The Grief and Belief Podcast

Kori Andrews and David Mickelson

Grief and Belief shares heartfelt stories of those who have faced loss and found healing through faith in Jesus Christ. Each episode explores how individuals and families navigate grief, uncover moments of hope, and discover the Savior as the ultimate source of comfort and relief. Through personal experiences and honest conversations, this podcast offers inspiration, connection, and a reminder that even in our darkest moments, faith and love can bring light and peace. Sponsored by Hi Five Live and produced by Misty Howard.

  1. Scot Irwin: The Holy Ghost as a Healer

    FEB 3

    Scot Irwin: The Holy Ghost as a Healer

    Welcome to the Grief and Belief podcast. Hosts David Mickelson and Kori Andrews interview Scot Irwin, a former seminary and institute teacher who shares the powerful story of losing his younger brother, Chad, when Chad was 18 and Scot was 25 and married with two children. Chad, described as a quiet, conservative, and good-looking blonde athlete, developed a side ache that quickly led to the discovery of a malignant, grapefruit-sized tumor. The cancer progressed rapidly, and Chad passed away that night after Scot prayed that he would no longer suffer. Scot recounts the immense guilt he felt because he was uncomfortable giving Chad a priesthood blessing, despite being the only Melchizedek Priesthood holder in the family, and because he prayed for Chad's death to end the suffering. Scot struggled with the guilt of prioritizing his full-time teaching job, school, and young family over being there for his brother. His guilt began to ease following a vivid dream in which Chad appeared to him, conveying the message: "I'm in a great place. I'm at peace. This is God's will and it's my will too. I'm happy and you shouldn't feel guilty. You're a great brother and I love you". Through this experience, Scot gained a profound personal appreciation for the role of the Holy Ghost as a bringer of peace, healing, and sanctification. Scot testifies that Jesus Christ is the Savior who connects with him in his grief, emphasizing that Christ suffered so that He could "sucker us" (Alma 7). Scot concludes that healing from grief comes when he quits focusing on himself and turns his heart and mind outward to serve others. Follow along on social media: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Page⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Community

    46 min
  2. Troy and Deedra Russell Part 2: Elder Holland's Influence

    JAN 20

    Troy and Deedra Russell Part 2: Elder Holland's Influence

    In part two of their interview, Troy and Deedra Russell discuss the far-reaching impact of their story. Troy shares how his home teacher’s persistent invitation to play basketball helped him navigate the "unrelenting" grief of losing their son, Austen. This experience of dedicated ministering was later shared by Elder Holland in General Conference, leading to a video viewed by millions.Deedra recounts her journey through physical suffering following a catastrophic head-on collision. She details her 137-day hospital stay—matching Joseph Smith’s time in Liberty Jail—and complications from a kidney transplant that left her in "darkest despair". Dedra views her previous trials, including clinical depression and the loss of her mother, as "stepping stones" that prepared her to endure these later challenges.Despite ongoing medical struggles, the Russells testify that Jesus Christ understands their specific mental and physical agony because of His suffering in Gethsemane. They describe their most difficult trials as "sacred holy ground" where they felt God’s presence most profoundly. Their message emphasizes that by keeping covenants, individuals can view their refining experiences with an eternal perspective. Resources: One-on-One - YouTube Video A Saint Through the Atonement of Christ the Lord - Elder Holland talking about Deedra's car accident Remember Lot's Wife - Elder Holland BYU Speech Lessons from Liberty Jail - Elder Holland BYU Speech Heavenly Answers for Earthly Questions - Book about a Near-Death Experience Follow along on social media: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Page⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Community

    1h 6m
  3. Troy and Deedra Russell Part 1: Sustained by Tender Mercies

    JAN 13

    Troy and Deedra Russell Part 1: Sustained by Tender Mercies

    Welcome to the Grief and Belief podcast, where hosts David Mickelson and Kori Andrews interview Troy and Deedra Russell. The Russells share the tragic story of losing their son, Austen, when he was just nine years old after he was accidentally run over by Troy's truck in May 2015. Austen, the third of five children, was a beloved, fun-loving "phenom" athlete, especially talented in basketball, who had a special bond with his father over sports and with his mother when he was younger due to a severe speech impediment.The Russell's recount the immediate, unrelenting grief that felt like a "house was just absolutely crushing me". Troy received a powerful revelation from Heavenly Father, affirming that he could keep the nine years he had with Austen, even if it meant enduring the pain. Deedra and Troy received numerous tender mercies, including Austen writing the scripture "The worth of souls is great in the sight of God" just days before he passed away, and their youngest daughter seeing "big Austen" (an adult-sized spirit) who performed a calming sign above their bed.Their sorrow led to meaningful community outreach. Since Austen was known for his dedication to sports and the number three (which he adopted after BYU stars), the community created the logo AR3. They honored Austen by hosting a successful annual community event—an "Austen Russell birthday party"—for ten years, which features a court named Austen Russell Court. The Russells continue to focus on using this experience to strengthen their covenants and ensure they will be an eternal family with Austen again.Resources: One-on-One - YouTube Video Follow along on social media: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Page⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Community

    1h 4m
  4. Jenni Theobald: The Courage to Move Forward

    12/30/2025

    Jenni Theobald: The Courage to Move Forward

    Welcome to the Grief and Belief podcast. Hosts David Mickelson and Kori Andrews interview Jenni Theobald, who shares the traumatic story of losing her son, Adam, when she was approximately 25 weeks along in the year 2000. Jenni recounts being on a trip to Las Vegas when she woke up in labor. In the hospital, an ultrasound tech brutally informed her: "Your baby's dead" because there were "no fetal heart tones". Following the loss, Jenni and her husband struggled to process the guilt and grief in a community where pregnancy loss is often "forbidden to talk about".Jenni explains her difficulty with the term "miscarriage," which felt like an accusation that she had made a "mistake" or done something wrong. She recalls a family member dismissing her pain, saying, "It's just a miscarriage. Why are you upset? It wasn't a real baby". The pregnancy-loss experience caused a huge paradigm shift, leading her to leave her teaching career and focus intently on motherhood, recognizing the power and importance of family.Ultimately, Jenni found the courage to move forward by leaning into the Savior. She found comfort in the song "I walked today where Jesus walked," realizing she needed to pick up her heavy burdens and keep moving forward, allowing her sorrow to deepen her capacity for joy. She testifies that the Atonement makes broken things whole and that the Lord "backfills where we lack with the spirit and buoy us up". Resources: I Walked Today Where Jesus Walked Follow along on social media: ⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Page⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook Community

    50 min
4.9
out of 5
40 Ratings

About

Grief and Belief shares heartfelt stories of those who have faced loss and found healing through faith in Jesus Christ. Each episode explores how individuals and families navigate grief, uncover moments of hope, and discover the Savior as the ultimate source of comfort and relief. Through personal experiences and honest conversations, this podcast offers inspiration, connection, and a reminder that even in our darkest moments, faith and love can bring light and peace. Sponsored by Hi Five Live and produced by Misty Howard.

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