The Voice of Ash

Ashley LaButte
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The Voice of Ash is a podcast for high-functioning women who are tired of performing their lives and ready to come home to themselves. Hosted by shadow work coach Ashley LaButte, this space is where emotions become wisdom, self-betrayal turns into self-trust, and healing goes deeper than mindset shifts. Through raw conversations, embodiment practices, personal stories, and powerful reflections, you will learn how to stop abandoning yourself, become friends with your shadow instead of fighting it, and make grounded choices that align with who you truly are. Not who you were taught to be. The Voice of Ash represents what rises after everything false burns away. Ash is what remains after transformation (the truth, the clarity, the real self beneath the masks). This podcast is about finding your voice after survival, after people-pleasing, after living for everyone else. It is the sound of becoming who you actually are. This journey is not perfect and is messy. If you are emotionally intelligent, self-aware, and ready to stop living on autopilot, this is where your rebirth begins. Transformation isn’t loud. It is honest. It is embodied. It is powerful. Welcome to The Voice of Ash. Where you rise from what no longer serves you and step into who you are becoming.

  1. 3h ago

    Healing Trauma from the Inside Out

    Content warning: This episode contains discussion of sexual trauma and manipulation. Please listen with care. This is one of the most vulnerable episodes Ashley has ever recorded. No outline. No polish. Just her trusting the pull to share something she has been quietly processing in therapy for months. In this raw and unfiltered episode Ashley opens up about a sexual trauma from her twenties — being manipulated into a sexual act after clearly saying no — and what it has actually looked like to process that through EMDR therapy, energy work, dreams, and shadow work. She talks about the anger, the grief, the sadness, the full moon nightmare that connected all the dots, and the moment she realized her body had been holding this for years. This episode is for anyone who has ever minimized something that happened to them because they thought it wasn't big enough to hurt this much. It was. It does. And your body knows. In this episode: What EMDR actually is and how Ashley adapted it to work for her nervous systemThe full moon nightmare that mirrored her sexual trauma almost exactlyWhy dreams are your subconscious mind's way of processing what hasn't been healed yetHow being neurodivergent makes traumatic events hit harder and stay longerThe connection between the body, sexual trauma, and energetic releaseWhy your body is always there to protect you — even when you abandon itHow much capacity you can hold for others is directly tied to how much work you've done on yourselfThe difference between people who have done the inner work and those who haven'tWhy shadow work and energy healing go hand in hand for AshleyA new offering: energy healing sessions now available — details in the show noteshttps://thevoiceofash.cohere.live/intuitiveenergyhealingsession

  2. Sep 16

    The Loudest Voice in Your Head Is Usually the Liar

    There are two voices living inside of you. One is loud, constant, exhausting, and fills in every gap of uncertainty with a story — usually a harsh one. The other is quiet, calm, and tells you exactly what is true — even when it's scary to hear. One is the storyteller. One is the truth teller. And most of us have been letting the wrong one run the show our entire lives. In this episode Ashley breaks down these two powerful archetypes, where they come from psychologically and spiritually, and how to actually tell the difference between them in real time. She gets personal about how this shows up in her own life around her intuitive gifts, her voice, and the friendships where she's finally learning to speak the whole truth. This is the episode for anyone who has ever believed a story their brain made up — and never stopped to ask if it was actually true. In this episode: What the storyteller actually is and why your brain needs it to surviveWhy the storyteller is loud and the truth teller is a whisper — and the neuroscience behind itHow to tell the difference between the two in real timeThe three psychological frameworks that explain why the storyteller is so convincing — negative bias, parts work, and somaticsWhy the body always knows before the mind does — and how to use thatHow this connects directly to last week's episode on finding your voiceThe shadow work exercise that made Ashley realize how often she was holding back her truthA simple four step practice to question the stories your brain is runningThe one question that changes everything: where is the proof?You only get to listen to one voice at a time — and you actually get to choose which one

