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Lola Rader

Come with me as I meet my Mother through this series of letters, she died when I was 6 months old and this is my very first real glimpse into her world, who she was, who she wanted to be and how she loved my Father.  A collection of 36 letters hand written by my Mother Joyce at University of Denver and sent to my Father Earl at University of Colorado Boulder when they were first engaged in 1952.  The letters span from September 1952 - January 1953.  My Mother died from Breast Cancer in 1971 at the age of 40.   The original language of the letters is read intact to maintain the integrity of the authenticity of her words, 1952 is a very different time culturally and economically.  

  1. 3D AGO

    Letter 35 01/18/1953 The Apology Letter

    Send a text Show Notes: January 18th, 1953 — Joyce’s tone softens in this deeply emotional letter, one that begins with laundry, dorm fights, and small domestic details but quickly turns into something much more vulnerable. This is her apology — to Earl, to herself, and to the life she’s been trying to build. She admits she’s been “snotty” and self-pitying the last two weeks and finally sees the root of it: loneliness. What she really wants isn’t more comfort or less work — it’s quiet time with Earl, away from the crowd, where she can laugh, speak freely, and kiss him without interruption. In the letter, Joyce reflects on how her stepfather’s strictness stifled her joy as a girl (“he would not let us laugh out loud”), and how it still affects her. She’s funny and self-aware even in her regret — promising to “get some scratch paper and learn to write better,” and confessing that she’s tired of her own dramatics. But her honesty shines through: “I’m just not a complete person without you.” Before bed, she sets Earl’s photo on an empty desk beside her bed and writes, “I sleep better that way.” It’s one of her most intimate and introspective letters — a portrait of a young woman learning the language of love, forgiveness, and emotional self-awareness. Topics Include: Apology and emotional self-reflectionLong-distance loneliness and intimacyChildhood trauma and the loss of laughterDorm life and desire for privacyEarly 1950s gender roles and emotional vulnerabilityWriting as therapy and confessionRomantic dependence and self-awarenessSupport the show

    5 min
  2. FEB 22

    Letter 34 01/14/1953 Ballerina Dishes and Bach

    Send a text Show Notes: January 14th, 1953 — Joyce writes in a mood of calm domestic rhythm, the kind that hums between winter lessons, laundry, and longing. She’s just finished a piano lesson — one piece memorized, six pages of Bach still ahead — and is proud, if slightly overwhelmed. Her world feels momentarily steady: she’s eating frugally (“I’ve eaten all week on $3”), walking to class, planning her future kitchenware, and dreaming of better stationery and warmer shoes. This letter reads like a snapshot of a young woman building her adult life from small, practical choices — dishes, yarn, paper, plans for next Saturday night. She debates patterns of china (“I like a design just around the edge”), still hopes for the elusive organist job, and writes with humor about the frigid Denver weather and her sore throat. By the end, Joyce is multitasking as always — listening to roommates talk, eating crackers and peanut butter, writing to Earl on cheap notebook paper she vows to replace. What starts as an ordinary night turns into something quietly beautiful: a portrait of 1950s college life where art, love, and homemaking dreams coexist on the same page. Topics Include: Piano lessons and memorizing BachCollege dining on a $3 weekly budget1950s kitchenware and dishware styles (Ballerina, Ridge Ivy)Friendship and weekend plansStationery, scrapbooks, and small pleasuresManaging health, colds, and daily choresLong-distance love and letter-writingHomemaking dreams and postwar domestic idealsSupport the show

    10 min
  3. FEB 15

    Letter 33 01/13/1953 Symphony Tickets and Smoked Herring

    Send a text Show Notes: January 13th, 1953 — Joyce’s world is equal parts chaos, comedy, and contemplation. She begins with gossip from home: her engagement announcement with Earl has made it into print — badly. The photo is grainy, the wording confusing, and she’s half amused, half mortified. Meanwhile, her mother still hasn’t sent the professional picture she’s waiting for. From there, the letter spirals through the rhythms of dorm life: missing equipment (and mysterious tubes), prank wars involving smoked herring, and Joyce unleashing a few well-earned curses. Between all the noise, she turns to her studies — philosophy of childrearing, history lectures “slower than molasses in January,” and her upcoming piano lesson for which she’s only half-prepared. Her insights about children — how they learn through association and shared responsibility — show a teacher’s heart years ahead of her time. She writes about Peter, a child she once cared for, as though she’s discovering her own maternal instincts on the page. By the end, she’s back in her familiar cycle of humor and longing: turning down a symphony invitation, missing Earl’s voice over the phone, and worrying about a lump under her jaw. Her tone is half domestic philosopher, half lonely lover — a young woman balancing thought, mischief, and tenderness in a world that never quite slows down. Topics Include: Engagement announcement in hometown paperDorm pranks and frustrationHumor and language in 1950s college lifeTeaching philosophies and parenting reflectionsMusic, piano practice, and upcoming lessonsSymphony plans and Delta Omicron alumni callLong-distance phone calls with EarlHealth worries and fatigueHumor, chaos, and love in college dormsSupport the show

