Still In It : 5-MeO-DMT Stories

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Conversations with real people about their 5-MeO-DMT experience. Hear honest and diverse perspectives about what this medicine is all about. Learn how people prepared for their 5-MeO-DMT experience, what they learned, what shifted, and how they approached integration. Note: 5-MeO-DMT is illegal in many countries. We do not condone any illegal activity or the use of any substances. This podcast is for education purposes only. Please be safe and do your homework before consuming any psychedelic substances.

  1. Finding God Within | Ep.43 — Q's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    5D AGO

    Finding God Within | Ep.43 — Q's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    In this episode, we sit down with Quincy, a mother of nine from Utah, to explore a courageous journey of religious deconstruction, healing trauma, and finding safety in the unknown. Quincy shares her story of growing up in a devout Mormon family and the pivotal realization that she had to find God within herself rather than seeking it outside. Quincy opens up about a previous "harrowing" 5-MeO-DMT experience where a lack of preparation and support left her reeling, and how that contrast highlighted the profound necessity of a safe container. At Enfold, she found the safety she needed to move through intense somatic releases—shaking, fear, and deep-seated anger—before breaking through to a state of pure, ecstatic joy. In this episode we unpack: The Danger of "Drive-By-5" Dosing: Quincy shares her difficult first experience with 5-MeO-DMT and why lack of preparation and integration can leave seekers in a state of chaos rather than healing. Religious Deconstruction: The challenging path of stepping away from a devout upbringing to find your own spiritual truth, and the "black sheep" dynamics that often follow. Somatic Release: How the body stores trauma (specifically anger and fear) and why physical release—shaking, movement, and being held—was the key to unlocking her heart. Integration in Chaos: How to bring the peace of the medicine back into a home with nine children (including special needs twins), moving from control to acceptance. Healing Within Community: The incredible synchronicity of finding a "soul family" in her cohort—including a neighbor living just minutes away in Utah. This conversation is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit. It explores how we can return to our busy lives (even with nine children!) with a newfound sense of presence, calm, and surrender. — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    33 min
  2. I Did "Therapy With GOD" (Here’s What Happened) | Ep.42 — Stan's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    JAN 28

    I Did "Therapy With GOD" (Here’s What Happened) | Ep.42 — Stan's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    In this episode, we sit down with Stan, a Manitoba-based entrepreneur and three-time Enfold guest, to trace the arc of a profound multi-year transformation. What began as a curiosity sparked by a breathwork session turned into a journey that saved his marriage, healed deep-seated childhood wounds, and reconnected him with his Indigenous ancestry . Stan’s story is a powerful testament to the fact that healing isn't a one-time event—it is a continuous unfolding. He opens up about the "emotional constipation" and hidden struggles with bulimia that plagued his early life, and how the "mask of success" kept him disconnected from his heart. We explore his three distinct experiences at Enfold: The First Intensive (2023): Facing the ego's fear of death, realizing the beauty of life, and choosing to go "all in" on his marriage with Sande . The Second Intensive (2024): A chaotic, necessary release of "youthful energy" and the shedding of old, toxic patterns . The Third Intensive (2025): Stepping into the 5-day format, finding deep vulnerability in community, and embracing his Metis heritage as "Wolf Who Looks Both Ways". This conversation is a beautiful example of the "Middle Path"—bridging the world of business with the world of spirit, and finding the courage to walk in both. — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    1h 5m
  3. Rewriting my life's story | Ep.41 — Nick's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    JAN 10

    Rewriting my life's story | Ep.41 — Nick's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    In this episode, we sit down with Nick, a former journalist and current psychedelic therapist-in-training, to explore the layered healing journey that led him to 5-MeO-DMT and an Awakening to Life Intensive at Enfold. Nick reflects on growing up with depression and anxiety shaped by early loss, intergenerational trauma, and a lifelong sense of insecure attachment and how earlier work with psilocybin and MDMA helped him reconnect with love, compassion, and meaning, but still left deep pain held in the body. Nick shares how 5-MeO-DMT brought that healing fully into the somatic realm, allowing long-held physical and emotional pain to move through and release. He describes his powerful Full Release ceremony, followed by an unexpected expansion into joy, connection, and embodied presence. A central theme of this conversation is the role of community as medicine — how the Enfold container, group process, and sense of being deeply held reshaped Nick’s understanding of safety, relationship, and belonging. Nick also explores nervous system regulation, polyvagal theory, self-compassion, repair in relationships, and the ongoing integration of psychedelic insight into daily life. He speaks candidly about moving from a story rooted in brokenness to one grounded in connection, resilience, and forward movement. A path he now hopes to extend to his family and future clients as he steps into service work of his own. — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    40 min
  4. Former Police Officer heals PTSD | Ep.40 — Sande's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    12/19/2025