  3. Sep 9

    Your Voice Is Your Birthright

    During a meditation, Ashley saw a vision of a corset. Tight. Suffocating. And suddenly everything clicked — for generations women were literally structured into silence. When you can't breathe deeply, you can't speak fully. And that physical silencing became an internal one that so many of us are still carrying today. In this episode Ashley gets personal about her own relationship with her voice — from a childhood car ride where she was told she had the voice of a backup singer, to the corporate world that taught her speaking up was a liability, to the slow, messy, unglamorous process of actually learning to use it again. This one is for anyone who swallows their truth so often it starts to feel normal. In this episode: The corset meditation that reframed everything she understood about silencingWhy controlling people starts with silencing them — and how that shows up everywhereThe childhood car ride comment that planted roots and grew for yearsWhy your voice being silenced is a shadow — and how it got thereThe slow, frustrating, non-linear process of actually activating your voiceFive practices Ashley uses to reclaim her voice — podcasting, boundaries, singing, light language, and ReikiWhat light language is and why her body responds even when her mind doesn't understand itWhy the little squeak, the shaky first sentence, and the almost-didn't-say-it all count as victoriesStart before your voice feels ready — because waiting for perfect keeps you silent foreverYour voice is not a liability. It is your birthright.

  4. Sep 2

    The Part of Healing Nobody Prepares You For: Grieving Your Old Self

    Everyone talks about healing like it's a staircase. You do the work, you climb the steps, you arrive. But what if it's actually a spiral staircase — and every time you go deeper, you meet an older version of yourself that you have to learn to let go of all over again? That's where Ashley is right now. And in this deeply personal episode she's talking about the part of the healing journey that nobody prepares you for — grieving the versions of yourself that you actually love. Not the wounded parts. Not the broken parts. The parts that fought like hell for you. The parts that got you here. This isn't about releasing what was broken. It's about honoring what worked — and setting it down anyway. In this episode: Why healing is a spiral staircase and not a straight line — and what that actually meansHow the same wound can come back deeper and why that's actually progressThe specific version of herself Ashley is grieving right now — and why it feels like betrayalWhy growth sometimes asks you to set down the identity that kept you safeThe difference between grieving your wounded self and grieving a version you actually lovedHow to know when you've outgrown a version of yourself — the signs to look forWhy staying loyal to an old version of yourself can actually be doing you a disserviceThe candle ritual and the addiction she's finally ready to releaseA reminder for anyone whose life looks good but something still feels off — you might just be at a new turn in the spiralThe girl who got you here deserves to be honored, thanked, grieved — and then set down to rest

  5. Aug 26

    Chemistry vs. Safety: Why You Might Be Mistaking Anxiety for Love

    For most of her life Ashley thought chemistry was butterflies, racing sparks, and that electric pull straight out of a Hallmark movie. Turns out? A lot of that wasn't chemistry. It was anxiety. And her nervous system recognizing a very familiar, very unhealthy pattern. In this episode Ashley breaks down one of the most important distinctions she's learned through her dating journey and shadow work — the difference between chemistry and safety. They sound like the same thing. They absolutely are not. And confusing the two might be exactly why you keep ending up in situations that feel exciting at first and empty shortly after. This one is for the single women, the chronic chasers, and anyone who has ever written off a genuinely good person because they felt "too boring." In this episode: Why what we call chemistry is often just our nervous system recognizing an old woundThe difference between a feeling that happens to you versus a feeling happening in youWhy real safety is quiet — and why that's exactly why we overlook itThe real reason Ashley loves a good chase (and what shadow work revealed about that)Why calm and steady can feel boring when chaos has been your baselineThe one question to ask yourself: does this make me feel more myself or less myself?Why chemistry without safety is just a spark with nothing to hold ontoYou don't have to choose between feeling safe and feeling wanted — they are not oppositesleyInstagram:ashley.labutte website:thevoiceofash.cohere.live

  6. Aug 19

    What Nobody Tells You About Holding Boundaries: Sometimes It Just Hurts

    Ashley went on a date. She was affectionate — which for her is a massive deal. She was present, quirky, fully herself. She held a boundary she's proud of, without apologizing for it. And less than 24 hours later she was in her bed, barely breathing, having panic attacks, with a friend on the phone telling her to breathe. This is the episode nobody prepares you for. We talk about boundaries like they're always this clean, empowering, triumphant moment. But sometimes holding your boundary means the other person leaves. And sometimes being your most authentic self is exactly what gets you rejected. And that hurts in a way that makes you question everything — even when you did absolutely nothing wrong. In this raw, unfiltered episode Ash shares exactly what happened, the storyteller that went into overdrive afterward, and the poem she wrote that night that said everything she needed to hear. In this episode: What it actually felt like to let her guard down for the first time in yearsThe text message that ended it — and why she's calling it God's protectionThe shadow of rejection and why you're allowed to feel it fullyWhat nobody tells you about boundaries — sometimes they feel lonely, not empoweringHow she caught herself picking the night apart looking for something she did wrongThe reframe: his exit doesn't get to rewrite what actually happenedThe poem she wrote that night: You Are Becoming More of YouThe message she wants every woman to hear: tend to your own heart, especially when it hurts

