Can You Feel So Now?

Justin Barton
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Conversations with very-recently returned missionaries of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints discussing changes of heart, spiritual growth, change, and challenges from their missions. To help you remember the feelings brought on by connecting with God that inspired you to make enduring positive changes. https://www.alma526.com

  1. Can You Feel So Now, Jamie Fullmer?

    3D AGO

    Can You Feel So Now, Jamie Fullmer?

    Justin Barton interviews Jamie Fulmer, who grew up in Spokane, later moved to Kansas, is adopted, and loves basketball and playing violin. Jamie shares how he served as a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in the California Los Angeles Mission ("CLAM") from August, 2023 to August, 2025, speaking Spanish after training at the Mexico City MTC. He discusses having two mission presidents who emphasized the doctrine of Christ, what he learned about Latino work ethic ("la chamba"), and how his understanding of daily repentance shifted to turning toward Jesus Christ. Jamie recounts a difficult training assignment with a companion who wanted to go home, and how prayer helped him trust the Lord. He highlights Ether 12 and describes seeing Jesus Christ in the people he served, growing in gratitude and specific prayer, recommitting to temple covenants, ministering, and preparing for future marriage and sealing, then answers Alma 5:26 questions about change of heart and the Song of Redeeming Love.   00:00 Welcome and Guest Intro 00:43 Family Adoption and Hobbies 01:22 Violin on the Mission 02:25 Called to the CLAM 04:44 Spanish in Los Angeles 06:48 La Chamba Work Ethic 08:38 Repentance Reframed 10:55 Key Indicators and Sacrament 15:44 Hard Transfer as Trainer 22:38 Parents and Compassion 25:02 Ether 12 and Seeing Jesus 28:57 Prayer Growth and Specific Needs 31:55 Thy Will and Future Plans 37:53 Advice to Future Missionaries 39:34 Can You Feel So Now Questions 41:49 Time Machine Self Coaching 43:14 Spanish Testimony and Farewell

    48 min
  2. Can You Feel So Now, Charlotte Pedersen?

    6D AGO

    Can You Feel So Now, Charlotte Pedersen?

    Justin Barton interviews Charlotte Peterson, a BYU student and recently-returned missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints who gave up college running opportunities after feeling prompted to prioritize missionary service. She served from February 12, 2024 to July 22, 2025, initially reassigned to the Florida Fort Lauderdale Mission for five months while awaiting a visa before going to the Zimbabwe Harare Mission. Charlotte shares how fasting shifted her from trying to change God’s will to aligning with it, how Florida taught her obedience and the reality of missionary work in the U.S., and how her mission deepened her relationship with Christ through prayer and the “daily bread” principle. She testifies of enduring discipleship after returning home, and bears testimony of Jesus Christ, the Book of Mormon, and eternal families. 00:00 Meet Charlotte Peterson 01:07 Running Dreams and Revelation 03:06 Mission Call and Reassignment 03:59 Language and Companions 06:13 Fasting and Trusting God 09:50 Lessons from Florida 11:41 Obedience from Love 15:56 Daily Bread with Christ 21:01 Scriptures for Hard Days 24:23 Prayer and Hearing God 29:57 Prayer Becomes Real 31:08 Bearing Your Cross 33:12 Joy While Carrying 35:16 When It Felt Crushing 35:33 Dangerous First Transfer 38:03 Prayer Through Hardship 39:41 Missionary After Coming Home 43:33 Finish Strong Together 44:11 Alma 5 Change of Heart 46:16 Song of Redeeming Love 48:02 Remember in Dark Times 50:44 Testimony in Zimbabwe 53:27 Final Thanks and Farewell

    56 min
  3. Can You Feel So Now, Ethan Coplen?

    MAR 5

    Can You Feel So Now, Ethan Coplen?

    Host Justin Barton interviews return missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Ethan Coplen, who recently came home from the South Africa, Cape Town Mission, about his upbringing in Queen Creek, Arizona, his large family, football achievements, and a period of inactivity after moving out at 18. Ethan shares how a serious football injury led to a spiritual impression that redirected his life, repentance, and a decision to serve a mission. He discusses learning to rely on Jesus Christ rather than pride, the difference between reading and studying scripture, and how praying, pondering, and obedience shaped his conversion. Ethan recounts facing depression and grief after losing his sister and her children to tragedy during his mission, and explains how being “yoked” with Christ helped him endure. He closes with invitations to prospective missionaries, return missionaries, and nonmembers to seek truth and remember miracles.   00:00 Podcast Welcome 00:31 Ethan Background and Football 01:33 Leaving Home and Church 04:01 Injury and Turning Point 05:57 Returning and Choosing Mission 07:10 Why Falling Away Felt Easy 09:48 Personal Relationship With God 12:00 Yoked With Christ and Miracles 14:49 Missionary Focus and Self Conversion 17:54 Reading Versus Studying 20:37 Charity Learned in the Field 23:11 Obedience Lesson and Spiritual Witness 26:56 Love Your Neighbor 28:10 Pondering and Prayer 29:34 Mission Trial and Loss 32:30 Everything to God 34:16 Hearing the Spirit 36:35 Why Suffering Happens 38:43 Bearing the Burden 40:42 Three Invitations 46:45 Change of Heart 48:18 Song of Redeeming Love 49:47 Back to Basics 52:09 Closing Testimony

