in somebody’s story in a way you never have before. Seed. Maybe you completely disagree with something the assessment gives you. Good. Ask God about it. Ask people who know you. Pay attention. Maybe that result isn’t telling you something about yourself at all. Maybe it causes you to recognize a gift in your spouse. Your friend. Your child. Your pastor. Your coworker. I don’t know what God is going to do with it. And that might be my favorite part. Because right now, this whole thing feels like freshly tilled soil. You know that smell? Dark soil turned over. Moist. Aerated. Ready. All it needs is seed. And every person who takes this assessment becomes another opportunity for something to be planted. Maybe you discover something about yourself. Maybe you remember something someone told you years ago. Maybe you realize the thing you’ve always loved doing actually has Kingdom significance. Maybe you become a little more willing to bring it into your church. Your family. Your friendships. Your neighborhood. Your work. Maybe somebody who loves teaching realizes they could help people in their church understand finances. Maybe somebody gifted in hospitality realizes that opening their table could become ministry. Maybe somebody with mercy realizes that the person everybody else is frustrated with is exactly the person they were equipped to sit beside. Maybe somebody finally realizes: I have something to contribute. And I think that matters more than we understand. Because there is not a single person who will take this assessment that the world does not need. Not one. There is nobody God accidentally included in the Body of Christ. Nobody sitting on the bench because He ran out of positions. Nobody whose presence is irrelevant. Paul’s picture of the Church as a body means exactly what it sounds like: Different parts. Different functions. Different gifts. One body. We need each other. And I wonder what could happen if more people actually believed that. Not became arrogant. Not became obsessed with their gifting. Not walked around announcing their spiritual-gift résumé. Just became comfortable in the skin God gave them. Because I don’t think confidence is exactly what the world is missing. Confidence can be performed. I’ve known plenty of people who looked incredibly confident and were deeply uncomfortable with themselves. What I pray for is something deeper. Comfort in your God-given skin. Confidence from the inside out. Confidence that God loves you. Confidence that you belong. Confidence that He made you intentionally. Confidence that there is something inside of you worth giving away. Confidence that your presence matters. Confidence that the world... your community... your family... the Body...

