Confessions of a Recovering Pothead

Charlie Deist

A resource for recovering marijuana addicts on recovering a natural, healthy functioning of the endocannabinoid system, plus my personal experiences overcoming marijuana addiction and going after all those lost, forgotten pipe dreams. www.charliedeist.com

Episodes

  1. Jun 19

    Why Green Berets Eat Gummy Bears

    Wil Ravelo has marched thousands of miles under a loaded pack. He started in the Marine Corps as a Force Reconnaissance Marine, and when the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan kicked off, he chased them—jumping to the Army, joining Special Forces, and landing on the streets of Baghdad in combat inside of a year. After the military he spent thirteen years with the San Francisco Police Department, much of it on SWAT. He’s a father of four, a twenty-year jiu-jitsu player, and the coach behind what he calls operational conditioning: getting civilians ready to perform in their own lives the way an operator stays ready for a mission. We were introduced by our mutual friend Michael Ostrolenk, whom Wil helped train for the 50-mile GoRuck event in Washington, DC. I’ve done a 50 mile march every year since 2019, but never with significant weight on my back—so I called Wil to get a tactical overview. We recorded this a little over a year ago, and I’m embarrassed it’s taken me this long to release it. A few things you’ll get out of this one: * Why he eats gummy bears by the mile * The mental tricks he looped in his head to survive Special Forces selection * “Be like a tiger”: the 18-hour fast and one-big-meal philosophy that left him stronger at 165 pounds than he was at 225 * The footcare hacks he learned from hikers (you’re probably using the wrong toenail clippers). * Why he never trains past 30 miles – even to get ready for 50 * The confidence test he gives every client Follow him and learn more - @realwilravelo; wilravelo.com 50-Mile Math Charlie: Anytime you’re talking about marching 50 miles in a day, with a 25- or 30-pound pack, that’s no mean feat. Michael said you were the guy for the tactical overview. So what’s your framework for balancing rigor with recovery—how do you push without overdoing it? Wil: It depends on the event. A rucking event isn’t something you just walk into. You’re not going to say, “I’m going to go ruck 50 miles.” You’ll have a hard enough time saying, “I’m going to ruck five miles,” if you’ve never done it and your body isn’t accustomed to it. In Special Forces selection—which happens before qualification—most of the events are graded on how well you carry a pack. Distance, weight, time, and how well you work with others. The first thing they do is hand you a pack. Minimum 45 pounds, not counting water or food. They tell you 50, but the standard is 45, and they don’t tell you that, so guys are over- and under-packing the whole time. You get dinged if you’re under. The final event is 24 to 28 miles, the day before you turn in equipment. The GoRuck event we did was modeled after CAG selection—40- to 50-mile rucks out in West Virginia, across two states. Fifty miles is fifty miles. That’s a lot of distance. Now, to your question. If you overdo rucking too fast, you’ll damage your feet. Tendonitis. Strained little muscles. You can fracture the small bones in your feet. Your ankles, your knees. And the whole time that pack is on your shoulders, cinch straps digging in. When I came back from selection, my upper back was nothing but knots—I’d been holding a rifle the whole time, too. So for someone training for a rucking event: start easy. Three-mile ruck. Twenty-five pounds—that’s the GoRuck challenge weight, water doesn’t count. It’s easy to slide a 25-pound plate into a pack and go for a walk. If you’ve never walked three miles, scale it down. You’re not running, but your heart rate is up and your body’s under a lot of stress. And don’t ruck more than twice a week. Even that’s pushing it, depending on the weight. Say your goal is a 12-mile ruck. Week one: Monday is your ruck day, three miles, 25 pounds. Tuesday is a run—two or three miles, not for speed, just for the cardiovascular tank. Wednesday is rest: lift, stretch, do yoga. Thursday is a longer run, five or six miles; if you’re not a runner, go from one mile up to three. Friday is your second ruck, identical to Monday so the body adapts. Even and even. Week two: same three-mile ruck, but timed. The Special Forces standard is a 15-minute mile under load. Hit that on average and you’ll make your distances in the allotted time. When we did the 50-mile GoRuck in DC, I wasn’t worried about finishing—I was worried about the time. I was pushing guys forward the whole way. Charlie: So you’ve got three variables—distance, weight, speed—and you don’t want to increase all three at once. When do you start stepping each one up? Wil: This is where it flips. By about week three, your distances start to drop and your weight starts to climb. You’re still doing the three-mile ruck on Monday, but I expect you well under a 15-minute