    56 min

  4. MAR 3

    Can You Feel So Now, Joshua Fullmer?

    Host Justin Barton interviews returned missionary Joshua Fulmer on the Can You Feel So Now? Podcast about his service in the Texas, Houston East Mission (Spanish-speaking) for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Joshua shares his background in a large family, plans for BYU, and passions for running and piano. He discusses emotional challenges of tying feelings to missionary outcomes, learning to pause rather than react through prayer, repentance, and temple worship, and a baptism incident where he accepted correction. Joshua recounts a prayer answered when a hostile man relented and helped them contact someone. He reflects on the mission theme Joshua 3:5, temple service, healthier living, scriptures Alma 37:15–17 and D&C 82:10, deepened relationships with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, future plans in music and possibly medicine, and a change of heart centered on redemption and trusting God.   00:00 Welcome and Introductions 00:19 Meet Joshua Fulmer 01:27 Called to Texas Spanish 02:06 Music as Ministry 03:21 Running and Resilience 04:34 Emotions and Control 06:29 Pause Then Respond 07:52 Baptism Lesson in Humility 10:03 Discipleship After Mission 13:08 DandC 4 Attributes Shift 16:00 Trusting God Story 19:30 Mission Theme Sanctify 22:08 Scriptures and Promises 24:42 Knowing the Father 28:59 Needing Jesus Daily 33:22 Future Plans and Risks 37:54 Can You Feel So Now 39:36 Five Year Faith Advice 41:09 Spanish Testimony Closing

    45 min
  5. Can You Feel So Now, Michael Hazel?

    FEB 27

    Can You Feel So Now, Michael Hazel?

    Justin Barton interviews newly returned missionary Michael Hazel on the Can You Feel So Now podcast. Michael shares his background and explains that he served a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in the Alabama, Birmingham Mission from June 2023 to June 2025, assigned Spanish-speaking for two transfers before serving mostly in English while still using Spanish. He describes being inactive from about age 13 to 25 due to painful experiences and feeling that the Atonement didn’t apply to him, then beginning a spiritual turnaround in 2019 when someone read the Book of Mormon with him daily for 90 days. He discusses the difference between being “lukewarm” versus fully detached, how many small spiritual experiences helped him understand grace and the Atonement as constant help, and why faith and accepting God are choices rooted in agency. Michael emphasizes charity—choosing to love people who are rude, lost, or even threatening—and explains forgiving a bishop he once hated by choosing forgiveness and later feeling peace even when seeing him at the temple. He outlines how consistency comes through daily Book of Mormon study, meaningful prayer as a real conversation with Heavenly Father, and conscientiously partaking of the sacrament, and he shares views on recognizing revelation in everyday ways and repenting as simply turning toward Christ. He recounts being prompted to serve a mission later in life after a branch conference message from his stake president about covenants and bears testimony that following Jesus Christ is always the right decision. Using Alma 5:26, he describes a change of heart as visible in a person’s countenance, defines the “song of redeeming love” as a state of being, and advises his future self to remember the Lord’s tender mercies. He closes with a testimony of Jesus Christ, the reality of spiritual witness, the importance of temple worship and consecrating one’s will to God, and the joy found in the work of salvation and exaltation.   00:00 Welcome + Meet Michael Hazel (Background & Family) 01:22 Mission Call: Alabama Birmingham & Spanish-to-English Switch 03:18 Why He Left the Church (13–25) and What Brought Him Back 05:19 Lukewarm vs Detached: The Misery of Life Without God 07:05 Reading the Book of Mormon Daily: Rebuilding a Testimony 09:05 Atonement Reframed: “Wind at Your Back” + Still Small Voice 11:30 Sobriety, Agency, and Choosing Faith Over Nihilism 14:47 Charity on the Mission: Loving the “Lost” and Difficult People 19:21 Forgiveness as a Choice: Healing from a Hurtful Leader 22:56 No Gray Area: Doctrine Changes Behavior + Staying Consistent 27:15 3 Daily Anchors for Spiritual Consistency (Scriptures, Prayer, Sacrament) 29:01 Your Environment Shapes Your Spirit: Who You Spend Time With 30:42 Hearing God’s Voice: Recognizing Revelation in Small & Simple Ways 34:57 When You Can’t Feel the Spirit: Repentance as a Simple Turn to Christ 37:52 Why Serving a Mission Is Always the Right Choice (And a Life-Changing Story) 45:50 Alma 5: “Can You Feel So Now?” Change of Heart & Redeeming Love 48:33 15 Years Later: Remembering Tender Mercies When You Feel Off Track 49:44 Final Testimony: Choosing Christ, Daily Consecration, and True Joy