    What If Your Purpose Is Already Inside of You?
  2. Sep 19

    How I Heard HIM this week…

    This is what it looks like to be physically on E while spiritually bursting at the seams. It’s not a flattering video, but it is an honest capture of an important moment in my ministry life. As much as I enjoy polishing a well-crafted written piece, I believe there is tremendous power in the raw, unfiltered testimony of someone simply in awe of what God is doing. That’s what this audio and video capture. I lightly edited the transcript for a cleaner reading experience, but I wanted to preserve the raw moment I recorded shortly after arriving home from an only-God kind of day. The edited transcript is below… with the audio and video also available. You know, I imagine that, for some people, it has to be kind of weird to hear me say, “God told me,” or “God showed me this,” or “I feel like God was saying…” And I imagine that, for others, it is probably annoying. Maybe that is because hearing from God is something you are craving… something you deeply desire to be able to say about your own communication with Him. Or maybe it is not that easy for you to hear from God, and that is frustrating. So, when you hear someone else say it, you think, Man… I want that. Honestly, I cannot blame you for that. I think the desire to hear from God… and to know that you are hearing from God… is one of the worthiest desires a person can have. I cannot tell you that I hear from God all the time. Even though it may sound that way to some people who know me or spend time around me, I don’t. And as sorry as I am if hearing me talk this way is frustrating or even discouraging, I cannot apologize for the relationship itself. This relationship is holy, and it is only because of God that I get to have it the way I do now. But I cannot tell you that it came easily. I cannot give you four steps to hearing God’s voice. What I can tell you is how it has happened for me. It required coming to the complete end of myself. It required being humiliated and humbled beyond belief. It required submitting myself to God more every day. And when I thought I had finally reached the end of myself… the end of my ego and the end of my pride… I had to reach the end of myself again. When I thought I had become fully submitted to God and His will, I had to become more submitted still. And I had to struggle deeply. I think I have a window into communicating with God because I have suffered a lot. I do not know that this is how everyone’s relationship with Him is cultivated, but it is how mine has been cultivated. Because I have completely lost myself, I get to be more with Him. Sometimes hearing God looks like a nudge. Sometimes it feels like a hunch. Sometimes it feels as though the text glows. Sometimes a word someone says jumps out at me, and I hear it almost louder than everything else. Sometimes it is simply seeing an email I had no reason to see. That happened with an invitation to a retreat today. I had forgotten the retreat was even happening. But when I stumbled across the email, something made me pause. I thought, I don’t know why I came across this today, but I feel like I need to at least pray about going. So I did. I cannot tell you that I heard God overwhelmingly say, “Go.” Sometimes, though, hearing God means there is no answer in the opposite direction. Maybe you do not hear, “Don’t go.” I cannot explain it exactly. I only knew that the email made me pause and that I wanted to pray about it. When I prayed, I did not hear an explicit answer. I heard plenty of worldly reasons not to go. Pain was an issue, and I did not know whether I could mitigate it. Finances were an issue, and I did not know whether I could mitigate that either. But both of those things are submitted to my God. I had not heard my God say no. Pushing Away From the Desk I want to encourage you… I do not think everyone has to lock in with God the same way. I do not think you have to suffer greatly or deeply to hear from God or to observe what He is doing. Sometimes you just have to pause. You have to do what I keep calling “pushing away from the desk.” Picture yourself sitting at a desk, working. You physically push the chair back and step away from whatever has occupied you. Whether I am writing, working on a project, or building this Spiritual Gifts Assessment… the more I push back and create space, the more space He has to work with. Yesterday, I decided to take a day off. I am unemployed. I am unemployable. I am disabled. And I still had to decide to take the day off. I was not going to be accountable to anybody. I was not going to check in. I was not going to make my rounds asking people how I could pray for them. I just needed to take a minute for Joel. I did not know what would come from it. I just needed space. I felt as though I had been going and going, constantly trying to accomplish something. And it is a worthy cause. I have been working on a Spiritual Gifts Assessment… helping people discover what God has placed inside them that makes them unique, powerful, and important to the Kingdom. I cannot think of anything better to do with my time, including the time I spend working while lying down. But yesterday, I decided not to do even that. I pushed away. I pushed back. I did not engage in much banter. I did not do anything. I just took the day off. Because of that, I was able to notice this email. Because I was not engaged in work, I left it open and prayed about it. I asked my mom to pray about it too. Then, late in the day, I made the decision to go. Saul, David… Bill, and Joel Two or three days ago… Tuesday of this week… I was sitting at my computer when I received a revelation about a connection between the story of David and the story of Saul that I had never seen before. King Saul was anointed by God, through Samuel, to lead the Israelites. That was a gift. It was an anointing from God to lead God’s people. The people requested a king, and God fulfilled that request through Samuel’s anointing of Saul. Saul received this gift from God… and squandered it. He focused on himself and on pleasing himself. He used his gifting to satisfy his own needs. Then came David, Saul’s successor. Once Saul had squandered his gifting and his anointing, God removed the anointing from Saul and instructed Samuel to anoint a new king. Samuel searched and found David. The same gifting… but a different heart posture. David was called a man after God’s own heart. His posture was to chase the heart of God… to be like God. Saul, however, was stubborn in his transgressions. He made mistakes and would not turn back from them. He would not repent, because he was king. The arrogance… the narcissism… the world revolved around Saul. David made mistakes too, but David repented. He chased God’s heart. He did not take his gifting lightly. David was also forced to run for his life from Saul, the current king chasing the newly anointed king. For years, David ran from his ultimate calling… becoming king of Israel. He ran because Saul was trying to kill him. But I began to see symbolism in that story. For a long time, I ran from my calling too. I ran because I witnessed what my predecessor… I said the wrong word earlier… what the person who came before me, my father, did with his calling and anointing. I watched him use it to serve himself. I witnessed the destruction that occurred around him… in my family, in the families that came after mine, and in the lives of people he communicated and had contact with. He destroyed so much around him. And he was once anointed. He was once anointed by God to use those gifts for the Kingdom of Heaven. When I was younger, someone told me, “You are gifted like your father.” Through my own therapy and inner work, I have come to realize that I am gifted in many of the same ways my father was gifted. I am anointed in many of the same ways my father was anointed. David was anointed in the same way Saul was anointed. That was the connection I had never seen. One narcissistic, anointed person squanders it all because he uses the gift to serve himself. The other runs… from death and from his own calling. David ran because literal death was on the other side. I ran because stepping into my calling felt like death. I did not know there was a way to do the calling right. So, for a long time, I stayed in the wilderness. I could not understand… or would not allow myself to understand… how I could use this gift without hurting people, letting people down, or destroying families and lives. It felt like too much pressure. How could I not mess it up? I am human, just like my father is human, and we are gifted in the same ways. Then I began to lock in on spiritual gifts. I began to understand my gifts. I began to understand why my father’s gifting, used to serve himself, blew up in his face… and in all of ours. That is not what God gave us these gifts for. Now, years later, I am creating tools to help people discover their spiritual gifts. And now I am receiving this revelation about the relationship between Saul and David… and Bill Barnes and Joel Barnes. I had never seen any of it before. Don’t Waste a Good Crisis Then I decided to take the day off and push away… simply to give God more room. Honestly, I felt like Joel again. I had been exhausted, tired, and discouraged. I just needed a minute. I needed a minute with God. So I took that minute. The email appeared. I went to the retreat. And within the first five minutes, the pastor said: > “Don’t waste a good crisis.” And I thought, What? Every time I experience a pain flare, I refer to it as a crisis. Part of that comes from my father having sickle cell disease. When his pain flared and he ended up in the hospital, it was called a sickle cell crisis. I have used that same word for my own pain situation… another kind of suffering I share, in some way, with my father. So, within five minutes, this pastor says,

