The Impossible Podcast

Matthew Hill and Austin Douglas

Welcome to The Impossible, the official podcast of Impossible Performance, where we explore humanity in the Face of Impossible challenge.  Our hosts Matt Hill and Austin Douglas are both cancer survivors who have faced The Impossible through near death experience, disease, PTSD, and addiction.  Since overcoming these challenges, they now use the principles they learned from these difficult experiences to Be Impossible and Do the Impossible in business and athletics.  Join us as we hear stories of those who have Faced the Impossible and learn how you can Be Impossible, building a version of yourself who is capable of overcoming any challenge you face...capable of Doing the Impossible! At Impossible Performance, we strive to build a global culture of strength, fostering a spirit of growth in constant pursuit of The Impossible. Thank you for listening and as always... Be Impossible

  1. 16h ago

    I Was Living My Priorities Backwards Until Cancer Stopped Me

    Three weeks after major kidney cancer surgery, Matt Hill is back, and his health is improving. In this solo episode he talks about who he woke up as. Before surgery, Matt kept saying he didn’t know who he would be on the other side. This is the answer. For most of 2026 he ran on four hours of sleep, skipped training and worked past midnight. He thought that was the Be Impossible mindset. Then a biopsy complication, two ER visits and a hard warning from his surgeon stopped everything: slow down, or the surgery gets pushed to January, when his son is due. What he found: his priorities had never changed (health, family, business). He had been living them in reverse order. Limits may not exist, but our time, energy and focus are finite, and that makes them precious. If you feel guilty about where your time is going, that guilt is telling you something. In this episode: Why so many of us know our priorities but don’t live by them What a day on four hours of sleep was really costing him The ER visit that changed how Matt saw his whole year The changes he made: health back at number one, sleep, and time with family without guilt Why his work got better, not worse A simple priority audit you can do this week Download the Impossible app: https://impossibleperformance.com/app  Shop the new Impossible Performance apparel: https://impossibleperformance.com/apparel  Hear Matt before surgery: https://youtu.be/ZMcU6-jKoBA?si=SMq5yej1mecvet_A  If this episode helped you, share it with someone who needs it. That’s how we grow. Shared in their own words; not medical advice. #kidneycancer #cancersurvivor #beimpossible Support the show

    I Was Living My Priorities Backwards Until Cancer Stopped Me
  2. Oct 27

    Weeks After a 727-Pound Squat, His Body Was Shutting Down - Paul Maxsween

    Weeks After a 727-Pound Squat, His Body Was Shutting Down He was the strongest he had ever been; and he had no idea how close he was to not being here at all. A year ago, Paul McSween deadlifted 701 pounds and squatted 727 in the same week. Days before his meet, he went to the ER feeling lightheaded and found out his body was in metabolic collapse: active pancreatitis, dangerously high blood sugar, and triglycerides so high they maxed out the hospital’s machine. Doctors were stunned he was walking around at all. What followed was nearly a week on an insulin drip, a list of diagnoses, and a hard question with a son on the way: what now? Paul’s answer was to take ownership. He walked back into the gym weeks later and squatted 606. With his endocrinologist, a dietitian and his coach, he rebuilt every pillar: medical, nutrition, training and recovery. He talks honestly about starting a GLP-1 and why it isn’t cheating, losing his gallbladder six months in, and treating recovery as seriously as training. He competed in two Highland Games, and he’s down more than 60 pounds and three weight classes while getting stronger pound for pound. Now he’s heading back to the platform healthier than he’s ever been, and close to coming off his medications. It’s not a stopper; it’s a redirection. Pick a date, commit, and go. Shared in Paul’s own words; his diagnoses, medications and treatment were managed by his own medical team. This is his personal account, not medical advice. 🎧 The Impossible Podcast | Impossible Performance IG @impossible.performance · www.impossibleperformance.com ❤️‍🔥 Support the show

    Weeks After a 727-Pound Squat, His Body Was Shutting Down - Paul Maxsween
  3. Oct 13

    A Sub-5 Mile and a 500-Pound Squat in One Day: The Dad of Four With a Day Job - With Ben Barker

