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Cohosts Breezy and Jimmy interview someone in recovery every week to discuss what that first year of sobriety is REALLY like! Whether it be the hilarious stories of sexual firsts sober or not taking sponsor direction and seeing how that affects us, they tell it like it really is! But they always show the newcomer that you can stay sober NO MATTER WHAT!

  1. 2D AGO

    Episode 58: “When Meth Called, I Answered — Until I Chose My Life”

    This week, we sit down with Vinny — a man coming up on three years sober whose story cuts straight to the core of what addiction really is: self-centered fear, emotional avoidance, and the slow erosion of everything that matters. Vinny is brutally honest about the fact that he didn’t become selfish after he started using — he was already that way. Long before meth entered the picture, he was chasing what he wanted, when he wanted it. He married and had children not out of love, but out of desire to possess something. When the woman he was with realized she wasn’t loved and left, Vinny didn’t fight for the relationship — he fought to keep the kids for himself. Years later, life took an unexpected and painful turn when his ex-partner was diagnosed with a rare cancer and had to move back in with him. By then, Vinny was already deep in addiction, revolving his entire life around meth. He cycled through short bursts of sobriety — 30 days, 45 days — but whenever meth called, he answered. Every time. The turning point didn’t come from a court case, a hospital bed, or even the cancer in his home — it came from a vision. Vinny describes seeing his grown children looking at him with disappointment and heartbreak. That moment became his spiritual bottom. He walked into the Fountain Valley Alano Club and said the words that changed everything: “I’m an addict and I can’t stop.” This time, he did it differently. He got a sponsor. He worked the steps. He took commitments. He showed up. And when something wasn’t working, he didn’t quit — he adjusted. He went through multiple sponsors until he found someone who truly understood both him and his drug of choice. For the first time, Vinny didn’t just get sober — he started to recover. Vinny also opens up about the generational trauma that shaped him. His father lived multiple secret lives with three hidden families — and in sobriety, Vinny realized he was becoming the very man he resented most. That awareness, painful as it was, became part of his healing. One of the hardest — and most meaningful — parts of Vinny’s journey has been making amends to his three children. He talks honestly about the fear, the humility, and the slow rebuilding of trust after years of absence and broken promises. He also shares about his first serious relationship in sobriety — one that recently ended — and why, for the first time in his life, he’s choosing not to rush into something new. Instead, he’s learning how to date himself, sit with himself, and actually know who he is without drugs, chaos, or another person to hide behind. Vinny’s story is a powerful reminder that addiction doesn’t just destroy substances — it destroys relationships, identity, and self-respect. And recovery isn’t just about not using — it’s about becoming someone your kids, your past, and your future can finally believe in.

    49 min

  2. FEB 10

    Episode 57: "From Happy Hour to a Higher Purpose" with Charlene

    This week, we sit down with Charlene — a woman whose story proves that staying sober isn’t the same as living sober. With over 7½ years of recovery today, Charlene opens up about the two very different versions of sobriety she’s experienced — one driven by fear, and the other rooted in freedom, connection, and purpose. Before this chapter of her life, Charlene had 22 months sober — and it was nothing short of a miracle she made it that far. She originally entered treatment for just 30 days, but on her 29th day, she asked her counselor what her chances of relapsing were. When he said 50/50, fear kicked in — and she stayed for another 30. She did the steps, went to meetings daily while in treatment, and followed the rules. But once she left, she stopped everything. No sponsor. No sober friends. No meetings. She even kept going to happy hour, sitting at the bar drinking water. It was abstinence without connection — and it was never going to last. Her relapse was slow and calculated. One day at happy hour, telling a friend how good her life had become, she was told, “You should have a drink.” And that was all it took. For eight months, she tried to control it — until she was right back where she started: two bottles of vodka a day and burning every relationship to the ground. Charlene is one of seven siblings — five sisters and two brothers — and addiction has touched every corner of her family. She lost a brother to the disease, and she was the first sibling to get sober. Today, two of the sisters she’s closest to are sober too — a legacy of healing that started with her. This time, Charlene did recovery differently. She found Celebrate Recovery and committed to a nine-month, all-women program where missing more than two meetings wasn’t allowed. Twenty-five women, all on the same step, moving through the work together — and for the first time, she didn’t do it alone. When she graduated, she was asked to lead the next group, spending another nine months walking women through the same process that had changed her life. Charlene opens up about what it’s really like to build a life in sobriety — sober sex, dating, and even going through a divorce clean. She also shares how fitness became a powerful anchor in her recovery, and how learning to stop caring what people think of her set her free. Today, Charlene works for The Phoenix, a sober active community that offers free fitness and social events to anyone with 48 hours of sobriety — creating connection, purpose, and belonging where isolation once lived. Charlene’s story is a reminder that fear can keep you dry… but only connection, honesty, and community can help you build a life worth staying sober for.

