Push Each Other to the Top

Jonathan & Brent
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Push Each Other to the Top is a podcast about recovery, resilience, and the power of honest conversation. In each episode, Brent shares his journey through addiction, healing, faith, and the long road back — not as an expert, but as someone who’s been there. Host Jonathan listens, asks, and reflects as they explore what it means to fall, and what it takes to climb again. These aren’t polished success stories — they’re raw, real, and full of hope. If you're looking for a podcast that meets you in the mess and helps you move forward, you’re in the right place.

  1. 1d ago

    E30 - "Today's a Day You Can't Talk to Mom"

    Sarah thought she was holding everything together. She was managing the business, running carpool, keeping the calendar full — doing everything right. What she didn't know was that her toddler had already figured it out. In a video found years later on an old iPad, her youngest daughter is pretend-talking to a friend, casually explaining why they can't come over: "Today's a day you can't talk to Mom. It's one of those days."  That's the moment Sarah realized the addiction in her home hadn't just affected Ryan — it had changed her too.  In this episode, Sarah shares what it's like to be the spouse of an alcoholic, how she slowly lost herself trying to control the uncontrollable, and what finally cracked her open enough to ask for help. She talks about walking into her first Al-Anon meeting with tears streaming down her face, sitting in the corner, convinced she could never come back — and what kept pulling her through the door anyway.  Sarah is a co-owner of Reprieve Recovery Center, a women's residential treatment facility in Mountain Green, Utah, where she runs family support every week.  Stay through the end for a candid behind-the-scenes conversation about what comes next. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E30 - "Today's a Day You Can't Talk to Mom"

  2. Aug 4

    E29 - "You're a Cop, You'll Never Get Addicted"

    Brock was a Mesa police officer chasing a guy over a stolen 24-pack when he blew out his knee. His doctor handed him opioids with a promise: "You're a cop. You'll never get addicted to these things." Ten years of addiction later, he was medically retired, alone in a bathroom in Show Low, seven days into a cold-turkey detox with nobody coming to save him.  Brock walked out of that bathroom 16 years ago and hasn't relapsed since. Today he runs the Fentanyl Project Arizona — boots on the ground, connecting people on the street to people and resources, one degree at a time.  In this episode: losing your identity when the badge comes off, why he doesn't believe in rock bottom, the five-stage addiction cycle (trigger → thought → craving → use → remorse) and how to break it, the "king voice" vs. the voice that tells you to take the easy path, what xylazine is doing to the drug supply, and why you can love someone to death but can't get them sober for them.  Plus Brent on interventions, permission to get well, and the young man in the Walmart doorway.  Find Brock: The Fentanyl Project Arizona on Instagram and Facebook. If you're struggling, you're not alone. Follow the show wherever you listen, and if this one hit you, share it with someone who needs it. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E29 - "You're a Cop, You'll Never Get Addicted"

  3. Jul 28

    E28 - "I Fired the God That Doomed Me to Hell"

    Ryan grew up the "designated driver" — the holier-than-thou kid who swore he'd never touch drugs or alcohol. Then a snowboarding accident shattered three vertebrae, a doctor friend sat him down at a Ruth's Chris lunch, and a Purdue Pharma rep promised the new painkiller was "non-addictive." Four years later Ryan was hurling two fresh bottles of pills into Lake Powell, praying to die as he detoxed alone on a houseboat full of family.  That was only the beginning. Ryan tells Jonathan and Brent about the sake he drank in a liquor-store parking lot at 32, the years of day-drinking behind a white-picket-fence facade, the cocaine he used just to sober up enough to drive home, and the "Superman" ego that survived a heart attack in Central Park and a .38 DUI. The turn comes from a neighbor he'd written off — John Redd — and four words that cracked the whole thing open: "Okay, cool. Me too."  The heart of it is a spiritual turn most people never talk about out loud. By the time he got to treatment, Ryan had gone agnostic — sure that if there was a God, He'd doomed him to this. So he fired that God. He wrote a firing letter to the higher power that had cast him into hell, and a hiring letter for a new one built from the qualities he most wanted as a dad. From there — writing his fourth step twice, working a fifth step, and the moment the cravings simply lifted and "the sky got bluer" — Ryan walks through the surrender that gave him back his marriage (26 years to Sarah), his business, and a calling. Today, five and a half years sober, he and Sarah run Reprieve, a women's recovery center they never planned to build — and Ryan is careful to draw the line between working in recovery and working his recovery.  Plus: the screwdriver he was handed to build a house, the wisdom that we're all the same distance from grace, and why the suffering was worth it. And stick around for the behind-the-scenes — a very heated debate about whether soccer is the dumbest sport ever invented.  If you or someone you love is struggling, this one's a reminder: if Ryan can do it, you can too. Reach out. You're not alone. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E28 - "I Fired the God That Doomed Me to Hell"

  4. Jul 21

    E27 - “Selling Hope”

    What does it take to finally change? For Matt, it was losing his dad, his second wife walking out, and 30 years of alcohol — all colliding at once. He checked himself into a hardcore six-month program in the Arizona mountains, fought it every step of the way, relapsed, and got back up anyway. Eight years later, he's sitting in detention centers telling his story to men who are right where he used to be.  In this episode, Matt, Brent, and Jonathan get real about the things nobody wants to talk about — the rage that's just as addictive as the bottle, the childhood wounds that don't show up until you're sober enough to feel them, and the difference between being clean and actually being at peace. Matt opens up about deep therapy work he only started this past year, and what he's still uncovering about himself nearly a decade into recovery.  They also talk about what it's like to walk into the most hopeless place in the world and try to sell hope — one conversation, one lost sheep at a time. And Jonathan, the self-described "normie" of the group, shares why he keeps showing up, and the friend he lost to addiction that he'll never stop trying to honor.  If you've ever wondered whether it's too late, or whether change is even possible for someone like you — this one's for you. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E27 - “Selling Hope”