    57 min
  6. Can You Feel So Now, Emma Pratt?

    FEB 24

    Can You Feel So Now, Emma Pratt?

    Justin Barton interviews Emma Pratt, who grew up in Idaho in a large farming family and learned hard work and endurance from long nights driving tractors. She explains how those lessons carried into her mission, especially during a six-week transfer with no people to teach, where she learned to rely on Jesus Christ and see those she spoke with as God’s children. Emma served in the Alabama Birmingham Mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints from December 2023 to June 2025, felt spiritual confirmation about her call, and describes being strengthened when asked to train a new missionary despite feeling inadequate—overcoming weaknesses in initiating conversations and using scriptures. Alma 26:12 became a key passage for her about doing all things in God’s strength. She shares an experience of God’s hand in a friend who contacted missionaries via Facebook after hitting rock bottom and was baptized soon after changing his life. Emma also reflects on her parents’ divorce at age 13 as a personal rock-bottom that led her to choose the gospel, influenced by her mother’s example of prayer and observing differences between relying on Christ versus other coping methods. The conversation covers her approach to personal revelation through prayer journaling, finding quiet places to pray, and adjusting post-mission to less structure while trying to keep spiritual habits and goal-setting (including the mission “power wheel” and My Plan). Major themes include choosing lasting joy in Christ (including Helaman 5:12), leadership and charity as a sister training leader, repentance as a joyful process of improvement, and integrating consecrated living into everyday work. Emma closes by connecting her change of heart to gathering Israel and preparing for the Second Coming, and bears testimony of Jesus Christ.   00:00 Meet Emma Pratt: Big Family, Farm Life & Creative Hobbies 01:12 Farm-Built Endurance: Hard Work Lessons That Carried Into the Mission 02:24 No Friends to Teach: Finding Joy When Mission Work Feels Slow 04:24 Leaning on Christ Through Inadequacy: Training a New Missionary 06:06 Go-To Scripture Power: Alma 26 and ‘In His Strength I Can Do All Things’ 07:04 Called to Alabama Birmingham: Dates, First Reactions & Confirmation 08:24 ‘God’s Hand Was in This’: A Facebook Message, Rock Bottom & a Fast Baptism 10:12 Her Own Rock Bottom: Parents’ Divorce, Choosing the Gospel & Staying Happy 13:20 Prayer + Journaling for Revelation: Learning to Hear God More Clearly 15:19 Home From the Mission: Quiet Places, New Habits & the ‘Power Wheel’ Goals 20:56 Tractor Time as Sacred Time: Audio Scriptures, Talks, Podcasts & Saints 22:01 Mission Soundtrack: From Church History to The Beatles 22:30 Finding a Higher Joy in Jesus Christ on the Mission 23:44 Happiness vs. Joy: The “Slow Boil” and Choosing Miracles 25:12 Building on the Rock: Helaman 5 and Enduring Trials 26:34 Sister Training Leader Lessons: Charity, Leadership, and Real Training 29:11 Letting God Train You: Humility, Weak Spots, and Repentance Without Shame 33:36 Consecrating Everyday Life: Giving Equal Time to the Lord (Even Dishes) 38:33 Change of Heart & “Can You Feel So Now”: Purpose, Time Machine Advice, and Testimony

    44 min
  7. Can You Feel So Now, Olivia Armstrong?

    FEB 20

    Can You Feel So Now, Olivia Armstrong?