  3. Sep 1

    Before You Call It a Spiritual Gift

    Share. A Piece: Before You Call It a Spiritual Gift Clearing up the confusion before we try to identify it We’ve spent the first two pieces in this series slowing down. First, we asked: What are spiritual gifts actually for? Then we asked: How might the people around us help us recognize what God is already doing through us? And I think before we move into actually identifying our spiritual gifts, there’s one more important thing we need to do. We need to clean up the categories. Because Christians have a tendency to call a lot of things “spiritual gifts” that may not actually be spiritual gifts. A talent. A personality trait. A job title. A ministry role. A passion. A responsibility Scripture gives to every believer. Sometimes those things overlap with spiritual gifts. Sometimes they don’t. And if we don’t distinguish them, we can end up very confidently naming something God never actually named. So before you call it a spiritual gift, let’s slow down one more time. Not Everything You’re Good At Is a Spiritual Gift You may be an incredible musician. A brilliant writer. A strong communicator. A gifted athlete. A great cook. A sharp businessperson. You may naturally understand systems. You may be excellent with numbers. You may have a creative mind. You may be unusually charismatic. All of those things can absolutely be used by God. But that does not automatically make them spiritual gifts. That distinction matters. Because there is a difference between: something God created you capable of doing and something the Holy Spirit uniquely empowers through you for the building up of other people. Sometimes those overlap beautifully. A talented communicator may also have a spiritual gift of teaching. A natural leader may also have a spiritual gift of leadership. A musician may use their talent in ways that encourage, teach, lead, or strengthen people. But the talent itself and the spiritual gift are not necessarily the same thing. That means we should be careful not to assume: “I’m good at this, therefore this must be my spiritual gift.” Maybe. But maybe not. Not Everything God Asks You to Do Is Your Spiritual Gift This may be the most important distinction in the whole conversation. There are things Scripture tells every Christian to do. Love people. Forgive. Serve. Pray. Encourage. Give. Show mercy. Make disciples. Share the gospel. Bear one another’s burdens. Practice hospitality. Care for the vulnerable. None of those commands disappear because you don’t feel particularly “gifted” in that area. You don’t get to say: “Encouragement isn’t my gift.” So I guess everybody else has to encourage people. 😂 No. You may have a particular spiritual gift that causes encouragement to flow through you in an unusual or especially fruitful way. But Scripture still calls all of us to encourage one another. The same is true with generosity. The same is true with mercy. The same is true with serving. The same is true with sharing our faith. This is where one question has been really helpful for me: Does this gift save, or does it serve? Our spiritual gifts do not save us. And they do not replace obedience. They serve. They equip. They strengthen. They build up. They help the Body function. But they do not become excuses for ignoring what God has already asked every believer to do. A Gift Is Not a Rank The next category we have to clean up is importance. Some gifts are highly visible. Some are not. Some happen on stages. Some happen in kitchens. Some happen in hospital rooms. Some happen in leadership meetings. Some happen in quiet conversations nobody else will ever know about. That visibility can trick us into believing certain gifts matter more. Paul addresses this directly in 1 Corinthians 12. The body needs different parts. The eye cannot say to the hand: “I don’t need you.” The head cannot say to the feet: “I don’t need you.” Different function does not mean different value. That means your gift is not your rank in the Kingdom. It is not proof that God loves you more. It is not evidence that you are spiritually superior. And another person’s gift is not evidence that they are closer to God than you are. A person with a very public teaching gift is not inherently more valuable than the person whose mercy causes them to quietly care for people in crisis. A person with leadership is not automatically more spiritually mature than someone serving behind the scenes. A gift tells us something about how God may work through a person. It does not tell us how important that person is. Because according to Scripture, every part matters. Your Role and Your Gift Are Not Necessarily the Same Thing This one gets especially complicated in church settings. We often assume someone’s role tells us their gift. Pastor. Teacher. Leader. Worship leader. Administrator. Missionary. But roles and gifts are not always identical. Someone may hold a leadership position and still not possess every gifting we associate with leadership. Someone may be deeply gifted in teaching and never hold the formal title “teacher.” Someone may shepherd people exceptionally well without being the senior pastor of a church. Someone may function powerfully in mercy, encouragement, faith, or discernment while holding no formal ministry position at all. Your title may describe your responsibility. Your spiritual gift describes one way God may empower you to fulfill His purposes within the Body. Those things can overlap. But we shouldn’t automatically make them synonymous. Desire Is Not Always Gifting There’s another category worth mentioning. Sometimes we deeply want to do something. That desire may be meaningful. It may even be something God uses to lead us. But desire by itself does not necessarily equal gifting. You may desperately want to teach. That doesn’t automatically mean teaching is your spiritual gift. You may love leadership. That doesn’t automatically mean people are being led well through you. You may admire someone else’s gift and want what they have. That doesn’t mean God gave you the same thing. This is where fruit matters. Community matters. Humility matters. We need room to ask: What actually happens when I do this? Not just: Do I enjoy doing it? Those are different questions. Personality Is Not the Holy Spirit This one may step on a couple toes. 😂 Your personality can absolutely shape how your gifts show up. An introverted teacher may express teaching differently than an extroverted teacher. A highly analytical person may express discernment differently than someone who is more emotionally intuitive. A naturally compassionate personality may interact with mercy in a particular way. But your personality is not the same thing as your spiritual gift. Otherwise spiritual gifts would just be Christianized personality types. And I don’t think that’s what Paul is describing. The Holy Spirit is not limited to your temperament. God can work through parts of you that feel completely natural. And He can also empower you beyond what feels natural. So again: Personality may influence expression. It does not automatically define gifting. Talent, Role, Responsibility, Personality, Desire, Gift All of these things can overlap. That’s why this can feel complicated. You might have: A natural talent. A biblical responsibility. A ministry role. A certain personality. A repeated desire. A spiritual gift. And sometimes several of those things may point in the same direction. That can be beautiful. But we shouldn’t collapse them into one category. Because when we do, we stop discerning. We just start labeling. And this whole series is about learning to pay closer attention. So What Should We Look For? If we’re not just looking at what we’re good at... If we’re not just looking at our job title... If we’re not just looking at what we enjoy... If we’re not just looking at our personality... Then what do we look for? I think we keep asking the questions we’ve already been building. What does Scripture actually say? What have trusted people consistently reflected back to you? What patterns keep repeating in your life? What fruit tends to happen when you serve? What needs do you seem to notice that other people miss? Where does God repeatedly seem to use you for the good of others? And then we hold all of that humbly. Not trying to force a label. Not trying to make ourselves sound impressive. Not trying to become somebody else. Just paying attention. Before You Call It a Spiritual Gift... Ask a few more questions. Is this simply something I’m naturally good at? Is this actually a responsibility Scripture gives to every Christian? Is this a role I currently hold? Is this just something I really enjoy doing? Is this mostly a personality trait? Or is there a consistent pattern of the Holy Spirit using this through me to strengthen, equip, serve, encourage, or build up other people? That last question gets us closer. And now I think we’re finally ready for the question everybody wanted to ask in the first place: So... what is my spiritual gift? That’s next. And this time, we’ll have a much better framework for answering it. Thank you for Liking, SHAREing and Supporting! 🫶🏽 buymeacoffee.com/joeldavidbarnes Joel’s GoFundMe Page → https://gofund.me/58b8a14d1 This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit wehavetoshare.substack.com/subscribe

