Rock Bottom With Ryan

rockbottomwithryan
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After 18 years of drinking, countless blackouts, arrests, and hospital stays, I finally hit my bottom—and started to climb. This podcast is about what it really looks like to get sober. No sugarcoating. No step-by-step manual. Just honest conversations about addiction, recovery, relapse, and everything in between. If you’ve struggled, if someone you love is struggling, or if you just want to understand the chaos behind the bottle—this is for you. Let’s talk about what happens after rock bottom.

  1. 3d ago

    Rebel With A Cause - Keri

    From Trauma and Oxy Addiction to Faith-Fueled Recovery | Keri’s Story (Rock Bottom with Ryan)In this episode of Rock Bottom with Ryan, guest Keri from San Diego shares her sobriety date (February 24, 2024) and history with alcohol (especially tequila), marijuana, pills, cocaine, and OxyContin. She describes early trauma, including her father leaving, childhood sexual abuse, later sexual assaults, and how substance use began in middle school while she excelled as a dancer and scholarship soccer player. Despite academic and career success, her addiction escalated, including daily OxyContin use for eight months and severe withdrawals. Her rock bottom came amid divorce, her mother’s death, serious health issues, and a mental health crisis leading to hospitalization and dual-diagnosis treatment. Keri credits working a recovery program, sponsorship, meetings, and faith in God with saving her life, rebuilding stability, and reclaiming herself and her purpose to help others as a therapist.00:00 From Soccer to Pills01:08 Recovery Teaser and Show Intro02:01 Sponsor Message02:34 Meet Carrie and Sober Date03:44 Childhood Wounds and Family05:38 Trauma and Early Substance Use07:53 High School Parties and Scholarship11:49 Florida Friends and New Drugs16:08 Oxycontin Hook and Escalation19:18 Rock Bottom Mental Health Crisis22:32 Treatment And Program24:12 Faith Saves My Life27:31 Surrender And Miracles30:23 Truth Telling Identity32:57 Codependency And Peace36:57 Advice For Getting Sober43:00 Quotes And Future Plans46:22 Find Me And Final Words

  2. 6d ago

    The Sober Sound Healer - Kelvin

    From Prison to Purpose: Kelvin’s 17-Year Recovery Journey & the Power of Sound Healing | Rock Bottom with RyanIn this episode of Rock Bottom with Ryan, Ryan talks with Kelvin, who shares his sobriety date (March 6, 2009) and journey from early drinking in Connecticut to escalating use of marijuana, cocaine, heroin, and prescription drugs, leading to repeated arrests, DUIs, probation, and prison. Kelvin describes childhood insecurity, anxiety, and unaddressed trauma, and how alcohol temporarily relieved his distress. After detoxing in jail and serving a 26-month sentence tied to drug use and an assault, he committed to change for his daughter and engaged fully in prison treatment, peer mentoring, and 12-step support. He explains how yoga, meditation, journaling, poetry, and sound healing helped him process emotions, regulate his nervous system, and understand root causes of addiction. Kelvin discusses his work in peer support, co-founding Soul Care Love, and bringing sound healing into treatment centers and prisons.00:00 Treatment Ignored00:28 Meditation States Explained01:13 Show Intro And Sponsor02:18 Meet Kelvin And Sober Date03:49 Childhood And Early Drinking06:59 Trauma Anxiety And Alcohol Relief11:17 School Dropout And Hustle Life13:58 Normalization And Escalation18:08 Hard Drugs And Arrest Cycle22:03 Last Bid And Prison Recovery Tools26:51 Peer Mentorship Behind Bars29:11 Sentence Length And Charges30:43 Prison Turning Point31:58 Breaking Recidivism Cycle33:13 Sound Healing Origins34:37 Poem From Prison37:48 How Sound Changes Brain39:15 Singing Bowl Demo40:52 Bringing Sound to Prisons42:30 Emotions And Release45:52 Walking Beside Others48:50 Holistic Recovery Defined51:04 Founding Soul Care Love53:26 Pain Into Purpose56:37 Advice To Past Self57:42 Final Hope And Resources