    7 min
  4. FEB 8

    Letter 32 01/12/1953 Too Good to Be True

    Send a text Show Notes: January 12th, 1953 — Joyce writes from Denver with a head full of possibilities and a heart full of longing. Her letter to Earl begins with cautious excitement — two potential organist positions, one at the university chapel and one at a Lutheran church. Either could change everything: steady income, time to teach piano, and maybe a little freedom from waitressing. “If they did,” she writes, “I could take on more piano pupils and wouldn’t need to work at anything else.” But beneath her optimism is fatigue — the slow grind of small rooms, crowded dorms, and endless searching. She combs through newspaper ads for apartments she can’t afford, sighs over shared kitchens where “no one will clean up,” and decides she’s too selfish to eat spinach and eggs at 9:15 p.m. Her humor keeps her grounded, even as she dreams of something better. Joyce also chronicles dorm gossip (a girl caught sitting on a boy’s lap!), flu outbreaks, and the constant worry over schoolwork — 1,500 to 2,000 pages of history reading and still more credits to manage. Yet as always, she ends with love — looking forward to hearing Earl’s voice and hoping “George stays home this Friday night.” The letter captures Joyce at her most human: hopeful, tired, witty, and deeply in love. Topics Include: Searching for church organist jobsFinancial independence and limited opportunities for womenApartment hunting in 1950s DenverDorm life and behavior rulesManaging coursework and credit hours1950s student health and flu seasonHumor in domestic chaos and shared livingLong-distance love and everyday yearningSupport the show

    5 min
  5. FEB 1

    Letter 31 01/05/1952 Fingers Crossed and Twelve Credit Hours

    Send a text January 5th, 1953 — Joyce begins the new year in Denver with a flurry of errands and anxious hope. She’s back to campus life, juggling scholarship appeals, registration forms, and part-time work at the Chuck Wagon diner. Her letter unfolds like a diary of determination: she’s met with faculty, called the dean, written to a reverend for a reference, and still finds time to call her piano teacher and do her laundry. It’s a portrait of a young woman pushing forward despite disappointment — her scholarship was denied, though Mr. Piernaud promises to try again, and Dean Federer seems willing to help. She’s taking twelve hours of coursework — American History, Family Life, and Composition — and praying she can afford to stay through the third quarter. Between the lines, her exhaustion softens into tenderness: she misses Earl constantly and clings to their next phone call as motivation to “live through Wednesday.” Even in her uncertainty, Joyce’s tone glows with grit and love — a woman balancing ambition, financial strain, and the ache of distance with her usual unbreakable humor. Topics Include: Registering for winter quarter at Denver UniversityScholarship rejection and appeal processMeetings with faculty and deansWriting reference requests to clergyManaging limited finances and piano lessonsChanges at work (Johnny leaving the Chuck Wagon)Illness and uncertainty in her friend groupBalancing school, work, and loveHope and perseverance in 1950s college lifeSupport the show

    3 min
  6. JAN 25

    Letter 30 01/04/1953 The Happiest New Year

    Send a text January 4th, 1953 — Joyce is back in Denver after the holidays, surrounded by dorm chatter, souvenirs, and lingering memories of Christmas and New Year’s Eve with Earl. She’s unpacked her “stuff and junk,” pinned her mementos into her scrapbook — most of them marked with Earl’s name — and taken comfort in the small routines of college life. Her tone is warm and sleepy, full of quiet gratitude and gentle teasing. She mentions dorm gossip — Winnie’s “engagement ring” is really just an old ruby, and the girls are still showing off their Christmas presents. She jokes about a mysterious wet object in a drawer (a mystery left forever unsolved) and plans for the February hockey games. But the heart of the letter is love — reflective and sincere. Joyce thanks Earl for making her holidays “the happiest of my life,” cherishing both the gifts he gave her and the memories they shared. As she readies for bed, her words settle into soft devotion — the simple bliss of having someone to love who makes “all the unpleasant circumstances bearable.” Topics Include: Returning to Denver after Christmas breakDorm gossip and friendshipsWinnie’s not-so-engagement ringChristmas gifts and scrapbook memoriesA mysterious “wet drawer” momentUpcoming hockey games in FebruaryGratitude for holiday joy and loveReflection on the happiest New Year’s EveEveryday comfort in long-distance loveSupport the show