    Former Police Officer heals PTSD | Ep.40 — Sande's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    In this episode, Arthur sits down with Sande, a retired RCMP officer, mother of two, and long-time Enfold community member, to explore her journey through trauma, healing, and reclamation of self. Sande shares openly about living with undiagnosed PTSD following a near-fatal plane crash, years of panic, anxiety, and emotional shutdown, and the toll this took on her marriage, career, and sense of self. She reflects on her initial resistance to psychedelics, shaped by her background in law enforcement, and what ultimately allowed her to say yes to 5-MeO-DMT and the Enfold process. Across two visits to Enfold — one alongside her husband as their relationship stood on the edge of separation, and another after retirement — Sande describes profound somatic release, shifts in self-worth, forgiveness, and nervous system regulation. She speaks powerfully about learning to stop burying pain, allowing herself to feel again, and moving from “waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel” to realizing she is living in the light now. This conversation is a testament to embodied healing, relational repair, and the courage it takes to meet life fully after years of survival. If you'd like to hear more stories like this visit: enfold.org/still-in-it/ — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    43 min
  5. Discovering self-worth | Ep. 39 — John's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    12/06/2025

    Discovering self-worth | Ep. 39 — John's 5-MeO-DMT Story

    In this episode, John shares an intimate and courageous look at his healing journey — from a childhood shaped by trauma, to long stretches of depression and self-medication, to discovering 5-MeO-DMT and the profound shifts that followed. John speaks openly about growing up with his mother navigating schizophrenia, an absent father, and the deep sense of unworthiness that lived in him for decades. He reflects on how his first and second 5-MeO experiences at Enfold helped him understand his nervous system, release old survival patterns, and access a lasting sense of peace he had never known before. We also explore John's ongoing integration practice — including spirituality, IFS work, morning rituals — and how these have supported him through major life events, including a recent lung cancer diagnosis and surgery. John's story is an honest, hopeful example of what becomes possible when someone finally feels safe enough to meet themselves fully. If you'd like to hear more stories like this visit: enfold.org/still-in-it/ — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    39 min
  6. $150k in Personal Development (What Really Worked) | Ep.38 — Amanda's 5-MeO-DMT Story)

    11/17/2025

    $150k in Personal Development (What Really Worked) | Ep.38 — Amanda's 5-MeO-DMT Story)

    Amanda, a leadership coach and entrepreneur from Toronto, arrived at Enfold after years of personal development work and therapy that could not move the needle on her deepest patterns. Despite knowing exactly what she “should” be doing, she felt stuck in depressive episodes and self-criticism — caught between the part of her that wanted to heal and the part of her that believed love was only accessible when she was suffering. Her 5-MeO-DMT journey became a powerful homecoming to the love within herself. What began with fear — of doing it wrong, of not remembering anything, of wasting another investment — unfolded into a profound rewiring of her nervous system. In her ceremony, she released decades of shame, met the younger parts of herself that had equated suffering with connection, and learned what it felt like to be fully held. Four months later, Amanda’s life feels spacious and aligned. She’s stopped equating discipline with worth, stopped performing productivity as proof of value, and started leading from self-compassion. What’s emerging is a deeper sense of trust, self-love, and creative alignment — both personally and professionally. In This Episode What happens when self-awareness alone can’t shift old patterns How depression and procrastination can mask deeper misalignment Meeting the inner child who believed love only came through suffering The moment she asked to be held, and realized she was worthy of love and care How integration deepened through internal family systems therapy Rewriting the link between productivity and self-worth Living from alignment rather than discipline 🔍 For anyone who’s done years of therapy but still feels stuck — Amanda’s story reveals that real transformation isn’t about understanding more, but finally letting love all the way in. 🗣️ “I can, without a doubt, say that Enfold was single-handedly the best investment I’ve ever made in myself.” — Amanda —  Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs.  Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    37 min
  7. First-Responder Heals PTSD with Psychedelics | Ep. 37 — Mugs' 5-MeO Story