    Before You Call It a Spiritual Gift
  4. Aug 28

    Maybe Your Spiritual Gift Is Easier for Everyone Else to See

    Share. A Piece: Maybe Your Spiritual Gift Is Easier for Everyone Else to See Discerning What Others May Already See in You. In the last Share. A Piece, I asked a question that I haven’t really been able to stop thinking about: Who gets stronger when you show up? I was talking about spiritual gifts and the idea that maybe the first question we should ask isn’t, “What gift did God give me?” Maybe it’s: “Who did God intend to bless through what He gave me?” Because according to Scripture, spiritual gifts are given for the good of other people. They build up the Body. They equip. They encourage. They serve. Which made me think about something else. Maybe one of the reasons spiritual gifts can be difficult to identify is because you’re looking at yourself from the inside. And everybody else gets to experience you from the outside. What Feels Normal to You Might Not Be Normal There are things you do so naturally that you probably don’t think much about them. Someone calls you when their life is falling apart, and somehow you know how to sit with them. You hear somebody explain something complicated and immediately think of a simpler way to communicate it. A room gets chaotic and your brain starts organizing. Everybody around you is worried, but something in you continues to believe that God is going to make a way. You notice the person nobody else noticed. You recognize something underneath what somebody is saying. You give generously before anybody asks. You encourage people almost instinctively. And because these things happen naturally for you, your response might be: “Doesn’t everybody do that?” No. 😂 They do not. And that may be worth paying attention to. We Often Discount What Comes Naturally I think we have a tendency to assume that something only counts as significant if it feels difficult. If I have to work really hard at something, then maybe I’ll recognize it as a skill. But if something seems to simply come out of me, I may barely notice it. That creates an interesting problem when we start talking about spiritual gifts. Because God may have been using something through you for years while you’ve been calling it: “That’s just what I do.” Maybe. But why do you do it? And why does it consistently seem to produce something in other people? That’s where I think community becomes really important. Romans 12 says: “Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them.” Paul assumes difference. Which means there may be things that feel obvious to you because of the grace God has given you that don’t feel obvious at all to the person sitting next to you. The way you see a situation. The way you respond. The thing you notice first. The burden you consistently feel. The kind of person you instinctively move toward. The way God seems to repeatedly use you. Those patterns matter. Spiritual Gifts Leave Evidence I’m becoming increasingly interested in approaching spiritual-gift discovery by looking for patterns of fruit, not just labels. Instead of immediately asking: Am I a teacher? Maybe ask: Do people consistently understand Scripture more clearly after I explain it? Instead of: Do I have the gift of encouragement? Maybe ask: Do people consistently leave conversations with me with more courage than they had when they arrived? Instead of: Do I have mercy? Maybe ask: Do I consistently notice suffering and feel compelled to move toward it when others might move away? Instead of: Do I have faith? Maybe ask: Does my trust in God consistently help other people trust Him when circumstances make trust difficult? Instead of becoming obsessed with finding the perfect label, maybe we first look at what God seems to consistently produce through our lives. Because gifts have consequences. Something happens when they’re used. People are built up. People are equipped. People are cared for. People understand. People believe. People move. People heal. People grow. Not because the gifted person is extraordinary. Because God is working through ordinary people for the good of His Body. Ask the People Who Experience You Here’s an exercise I think could be incredibly useful. Choose three to five people who know you well. Not just people who like you. People who have actually done life with you. Maybe somebody from your family. A close friend. Someone from church. A coworker. Someone you’ve served or led. Then ask them one question: “When have you seen God use me in a way that genuinely helped you or somebody else?” And then shut up. 😂 Don’t explain what you think your gifts are. Don’t tell them what answer you’re hoping for. Don’t say, “I think I might have the gift of teaching, so…” Just listen. You may hear something you already know. But you might also hear a pattern you’ve never noticed. One person may say: “You always seem to know the question that gets me thinking differently.” Another: “You’ve always been the person I call when I need someone to believe with me.” Another: “You explain things in a way that makes me want to go study for myself.” Another: “You notice people who are being overlooked.” Another: “You can walk into complete chaos and somehow create a plan.” Now we have something worth exploring. Not proof. Not a final diagnosis of your spiritual gifts. But evidence. Community Can Confirm What Isolation Cannot There’s another reason I think this matters. Spiritual gifts were never designed to function in isolation. Paul’s favorite illustration in 1 Corinthians 12 is the human body. The eye. The hand. The foot. The ear. Each part has a function, but that function only makes sense in relationship to the rest of the body. An eye detached from a body might technically still be an eye. But it isn’t accomplishing what an eye was designed to do. Likewise, I’m not sure we can fully understand our spiritual gifts without considering how they function among other people. The Body helps the parts understand their purpose. Sometimes community sees something in you before you see it in yourself. Sometimes community confirms what you’ve already suspected. And sometimes community can lovingly tell you: “Yeah... I don’t think that’s your gift.” 😂 We need that too. Because spiritual gifts aren’t just about what we enjoy doing. They aren’t automatically whatever we’re good at. They aren’t whatever title we want attached to our name. And they certainly aren’t something we declare over ourselves simply because it sounds important. Discernment requires humility. And humility means allowing other people to speak. Pay Attention to Repetition One compliment probably shouldn’t determine your spiritual gift. But repetition deserves attention. What do people consistently come to you for? What needs do you consistently notice? Where do you repeatedly see fruit? What type of service gives you an unusual sense of purpose rather than simply draining you? What seems to happen when you faithfully make yourself available to God? Where do other people repeatedly say: “God used you there.” Those patterns may become clues. And I think clues is the right word. Because I don’t want to reduce spiritual-gift discovery to some mechanical formula. The Holy Spirit is a Person, not an algorithm. We aren’t trying to reverse-engineer God. We’re learning to notice Him. Maybe You Don’t Discover Your Gift Alone This whole conversation has me reconsidering the language we use around “discovering your spiritual gifts.” It sounds so individual. I need to figure out what God put inside of me. But maybe discovery itself was always meant to happen partially through relationship. Maybe I need you to help me see what I cannot see. And maybe you need me to do the same for you. That would actually make perfect sense. Because if God gives spiritual gifts so that we can serve one another... Why wouldn’t one another also help us recognize them? So before you take another assessment... Before you choose your label... Before you decide what gift you have because a list on the internet sounded like you... Ask some people. Ask people who have watched you follow Jesus. Ask people who have received from what God has placed in you. Ask: “When have you seen God use me in a way that genuinely helped you or somebody else?” Then listen for the patterns. Because it’s entirely possible that something you’ve been calling “just what I do”... is something the people around you have been experiencing as a gift for years. Thank you for Liking, SHAREing and Supporting! 🫶🏽 buymeacoffee.com/joeldavidbarnes Joel’s GoFundMe Page → https://gofund.me/58b8a14d1 This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit wehavetoshare.substack.com/subscribe

    Maybe Your Spiritual Gift Is Easier for Everyone Else to See
  5. Aug 24

    Convict. Confirm. Question.

