Bloom Stories

Amelia Derry & Katie Hallett

Welcome to Bloom. The podcast where mums share their unfiltered experiences of pregnancy, birth, the fourth trimester and beyond. We hope these stories help you to feel informed and empowered, wherever you are on your own journey – because every mum is a Blooming superhero.

  1. 26. Poppy : When your baby is stillborn at 35 weeks

    09/28/2023

    26. Poppy : When your baby is stillborn at 35 weeks

    Poppy’s story feels incredibly important to tell and I am really grateful that she has entrusted us with it. In the UK today, it is estimated that 1 in 4 pregnancies end in loss during pregnancy or birth (source) yet, loss is usually only talked about behind closed doors. Poppy has been strong enough to share her story which includes giving birth to Daphne, her second baby, who was still born at 35 weeks. In speaking about the hardest days of her life, I know that Poppy will help other mothers who have lost babies feel less alone and she also shares valuable resources that can help any mothers out there who are dealing with grief. When you lose a baby, they are still your baby, they are a part of you forever and they never leave you. We hope that by giving Daphne’s story a home, it in some very tiny way lets her live on. TRIGGER WARNING We talk about a lot, including loss and still birth: A beautiful, straight forward first pregnancyWanting the picture perfect dreamy natural birthUnderestimating the pain involved in labourThe influence of the prep course you choose to go onFundamentally disagreeing with the idea that “You’ve failed” if you’ve not had the fairy lights, birth pool, no pain medication birthThe fear of going into the unknown and not knowing how far the pain will goSettling into the rhythm of contractions and working out the best positions and coping methods over the hours of labourA practical partner getting you through the many wobbles of “I can’t do this”Oxytocin drip to advance labourSleeping in between contractionsSickness with pethadin injectionAsking for an epidural, too lateThe perfect first hour holding your new babyNew and unexpected depths of loveA wonderful surprise at being pregnant againSecret “lockdown” pregnancyNoticing at 34weeks that baby isn't kicking“I’m sorry”Realising your baby no longer has a heartbeatBeing sent home to wait for a phone call, knowing your baby is dead inside youA weirdly “normal” labour in a bereavement suiteInto surgery to remove the placentaCuddle cots and memory boxesWonderfully compassionate bereavement midwivesFollow up support and care at hospitalThe grief poolFeeling like a new mother, without a babyI need a babyGetting pregnant again quicklyThe daily and constant anxiety having lost one babyMaternity leave after a still birthThe innocence of life being infallible, taken awayA beautiful, quick third birthA day in family life todayA hilarious encounter with a tower of scotch eggsThe people and organisations who have helped manage grief and their lossAdvice for mothers who have lost babies, from someone who is living it too

    59 min
  2. 25. Emily : Three babies (and c-sections) under five

    09/19/2023

    25. Emily : Three babies (and c-sections) under five

    Emily has had a whirlwind ten years. From relocating her whole life from Hertfordshire to the Midlands in order to live with her partner, to having three babies under five, to being made redundant whilst pregnant with her second child, to becoming self-employed and learning to juggle childcare as well as the very different needs of her three beautiful children. Emily has it all going on and she’s somehow managing to keep it all together without day to day support from family, who live on the other side of the country. We talk about her three c-sections and what her secret is to staying afloat.In this episode we talk about: Moving to the other side of the country and having no family nearbyBeing made redundant and becoming self-employedThe fear before bedtime, not knowing what type of night you’re going to getTaking it slower and more gently third time roundTrying to relax while there’s chaos around youHoping and trying to get pregnant then feeling sad when it becomes a realityFinding it tough when friends aren’t in the same stage as youThe experience of prior pregnancies giving you more confidence in your judgements and knowing when to worry vs notBuying other parent friends through NCTWaters breakingBeing induced but nothing happeningAn emergency c-sectionNot eating for 26 hoursAsking for morphine!Being discharged a few hours after a c-sectionA lockdown pregnancy and birthThe unexpected joy of having no visitors in hospitalA hole in uterus after the first c-sectionPainful post labour contractions with third babyInfected c-section scarTrying to rest and recover whilst having a toddler jumping all over youWhat to be careful of after a c-sectionBeing tempted to rush recovery and it always being a mistakeLife post third c-sectionThird child born at 38 weeksFeeling so much more confident third time roundStruggling to introduce a bottle at four months following breastfeedingLearning to feel comfortable breastfeeding in front of family or in publicThe constraints of breastfeeding and wanting more than an hour to yourselfIntroducing one bottle in the evening and breastfeeding the rest of the dayWhen your career stalls and your partners carries onBeing made redundant while pregnant with second childSuper grannies rallying round to help with childcareCatering to three children with very different needs

    1h 2m
  3. 24. Megs : Twins and the hidden conflicts of motherhood

    08/06/2023

    24. Megs : Twins and the hidden conflicts of motherhood

    The highest highs, the lowest lows. The elation seeing a positive test, followed by the terrible grief of miscarriage. Trying to become pregnant again, yet unable to accept the fact when it happens. A physically healthy twin pregnancy, filled with anxiety. Needing help, but not wanting it when it arrives. Instagram vs the reality of life with newborns. The torture of two cries and having to decide who first. Wanting to do it all yourself and the guilt when it is impossible. Feeling entirely in love with your babies, yet wondering “why did we rush this”? Meg’s journey to motherhood is full of the contradictions and inner conflicts that are relatable to so many mothers. Together, we dive into them all and discover how Megs is navigating them all with her two beautiful boys. In this episode we talk about: A stressful eight months trying to conceiveFirst ever panic attackLosing a first baby: the deep and enduring griefThe role of social media in shaping unrealistic expectations inducing unnecessary stressA very quick second conceptionStruggling to accept the second pregnancy after prior lossChose to live in ignorance as long as possible as a coping mechanismFinding out there were two heart beatsHigh intensity cognitive behavioural therapy due to high levels of anxiety and disbeliefTwo weeks miscarriage leave from workHeart burn and acid refluxBecoming proud of your stretch marksWeight gain post birthStruggling with the idea of a caesarianWhy the anaesthetist is your best friend during a c-sectionWhen baby is taken to intensive careHolding both babies for the first time, at three days oldTube feeding and jaundiceThe car journey home on a sunny Easter SundayTaking it day by day, nappy by nappy, feed by feedEnvy of those with one babyA brutal reality checkBreastfeeding and pumping for twinsNeed help so badly but finding it so hard to see someone else looking after your babyThe torture of hearing two cries and having to choose

    1h 15m

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Welcome to Bloom. The podcast where mums share their unfiltered experiences of pregnancy, birth, the fourth trimester and beyond. We hope these stories help you to feel informed and empowered, wherever you are on your own journey – because every mum is a Blooming superhero.