In this episode of The Neurodivergent Bible Teaching Podcast, I give a few ways to stim while studying the Bible. This isn’t an exhaustive list, but meant to give you some ideas. Whether you’re new to creating a habit of stimming or looking for new ways to stim during your study time, this episode will include some stims for you to consider. Transcript: 0:02 - 0:38 Hello, it's Denea, your host of the NeuroDivergent Bible Teaching Podcast. This podcast is dedicated to helping you understand how to study the Bible. I'm Denee, I'm neurodivergent, I'm autistic, I have ADHD and OCD, and I know what it's like to struggle to understand how to study the Bible, let alone also honoring my brain while doing it. I've learned a few things through seminary, um, through life, and I want to share those things with you. 0:38 - 1:11 In this podcast, you will hear all about, um, studying techniques, some Bible studies so you can understand how to apply those techniques, some neurodivergent encouragement, and just some ways that I'm learning to honor the way that God has created my brain. I'm so happy that you're here. Let's get started. Hello, hello, it's Denea, your host of the NeuroDivergent Bible Teaching Podcast. 1:12 - 1:43 I hope that wherever you are, you are allowing yourself to adjust any goals, any expectations that need to be adjust. And I hope that you're giving yourself grace to do that. Um, I am still recovering from, uh, surgery, from endometriosis excision surgery, and... 1:43 - 2:13 Well, hold on. Hold that, hold that thought. So we're on summer break as I'm recording this, and so I just wanna give a disclaimer that if you hear loud noises in the background, um, don't be alarmed. It's, it's just our son. N- it's just him having, having a good time. So I just, I just wanted to, to give that disclaimer. Um, okay, back to what I was, what I was saying. Wait, wait. 2:14 - 2:52 Oh, no, I c- I, I remember. Okay. So I am still recovering from endometriis- uh, endometriosis excision surgery. Um, and I, I mean, I, I will be recovering, I have to keep reminding myself from that f- for like months and months. Um, but, um, still in that process and, like, I've been trying to get myself back into the habit of, like, movement throughout my day because I, you know, haven't, haven't been moving that much. 2:53 - 3:25 I've been, I've been going on, like, short walks, but then, um, I think I've mentioned this, this on the podcast before, I have POTS and, um, I had, like, a POTS flare-up, uh, w- after surgery, which can happen, um, where I had a lot of divi- dizziness, so I just... I've been, like, n- I have not been moving. I've been allowing myself to just heal in short walks, um, and that sort of thing. 3:25 - 3:57 So now, you know, I'm not in, not in the POTS flare-up zone right now, and so I've been trying to get my body into the habit of movement. Um, I've been cleared for, to do strength training again. I do that a lot, primarily because I have Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, uh, and PCOS and scoliosis, and strength training really helps with those. Um, I guess it helps with POTS, too, and endometriosis, I guess. Um, anyways, I'm getting off topic. 3:58 - 4:45 So I've been cleared to, to move again. I've been cleared to go on longer walks. I've been cleared to strength train. And y'all, it's been so hard. It's been so hard getting back into the rhythm of movement. And, like, today, I have no idea why, but for whatever reason, y'all, I was like, "I am going to do 7,000 steps," and that was so unrealistic. Like, like, at, at the ti- I don't, I don't know. I think sometimes just, um, you know, those, those, like, perfectionist tendencies, high achievement tendencies always creep back in and then I have to, like, switch into another gear and be like, "Denee, no, no, no, no. 4:45 - 5:42 Like, that's not, this is not serving you." And so I had that moment today, uh, of like, okay, we need to adjust this and, and it's not wrong to adjust this. It's, it's just, it just needs to happen be- because you need to give yourself grace, and having that 7,000 step goal is just not serving you. Um, and so I hope that whatever goal you have right now, whether it's something you're trying to achieve today, this week, this month, this year, you know, I hope that you give yourself grace to, um, to step back and ask yourself, "Does this need to be adjusted?" And I hope that when you're, when you're looking at or you're thinking about that goal, when you're, when you're in that process, I hope that you know that adjusting a goal is not proof that, like, you failed or that you should've tried harder. 