    We are consuming more Christian content than probably any generation before us. Sermons. Clips. Podcasts. Reels. Devotionals. YouTube. TikTok theologians. Pastors we know. Pastors we’ve never met. People with microphones, platforms, Bible verses in their bios, and an opinion about almost everything. And I don’t necessarily think access to all of that is bad. There is some incredible teaching available to us. I’ve heard sermons online that have pushed me deeper into Scripture. I’ve listened to people explain biblical concepts in ways that helped something finally click. I’ve been challenged, encouraged, corrected and reminded of things that I desperately needed to hear. But access creates another problem: We have to learn how to filter what we’re hearing. Because “Christian content” and “something God is saying” are not automatically the same thing. And I’ve been trying to develop a simple framework for myself. Three words. Convict. Confirm. Question. Not because every message can perfectly fit into one of three little boxes. But because I need a way to slow myself down before I blindly receive something… or prematurely reject it. 1. CONVICT Sometimes I hear something and it exposes something in me. Not shame. Not manipulation. Not someone trying to scare me into submission. Conviction. There’s a difference. Jesus described the Holy Spirit as One who would “convict the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment” (John 16:8). And Hebrews tells us that the Word of God is living and active, able to expose what is happening beneath the surface of our thoughts and intentions (Hebrews 4:12). So sometimes Scripture, or teaching rooted in Scripture, is supposed to make me uncomfortable. It is supposed to uncover something. Conviction sounds like: I need to bring this area of my life into alignment with God. Maybe somebody teaches about forgiveness and I immediately realize there’s a person I’ve been refusing to forgive. Maybe I hear a message about prayer and realize that I keep saying I want to hear from God, but I’ve barely created any space to listen. Maybe Scripture confronts the way I’m speaking to people. The way I’m spending. The way I’m serving. The way I’m loving my neighbor. Something inside me says: There’s more here for me. When that happens, I don’t want to run from conviction. I want to investigate it. I want to take it back to Scripture. God, is this You? What are You showing me? What needs to change? James puts it plainly: we are not supposed to merely hear the Word and walk away unchanged. We are called to do what it says (James 1:22). So whenever possible, I want conviction to become action. Because spiritual growth isn’t just hearing something that makes you say “ouch.” It’s allowing God to transform something. 2. CONFIRM But not every good sermon should leave you feeling like you’re failing. Sometimes the message confirms something God has already been developing in you. You hear someone describe a practice, an attitude or a way of loving people and realize: Wait. I’m actually doing that. And maybe instead of immediately searching for what’s wrong with you, you can receive the affirmation. Thank You, God. I see what You’ve been growing in me. Paul wrote about the Spirit Himself bearing witness with our spirit that we belong to God (Romans 8:16). And throughout Scripture, believers are encouraged not only through correction, but through reminders to continue faithfully in what God has already begun in them. Paul told the Philippians that he was confident that “he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion” (Philippians 1:6). Sometimes the message isn’t exposing rebellion. Sometimes it is illuminating fruit. Confirmation isn’t arrogance. It can be gratitude. It can also become stewardship. Maybe the thing being confirmed in you is something God now wants you to help cultivate in somebody else. Maybe you’ve learned how to pray consistently. Maybe you’ve learned how to sit with hurting people without immediately trying to fix them. Maybe God has taught you generosity. Maybe you’ve learned something about forgiveness, community, Scripture or trusting Him through uncertainty. Sometimes the message isn’t: “You need to start doing this.” Sometimes it’s: “Keep going.” And I think we need to learn to hear that too. 3. QUESTION This may be the most important category. Because sometimes I hear something and I don’t feel convicted. I don’t feel confirmed. I just think: Hold up. Something about that doesn’t sit right. And our culture has trained us to respond to that feeling in one of two extreme ways. Either: “Well, they’re a pastor, so they must know what they’re talking about.” Or: “I disagree with that one thing, so everything they’ve ever said is garbage.” Neither response requires much discernment. Scripture gives us another option. When Paul and Silas preached in Berea, the people there were praised because they “received the word with all eagerness, examining the Scriptures daily to see if these things were so” (Acts 17:11). That verse matters to me. They received eagerly. But they also examined carefully. Those two things lived together. They did not reject everything. They did not blindly accept everything. They checked. That is what I mean by: Question it. Not condemn it. Not automatically accept it. Question it. Paul gives similar instruction in 1 Thessalonians 5:21: “Test everything; hold fast what is good.” Not reject everything. Not hold fast to everything. Test everything. Then hold onto what is good. So: What does Scripture actually say? What is the context? What comes before that verse? What comes after it? Is the person describing what happened in Scripture, or prescribing what Christians should do? Is this consistent with the character of God revealed throughout Scripture? Is there another interpretation I haven’t considered? Have I misunderstood them? Have they misunderstood the text? Do I need wise counsel? Do I need to study? Do I simply need to say: “I don’t know yet.” There is tremendous spiritual maturity in those four words. STOP THROWING THE PASTOR OUT WITH THE BATHWATER This is where grace becomes important. We have an old saying: “Don’t throw the baby out with the bathwater.” The bathwater gets dirty. So you get rid of the dirty water. But you don’t throw away the baby. And I think sometimes we need to stop throwing the pastor out with the bathwater. That does not mean tolerating abuse. It does not mean ignoring manipulation. It does not mean remaining under spiritually dangerous leadership. And it absolutely does not mean pastors shouldn’t be accountable for what they teach. Scripture is actually very serious about teachers. James warns that teachers will be judged with greater strictness (James 3:1). So grace does not erase accountability. But accountability also does not require us to pretend that one error automatically invalidates every way God has ever used a person. There is a massive amount of territory between: “This person can do no wrong.” and “This person got something wrong, therefore God has never used them.” Pastors are human. Teachers are human. Christian communicators are human. They can genuinely love God and still misunderstand something. They can preach something powerful on Sunday and say something foolish on Tuesday. They can be gifted and still need correction. They can help you tremendously in one season and no longer be the voice you need in another. And… brace yourself… you may even continue receiving from somebody you disagree with sometimes. That requires maturity. Because discernment is not the ability to find someone you agree with 100 percent of the time. Discernment is developing the ability to recognize what is true. And Scripture actually expects us to develop that ability. Hebrews describes mature believers as people who have trained their powers of discernment through constant practice to distinguish good from evil (Hebrews 5:14). Discernment is not merely a feeling. It is something formed. Practiced. Strengthened. THE GOAL ISN’T BETTER CHRISTIAN CONTENT This entire conversation has become increasingly important to me because of the sheer volume of information coming at us. Everybody has a clip. Everybody has a take. Everybody can tell you what God supposedly thinks about whatever happened this morning. So I don’t think the solution is simply finding the perfect pastor. Or the perfect podcast. Or the perfect church. Or the perfect Christian creator. The goal is becoming the kind of person who increasingly recognizes the voice of God. And that takes time. Scripture. Prayer. Community. Questions. Wise counsel. Humility. And the willingness to admit: I could be wrong too. The more Scripture becomes buried in your heart, the easier it becomes to hear something and recognize: That sounds like Him. Or: Something about that doesn’t line up. Psalm 119:11 says: “I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.” That image matters. His Word stored inside us. Not just bookmarked. Not just reposted. Not just quoted when it supports an opinion we already have. Stored. So when something comes at us, we have something deeper to compare it against. And when you don’t know? Question. Search. Pray. Study. Ask somebody you trust. You don’t have to immediately accept everything. And you don’t have to immediately cancel everybody. You can hold something in your hands long enough to ask God: “What do You say about this?” That’s the filter. So the next time you hear a sermon, watch a Christian Reel, listen to a podcast or come across another confident person telling you exactly what God thinks… Try three words. Convict. What is God asking me to bring into alignment? Confirm. What might God be affirming or strengthening in me? Question. What do I need