  3. Oct 22

    The WANT Method - Gillian

    Gillian’s Sobriety Revelation: From High-Functioning Drinking to an Expanded Life | Rock Bottom with RyanOn Rock Bottom with Ryan, Gillian shares how a lifelong, normalized relationship with alcohol—shaped by family divorce, early exposure, and chaotic environments—led her to become a high-functioning daily drinker and “professional partier” through college, hospitality work, and extensive travel to 30 countries before 30. After years of weekend binges, drinking-related close calls, and a knee injury that forced her to slow down, she reached a turning point on March 5, 2024, after hearing a podcast about alcohol-free living and recognizing how anxiety, mood swings, relationship tension, inflammation, and focus issues tied back to drinking. She initially committed to 100 days to prove she could moderate, but within weeks privately decided to quit for good. Gillian describes improved family dynamics, deeper relationships, and building a coaching practice for midlife women using five pillars—physical health, mindset/mindfulness, spiritual curiosity, supportive relationships, and self-study—alongside psychology and human design, emphasizing sobriety as expansion rather than deprivation and viewing her change as a revelation rather than a rock bottom.00:00 Adventure And Dopamine00:34 Hangover Wakeup Call02:05 Meet Jillian Sober Basics03:22 Childhood Alcohol Normalized07:02 First Drink At Thirteen09:34 High Functioning Party Girl10:53 College Sorority Hospitality Life12:07 Traveling Europe Booze Budget13:43 Daily Drinking Weekend Binges18:10 Close Calls And Consequences20:52 Knee Injury Sets Stage22:31 Podcast Click Moment25:39 Early Sobriety Fear And Pink Cloud29:00 Breaking Free in Mexico30:33 Facing the Five OClock Trigger30:47 Jungle Walks and Shadow Work32:37 Relationships Get Real34:53 From Sobriety to Coaching36:42 The Five Pillars Framework40:56 Fulfillment Beyond Not Drinking42:17 CBT Meets Human Design44:17 Rethinking Alcoholic Labels48:16 Sobriety as Expansion51:24 Goals Books and Speaking55:42 Revelation Not Rock Bottom56:35 Where to Find Gillian57:18 Final Takeaways and Sign Off

  4. Oct 19

    Tribe Finding - Gerald Lott

    Gerald Lott on Crack Cocaine, Relapse After 14 Years, and Building Sauk Valley Voices | Rock Bottom with Ryan Gerald Lott joins Rock Bottom with Ryan to share his story of addiction and recovery, including early feelings of isolation as a Black student in a private school, escalating substance use through college in New Orleans, and repeated stints in treatment that culminated in jail. After 14 years sober, Gerald relapsed, losing his restaurant and stability, before reentering recovery through a sober living home in April 2008. He describes rebuilding through intensive AA involvement, later moving to a rural Illinois community and starting a structured meeting that grew over 11 years. Gerald founded Sauk Valley Voices to combat the opioid crisis by creating sober social connection, peer support, deflection, sober housing, and efforts toward a recovery high school, while also discussing his podcast, book, and his daughter’s addiction. 00:00 High Class Problems01:27 Show Intro Sponsor02:32 Meet Gerald Lott04:05 Growing Up Affluent05:21 Dad Leaves Mom Depressed08:31 Outsider At Private School09:51 Drugs Take Over10:55 New Orleans Party Years11:29 Law School Music Detour12:18 Trauma And Perspective15:50 Crack Turns Serious17:37 Treatment To Jail Program19:15 Fourteen Years Sober21:40 Relapse And Last Night27:11 Sober Living Reset31:14 Gratitude And Perspective33:48 Immersed In AA Community37:19 Move To Rural Isolation38:41 Building a Better Meeting41:26 Daughter in Jail Update43:54 Wake Up Call Metaphor45:30 Founding Sauk Valley Voices48:34 Sober Fun and Peer Support52:40 Leadership Without Anonymity55:46 Felony Past and Credibility57:50 Staying Sober Boundaries01:02:29 Tribe Finding Connection01:08:10 Podcast and Family Lessons01:09:59 Hope for Those Struggling01:11:39 Quotes Growth and Farewell