    10/24/2025

    First-Responder Heals PTSD with Psychedelics | Ep. 37 — Mugs' 5-MeO Story

    Mugs, a firefighter from just outside Seattle, came to us at Enfold in early 2025 after years of service left her system overloaded. A series of traumatic calls she dealt with — car accidents, suicides, fires — compounded earlier personal depression and trauma. “My world had gotten so small,” she says. “I stopped living or functioning.” Having tried talk therapy, EMDR, and countless modalities without relief, she arrived at Enfold with one clear hope: to find something that could reach the pain her mind couldn’t. What unfolded was an equally beautiful and challenging death & rebirth experience. During her 5-MeO-DMT ceremony, Mugs experienced a profound purge — a letting go of energy she says “never belonged to me.” Through that release came what she describes as a near-death experience that reoriented her entire relationship with life, family, and service. Returning home, she found her nervous system quiet for the first time in decades. The “hard drive” of her body and mind felt wiped clean, leaving space for presence, creativity, and love to return. “I just had space again,” she says. “It was absolutely incredible. The way it’s unfolded over time has been the best gift of my life.” In This Episode How cumulative trauma and compassion fatigue can silently shut down the body What happens when traditional therapies can’t reach the somatic roots of pain The purging and release process of 5-MeO-DMT through Mugs’ lived experience Moving from emotional numbness to gratitude and connection How a near-death experience reshaped her relationship with her kids and work Bringing empathy and forgiveness into difficult conversations Reclaiming creativity and purpose after years of survival 🔍 For anyone carrying the unseen weight of service — especially first responders — Mugs’ story is a testament to how deep nervous system healing can restore the very qualities that trauma once buried: patience, compassion, and the simple joy of being alive. 🗣️ “I’m just so thankful. I care now. I didn’t care before… To be able to have that feeling where you actually genuinely care what the other person is going through.. it’s such a gift.” — Mugs —  Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs.  Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    35 min
  8. Entrepreneur Returns to 5-MeO | Ep.36 — Tony Leblanc's 5-MeO Story

    10/08/2025

    Entrepreneur Returns to 5-MeO | Ep.36 — Tony Leblanc's 5-MeO Story

    When Tony first came to Enfold with his wife, Chantel, he was searching for something that years of therapy and effort couldn’t unlock: greater empathy. Despite his love for her, he often felt frozen in moments of her pain — unable to connect, unsure why. That first intensive opened the door. He began to feel her emotions and be with her through them, rather than analyze them, marking a profound shift in how he related to love, vulnerability, and safety. A year later, Tony returned on his own — no longer to save his marriage, but to understand himself. What unfolded was an intimate encounter with his deepest wound: abandonment. Through 5-MeO-DMT and a dedication to the integration work, Tony reconnected with the parts of himself that had never known safety or intimacy. In a moment of clarity, he realized that what he longed to give to others was what his own inner child had always needed — to simply be held. This second journey deepened Tony’s relationship with himself — expanding his capacity for compassion, acceptance, and presence across his business, family, and spiritual path. In This Episode How early emotional absence shaped Tony’s struggle with empathy The power of returning to the medicine with a new intention Uncovering abandonment as a lifelong survival pattern How integration practices like breathwork and IFS are the backbone of healing Reconciling spiritual growth with an entrepreneurial drive Learning to face mortality with openness rather than fear Why healing is less about breakthroughs and more about devotion to practice 🔍 For anyone who feels disconnected from the people they love — or who can show care to everyone but themselves — Tony’s story reveals that real transformation doesn’t end in ceremony. It lives in the quiet, daily commitment to meet the parts of ourselves we’ve long kept at a distance. 🗣️ “I have the tendency of keeping people at a distance because my father left when I was a kid... I’m trying to unprogram that — to let people in, to support them, not be afraid to express love and compassion.” — Tony LeBlanc —  Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs.  Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org

    49 min
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Conversations with real people about their 5-MeO-DMT experience. Hear honest and diverse perspectives about what this medicine is all about. Learn how people prepared for their 5-MeO-DMT experience, what they learned, what shifted, and how they approached integration. Note: 5-MeO-DMT is illegal in many countries. We do not condone any illegal activity or the use of any substances. This podcast is for education purposes only. Please be safe and do your homework before consuming any psychedelic substances.

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