    A Sub-5 Mile and a 500-Pound Squat in One Day: The Dad of Four With a Day Job The most impressive thing about Ben isn’t the 500-pound squat; it’s that he does it with four kids, a full-time job, and a business on the side. Ben Barker helps dads build their lives on faith, fitness and fatherhood, and he’s honest that he’s still working on all three. In this conversation he and Matt trade the practical: one-on-one “dates” with each kid, bringing your children into the things you already have to do, giving them a real role in the family, and getting good at apologizing when you lose your temper. For any dad starting from out of shape and overwhelmed, his advice is simple: make one small change. Start walking. Discipline begets discipline. They also talk about why men need something hard to pursue, why performance goals beat the scale, writing your family’s core values together, and letting your kids watch you fail and try again. Then the conversation turns personal, as Matt shares what facing a second cancer has meant for him as a father, and the two talk about how to build a legacy that stays with your kids long after you’re gone. Don’t tell your kids to have a good day; teach them to make it one. Connect with Ben: Instagram @benbarkerfitness 🎧 The Impossible Podcast | Impossible Performance IG @impossible.performance · www.impossibleperformance.com ❤️‍🔥 Support the show

    A Sub-5 Mile and a 500-Pound Squat in One Day: The Dad of Four With a Day Job - With Ben Barker
  4. Oct 6

    One Week Before Cancer Surgery: The Story I'm Choosing to Tell Myself

    One Week Before Cancer Surgery: The Story I'm Choosing to Tell Myself At 18, he was wheeled down a cold, too-bright hallway to have his leg amputated. Thirteen years later, he's walking that same hallway again. Matt recorded this in the week before surgery for a second cancer: not a return of the Ewing sarcoma he survived in 2013, but a new, stage one kidney cancer, caught early after a GI bleed in June and most likely caused by the chemotherapy that saved his life the first time. In his own words, he walks through how different this diagnosis feels. Last time the question was whether he would survive. This time the questions are about his family: can he still be the husband and father he wants to be, with his wife Lauren six months pregnant with their first son? Plenty of people have called it the worst possible timing. Matt and Lauren chose a different story: how fortunate they are that a new life is coming, and what a gift waits on the other side. That choice is the heart of this episode. Every hardship can be told two ways, and the story you choose shapes who you become inside it. He's honest that the fear is still there; he feels it rise as he speaks. But he goes into surgery trusting the man who will wake up from it. The key to life isn't happiness; it's peace, and peace can be built in the presence of any emotion. Shared in Matt's own words; his diagnosis, prognosis and treatment are his personal account, not medical advice. 🎧 The Impossible Podcast | Impossible Performance IG @impossible.performance · www.impossibleperformance.com ❤️‍🔥 Support the show

    One Week Before Cancer Surgery: The Story I'm Choosing to Tell Myself
  5. Sep 29

    Two Veterans Are Opening a Gym for Anyone Stuck in a Dark Place - With Dave Hall and Terry Miller

    Two Veterans Are Opening a 24-Hour Gym for Anyone Stuck in a Dark Place Some come home from war and find the fight was never the hardest part. Terry Miller returns to the show, this time with Dave Hall, an Army veteran with two tours in Iraq, and together they're opening Iron Valor Barbell in Reynoldsburg, Ohio: a 24-hour strength gym built around serving veterans and open to anyone who needs a place to train hard with no drama. They talk honestly about what coming home felt like without a mission; nights spent drinking just to sleep; 2020 isolation forcing a decision; and what pulled them out: goals, training, community, and finally the right counselor. Matt shares his own version: surviving cancer when he wasn't expected to, and feeling nothing when it was over. The conversation turns to the friends they've lost to suicide, and what they tell everyone now. Get out of your head. Set a goal. Do something hard. Sleep on it. Make tomorrow count; and if you're carrying the ones you lost, live the best life you can for them. The pain doesn't go away; it gets passed on. Pass it on into something that builds you. Terry and Dave share their experiences in their own words, including suicide, addiction, and medication; this is their personal account, not medical advice. If you're struggling, you're not alone: call or text 988 (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline, US) any time. Veterans: dial 988 and press 1, or text 838255 to reach the Veterans Crisis Line. Iron Valor Barbell: Reynoldsburg, Ohio (Columbus area) 🎧 The Impossible Podcast | Impossible Performance IG @impossible.performance · www.impossibleperformance.com ❤️‍🔥 Join our FREE Online Community to learn more about out Message ❤️‍🔥: https://www.skool.com/the-orion-collective-8700 For 1: 1 Performance Coaching, click this Link 🏆: https://impossibleperformance.com/ Support the show