    Convict. Confirm. Question.
  6. Aug 18

    Share. A Piece: What Are Spiritual Gifts Actually For?

    I’ve been spending a lot of time lately thinking about spiritual gifts. Partly because we’re beginning to explore them in my 2:42 discipleship group, and partly because I think a lot of us have been taught to approach spiritual gifts by immediately asking one question: What’s mine? What is my gift? Am I a teacher?An encourager?A leader?Do I have mercy? Faith? Discernment? Administration? And listen, I think discovering how God has uniquely gifted you matters. I think there is something beautiful about becoming more aware of how the Holy Spirit works through you. But the more I sit with the major New Testament passages about spiritual gifts, the more I wonder if we sometimes start with the wrong question. Maybe the first question isn’t: What gift did God give me? Maybe it’s: What did God give spiritual gifts for? Because when you read Romans 12, 1 Corinthians 12, and Ephesians 4, something becomes pretty clear. God gives different gifts to different people. Nobody gets everything. Nobody is unnecessary. And what God gives you was never intended to stop with you. Paul writes in 1 Corinthians 12 that: “To each is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good.” That phrase has been sitting with me. For the common good. Not merely for personal fulfillment. Not so I can build an identity around being “the prophetic one” or “the teacher” or “the leader.” Not so I can rank my gift against yours. Not even primarily so I can understand myself better. God gives something to me that He intends to do something through me. That changes the conversation. Your Gift Is Not Just About You There’s a subtle temptation in conversations about spiritual gifts to turn them into a Christian personality test. Tell me who I am. And again, self-awareness can be good. But Scripture seems much more interested in telling us how we belong to one another. Paul uses the picture of a body in 1 Corinthians 12. A body has different parts with different functions. An eye does something a hand cannot do. A foot contributes something an ear cannot contribute. The differences aren’t a problem to solve. The differences are the design. Imagine if every part of your physical body suddenly decided it wanted the same job. That wouldn’t be unity. That would be dysfunction. In the same way, the Church doesn’t become healthy when everybody discovers how to do the exact same thing. It becomes healthy when different people faithfully offer what God has entrusted to them. Romans 12 says: “Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them.” I love how practical that is. You have been given something. It may be different from what somebody else has been given. Use it. Somebody Else May Need What God Put in You Here’s the thought I can’t shake: A spiritual gift is not primarily evidence that you are special. It is evidence that somebody else needs what God placed in you. Maybe someone needs encouragement. Maybe someone needs wisdom. Maybe a room needs leadership. Maybe someone is hurting and needs mercy. Maybe something chaotic needs administration. Maybe somebody’s faith is weak and God uses your faith to help them believe again. Maybe a truth needs to be taught clearly. Maybe somebody needs to be served quietly without anyone ever knowing your name. The gift may be yours. But the benefit often belongs to somebody else. That means spiritual gifts aren’t simply about discovering our individual identity. They are about discovering our responsibility to one another. The Gifts Build Something Ephesians 4 gives us another important clue. Paul describes Christ giving different kinds of leaders and ministers to the Church for the purpose of: “equipping the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ.” There it is again. Building up. The goal isn’t simply that gifted people exercise their gifts. The goal is that people become stronger. More mature. More equipped. More unified. More like Christ. That gives us a pretty good way to evaluate our understanding of spiritual gifts. If my gift only makes me feel significant, but consistently leaves everybody else smaller, dependent on me, impressed by me, or invisible beside me… I might need to reconsider how I’m using it. Because gifts from the Spirit should ultimately contribute to the health of the Body. Maybe Community Helps Us Discover Our Gifts This is also why I’m increasingly convinced that spiritual gifts are difficult to fully understand in isolation. There are assessments we can take. Books we can read. Lists we can study. And those things can be useful. But sometimes the people around you can recognize what God repeatedly does through you before you have language for it yourself. They are the ones who say: “When you explain Scripture, I finally understand it.” “You always seem to know when somebody is hurting.” “When everybody else panics, your faith settles the room.” “You bring order to things that feel impossible.” “You make people feel seen.” “You challenge me in exactly the way I need.” Maybe part of discovering your spiritual gifts is paying attention to the places where God consistently seems to bless other people through your presence. Not because every strength is necessarily a spiritual gift. And not because every compliment is divine confirmation. But because spiritual gifts were designed to function in relationship with other people. Which means community may be one of the places where they become most visible. So Maybe We Ask a Different Question Over the next few weeks, I’m going to keep studying spiritual gifts with my 2:42 community. We’ll talk about what the gifts are. Who receives them. How they differ from talents. How they differ from responsibilities Scripture gives to every Christian. And yes, eventually we’ll ask: What might my spiritual gifts be? But I don’t want us to rush there. Because before asking What did God give me?, I want us to understand why He gives at all. So maybe start here: Who gets stronger when you show up? What seems to happen consistently in the lives of other people when you faithfully follow God? Where does your presence seem to bring clarity, encouragement, faith, mercy, wisdom, service, leadership, generosity, or growth? And perhaps most importantly: Who might God intend to bless through what He placed in you? Because maybe your spiritual gift was never meant to end with you. Maybe God gave it to you because somewhere in His Body… somebody else needs it. Thank you for Liking, SHAREing and Supporting! 🫶🏽 buymeacoffee.com/joeldavidbarnes Joel’s GoFundMe Page → https://gofund.me/58b8a14d1 This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit wehavetoshare.substack.com/subscribe