mile by now—hauling ass with that 25-pound pack, four miles, five miles, fast. Then on the longer ruck day you start building toward the 45-pound plate, and that’s where the miles get added. Bump up two miles at a time, depending on how you feel. You’ll hit a point, somewhere between 12 and 20 miles, that just sucks. It’s like running a marathon. You’re out there all day, the pack eating into your shoulders and lower back, and it’s always there—every time you take it off and put it back on, it’s worse than if you’d kept moving. And every time you stop, your feet matter. You build the calluses slowly. Push too fast and you get blisters, and then you’re back at the beginning. So Monday is my flux day—speed and weight, short distance. I can put 60 to 75 pounds in the pack. Buy a 60-pound sandbag at Home Depot, or a cement bag and tape it up. I’m not telling you to carry it 10 miles. Carry it two, carry it three. You’re building the chassis. The real work happens on the second ruck—the last day of the week, at competition weight. “I did eight miles last week. This week, 10. Next week, 13. Then 16.” You keep ramping. When my wife and I trained for GoRuck, I never hit 50 miles in training. That’s an overdo—it’d take a week to recover and I don’t need that. If I can do 30, I can do 50. The difference is your brain’s already there; the rest you just push through. “If I can do 30, I can do 50. Your brain’s already there—the rest, you just push through.” Charlie: Let me play that back. You’ve got a flux day—call it Monday—where you vary speed and weight, distance stays short. A long day—call it Friday—that mimics actual conditions. Once you’ve got a baseline, you add two miles at a time, and the flux day doubles as a gauge: if you can’t hit a 15-minute mile, you’re not ready to add distance. And underneath it all, you’re building strength in the gym. Wil: Traps, traps, traps. Shrugs, upright rows, grab the trap bar and go to town. I do a lot of jiu-jitsu, so the grabbing and pulling is built in—that helps too. The whole point is keeping them from fatiguing under the pack. The first hour or two, you’re fine. By hour four or five, you hate your life. By hour nine, you’re numb. Every time you take the pack off you get that little ahhh—then you put it back on and you’re worse than before. Then a deadlift for your lower back, squats for your legs. Build in any direction you want, but the upper shoulders are non-negotiable. You’re carrying that thing for hours. Foot care Wil: Best thing I can tell you for your feet: go slow. If they start heating up, change socks—old Army thing, always carry a clean change. I’ve worn nylon slip-socks over my regular socks so they slide against each other instead of against my skin. A blister is heat plus friction. Eliminate the friction. Carry a blister kit. I use one of those little nylon shoe-cleaning pouches the military gave out, fanny-pack-sized. In it: small pointed scissors, the kind you’d cut nose hairs with, to cut tape and lance a blister. Nail clippers—Mr. Clipper makes a flat-bladed pair; most are curved. Avoid the curved ones, because a rounded toenail digs into the toe and becomes an ingrown, and that’ll wreck you 20 miles in. Charlie: How did I get through 36 years of life without knowing this? Why don’t they teach this in school? Wil: Honestly? There’s a book, How to Get Selected for Special Forces—the guy put some of this in there. But really, just follow the hikers. They’ve figured it out forever. We ruck in SF because we go to combat with everything we own on our back. Hikers are doing the same thing—they’re just doing it for joy. One more trick: if you get a blister and don’t want to lance it, run a needle and thread through it, pull the needle out, leave the thread in. It wicks the fluid without making a mess. And mark your hot spots before they blister—tape the spot with athletic tape, then duct tape over the athletic tape. The duct tape slides; put it straight on skin and you lose half a layer when you rip it off. “A blister is heat plus friction. Eliminate the friction.” Wil: The one thing you have to learn is to shut your mind off from the pain. When I ruck, I listen to an audiobook or a podcast. Sometimes I just zone out and live in my head. In selection we couldn’t bring radios—you’re alone in the middle of nowhere with a map. I lived on two songs: Metallica’s “Enter Sandman” and Mariah Carey’s “We Belong Together.” I knew half the lyrics to each. I looped them and went into zombie mode. At some point you start picking up the pace without meaning to. There’s nothing better than doing painful, hard things while you’re in your own head. You find a bunch of answers in there. I’m in pain. I have to keep going. I can’t quit. That’s a really good thing. “I lived on Metallica’s ‘Enter Sandman’ and Mariah Carey’s ‘We Belong Together.’ I knew half the lyrics to each. I just looped them and went into zombie mode.” Gummy Bears, Sunflower Seeds, and Eating Like a Tiger Wil: I’m not a big fan of eating mid-ruck. Mike asked me once abo