    Two Veterans Are Opening a Gym for Anyone Stuck in a Dark Place - With Dave Hall and Terry Miller
  6. Sep 22

    His First Bodybuilding Show Ever, and He Walked Off With a Pro Card - With OCB Pro Russell Holland

    The trophy lasts a day; the individual you build to earn it lasts a lifetime. Russell Holland lost his mother at seventeen, grew up without his father, and was working two and three jobs at a time before he realized the path he was on had only one ending. Structure saved him: a football coach who saw something worth fighting for, a scholarship to military school, and eventually the Navy. Somewhere in all of it, the gym became home. His first time on stage, after a seven-week prep he'd never put a client through today, he won his natural pro card. In this conversation, Russ opens up about betting on himself after leaving the Navy, the peak-week details most competitors miss, why most people quit their prep by week six, what enhancement does to the mind as well as the body, and the simple Standard he coaches by: master the basics, because the basics are the hard part. He's also Diamond Decker's coach and partner; if you caught her episode, this is the other half of the story. A poorly written plan executed every single day will beat a perfect plan executed half the time. Adherence is the Standard. Russ shares his story in his own words, including a period of real darkness in his life. If you're struggling, you're not alone: call or text 988 (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline, US) any time. Nutrition and peak-week figures discussed are his personal protocol for competition only; not medical or nutritional advice. Connect with Russell: Coaching: In Russ We Trust Coaching Instagram: @russyy_russ_fit_official Catch Russ and Diamond at the Ben Weider, November 13th and 14th. 🎧 The Impossible Podcast | Impossible Performance Instagram: @impossible.performance www.impossibleperformance.com Building the individual who builds the outcome. ❤️‍🔥 Join our FREE Online Community to learn more about out Message ❤️‍🔥: https://www.skool.com/the-orion-collective-8700 For 1:1 Performance Coaching, click this Link  https://impossibleperformance.com/app Support the show

    His First Bodybuilding Show Ever, and He Walked Off With a Pro Card - With OCB Pro Russell Holland
  7. Sep 22

    This Mindset took me to the Olympics...and Beyond - With Amputee Sprinter Sydney Barta

    All links: https://impossibleperformance.com/ Some people survive the day that changes everything; a rare few decide, in hindsight, that it was the best day they ever had. At six years old, on a crisp and windy morning at a fun run, Sydney was standing exactly where her mother told her to wait when a race banner caught the wind and came down on her foot. Twenty-one surgeries, compartment syndrome, and four months in the hospital later, the decision was made that would define her life. She does not tell this as a tragedy; she tells it as the luckiest day she has known, because the banner missed her head, she kept her life, and in the loss she found a Purpose she is certain she would never have discovered otherwise. What she built from there is staggering: a Paralympic sprinter at seventeen, an American record holder, a Stanford bioengineer bound for Oxford and then medical school, with the aim of becoming the orthopedic surgeon she never had — one who is also an amputee. Along the way she and Matt trade hard-won lessons on being your own advocate in a system that too often talks past the patient; on the myth of the limitation you accept before you ever test it; and on the strange, uncomfortable courage it takes to rest when every instinct says push. As their shirt reads: Limitations do not exist; almost all of them are chosen before they are ever hit. Who's to say whether you can or cannot; but you can know, for a fact, that you can try. Shared in her own words; personal medical experiences and decisions are her account, not medical advice. With guest Sydney Barta · IG @sydney.barta  🎧 The Impossible Podcast | Impossible Performance IG @impossible.performance · www.impossibleperformance.com ❤️‍🔥 0:00 Meet Sydney: Paris, Stanford, and the Paralympics 5:36 The Day a Race Banner Fell 7:37 Why She Calls It the Luckiest Day of Her Life 14:15 21 Surgeries and the Decision Her Mother Faced 18:26 Amputation vs. Limb Salvage: Her Honest Take 25:31 You Know Your Body Better Than Any Doctor 34:29 Limitations Do Not Exist 39:18 Tokyo at Seventeen: Breaking the American Record 41:34 Finding Her People in Adaptive Sport 46:45 Five Impossible Goals, Written Down 48:49 The No-Excuses Default 56:05 When the Hardest Thing to Do Is Rest 58:05 I Am Strong Enough to Not Finish This Workout 1:03:46 What's Next: Oxford, Med School, and LA 2028 Support the show