    Share. A Piece: What Are Spiritual Gifts Actually For?
  7. Aug 9

    Wanna know why my faith is strong?

    Wanna know why my faith is strong? First of all, it is unmistakable to me that God has given me the gift of faith as something He wants me to share. I can tell you for certain that there’s a supernatural gift…and responsibility…on my life regarding faith. There’s a whole rabbit hole I could go down there, and I will be doing a deeper dive into spiritual gifts in the next couple weeks. Today, though, I wanna get extremely practical about my faith. So many people comment on it, and I want to talk about it while I’m in the valley, instead of from the mountaintop. Wanna know why my faith is strong? Because I don’t force it. It’s not something I can try to achieve or aspire to. It’s not by my own strength. It’s consistent work with God. It’s getting punched in the gut, having the wind taken outta your body, and resisting the urge to say… “Nope. I’m fine. God is good. I’m blessed and highly favored.” I committed to mySELF a couple years ago to stop lying about how I was on a given day. Y’all. I get my ass kicked. A lot. Especially in this current life season. It just happened to me the other day. I had a doctor tell me that he believes I’ll be disabled for life. He said the pain I feel will probably get worse. He told me that the surgery I have upcoming has the potential to do two things: no real change…meaning I’d continue to feel as badly as I have…or it could make me significantly worse. THAT is what this doctor told me about my future. And listen… It’s hard for that kinda stuff not to make you feel weird. Or badly. Or cause you to question. Everything. But here’s the difference: When I hear the things that humans say, I ask God what HE has to say. That’s the difference in how my faith GETS to grow. Because no matter what the circumstance, the most important part is what God says, or has already said…about ME. This doctor doesn’t know that God has continuously shown me visions and dreams of me walking. Riding my bike long distances. Standing on stages teaching people about HIM with no cane. No limp. No pain on my face. All this guy knows is what he can see with his physical eyes. My faith gets stronger every time I’m devastated and get back up praising the One who made me. Not because it’s all figured out. Not because I understand any of it. But because of my confidence in Him. My confidence that He can use everything for my good. The Bible says: “For we live by faith, not by sight.”— 2 Corinthians 5:7 THIS means we have to let God be the One who figures it out… not us. All we have to do is attempt to believe what HE says. About us. About our circumstances. About our lives. My faith isn’t strong because I did anything. It’s stronger because I let HIM do everything. I believe what He says about me. I allow Him to lead me. My hands are literally OFF the wheel. Is that easier? No. But it’s better. And that’s how my faith gets stronger. Because I do less… so He can do more. Thank you for Liking, SHAREing and Supporting! 🫶🏽 buymeacoffee.com/joeldavidbarnes Joel’s GoFundMe Page → https://gofund.me/58b8a14d1 This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit wehavetoshare.substack.com/subscribe