  5. Oct 15

    Whoever You Art - Mel

    Mel’s Rock Bottom: Alcohol, Cocaine, Anxiety, Forced Rehab, and 13 Months Sober | Rock Bottom with RyanOn Rock Bottom with Ryan, Mel (from Brazil, living in Portugal) shares her story of alcohol and occasional cocaine use, severe anxiety, and how her drinking escalated after her father’s death. She describes hiding alcohol, withdrawals, and becoming consumed by secrecy and shame, including a period of drinking and using alone in Brazil that led her family to commit her to rehab against her will. After relapsing, she returned to the same rehab voluntarily, got serious about recovery, and has 13 months sober. Mel discusses “relapse before relapse,” trauma, rebuilding through art school, ongoing therapy and online group support, and creating her podcast “Whoever You Art” to share stories, reduce shame, and help others seek detox or treatment before things get worse.00:00 Anxiety and Rock Bottom01:35 Show Intro and Sponsor02:42 Meet Mel and Her Story04:00 Childhood and First Drinking06:57 Loss and Escalation08:05 Brazil Binge and Rehab10:08 Anxiety as Fuel14:47 Hiding and Withdrawal20:42 Family Intervention Tactics22:34 Sharing Story to Stay Sober24:27 Forced Rehab Trauma27:37 Early Sobriety Setup27:46 Early Sobriety Fears29:06 Blackmail and Coming Clean30:10 Privilege and Rock Bottom32:21 Finding Purpose Through Art33:56 Podcast Mission and Recovery Tools35:15 Meaning Behind Whoever You Art36:45 Confidence and Community40:54 Connection as the Antidote41:30 Get Help and Detox Safely43:36 Protect Your Sobriety Daily46:36 Advice to Past Self47:40 Where to Find the Podcast49:54 Final Takeaways and Sign-Off

  6. Oct 12

    Amplifying the Vibe - Andrew

    Magnat: The Alcohol Alternative Built for Social Confidence | Rock Bottom with Ryan (Andrew from PapaMag)On Rock Bottom with Ryan, Andrew from PapaMag shares how alcohol became his social-anxiety “cure” starting at 16, led to years of heavy beer drinking, and began hurting his workouts, work performance, and parenting. After a nine-month sober stretch during his wife’s pregnancy, he returned to drinking, then quit again around August 24 two years ago and now plans to stay sober. Wanting the social “sweet spot” he felt after one or two drinks—confidence, presence, energy, and connection—without hangovers or downsides, he created Magnat, a 13-ingredient supplement designed as a social lubricant alternative to alcohol. He explains the formulation process, intended effects, misconceptions, safety cautions (e.g., pregnancy/breastfeeding, SSRIs, heart meds), and future plans for stick packs and a canned drink.00:00 From Shy to Drinking01:30 Show Intro and Sponsor02:33 Meet Andrew from Magnet03:24 Alcohol as Social Crutch05:42 Nine Months Sober06:46 Back to Beer Culture07:26 Quitting for Good10:53 Inventing Magnet12:10 Research and Prototyping15:42 Social Anxiety Roots18:05 Alcohol Oldest Scam22:59 Designing the Uplift27:15 What Magnet Is Today28:51 How To Take It30:24 Real World Use Cases31:26 Ingredient Philosophy32:56 Formulation Challenges34:06 Key Ingredients Breakdown37:50 Safety And Medications39:18 Mixing With Substances40:38 Recovery Considerations43:26 Common Misconceptions46:56 Five Year Vision48:53 Changing Drinking Culture51:04 Advice For Going Sober55:47 Where To Find Magnet57:33 Final Thanks And Wrap