    49 min

  3. FEB 3

    Episode 56: “I Wanted to Die an Alcoholic Death” with Sarah

    This week, we sit down with Sarah — who will celebrate five years sober this March — and whose story is a powerful reminder that sometimes it’s not the hundredth attempt that saves us… it’s the first honest one. Sarah had collected plenty of 30-, 60-, and 90-day chips over the years — but none of them were real. She wasn’t staying sober, she was just resetting the clock. Then, something changed. When she finally made it to an honest 90 days, it “just stuck” — and it became the foundation for the life she’s living today. Her drinking began at USC, where she even circled a concern about alcohol on a medical form. That simple moment led to conversations about therapy, psychiatry, and the rooms — but at the time, Sarah wasn’t looking for help. She openly admits she wanted to die an alcoholic death. That sounded easier than living. Before getting sober, Sarah was living in a Motel 6, bouncing between chaos and isolation. She ended up moving in with a man 26 years older than her — someone she’d met in the rooms — who was sober himself. But living there came with no consequences. She could relapse freely, and she did. Eventually, she realized she needed accountability to survive, so she moved in with a woman in recovery — a decision she now says saved her life. She lived with her for three and a half years while working her get-well job at Home Depot and slowly learning how to be a person again. Sarah shares what it was like to experience feelings for the first time in sobriety — including having a crush on a coworker — and how strange, vulnerable, and terrifying it was to navigate emotions without numbing them. Her alcoholism took her to brutal physical and emotional lows. She had multiple DUIs, a medical hold on her license, pancreatitis, and hospital stays so frequent they became routine. She’d text her mom, “I’m going into the hospital today,” and her mom would reply, “Okay sweetie, see you in five days.” With no car, she rode a bike everywhere — eventually upgrading to an e-bike — even pedaling through the rain to her corporate job, determined to keep showing up. In her twenties, Sarah had no friends — not one. She got sober at 31 and was suddenly surrounded by people who cared about her, showed up for her, and loved her. On her first sober birthday, more than 100 people came to celebrate her — something she never imagined would be possible. Sarah’s episode is about loneliness turning into belonging, fake recovery becoming real, and how a single honest 90 days can change everything. It’s a story of grit, grace, and the miracle that happens when you finally stop running — and stay. 💛

    52 min

  4. JAN 27

    Episode 55: “From the Spotlight to Sobriety: Amanda’s Story”

    In this episode, we sit down with Amanda — whose recovery journey began not in a meeting room, but under the brightest spotlight imaginable. After leaving her hometown in New Jersey in the depths of addiction, Amanda found herself on Dr. Phil alongside her two sisters. What followed was an experience few people can even imagine: being flown out with her family, walking onto a stage, and seeing her parents sitting there — then having to watch herself and her sisters use drugs on national television in front of millions of people. Amanda walks us through what happened behind the scenes — how the show decided where each of them would go for treatment, and how being separated into different programs for different lengths of time deeply impacted each of their recovery paths. While Amanda was incredibly fortunate to receive a much longer stay in treatment, her sisters’ journeys looked very different. Though they didn’t stay sober immediately after, they are now sober today — and Amanda reflects honestly on the survivor’s guilt, gratitude, and complexity that comes with that. She also shares how she learned to rebuild from the ground up — starting with a get-well job at The Latest Thing, learning how to show up consistently, and slowly creating a life that didn’t revolve around chaos or crisis. Amanda opens up about dating her now-husband during her first year of sobriety, navigating his relapse, and how they managed to grow through it instead of apart. Her story highlights the reality that recovery doesn’t happen in isolation — it unfolds in relationships, in work, in disappointment, in forgiveness, and in the daily choice to keep going. This episode is about visibility, family, and the long road from being exposed to truly being free. It’s a powerful reminder that even the most public rock bottoms don’t guarantee sobriety — but they can become the starting point for a life built on humility, accountability, and grace. (And yes — we did mess up the camera for the last 15 minutes, so you’ll mostly be looking at our faces… but trust us, the story is worth it.) 😅 🎧 Tune in for a raw, unforgettable conversation about fame, family, and finding real recovery after the cameras turn off.

