The MADCast

John Michael

For the broken and the becoming. The MADcast is a raw, story-first journey into healing, formation, and soul-deep change. In Welcome to the Workshop, we unpack the MAD Engine—how we grow, what drives us, and how to go MAD in a world gone numb.

  1. 08/26/2025

    BSS07 The Question that Broke My Perfect Life

    The Question That Broke My Perfect Life What happens when a stranger asks if you're happy and your six-figure salary can't answer? This episode follows a successful manager who stumbles into a Tether Table gathering—expecting nothing, finding everything she didn't know she was missing. Corner office, promotions stacking up, Instagram-worthy lifestyle. But when someone asks that simple, devastating question, her perfectly constructed world begins to crack. Sometimes the most successful people are the most imprisoned ones. Sometimes we're already surrendered—just to the wrong master. And sometimes freedom isn't about climbing higher, but about choosing who you serve. Join us as we explore the difference between being needed and being loved, between achievement and fulfilment, between the life that looks good and the life that feels true. This is a story about what happens when someone finally asks the question your career never prepared you for. If you've ever wondered whether your success is actually serving you, or if there's something more than the endless climb toward "more," this episode will meet you exactly where you are. No easy answers, no quick fixes—just the honest ache of recognition and the possibility that surrender might actually be freedom. 🔥 Subscribe for future episodes of The Insiders. 💥 Want to dig deeper? Join the MAD Engine Dispatch for reflections and spiritual commentary. 🎙️ Support the MAD Engine on Patreon to help fuel the rebellion of hope. The difference isn't in what happened. The difference is what you do with it. ⚡ YOU HAVE 7 SECONDS TO CHOOSE Your brain just processed this message. In the next 7 seconds, you'll either: React (scroll past, forget this exists)Respond (discover stories that transform)Humans are made in God's image with divine choice-making power. The question is: are you using it? Join readers who've chosen transformation over comfort. Stories that rewire your thinking, renew your mind, and awaken your inner difference maker. 👉 CHOOSE TRANSFORMATION Your inner voices might start talking back. Are you ready?

    BSS07 The Question that Broke My Perfect Life
  2. 08/01/2025

    BSS06 Two Columns

    Two Columns: The day I discovered my best friend had been destroying my life was the day I finally started living. Ryan thought he had it all figured out. The Audi lease, the minimalist flat, the LinkedIn buzzwords that screamed "success." His best friend Marcus was right there beside him, climbing the corporate ladder, celebrating every win with pints and bad karaoke. They were brothers in arms, conquering the world together. Until the day Ryan discovered Marcus had been systematically destroying his life. Overheard whispers in a coffee shop. Lies about failed projects he'd never worked on. A promotion that slipped away because of sabotage disguised as friendship. In one devastating afternoon, Ryan's perfectly curated world crumbled like tissue paper, leaving him staring at the wreckage of everything he thought he knew about success, friendship, and himself. But sometimes the most broken moments become doorways to something better. Enter Maya—the quiet neighbour Ryan had dismissed as a weirdo for three years. The one who cycled everywhere, didn't do small talk, and seemed detached from the hustle culture everyone else was drowning in. The one whose flat filled with voices and laughter while Ryan's echoed with emptiness. When Maya invites him to a "Tether Table Conversation," Ryan discovers something that changes everything: a piece of paper with two columns. Modern Culture versus Kingdom Culture. Competition versus celebration. Money as god versus purpose as calling. Judgment versus forgiveness. Two ways of living. Two completely different approaches to being human. For the first time in his life, Ryan finds himself in a room where people actually see him—not as competition, not as a liability, but as a person worth knowing. Where community isn't about networking or climbing ladders, but about becoming who you're meant to be. This is the story of what happens when the life you've built collapses and you discover there was always another way. When betrayal becomes the catalyst for transformation. When you realise the difference isn't in what happened to you—it's what you do with it. Join Ryan as he navigates the wreckage of false friendship and discovers what real community looks like. Where success means lifting others up instead of climbing over them. Where your worth isn't determined by your salary or your status, but by something deeper, truer, more lasting. Because sometimes you have to lose everything to find what you were actually looking for. 🔥 Subscribe for future episodes of The MAD Cast. 💥 Want to dig deeper? Join the MAD Engine Dispatch for reflections and spiritual commentary. 🎙️ Support the MAD Engine on Patreon to help fuel the rebellion of hope. The difference isn't in what happened. The difference is what you do with it.