    Podcast host Justin Barton interviews Olivia Armstrong, originally from Glenwood Springs, Colorado, now living in Provo, Utah. hobbies like reading, outdoor activities, hammocking, and thrifting. She served a Spanish-speaking mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in the Texas, Dallas West Mission from September 25, 2023 to March 26, 2025, sharing how mission life taught her about companionship, humility, and relying on Christ through serious prayer rather than focusing on baptisms. She discusses the challenge of adjusting after coming home, including missing her “people,” slipping into Spanish slang, and struggling to stay spiritually fed while starting a job and returning to school, emphasizing the need to fight for time with God. Olivia explains that her mission focus was building relationships and helping people know Jesus Christ is for them, regardless of whether they join the church, and reflects on a close friendship with someone she taught but did not baptize. She credits Mission President Ord with helping her keep her personality while serving, and shares a framework he taught: God’s love for us and our love for God as the foundation, leading to the Plan of Salvation and the Gospel of Jesus Christ, with other topics as “details.” Olivia recounts being driven to her knees during a difficult period with a companion and finding peace and Christlike love through prayer. She describes learning an eternal perspective partly from the movie Inside Out, and contrasts religion (a way of viewing life) with God (a reciprocated relationship), recalling a strong spiritual confirmation in the temple celestial room during her first endowment. Olivia testifies that God’s love is loud and personal through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, answers the show’s Alma 5:26 theme about change of heart and the “song of redeeming love,” and offers a future reminder to herself to return to prayer and dependence on God. The episode ends with Justin inviting Olivia to bear her testimony in Spanish.   00:00 Welcome to the Can You Feel So Now Podcast + Meet Olivia Armstrong 00:36 Olivia’s Background: Colorado to Utah, Mission Call, and New Hobbies 01:18 Family Snapshot: Siblings, Mom, and Stepdad 01:44 Texas Dallas West Mission Culture: First Impressions, Humidity, and Training Shock 03:33 Learning to Be a Better Companion: Pride, Teamwork, and the ‘Triangle’ with the Lord 04:46 What the Mission Was Really About: Prayer, Growth, and Not Just Baptisms 06:21 Coming Home After the Mission: Dates, Re-Entry Whiplash, and Fighting to Stay Spiritually Fed 09:04 “These Are My People”: Relationships Deeper Than Baptism and Why Jesus Christ Is for Everyone 11:44 How Jesus Christ Became Personal: President Ord’s Pyramid (Love, Plan, Gospel, Details) 15:51 Rock-Bottom Balcony Prayer: Anxiety, Companion Struggles, and Finding Christlike Love 20:32 Turning Pain into Perspective: Trauma, Growth, and the Inside Out Lesson 24:03 Lessons from President Ord: Bringing Your Pre-Mission Self with You 24:47 Finding Your Mission Self: Hawaiian Shirt, Nikes & Authenticity 26:33 Reverence Without Losing Personality (Disciples, Agency & ‘Love Is Loud’) 30:46 How ‘Love Is Loud’ Got Refined: From Back-of-Seminary to Real Desire 33:44 Experimenting on the Word: Learning to Pray, Study & Ask for Help 34:47 Religion vs. God: Why Relationship Is the Center 36:42 First Time Prayer Felt Real: Temple Endowment & the Celestial Room 39:02 Final Message: The Atonement Is Proof God’s Love Is Loud 40:32 Change of Heart & Becoming a ‘Spiritual Giant’ Through Doubt 43:24 The Song of Redeeming Love: Hearing It in Everyday Life 45:25 Time-Machine Advice to Future Self: ‘Drive to Your Knees’ 47:04 Closing Testimony in Spanish (Wrap-Up)

    52 min
  8. Can You Feel So Now, Emma Jacobs?

    FEB 17

    Can You Feel So Now, Emma Jacobs?

    In this episode of the 'Can You Feel So Now?' podcast, host Justin Barton sits down with Emma Jacobs, a recently returned missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints who served in the Spokane, Washington mission. Emma shares her personal journey from pre-mission preparation, where she struggled to find her answer to serve, to the challenges and spiritual growth she experienced during her mission. She talks about the importance of studying 'Preach My Gospel,' the role of charity, and how her understanding of the Atonement and the restoration of the gospel deepened. Emma also discusses how she managed anxiety through prayer and reliance on Heavenly Father and touches upon the significance of joy derived from Jesus Christ. This episode offers profound insights into the life of a missionary and the transformative power of faith.   00:00 Introduction and Guest Introduction 00:46 Mission Details and Experiences 02:14 Pre-Mission Preparation and Challenges 03:35 Learning and Growth During the Mission 08:05 Personal Testimonies and Reflections 22:05 Post-Mission Life and Continuing Faith 24:50 Final Thoughts and Testimony

    32 min
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Conversations with very-recently returned missionaries of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints discussing changes of heart, spiritual growth, change, and challenges from their missions. To help you remember the feelings brought on by connecting with God that inspired you to make enduring positive changes. https://www.alma526.com

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  • Creator
    Justin Barton
  • Years Active
    2024 - 2026
  • Episodes
    62
  • Rating
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