    Why Green Berets Eat Gummy Bears
  2. 08/11/2023

    Lems Chads Stay Winning

    NOTE: This conversation between myself and Isaiah was recorded during a strenuous walk up a steep cemetery drive – the first of what might become a series of “Zone 2 Podcasts.” Zone 2 is the range of physical activity at which your heart rate is elevated, but you are still able to maintain a conversation (albeit with some huffing). Despite the sound quality limitations, I like this format and hope you will enjoy the freestyle discussion. However, if you want to cut to the chase, I’ve summarized the key points in a “Sweetened Condensed Transcript” below. I first crossed paths with Isaiah during the arduous 50-mile trek from Point Reyes to San Francisco in 2021. Though he came with a mutual friend, I regarded this newcomer with skepticism (as I often do). Yet over the course of those long miles, as we pushed our bodies to the brink, I discerned in him an extraordinary character and principled intellect. From the camaraderie forged on that journey blossomed a treasured friendship. The following year, Isaiah again joined our hardy crew in taking up the 50-mile challenge around all three bridges of San Francisco Bay. Stymied by poor footwear choice (hiking boots), he battled valiantly to the 35-mile mark before conceding. Throughout these tests of will and strength, his stalwart spirit shone through. In the two years since we met, my bond with Isaiah has deepened over frequent discussions on matters of consequence. Health and fitness, of course, but also technology, philosophy, and politics. He accompanied me once more on this year's 50 mile march, leading the way when doubt crept in. Without his motivation at my darkest hour, I might not have finished due to a nagging ankle injury that flared up even before the half-way mark. Now, Isaiah and I are working together to elucidate the nutritionally-dense wisdom of the late Ray Peat using the power of Large Language Models (more details on this to come). This endeavor is but one small facet of a friendship that compels me to live more boldly. I am fortunate to have comrades who spur me to greater heights. Such noble company can only bloom through ‘muscular bonding’ - swimming frigid waters, cycling, running, marching. When physical limits are tested, and conversation flows freely, that is when the human spirit ascends. I hope others will follow our example, organizing communities around such edifying activities as the 50 mile march. Together we can renew the vigor of our citizenry and rekindle faith in our national promise. Sweetened Condensed Transcript The following transcript is a recapitulation of our recent walk and talk. For a full record, listen to the audio of the conversation. Recollections and Memories of the 50 Mile March Charlie: It's amazing to look back now, a couple months later, at the 50 mile march we did in May. It feels like it's faded into the past. I'm trying to pinpoint the timing - I think it was around JFK's birthday, May 28th or 29th, which also happened to be Pentecost Sunday. That gave the march some extra meaning, falling 50 days after Easter. We planned the route carefully this time, scouting it out ahead of time by bike. The stretch from Carmel down to Santa Cruz became familiar. Still, when we set out on foot to walk the 50 miles, there was a sense of stepping into the unknown. With a few months of hindsight now, what memories stand out most from the march? What do you think you'll remember 10 years from now? Isaiah: This was the first 50 mile march I actually completed, so it sticks in my mind for that reason. I underestimated how much harder that second half would be. At the halfway point, after 25 miles, I thought I was cruising. But the final 25 miles were so much tougher mentally and physically. To finish, I just had to decide to power through wall after wall mentally, no matter how much it hurt. I don't think I've ever pushed through that much mental resistance before. Those final miles, digging deep to find the will to continue, are what will stay etched in my memory. Physical Preparation and Recovery Charlie: What was your recovery journey like? Isaiah: Yeah, I mean, when we first got back to where we were staying that night, I was just too mentally tired and needed to sleep. I remember waking up really hungry but unable to move. Luckily I had some beef sticks within reach from the bed. The main lingering issue for me was foot pain. I did the march in minimalist shoes, which wasn't ideal for all the concrete. Charlie: Yeah, we both wore Lems, minimalist shoes. And you know what they say, “Lems Chads Stay Winning.” The fact that you stuck it out is a testament to both your chadliness and your winningness. Isaiah: For most of the second half my left foot hurt so much it changed my gait, which made my calves super sore behind my knees. Charlie: I wondered if my ankle thing was from some kind of compensation too. I feel like I was betrayed by some of the GOATA principles around biomechanics that I thought would be protective. Maybe we're not meant to move in prescribed "perfect" ways all the time. My natural gait got