  7. Aug 12

    Becoming the Parent You Always Needed: A Guide to Reparenting Your Inner Child

    Here's the bad news: the person you've been waiting on to finally show up the way you needed them to as a kid? They're not coming. And here's the good news — you don't actually need them to anymore. This week Ashley wraps up her four-part shadow work series with the concept that ties it all together: reparenting. She breaks down what it actually means to become the parent you never had, why it might feel awkward, silly, or bring up grief at first, and what it can look like in your everyday life in small, consistent, doable ways. She also brings the whole series full circle — from what got buried, to where it leaked out, to who buried it and why, to finally becoming the one who shows up for it. In this episode: The hard truth about waiting for someone from your past to finally give you what you neededWhat reparenting actually is — and what it isn'tThe three ways people resist reparenting: the independence wall, the grief, and the discomfort of receivingWhy it might feel fake at first — and why you should keep going anywayCatching and reframing your harsh inner storytellerWhy every boundary you set is an act of reparentingConsistency over intensity — why small daily acts matter more than breakthroughsA simple grounding practice for when shame or panic shows upThe full four-part series wrapped up in one beautiful picture: shadow, projection, inner child, reparenting

  8. Aug 5

    She Never Left: Understanding Your Inner Child and the Unmet Needs Running Your Life

    Here are a few title options and a description for this episode: Title Options: Ever had a reaction that felt way too big for what actually happened? Spiraled because someone didn't text back? Gone completely silent in conflict instead of speaking up? Felt guilty for resting? That's not just you being dramatic — that's your inner child. And she's still in there, still waiting to be heard. In this episode Ashley completes the shadow work trilogy she's been building over the last few weeks — the shadow is what got buried, projection is where it leaked out, and the inner child is who buried it and why. She breaks down what the inner child actually is, how unmet needs from childhood quietly run the show in your adult relationships and reactions, and how to start giving that younger version of yourself what she always needed. The episode closes with a gentle guided visualization to meet your inner child — have a journal nearby. In this episode: What the inner child actually is and where she comes fromWhy your nervous system still reacts like a kid even when you're an adultFive ways your inner child shows up in your adult life — abandonment fears, people pleasing, shutting down in conflict, needing reassurance, and guilt around restWhy this is NOT about blaming your parentsHow the shadow, projection, and inner child all connect togetherAshley's love-hate relationship with her own inner child — and the grace she gives herA short guided visualization to meet your younger selfTwo simple practices to start building a relationship with your inner child today

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The Voice of Ash is a podcast for high-functioning women who are tired of performing their lives and ready to come home to themselves. Hosted by shadow work coach Ashley LaButte, this space is where emotions become wisdom, self-betrayal turns into self-trust, and healing goes deeper than mindset shifts. Through raw conversations, embodiment practices, personal stories, and powerful reflections, you will learn how to stop abandoning yourself, become friends with your shadow instead of fighting it, and make grounded choices that align with who you truly are. Not who you were taught to be. The Voice of Ash represents what rises after everything false burns away. Ash is what remains after transformation (the truth, the clarity, the real self beneath the masks). This podcast is about finding your voice after survival, after people-pleasing, after living for everyone else. It is the sound of becoming who you actually are. This journey is not perfect and is messy. If you are emotionally intelligent, self-aware, and ready to stop living on autopilot, this is where your rebirth begins. Transformation isn’t loud. It is honest. It is embodied. It is powerful. Welcome to The Voice of Ash. Where you rise from what no longer serves you and step into who you are becoming.

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  • Creator
    Ashley LaButte
  • Years Active
    2023 - 2026
  • Episodes
    91
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 The Voice of Ash
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