    BSS06 Two Columns
  3. 07/16/2025

    ME0103 Ash’s Battle Inside: When Knowing What's Right Isn't Enough

    In this powerful MAD Extra connected to The Insiders Episode 3: Shadow in the Limelight, we meet Ash Williams—a mid-level manager whose technical brilliance is constantly undermined by emotional outbursts that sabotage his leadership potential. Just as Bran wrestled with the gap between who he wanted to be and his automatic reactions under pressure, Ash faces the universal struggle Paul described: "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." This story, inspired by a real coaching experience, follows Ash through a critical three-day period before his performance review—a crucible that reveals why change feels so impossibly difficult and uncomfortable. As workplace pressures mount and old triggers resurface, Ash discovers that the battle isn't about eliminating emotions or achieving perfection, but about learning to respond rather than react. Through Ash's journey, we explore the neuroscience of emotional hijacking, the gap between knowledge and application, and why growth only happens when we're willing to step beyond our comfort zone. Whether you're struggling with anger, defensiveness, or any pattern that undermines your best intentions, this story offers hope: you're not alone in this battle, and transformation is possible. Featuring practical tools like the PCPCR framework and the beginner-friendly Pause-Breathe-Choose technique, this MAD Extra provides both story and strategy for winning the war between knowing and doing. 🔥 Subscribe for future episodes of The MADcast 💥 Want to dig deeper? Join the MAD Engine Dispatch for reflections and spiritual commentary. 🎙️ Support the MAD Engine on Patreon to help fuel the rebellion of hope. The difference isn't in what happened. The difference is what you do with it.

    ME0103 Ash’s Battle Inside: When Knowing What's Right Isn't Enough
  4. 07/10/2025

    S03E02 The Unmentionables - The Engine room

    What if the secret to lasting change isn't willpower, but understanding how transformation actually works? Charlie returns to the mysterious Workshop with two trusted colleagues—brilliant scientists Nia and Luka, who are hiding a forbidden relationship that could destroy their careers. Together, they're about to discover something that will challenge everything they thought they knew about growth, purpose, and what it means to be truly alive. Deep in Critter Vale, Sher Gar—the talking Derby champion turned wisdom keeper—unveils the heart of the MAD Engine. Not a machine, but a blueprint for human flourishing that runs on hunger rather than ambition. As the living schematic reveals its secrets—the Needs PowerBank, the MAKERS learning cycle, tiny MAD Habits that swing big doors—each companion must confront the wounds that have shaped them. This isn't self-help. It's soul archaeology. When Nia touches the Engine, she relives the moment her curiosity was crushed. When Luka's hand finds the PowerBank, his starved need for belonging flickers red like a warning light. And when Charlie connects with the blueprint's possibilities, she sees a future where her gifts heal instead of control. But transformation demands more than insight—it requires practice. Sher Gar offers them their first MAD Habit: a beautifully simple evening question that could rewire decades of fear-based thinking. "What's Better Today?" becomes their anchor in a world designed to keep them striving, comparing, never quite enough. Blending cutting-edge neuroscience with ancient wisdom, this episode explores how real change happens—not through force or manipulation, but through invitation and the courage to let yourself be remade. It's about discovering that the engine driving your life doesn't have to consume you. It can create instead. Perfect for soul-hungry misfits, burned-out believers, and anyone who suspects they were made for more than just surviving the system. 🔥 Subscribe for future episodes of The Insiders and The Unmentionables 💥 Want to dig deeper? Join the MAD Engine Dispatch for reflections and spiritual commentary. 🎙️ Support the MAD Engine on Patreon to help fuel the rebellion of hope. The difference isn't in what happened. The difference is what you do with it.

    S03E02 The Unmentionables - The Engine room
  5. 07/08/2025

    MAD Extra 0102 Kim’s Story - Formation Audit

    Welcome to "Kim’s Story - The Formation Audit," a compelling MAD Extra episode tied to "The Eden Chronicles: The Insiders," Episodes 1 & 2. Journey with Kim Chen as she awakens from the sleepwalk of success, inspired by a real-life coaching client facing the profound gap between achievement and authenticity. In this introspective narrative, we delve into the unintentional forces that shape us: Habits, Relationships, Stories we believe, the Environment, and Time (HRSET). Kim's story is a mirror reflecting our own unconscious drift. From the digital buzz of notifications to the relentless chase for external validation, what are the hidden currents carrying you through life? Guided by the wisdom of her mentor, Dr. Tom Harris, Kim embarks on a transformative "formation audit," challenging long-held narratives and embracing a powerful mindset shift. Romans 12:2 becomes a foundational mantra: "Be transformed by the renewing of your mind," not just in spirit, but as a blueprint for actual change. Join us as we unravel the layers of unconscious formation and explore how to curate a life of intentionality. Through Kim's journey, discover the sacred work of becoming who you were always meant to be, illuminated by ancient wisdom and modern neuroscience. Tune in to reflect, awaken, and reinvent your life's narrative. What might change if you became intentional about who you're becoming? Dive into the story and start your own journey of conscious formation. Questions for Reflection: When was the last time you made a truly conscious choice about who you are becoming?What hidden forces shape your life, and how can awareness transform them?How can you apply the principles from Kim's journey to your own life? Download a PDF Guide and join the community at patreon.com/madengine