me through the first times just fine. Walking doesn't require glycolytic energy like resistance training. But this march challenged my body's endurance at a deeper cellular level. I didn't give myself the recovery time needed afterwards, which pushed me onto the wrong side of the hormetic curve. There's an ideal level of stress that's growth promoting, but too much becomes damaging. I’ve wondered about the best nutrition strategy for ultra endurance – whether to train in a fat-burning ketogenic state, versus fueling with quick-burning sugars during the march itself. In past marches I’ve experimented with bone broths and avocados rather than sugary snacks. But this year the halfway point cafe – aptly named The Power Plant – with its sugar shots was an oasis that powered me through. The Mental Game of Pushing Through Adversity Charlie: Was the main difference this year your footwear, or was it more about your mental commitment to finish no matter what? Isaiah: It was a combination of both. The footwear allowed me to get deep into the march and feel mentally ready to finish the last 10 miles. Last year the blisters from my boots changed my gait in a way I couldn't push through. But ultimately, it's like 80% a mental game. Lots of people physically can walk 50 miles - it's the pain you have to suffer through. This was the only time I've powered through that much mental resistance. Charlie: I see committing to and following through on hard things as a superpower. But there's a risk of not honoring commitments, which weakens your ability to bind your future self. For instance, I planned to start an extended fast today, but I ended up having some fruit because I was feeling weak. It's a point of shame, but also a lesson in listening to my body's signals at times. So where do you draw the line between foolish persistence and admirable grit? Isaiah: You can't consolidate it to one line. You always need to balance competing priorities. But the 50 mile march is a contained way to train your ability to push through when you hit a wall mentally. That can help you navigate those situations later in life. Training for Life and Doing Hard Things Charlie: I like to talk about the march as training for life, and then life trains you for the march. Walking develops grit that helps in daily life. And daily challenges train grit that makes the 50 mile march possible. What do you think - will average Americans start waking up to taking responsibility for their own health and getting outside their comfort zone? Isaiah: There's something virtuous and charismatic about taking care of your health. Most people have the opposite problem - outsourcing their health to a corrupt medical system. So encouraging self-responsibility for health is a positive vision that can wake people up. Like a high school girl wanting to get fit - the pure act of caring for your health inevitably wakes some people up. Charlie: My long term strategy is less about political change and more about building community around vital physical culture. Hopefully many decentralized groups emerge. They can subtly interconnect to foment change when the time is right. Any subculture of people taking health into their own hands plants seeds of a new enlightenment. I'm hatching plans for next year's 50 mile march already - notably, more cushioned shoes! Always remember, Lem's chads stay winning. The first 50-mile march was actually organized by a student from my high school, Redwood High, after being inspired by RFK’s feat. The ripples continue to spread. The Political Backdrop and Motivation Charlie: The 50 mile march this year had a political backdrop. Politics seems like an impossible mountain to climb. I've oscillated between ignoring it and morbid fascination. Dysfunction in politics causes so much pointless suffering - from environmental poisons to sick care designed to profit from disease. What do you see as the main political conflict today? Where are the battle lines drawn? Isaiah: Corporatism is the reigning ideology. Even many on the right claiming capitalism actually defend the status quo corporatism. The rot we see - environmental degradation, chemical pollution, microplastics - comes from an unprincipled system with immense power. It's not a grand conspiracy, just many little ones by bureaucrats and corporate interests wielding state power for self-gain. Charlie: Yes, rather than a grand conspiracy, it's the accumulation of errors over decades. Economist Robert Higgs called it the "ratchet effect" - government can't admit failure, so each new policy doubles down, making things worse. We need credible opposing narratives. Where do you see the rot most apparent? Isaiah: The vaccine issue has opened minds. The failure of the Covid vaccines makes people reconsider the childhood vaccines. Realizing that from birth the system has b

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A resource for recovering marijuana addicts on recovering a natural, healthy functioning of the endocannabinoid system, plus my personal experiences overcoming marijuana addiction and going after all those lost, forgotten pipe dreams. www.charliedeist.com