    This Mindset took me to the Olympics...and Beyond - With Amputee Sprinter Sydney Barta
  8. Sep 15

    How Squatting 500 lbs is Helping me Battle Cancer - with Matthew Hill

    Some skills are built for years before you learn what they were being built for. Matt opens in the warm-up room of a meet last August: 402 pounds on the bar, a hundred under his opener, and a grinding, ugly rep that nearly did not go up. In minutes he had to walk onto a platform with a hundred people watching and put 500 pounds on his back, as an amputee athlete squatting on a prosthetic rated to hold less than the weight already on him. What he describes next is not confidence and not the absence of fear. It is the skill he had actually been training under that bar for eight years: building peace within fear. His argument is that the popular advice is simply wrong. Fear cannot be eradicated; it is woven into us the same way love and hope and faith are. There are no good emotions and no bad ones, only emotions, and every one of them carries power that will be expressed one way or another. Either it consumes you, or you build the trained capacity to stay in command of yourself inside it. He takes it through the whole meet, including the attempt he completely failed, and the turnaround minutes later that he counts among the proudest moments of his life. Then he turns to why it matters. There are chosen impossible challenges and unchosen ones, and the chosen ones exist to build the skill for the day the unchosen arrives. A year after that lift, Matt is facing a second cancer diagnosis; stage one, and in his own words a reality he is still working to fully accept. What is different this time, he says, is that there was no paralysis, no numbness, no not knowing how to move. He closes with the three practices he is using right now: recognize the emotion, take command of your narrative, and accept every possible outcome. Peace is not the absence of the storm; it is who you remain inside it. Shared in Matt's own words; his diagnosis and medical situation are his personal account, not medical advice. 🎧 The Impossible Podcast | Impossible Performance IG @impossible.performance · www.impossibleperformance.com ❤️‍🔥 0:00 The Skill I Did Not Choose to Learn 1:36 402 Pounds, and the Rep That Nearly Did Not Go Up 4:13 Why the Squat Was Never About Squatting 5:12 You Cannot Eradicate Fear 6:30 There Are No Good or Bad Emotions 8:33 What "Trained Capacity" Actually Means 10:03 Strong and Unwell at the Same Time 20:20 The Opener, and Then the Failure 21:11 Turning Around Minutes After Failing 26:33 Chosen Impossibles and Unchosen Ones 29:12 Facing It a Second Time 43:31 What Peace Actually Is 49:28 Step One: Recognize the Emotion 52:45 Step Two: Take Control of Your Narrative 54:29 Step Three: Accept the Outcome Support the show

    How Squatting 500 lbs is Helping me Battle Cancer - with Matthew Hill
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Welcome to The Impossible, the official podcast of Impossible Performance, where we explore humanity in the Face of Impossible challenge.  Our hosts Matt Hill and Austin Douglas are both cancer survivors who have faced The Impossible through near death experience, disease, PTSD, and addiction.  Since overcoming these challenges, they now use the principles they learned from these difficult experiences to Be Impossible and Do the Impossible in business and athletics.  Join us as we hear stories of those who have Faced the Impossible and learn how you can Be Impossible, building a version of yourself who is capable of overcoming any challenge you face...capable of Doing the Impossible! At Impossible Performance, we strive to build a global culture of strength, fostering a spirit of growth in constant pursuit of The Impossible. Thank you for listening and as always... Be Impossible