    Wanna know why my faith is strong?
  8. Aug 4

    Introducing The 2:42 Report

    The 2:42 Report July 2026 A monthly praise report celebrating what God is doing through Scripture, fellowship, breaking bread, and prayer. July marked the beginning of something deeply meaningful. On July 6, the 2:42 Discipleship Community officially gathered for the first time. Since then, we have met consistently, opened God’s Word, shared honestly, eaten well, prayed for one another, and grown together. This report follows the pattern of Acts 2:42: “And they devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers.” Each report includes two reflections of gratitude, four ministry updates centered on Acts 2:42, and two prayers for what comes next. This is the July report. Two Reflections of Gratitude 1. God Did Not Let Me Walk Through This Alone One of my greatest praise reports from this summer is the community God has gathered around me during this season of waiting, healing, and uncertainty. A few months ago, a GoFundMe was created as I prepared for what was expected to be a June 1 knee replacement surgery. The financial generosity has meant more than I can fully express. It has helped create space for me to focus on healing and continue doing the ministry work God has placed before me. But the support has extended far beyond finances. People have sent messages, prayed faithfully, checked in, offered encouragement, and continued showing up in “Joel’s Care and Prayer Group” on WhatsApp. Most people joined expecting to support me through an immediate surgery and recovery. When the surgery was canceled, the group did not disappear. It became an ongoing community of prayer warriors and supporters who have remained present through the delay. That has revealed something deeply meaningful to me: God did not want me to walk through this next knee replacement surgery alone. The surgery has not happened yet, but the community God knew I would need is already here. To everyone who has supported me financially, spiritually, and relationally: thank you. Your generosity has sustained me, but your presence has reminded me that I am not alone. 2. Strength for the Assignment July 6 marked the first official gathering of the 2:42 Discipleship Community. Since then, we have continued meeting and growing together through Scripture, fellowship, shared meals, and prayer. What I love most is that God is not only using me to help others grow. He is growing all of us, including me. I have sometimes hesitated to step fully into this position because of questions about my own qualifications. Yet God continues to affirm that He has equipped me for the assignment while also revealing the areas where He still intends to develop me. I am learning that being called does not mean being finished. God can confirm that we are qualified for what He has asked us to do while continuing to shape us into the people the assignment requires. Four Movements of Acts 2:42 The Apostles’ Teaching We Opened the Bible One of the simplest and most meaningful praise reports from July is this: We opened the Bible together. For some members of the 2:42 community, this was one of their first opportunities to truly study Scripture in a group. That has made this work an incredible honor and joy. It has also been difficult, stretching, and deeply rewarding. Throughout the month, we wrestled with sin, repentance, grace, confession, mercy, forgiveness, reconciliation, and restoration. We did not approach these subjects pretending to have every answer. We opened God’s Word, asked honest questions, listened carefully, and allowed Scripture to challenge and shape us. The greatest praise is not simply what we studied. It is that we are becoming people who study the Bible together. Fellowship A Community Worth Protecting Three things have stood out about the fellowship developing within 2:42. First, it is safe. Every member has identified this as a place where they can share honestly, be vulnerable, and ask the pressing questions of their faith without fear of judgment. Meaningful discipleship requires more than correct answers. It requires an environment where people feel safe enough to reveal the questions they are actually carrying. Second, there has been remarkable intentionality. People have scheduled, rescheduled, communicated, adjusted, and made sacrifices to prioritize being together in person. In a season when calendars are full and isolation is easy, that willingness has been deeply encouraging. Third, people are already imagining a future together. Members are discussing ways they hope to serve, classes they may attend at church, and what the fall season could look like. Most meaningfully, one person recently said that no matter what else gets added to the calendar this year, they want to protect this group. That word felt deeply holy to me. What God is forming among us is not merely another appointment to attend. It is a community worth tending, prioritizing, and protecting. Breaking Bread The Power of Consideration We have never had a shortage of good food around the table. But what has made breaking bread so meaningful is not only the food itself. It is the communication required to plan it, the intentionality involved in preparing it, and the growing desire to make each gathering more thoughtful and generous. There is something powerful about considering what another person enjoys, remembering what they like to eat, and then making the effort to provide it. That kind of consideration has become part of the glue holding us together. Around the table, care becomes tangible. Hospitality becomes personal. People are reminded that they were thought about before they ever arrived. I believe God delights in teaching us to love one another this way—not only through what we say, but through the attention, preparation, and generosity we offer each other. Prayer Taking One Another to God Prayer is one of the movements I continue asking God to deepen within our community. There can be a real stigma around asking for prayer. Admitting that we need help can feel vulnerable, and people sometimes hesitate to share because they fear becoming a burden. My prayer is that God will continue removing that stigma and invite us into deeper connection by teaching us to carry one another’s needs to Him. A prayer request is not automatically an invitation for us to fix the situation. At its simplest, it is a request to take the need to God. That does not mean God will never ask us to act. Recently, during an intense pain flare, I was in tears and desperate for prayer. I chose to communicate that need in a way I may not have in the past. One member of 2:42 reached out privately and asked whether there was anything she could do. I had not eaten, which meant I could not take the medication I needed to help manage the pain. I asked whether she could help me get something to eat, and she did. She did not assume she was responsible for solving everything. She prayed, listened, asked, and responded to the need God placed before her. That is the powerful movement of prayer: we take one another’s needs to God, release the pressure to control the outcome, and remain available when He invites us to participate in the answer. Beyond the 2:42 Table SHAREapy and One-on-One Faith Coaching The ministry happening in this season extends beyond our group gatherings. Through SHAREapy and one-on-one faith coaching, I have continued walking with people through questions of faith, pain, relationships, purpose, isolation, and important life decisions. Some of these conversations happen by phone. Some happen while I am working from bed because of pain. But the work continues. I remain deeply grateful that God allows me to create intentional spaces where people can be heard, encouraged, prayed for, and helped toward their next faithful step. Whether around the 2:42 table or in a private conversation, the heart of the ministry remains the same: Biblically grounded formation delivered through intentional relationship. Two Prayers for What Comes Next For nearly two years, my prayer requests have consistently been distilled down to two words: Pain and provision. Provision The need for provision remains real and straightforward. Because I am still unable to work in a traditional capacity, continued financial support is essential as I wait for surgery and prepare for the recovery that will follow. The generosity of those who have prayed, given, shared, and supported me has allowed me to focus on healing while continuing to do the work God has placed before me. And that is where something has shifted. Every available day and every available moment, I am trying to do what God has asked me to do—even when that work has to happen from my bed. I take calls. I walk with people through difficult seasons. I study, teach, pray, write, build community, and make myself available as my body allows. Provision is still necessary for life. That is simply the truth. But I am no longer viewing this season only as time I must survive before the “real work” can begin. God is already allowing meaningful ministry to happen here. My prayer is that He will continue providing in the ways only He can so that I can remain faithful to the work He has entrusted to me before surgery, through recovery, and beyond. Pain For a long time, my primary prayer was that God would deliver me from pain so that I could eventually tell the story of His goodness. I have never lost faith that He will bring me through this season. As long and difficult as it has been, God has somehow preserved that faith in me. Some days, I do not even understand how that is possible—but it is true. I still believe healing and restoration will be part of the story arc of my life. But I am no longer focused only on the end of the story. I am beginning to understand that the hardest part of the story may also be one of its most important parts. While I continue to move between pain and possi

    Introducing The 2:42 Report

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