    MAD Extra 0102 Kim’s Story - Formation Audit
  6. 07/06/2025

    BSS05 The Two Weapons They Use To Keep You in Line

    Welcome to "The Tether," a space where deep, meaningful conversations flow as freely as the laughter and camaraderie around a well-loved dining table. In our latest episode, "The Two Weapons They Use to Keep You in Line," we explore the subtle yet powerful forces of comparison and competition that often dictate our lives, both within and outside the walls of our church. Join us as we pull up a chair to the Tether Table, where mismatched cushions and chipped mugs set the stage for unfiltered honesty and vulnerability. We delve into how these two forces are wielded by the powers that be—whether church leaders, societal elites, or the systems themselves—to maintain control and keep us striving for worthiness. Through personal stories and shared experiences, we confront the discomforting truth of how these dynamics play out. From being moved to the overflow room at church despite needing space due to a medical condition, to watching others receive blessings while feeling unseen, our narratives highlight the pervasive nature of feeling 'not good enough.' We unravel how this feeds into a cycle of self-doubt and dissatisfaction that mirrors the competitive world we live in, leaving us questioning our place and purpose. The conversation takes a profound turn as we examine how the church, which should be a sanctuary of acceptance and community, often mirrors worldly hierarchies. Leaders seated at the front, distant from the congregation; the blessed separated from the struggling; and power structures that replicate societal norms, all underscore the painful reality of unmet expectations. Yet, we don't linger only on challenges. The Tether Table becomes a place of hope and possibility. We dream of a community that transcends comparison and competition—where Kingdom culture is not just an ideal but a lived reality. We envision a church that aligns more closely with Acts 2: a devoted, generous, and alive community, even if that connection begins in a digital space like ours. As we explore these themes, we acknowledge that change doesn't come from overthrowing systems; it starts within us. By choosing to build spaces free from rivalry and full of mutual support, we resist worldly pressures and move toward a life that honors love, vulnerability, and truth over power and prestige. In the sacred silences and honest revelations shared at the Tether Table, we find encouragement and solidarity. We are reminded that while the journey to living authentically within a Kingdom culture is fraught with challenges, it's a path we walk together, tethered by our shared values and aspirations. Thank you for tuning in and joining us on this journey. As we wrap up, we invite you to carry the conversation forward, to question, to listen, and to create spaces of belonging in your own communities. Until next time, stay connected, stay hopeful, and remember—the journey is not just about where we're going, but who we become along the way. Take care, and see you around the Tether Table soon at patreon.com/madengione

    BSS05 The Two Weapons They Use To Keep You in Line
  7. 06/29/2025

    Mad Extra 0101: The Curator’s Algorithm

    The Curator's Algorithm: Reclaiming Your Identity in a Digital World In this transformative MAD Extra connected to The Insiders: Out of the Blue, we meet Olivia Webb—a marketing professional whose carefully curated online identity is suddenly stolen by a hacker. Just as Bran discovered who he truly was when stripped of his messenger status, Olivia must confront a challenging question: Who is she when her digital presence disappears? This story, inspired by a real coaching experience, follows Olivia's journey through digital detox, identity crisis, and the discovery of a more authentic way of being. As her career and sense of self unravel, she encounters a forgotten scripture—Philippians 4:8—that offers a radical alternative to the social media algorithms that have been shaping her attention and identity. Through Olivia's struggle, we explore how our digital environments form us, the neuroscience of attention and validation-seeking, and what it means to curate our lives according to different metrics: truth, nobility, and excellence rather than likes, shares, and follows. Whether you're drowning in notifications or simply questioning the role of technology in your life, this MAD Extra offers practical wisdom for creating healthier digital boundaries and rediscovering who you are beyond the grid. 🔥 Subscribe for future episodes of The Insiders. 💥 Want to dig deeper? Join the MAD Engine Dispatch for reflections and spiritual commentary. 🎙️ Support the MAD Engine on Patreon to help fuel the rebellion of hope. The difference isn't in what happened. The difference is what you do with it.

    Mad Extra 0101: The Curator’s Algorithm

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For the broken and the becoming. The MADcast is a raw, story-first journey into healing, formation, and soul-deep change. In Welcome to the Workshop, we unpack the MAD Engine—how we grow, what drives us, and how to go MAD in a world gone numb.