Truly, what a time to be alive. Sometimes though it can feel like the whole world has been cast into darkness, for us all to be swallowed whole by this immense pressure of living through what we are living through. And then… this thought comes to mind, what if we have all been brought here at this time to witness this, and perhaps be the ones to make a change? This small sliver of hope, this tiny ray of sunshine breaking through clouds that have darkened the sky for an age. A collective breath inhaled to ask questions, to be present, a feeling of what if it could be different? We are always constantly changing. Whether we try to control it, or fight it, or go with the flow, change is always changing us. And as the world at large changes, we can begin to question what is my purpose? Why am I here? What is the point or reason for my experiences, for my life? Whether you feel as if you are heralding in the new way of being or simply showing up, connecting to the world at large has never been so easy, so instant. Every question we have come to mind can be answered in seconds. And not too long ago it would take eons to create and deliver a message and to cross seas, now in less than the time it takes me to type this sentence, a whole conversation could occur across the world and back again. We are able to witness in real time monumental world events and happenings. Time is speeding up in the delivery of communication. And yet, we feel so disconnected. We feel alone, we feel an isolation deeper than I can remember in my life. This constant onslaught of new new new means we have lost our sense of self, our sense of roots planted. We feel lost, cast adrift, without anchor. As a creative, it feels really scary and almost distasteful to bring rays of hope or love, to birth something new into the world that isn’t focused on conflict. It’s like if you are not on this side or that, but somewhere in the middle just wanting all sides to calm down, protecting both sides from each other… this I see as the role of the protector, a role I am very familiar with. And it can feel really triggering with all the conflict that we are experiencing. The sides and the separation, reminding us of our childhood experiences, triggering deep wounds of needing to choose a side, of someone being right or wrong, of someone winning or losing. Choosing creativity in times of chaos can feel childlike or like you are sidestepping the bigger picture, though without free thought and creativity, there can be no way out. Without the courage it takes to be creative, we shall loose our voice. I am a creative, I am intelligent and I now see that my intelligence is part of my light. I see that my experience as a child and teenager was shaped by this compartmentalisation. I went to a selective high school, an academic high school and the most common statement when people find this out is - ‘oh you must’ve been smart’. I was, and I am. But I always felt as a creative I was a round peg trying to fit into a square hole, as you could not be both. The upbringing I had was that creative pursuits were wasting my intelligence. What use is my intelligence if it has been shut down since childhood because of a society where you cannot be both? I dimmed my own intelligence so as to not appear too smart, too wise, I played dumb to make others feel safe. This was also dimming my light, my expression. For if how I see the world is different, or if I see the beauty and I share this simplicity with you, then perhaps in your day you see the beauty also. Simplistic, childlike, and intelligent. The creatives role here is to remind us in so many different ways to stop for a moment and witness beauty, to open our minds, to challenge our perceptions. For if we want to be robots, without thought, all grey and beige, then why has nature, an ever-changing expanse of colour, beauty and movement, an always changing canvas, such a place of solitude and solace for the creative spirit? What is my intention for doing all that I do? Why do I do this kind of work? What is my driving force? And the simple answer is all about creativity. The more I feel that we trust ourselves, the more that we understand ourselves, the more that free thought has room to flourish. Not only free thought, we start to question what is good for us or not, what is a yes or no for us and this opens autonomy, sovereignty of our body, our heart, our mind. How does knowing myself change the way I show up? Change my relationships? Change the work I put out? By trusting myself I have courage. By believing in myself, courage comes easily. Being courageous means that I easily can be vulnerable. Vulnerable with my words and actions. My vulnerability then allows others to feel safe. Safe for them to be vulnerable also, safe to express, safe to be creative. Seeing different ways of things, different perspectives, more perspectives than before. Our intentions are so powerful, our own imprint, our blueprint. The words we speak or how we act changes with our intention and our energy. The same sentence spoken can have a multitude of meanings with the intention and energy behind it. Intention and energy are felt, and are the truth of the words spoken. Everything is already held within consciousness, every thought, every idea, every invention, every love ever to exist here, now, past, future. All is held within consciousness, and your capacity for free thought and connection to consciousness allows your magic to interpret this information and deliver in such a way that is unique for you. When we believe in ourself, when we love ourself, this creativity just bubbles up from within us. This is freedom, this is flow state, you feel safe to express, you feel safe to share your magic. Writing is a part of my creative expression. When I am in flow with my writing, I sit here in my little armchair and I simply write the channel that is wanting to come through. My process is simple. I play my music, I make my tea, I close my eyes and feel into the seed planted of what the title is. The title always comes first, and then the subtitle. These roll around in my mind before I begin. I have no idea where the channel will go, or what reference the title means. I can have an idea, but more often than not, I am surprised as to what comes through. I write the channel, paragraph by paragraph without wanting to change or edit. I just get it all out. I step away from it, I let it simmer and mature, sometimes for a few hours, sometimes a few days. I never stop the flow of the channel for it to be ‘perfect’. Maybe after the pause I move paragraphs around, edit, add to it, but the channel always comes through so much more lyrical or poetic than anything my mind could formulate. I trust the process. I trust the message. I trust myself to get out of the way and let it all flow. Channeling consciousness, being in flow, means something different to each of us. It could be preparing the most delicious, nourishing or loving meal you can make for your family, you could channel which way is the easiest route while driving, you can channel while speaking, making art, music, writing. Channeling is a way of experiencing consciousness in that meditative state with your eyes wide open. When I write, it is freedom to allow my thoughts to be put to the side, my feelings freely expressed. They are wanting me to talk about my process here as it is helpful in the ways of journalling and beginning your path of writing, it’s helpful in the ways of recording your experiences. If a thought pops in (for instance about this creativity piece), when our belief in self, when our trust in self is strong, we start listening to our inner voice and our higher self, we start trusting in communicating with our heart, we love our mind, this is flow. This is alignment, this is our body in communion and union with consciousness. And so letting the channel come through or letting a thought pop in I kinda just stop and I let it sit, I let it expand, let it bloom and then I allow consciousness to write through me. It’s a process in understanding what works for you, how it flows through you. So say you have a thought, an idea… this is the seed. We want that tree to grow to full fruition. We think wow thats a great idea, and we try to take action on it but it’s still in sapling stage. Or you are trying to take action but it hasn’t yet fully grown, or you are trying to take action on it but the leaves and the branches haven’t spread, and the fruit hasn’t come to ripen. When the fruit comes to ripen, this is the moment of harvest. So perhaps you have an idea and that growth period is a day, perhaps that growth period is a week, perhaps that growth period is a year. It’s noticing and feeling into the idea and noticing what stage it is at. Knowing your process is key. The pause is paramount and the action of writing creates space. I hesitate banging on too much about writing but heck I’m a writer. I’m a writer! I have my book now live on amazon and if you can believe it, people are actually buying it and reading it. Crazy huh! The process of writing free… took two years from start to finish. On and off. Months writing it, months off, then it was complete. I kept fiddling with it, adding to it, editing it, giving it space to breathe, for me to have space from it also. Still now I could go back and change so much of it. But it carries the energy of my time before leaving Sydney, it carries the energy of while I was in Mexico and America. And in that time, I was a different person to who is here now. And so to honour that version of me and what I went through, I have tried to keep it as close to my energy and emotion from that time. Creativity is a life force within us all. It is built over time when we have trust and belief in ourself, and when we see ourselves as the greatest power in our life. That is not to say I