    56 min

  5. JAN 20

    Episode 54: “Give Yourself a Year” with Kelly

    This week, we sit down with Kelly — whose story is raw, honest, and deeply relatable for anyone who’s ever tried to get sober before they were truly ready. With a sobriety date of 2/16/21, Kelly shares what changed between her first attempt at recovery at 26 and the version of sobriety she’s living today. Kelly’s early substance use leaned more toward drugs than alcohol. Growing up in a family marked by alcoholism, she thought drinking was “yucky” — until a relapse led her straight into it. In her early 20s, she was living in LA when a car accident forced her to move back home. Feeling like the odd one out, she found drugs, lost stability, and eventually found herself kicked out of her parents’ house and living in her car. She shares darkly funny — and painfully honest — stories about experiencing psychosis, constantly believing people were talking about her, and how those thoughts still echo in her life today. This time around, sobriety looked different because her attitude was different. Kelly came in with acceptance — a willingness to do whatever was suggested. Detox. Residential. Sober living. Sponsor. No shortcuts. She talks about a moment in South Florida, deep in chaos, when she called her stepdad and said, “I know I won’t feel like this in an hour or a week — but you need to come get me. I’m unwell.” That moment of clarity saved her life. After returning to California with about 70 days sober, Kelly relapsed — but instead of disappearing, she reached back out to the sober living she’d previously been in, despite having reservations. A relapse involving a substance she believed was something else — later discovered to be laced with fentanyl — gave her a healthy fear that ultimately anchored her recovery. She returned to the program, stayed in sober living for over a year, became a house manager with just four months sober, and made the intentional decision not to date in her first year. Kelly shares how working out became a crucial tool in her sobriety — not as an escape, but as a way to stay present through discomfort. She opens up about gaining weight in recovery, feeling uncomfortable in her own skin, and learning how to move through that discomfort instead of using over it. She reflects on her relationships with other women, how men once felt safer, and why today she prioritizes women’s meetings, strong female connections, and remaining single — by choice. Now, Kelly is living the promises. She’s found purpose, stability, and self-trust — even working as a voice recorder in the court system. Most importantly, she shares that this is the most okay she’s ever been being single. Kelly’s message to the newcomer is simple and powerful: give yourself a year. Lock in. Do the work. And see what happens. This episode is a reminder that recovery doesn’t require perfection — just willingness, honesty, and the courage to stay.

    47 min

  6. JAN 13

    Episode 53: "Chase Your Recovery the Way You Chased Your High" with Paul

    In this episode, we sit down with Paul — a member of Jimmy’s home group who is approaching seven years sober and living proof that real change often begins with a single boundary you can’t talk your way around. Just two weeks before Paul got sober, his brother passed away from complications related to HIV. While he didn’t die directly from drugs or alcohol, he was in active addiction and not taking care of himself — and he was also the person who first introduced Paul to Alcoholics Anonymous. Despite the timing, Paul shares honestly that his brother’s death wasn’t the reason he finally surrendered. Grief alone wasn’t enough to keep him sober — something deeper had to change. That change came when his longtime partner, Nikki — who had just reached one year sober — drew a line in the sand: get sober, or leave me alone. They had been together since 2014 and had survived countless relapses side by side. But this time, Nikki meant it. And for the first time, Paul listened. At the time, Paul was living in a sober living that didn’t hold him accountable — one where he knew he could continue getting high if he wanted to. Instead of staying comfortable, he chose discomfort and moved into a different sober living where he knew he’d be held to a higher standard. He admits he originally stayed sober for Nikki — and even jokes that she appointed his sponsor for him (not exactly how it’s supposed to work). But somehow, it worked. That sponsor finally broke the Big Book down in a way Paul could understand, helping him see his own life reflected in every page. Paul also opens up about identity and honesty — including what it was like to be in a relationship with a transgender partner while still hiding parts of himself. It wasn’t until this stretch of sobriety that he fully owned who he was, stopped keeping secrets, and allowed himself to live openly and authentically. Nikki required Paul to stay in sober living for a full year before they moved in together — another boundary that helped build a foundation rooted in trust, accountability, and growth. Paul shares how far he was willing to go to stay sober, including riding bikes to meetings when he had no other way to get there — something he still does today. We also dive into Paul’s family dynamics. With two brothers who still drink and smoke, Paul has had to learn how to set and maintain boundaries — even when they see how much better his life has become and still ask him to join in. His story highlights the quiet strength it takes to choose yourself, even when the people you love don’t fully understand your choices. Paul’s episode is about honesty, accountability, identity, and the power of boundaries — not as punishment, but as protection. It’s a reminder that sobriety doesn’t come from ultimatums alone… it comes from finally deciding that the life you’re building is worth defending. 🎧 Tune in for a grounded, heartfelt conversation about choosing discomfort over destruction — and what happens when you finally stop running from who you are.