5:42 - 6:27 No, no, no, no, no. Adjusting a goal is a way that we can actually, um, care for our needs, care for ourselves, right? It's, it's kinda like having your back. Um, and so I hope wherever you are, you're, you're allowing yourself to do that. Today's episode is to give you some ideas of how you can stem- While you were studying God's word, while you're studying the Bible. I think as someone, uh, I mean, I've, I've said before, like I, I knew when I was like an adolescent that I was different, but I wasn't formally diagnosed, um, with autism, ADHD, OCD, complex PTSD. 6:27 - 7:03 I wasn't formally diagnosed with those things, with PDA, with, um, rejection sensitive dysphoria until like my mid-30s. And that also means that like I've... I mean, I, I have, I've had stims, um, but getting into the habit of intentionally stimming throughout my day, throughout my study time, that has taken practice. And, you know, whether I'm studying for like school or whether I'm studying the Bible, I've had to remind myself... 7:03 - 7:43 Yes? Um, can you play with me? Uh, if you give me 20 minutes, I can. Okay. Okay. Can you close that door please? Thank you. All right. Um, oh my goodness, what was I saying? It has taken practice to get into the habit of stimming. Um, I've set reminders on my phone reminding me to stim. I mean, there are times when I just kind of, uh, it's my body's response, like rocking back and forth, um, or humming or flapping my hands, doing something with my hands, pacing, uh, rubbing my feet together. 7:43 - 8:22 Like, those are some things that I kind of do, but especially I find that especially when I am studying anything, when I have to sit down for long periods of focus, um, it is really important for me to stim. And so I've been, you know, trying to really, uh, to do that while I'm studying the Bible. Now, depending on your, um, your relationship with, uh, I'm trying to figure out how to say this. 8:22 - 8:53 So stimming while studying God's word can sometimes be hard for, c- is sometimes hard for us. One, may- maybe you're like me and you were diagnosed as adult, an adult, and you're just... Like you've suppressed a lot of stimming throughout your life, just not even knowing it. Um, and so you're trying to actually get into the habit of stimming, um, a lot in general, but maybe also like you, it's a, you, you know that it's, it's very beneficial for you to stim while you're studying. Um, I meant like me. 8:53 - 9:36 Maybe you know like me, um, that it's important for you to stim while you're studying. But I think it's also, it can be tough because as, as Christians who are neurodivergent, you might have heard, you might have been exposed to toxic theology or ableism that has led you to believe that being neurodivergent is something wrong or something to be ashamed of. And so maybe when you're in God's presence, whether you're worshiping, whether you're praying, whether you're reading the Bible, you try to hide that you're neurodivergent, neurodivergence from God. 9:37 - 10:17 And so if that is you, you know, stimming while you're reading his word might really feel odd. And so I just wanna meet you in that place and just say, if that is you, I see you, and that is a really tough place to be in. As somebody who has been exposed to toxic theology, somebody who has been exposed to ableism, who has internalized ableism, and who has believed at one point that my existence was wrong, that there was something wrong with me, there was absolutely a period where I would hide my neurodivergence from God. 10:17 - 10:50 Now, of course, you know, we're not hiding, we're not really hiding anything from God. G- He knows everything. He knows us completely and fully. There's nowhere we could go to hide from him, right? But also, it's important for us to know that God, that neurodivergence is nothing to be ashamed about, right? Scripture says, and scripture has the ultimate authority. It's God's word. It says, right, that as, as humans, that we were fearfully and wonderfully created. 10:50 - 11:43 There, there's no asterisk by that, that, those scriptures that talk, that, that talks about how intentional God was with creation. It, we believe His word. We take it for what it says because it's God's word, right? So it's also important for us to understand that there is actually nothing shameful about being neurodivergent. Um, I could go on a tangent here and say the real shame or the real tragedy, error is, is the fact that neurodivergent families, uh, individuals aren't given the support that we need to thrive, but I won't go on that tangent because, because I try to the best of my ability to really make these episodes bite-sized, uh, so I won't go on that tangent. 11:43 - 12:16 But it is important for us to know that there is nothing wrong with being neurodivergent. We can stim in God's presence. We can stim in prayer. We can stim while we're worshiping. We can stim while we're reading the Bible. So this is gonna be kind of a quick one. I'm just... This is a list. So pause as you need to, maybe take notes as you need to. Uh, rewind as you need to. Maybe fast forward if you need to. This by no means is an exhaustive list, okay? 12:16 - 12:51 This is just some ideas to, um, to give you. And I also want to say, to