  5. Jul 14

    E26 - “She's Going Nowhere”

    She parked a blue minivan with fake wood panels on the street outside his apartment and sat there. He watched her through the window for thirty minutes, too ashamed of what he'd become to walk down the steps. She wasn't leaving. Fifteen minutes later, he came down — and the next day, at 19, he was in rehab. That was 1993. What followed was a psychology degree, a master's in social work, an MBA, a stage-four cancer diagnosis at 28, "non-addictive" OxyContin handed to a former heroin addict, and eleven years of trying to think his way out of a disease that doesn't respond to thinking. His sobriety date is August 24, 2017.  Today John R. co-owns Reprieve Recovery Center, a women's residential program in Mountain Green, Utah. In this conversation with Brent and Jonathan, he talks about getting honest with a Costco manager, why recovery is more unlearning than learning, what his kids said the morning he left for treatment, and the second cancer diagnosis he met with a very different prayer. "Congratulations on God moving you where you couldn't move yourself."  Stay through the end for a behind-the-scenes conversation after the episode wrapped. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E26 - “She's Going Nowhere”

  6. Jul 7

    E25 - "All I Could Say Was Help"

    Brent had never really prayed. When a counselor told him to get on his knees and ask for help, he thought it was ridiculous — but at the bottom of the barrel, he did it anyway. He closed the door, got on the floor, and all he could muster was one word: "Help." Nothing happened. No trumpets, no rush. Then 30 days later he picked up his chip and realized he hadn't thought about drinking once — after years of not being able to go six hours without a drink.  In this episode, Jonathan and Brent dig into Step 11 — "sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God" — and what it actually looks like to build that connection day by day. They talk about surrender, humility, free will, and the stubborn human habit of grabbing the wheel back the moment things start going well. Along the way: the guy who threw his keys under the bed so he'd have to kneel every morning, a squeegee, a bucket, and the simple truth that showing up is where the miracle starts.  If you're struggling right now, this one's for you. Because if it worked for Brent, it can work for anybody. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E25 - "All I Could Say Was Help"

  7. Jul 2

    E24 - "You Have a Fatal Disease"

    A psychologist once told Brent he had a fatal disease, handed him a copy of the Big Book, and said, "Don't come back." It took years, but that seed eventually saved his life. In this Father's Day episode, Brent and Jonathan open up about the fathers who shaped them, the fishing trips they still remember, and what it really means to show up sober. Then they dig into Step 9 — making amends — and why it's the hardest step for a reason. It's not step one for a reason: you have to do the work first. And here's the twist most people miss — the amends aren't for the people you hurt. They're for you. Along the way: the "bag of rocks" you've been carrying, why guilt and shame fester like an infection, the courage it takes to face someone you've wronged, and the little seeds people planted that grew years later. If you're wondering how to take that first step, reach out — check the show notes and website. You're not alone. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E24 - "You Have a Fatal Disease"

  8. Jun 18

    E23 - "I Found God in a Bottle of Whiskey"

    Recording from a beautiful island in Thailand, Brent joins Jonathan for a candid conversation about how to protect your sobriety when alcohol is everywhere — summer barbecues, weddings, work trips, casinos, and a condo with a full wall of booze. Brent shares the hard-won tools that keep him grounded: working Step One and truly conceding you're powerless, making a plan before you walk into a tough situation, and never being afraid to pull the rip cord and leave.  He opens up about his sponsor Horace's brutal honesty ("You're not a dad, you're a drunk"), the terror and freedom of asking for help, and the night he almost "soaked up the atmosphere" at a hotel bar — and called his sponsor instead. Along the way: Bill W. and Dr. Bob, a tuk-tuk driver in Bangkok with a line that changed how Brent handles resentment ("they're in your life, they're out of your life"), and the realization that we're all the same distance from grace.  Plus, the line at the heart of it all: "Drinking wasn't the problem — drinking was a lot of the answer. When I finally drank enough, I found God."  If you or someone you love is struggling, this one's a reminder: if Brent can do it, you can too. Reach out. You're not alone. Stay for the behind-the-scenes chat at the end. 🔗 Stay Connected & Keep Climbing 🎧 Listen on Apple Podcasts 🎧 Also on Spotify 📺 Watch full episodes on YouTube 🌐 Visit us at PushEachOtherToTheTop.com 📧 Email us - we would love to hear from you! 🙏 If this episode spoke to you, share it with someone who needs a little hope today.

    E23 - "I Found God in a Bottle of Whiskey"
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Push Each Other to the Top is a podcast about recovery, resilience, and the power of honest conversation. In each episode, Brent shares his journey through addiction, healing, faith, and the long road back — not as an expert, but as someone who’s been there. Host Jonathan listens, asks, and reflects as they explore what it means to fall, and what it takes to climb again. These aren’t polished success stories — they’re raw, real, and full of hope. If you're looking for a podcast that meets you in the mess and helps you move forward, you’re in the right place.

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  • Creator
    Jonathan & Brent
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    30
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Push Each Other to the Top
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