    3 min
  7. JAN 18

    Letter 29 12/24/1952 Christmas Eve and the Smell of Scouring Powder

    Send a text December 24th, 1952 — It’s Christmas Eve in Kankakee, Illinois, and Joyce is writing from the depths of exhaustion, love, and heartache. Home for the holidays, she finds herself tending to a sick mother and a failing stepfather, Uncle Marcus — a man too proud, too stubborn, and too unclean for her patience or her mother’s frailty. Joyce’s letter paints an unflinching picture of mid-century domestic labor: scrubbing floors and bathroom registers with steel wool, scouring powder, and soap just to keep the house livable. Her humor flickers through the heartache. She jokes that everyone’s waiting for Uncle Marcus to die, that her “slooty shoulders” might scandalize the engagement announcement, and that a 17-year-old sailor down the street has a crush on her. Yet beneath the wit is deep compassion — her love for her mother, her worry about the operation she refuses, and her quiet yearning for Earl, whose absence leaves her “90% lonely.” Joyce dreams aloud about their wedding — maybe small, maybe delayed — and shares her gifts: a silver chest full of Queen Bess silverware, towels with fuzzy flowers, and a 280-pound hog from her stepbrother. Even through the fatigue of caretaking and longing, her Christmas spirit shines in her closing wish: to be in Earl’s arms, pestering him while he reads the paper, feeling life return to ordinary joy. Topics Include: Christmas Eve in KankakeeCaring for a sick mother and elderly stepfatherDomestic burden and postwar caretakingScrubbing and cleaning ritualsHealth worries and agingDreams of marriage and practicalityThe engagement photo and modestyFamily gifts: silver chest, towels, and a Christmas hogLoneliness, love, and longing for EarlNeighborhood flirtations and small-town lifeThe slow pace of mail and postwar communication delaysSupport the show

    14 min
  8. JAN 11

    Letter 28 12/18/1952 Stamped, Sorted, and Homesick

    Send a text December 18th, 1952 — Joyce writes late at night from Kankakee, Illinois, balancing exhaustion, work, and homesickness as Christmas approaches. She’s working long shifts at the post office, sorting letters by state, city, street, and block — monotonous, finger-numbing labor she calls “a great big pain in the neck.” The money is helpful, but she misses practicing piano, visiting friends, and simply enjoying being home. Her mother is ill with a bad cold, her stepfather as difficult as ever, and her sister Ina still finding trouble with men. Amid the chaos, Joyce finds solace in small things — trimming the tree, choosing slippers for her mother, knitting Earl’s socks, and writing to him by lamplight. She muses about family history, discovering her late father had once been a Mason, and reflects on how strange home feels after time away. Even while she grumbles about sorting mail and her aching back, her humor shines through: she jokes about “bare shoulders” in the engagement announcement and laments running out of the yellow-and-navy yarn for Earl’s socks. It’s a portrait of mid-century womanhood at its most tender and resilient — juggling work, family duty, and love across hundreds of miles. Topics Include: Working temporary holiday shifts at the Kankakee post officeSorting mail and the monotony of repetitive laborMother’s illness and family responsibilitiesPlanning Christmas shopping and giftsLearning her late father was a MasonFamily tension with stepfather and sister’s relationshipsMissing Earl and Denver during ChristmasKnitting progress on Earl’s socksWorry about yarn colors running outReflecting on engagement announcement and modesty normsPracticing piano and preparing music piecesSupport the show

    7 min

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Come with me as I meet my Mother through this series of letters, she died when I was 6 months old and this is my very first real glimpse into her world, who she was, who she wanted to be and how she loved my Father.  A collection of 36 letters hand written by my Mother Joyce at University of Denver and sent to my Father Earl at University of Colorado Boulder when they were first engaged in 1952.  The letters span from September 1952 - January 1953.  My Mother died from Breast Cancer in 1971 at the age of 40.   The original language of the letters is read intact to maintain the integrity of the authenticity of her words, 1952 is a very different time culturally and economically.