  7. Oct 8

    Recovery Reps - Niall

    From Crack, Heroin & Homelessness to Recovery Reps: Niall’s Rock Bottom Story | Rock Bottom with RyanIn this episode of Rock Bottom with Ryan, Niall from Stourbridge, England shares how hyperactivity/undiagnosed ADHD, his parents’ divorce, and escalating substance use led from alcohol and cannabis to cocaine, crack, and heroin. He describes blowing a £10,000 inheritance on cocaine, entering crack and heroin addiction, becoming homeless for years, and committing shoplifting and checking unlocked cars to fund his habit. Niall explains multiple incarcerations, withdrawing from heroin in prison, and how his mother’s alcohol-related death intensified his trauma. He details choosing sobriety from his release date (Nov 23, 2023), coming off methadone, rebuilding through fitness, launching his Recovery Reps page, and returning to Stourbridge Rugby Club. Niall emphasizes honesty, goal-setting, and helping others as central to his recovery.00:00 Inheritance And Cocaine Spiral01:46 Show Intro And Sober Date03:35 Childhood ADHD And School07:05 First Drinks And Party Culture09:12 Cocaine Turns Daily11:47 ADHD Divorce And Accountability14:07 Ten Grand Rock Bottom18:05 Military Rejection And Relapse21:13 From Coke To Crack And Heroin23:16 Homelessness And Survival Crime27:39 Arrest Court And Prison Time30:48 Grief and Guilt31:36 Last Goodbye to Mom32:58 Withdrawal Behind Bars35:27 Dovegate to Stoke Heath36:46 Proving Them Wrong38:20 46 Days of Detox39:54 Gym Brotherhood and Mentors41:12 Rugby and Recovery Reps45:12 Honesty and Helping Others52:00 Goals Quotes and ADHD55:32 Final Hope and Where to Find Him

  8. Oct 5

    The Sober Diaries - Holly

    Holly’s Rock Bottom: Alcohol Withdrawal Hallucinations, Ruining a Wedding, and One Year Sober | Rock Bottom with RyanIn this episode of Rock Bottom with Ryan, Ryan interviews Holly from a small town in Worcestershire, England, who is approaching one year sober with a sobriety date of July 30, 2025. Holly describes starting alcohol at 14, underage street drinking and clubbing, and quickly gravitating to hard liquor, later adding occasional party drugs. Her drinking escalated into daily “hair of the dog,” secrecy, and consuming up to three bottles of wine a night, including severe withdrawals with visual and auditory hallucinations after quitting cold turkey, leading to hospitalization. She shares how alcohol damaged relationships, included relapses, and culminated in getting drunk as maid of honor at her sister’s wedding. Holly explains what finally shifted, how sobriety improved her mental health and confidence, how her friendships changed, and why she started sharing her journey on Instagram as Holly’s Sober Diaries.00:00 Street Drinking Chaos01:05 Show Intro and Sponsor02:09 Meet Holly One Year Sober03:42 Childhood and First Drinks06:29 Hard Liquor and Underage Clubs10:17 Party Culture and Drugs Enter12:42 Hair of the Dog Spiral14:48 Box Wine and Withdrawal17:26 Hallucinations and Hospitalization19:43 Family Finds Out and Moderation Trap21:54 Moderation Fails22:15 Alcohol and Relationships24:09 Wedding Rock Bottom28:01 Last Relapse Switch29:21 Fears of Sobriety31:22 First 90 Days Glow33:09 Friendships Rebuilt35:23 Sober Nights Out38:10 Confidence and Healing39:40 Dark Thoughts to Hope40:44 Sharing Sober Diaries42:25 Fun Without Alcohol43:29 Advice for Not Bad Enough45:22 Who Holly Became46:36 Recovery Tools and Farewell

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About

After 18 years of drinking, countless blackouts, arrests, and hospital stays, I finally hit my bottom—and started to climb. This podcast is about what it really looks like to get sober. No sugarcoating. No step-by-step manual. Just honest conversations about addiction, recovery, relapse, and everything in between. If you’ve struggled, if someone you love is struggling, or if you just want to understand the chaos behind the bottle—this is for you. Let’s talk about what happens after rock bottom.

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  • Creator
    rockbottomwithryan
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    202
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © rockbottomwithryan
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