What happens when depression makes it difficult to feel God's presence, even when faith has always been part of your life? Author, speaker, and coach Aubrey Grossen shares her deeply personal journey through severe postpartum depression and anxiety, the moments that challenged her testimony, and the ways she came to recognize Jesus Christ's presence through some of the darkest seasons of her life. Aubrey grew up surrounded by parents and grandparents whose strong testimonies helped her develop her own faith. As an eight-year-old girl, she remembers feeling a set of hands pushing her forward when she was too frightened to bear her testimony in church. That experience, along with other moments of feeling supported and protected, helped establish her belief that the Lord was there for her. Years later, after the births of her children, Aubrey experienced severe postpartum depression. Following the birth of her son, her symptoms became especially serious, and she eventually recognized that she needed professional help. A family member's sincere question about how she was really doing helped her begin to acknowledge what she was experiencing and take steps toward support and treatment. But her faith journey continued to be tested. After her husband, Shay, was called as a bishop shortly after their fourth child was born, Aubrey felt the familiar darkness of postpartum depression return. She struggled with difficult questions about God and described feeling as though a blanket of darkness kept her from seeing the “music of the gospel.” Yet, as she looks back, she recognizes the ways Christ's love reached her through the people around her. Neighbors replaced a broken dishwasher, helped get her children to church, and offered practical support when everyday responsibilities felt overwhelming. Her ward community became a source of love and connection during a season when she desperately needed it. Aubrey also shares why she eventually had to set aside the podcasts, talks, and other resources she had relied on and turn to God herself. She needed to build a relationship with Jesus Christ apart from everything else—to return to the foundation of her faith and choose to show up for Him because she knew He showed up for her. In this conversation, Aubrey discusses: - The childhood experiences that helped her recognize God's support - Living through severe postpartum depression and anxiety - Recognizing when she needed professional mental health support - Wrestling with questions about God during a season of darkness - Finding Christ's love through the people who stepped in to help - Learning to develop a personal relationship with Jesus Christ - Writing "He Came for Me: Stories of Christ Coming to Modern Day Women" - Her devotional journal "He Is", exploring the names and roles of Christ - Creating ANYA (A New You Again in Christ), a community where women can find friendship, faith, and support - Why recognizing God's hand in our lives can shift our perspective Aubrey's story offers an honest look at the relationship between faith and mental health. Her experience reminds us that struggling to feel God's presence doesn't mean we have to face our struggles alone, and seeking professional help can be an important part of moving forward. Sometimes, we recognize the hand of God only when we look back and see the people, moments, and unexpected acts of kindness that helped carry us through. Where have you seen God show up in your life, especially during a season when it was difficult to feel Him? Listen to Aubrey Grossen on Beyond Coincidence, a podcast exploring real stories of faith, God's presence, and the moments that make us wonder whether something is more than coincidence. Find Aubrey on Instagram at @aubreygrossen and online at aubreygrossen.com. Learn more about ANYA at @anewyouagaininchrist. #BeyondCoincidence #AubreyGrossen #FaithJourney #PostpartumDepression #FaithAndMentalHealth #JesusChrist #GodInEverydayLife #FindingHope