    47 min

  7. JAN 6

    Episode 52: Not Like Them… Until She Was: Courtney’s Story

    We open Season 2 with Courtney — a woman whose story reminds us that sobriety doesn’t click because we try harder… it clicks because we finally become willing. Approaching two years sober on February 24, Courtney shares what changed between her first attempt at recovery and the one that finally transformed her life. Courtney was first introduced to the rooms after a DUI in 2015, but for years, she stayed on the outside looking in. She always felt different — separate — convinced the program was great for them, just not for her. She didn’t believe she drank like other people, and she certainly didn’t believe she needed what the program offered. It took being told — clearly and honestly — that she would never be able to drink like a normal person for something to finally land. The biggest difference this time around? A willingness to seek a relationship with a Higher Power. Instead of just attending meetings, Courtney was told to work the steps and find the spirit — and she did. With the help of a spiritual advisor, she began to understand that God wasn’t something external or distant, confined to a church or a place, but something already within her. What once felt unreachable became constant. Courtney shares how she now understands her life was unmanageable not because God was absent, but because she wasn’t listening. That guiding force had been with her since day one — she just wasn’t aware of it yet. Today, she fully believes her life is unfolding according to a divine plan. She also opens up about the physical toll addiction took on her body. From pancreatitis to alopecia, Courtney entered recovery as a woman losing her hair — an emotionally devastating experience that challenged her self-worth and identity. Throughout her sobriety, she’s worn hair pieces to cover bald spots, but as she’s cared for her body and stayed sober, her hair has begun to grow back — a visible symbol of healing. Courtney reflects on a difficult relationship during her first year sober and how painful — yet necessary — that experience was. Though she wasn’t drinking, she could see her addictive behaviors still running the show, which at times felt even worse. Through that clarity, she learned perspective, accountability, and how deeply sobriety requires change beyond substances. With the same sponsor guiding her through both stints — and helping get her into detox — Courtney shares one clear message for the newcomer: 99.9% won’t work. You have to be all in. You can’t serve two Gods — your Higher Power and yourself. This episode sets the tone for Season 2 — a conversation about surrender, spiritual connection, healing the body and soul, and the courage it takes to return and do it differently the second time around.

    48 min

  8. 12/16/2025

    Episode 51: “No Shots, Just Thoughts”: Cliques, Connection, and Finding Your Place in Recovery

    This week, it’s just Jimmy and Breezy — and we’re introducing a brand-new recurring feature we’re calling No Shots, Just Thoughts. These episodes are exactly what they sound like: honest conversations, no guest, no filter, and no agenda other than answering the questions you keep asking. And as long as you keep sending them in, we’ll keep showing up. For our very first No Shots, Just Thoughts episode, we tackle one of the most common (and quietly painful) topics in early recovery: Is the program cliquey? How do you navigate group dynamics? How do you find your people? And what is actually your responsibility versus what you’re projecting? Jimmy and Breezy talk candidly about the newcomer mindset — that overwhelming feeling that everyone in the room is watching you, judging you, or secretly doesn’t like you. They break down why that’s almost never true, how ego and fear can distort perception, and why most people in the room are far more focused on their own stuff than on yours. This episode is part reassurance, part reality check, and part invitation to exhale. It’s about learning how to stay, how to show up without trying to perform or belong too quickly, and how connection often comes naturally when we stop chasing it. If you’ve ever walked into a meeting and felt invisible, awkward, or convinced you didn’t fit — this episode is for you. No shots. Just thoughts. And a whole lot of truth.

    19 min
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Cohosts Breezy and Jimmy interview someone in recovery every week to discuss what that first year of sobriety is REALLY like! Whether it be the hilarious stories of sexual firsts sober or not taking sponsor direction and seeing how that affects us, they tell it like it really is! But they always show the newcomer that you can stay sober NO MATTER WHAT!

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