This episode looks like it’s about me in a conflict zone, but really it’s about the war we all carry under our own skin. It’s the tug of personal need against external demand, the moments where life shouts “run faster, do more” and you feel the old temptations to shrink, speed, perform, disappear. It’s the exact crossroads where your child parts reach for the steering wheel and you choose not to hand it over. Yes, I take you with me again into the Middle East, but only as a mirror, only as a loudspeaker for what is true everywhere: in this current society your nervous system will always drag you back into survival unless you consciously choose otherwise. And that choice isn’t glamorous. It’s raw, uncomfortable, intimate as hell. But it’s also where pleasure becomes medicine, where slowing down becomes the most grown up thing you can do, and where maturity stops being a concept and starts being a sensation in your body. Because Slow and Deep isn’t a vibe. It’s a refusal to abandon yourself when everything around you is built for Fast and Shallow. And that refusal is where life gets deliciously honest, pleasurable and mature. Inside this episode we get into: 🦇The way my body spoke before I even unpacked: how allergies, PMS, gut tension, pelvic floor ache and a clenched jaw revealed my truth before my mind caught up 🦇 How staying inside my body became the quiet rebellion and how every practice turned into a prayer instead of a to-do-list-performance 🦇 How presence became activism, not the loud kind, but the kind that refuses to abandon itself 🦇 Why your nervous system copies the field you’re in and how to unhook yourself before you melt into this worlds’ chaos 🦇 The exact moment my child parts tried to take the wheel and how I chose the grown up seat, held myself through it and came back to real maturity 🦇 How I slowed myself when everything demanded speed, efficiency, saviorism and a shiny, functional version of me 🦇 How my pleasure practice kept my soul awake, my purpose warm, my medicine intact, even when the environment begged me to shrink, fawn, perform or numb 🦇 How slowing down and deep time with myself saved me, fed my aliveness, held my younger parts with love and kept me devoted enough to serve rooms full of people from my bones, not my adrenaline If you want to hear what Slow and Deep looks like in real life, where demands for support are infinite, this episode will crack something open for you. And if you are a humanitarian or aid-worker: this episode is dedicated to you. Receive, and know that you are not alone and I see you in all your hard work to bring goodness to those that need it the most. But please remember your own needs and prioritize your own health and wellbeing, to be able to continue your important work. Join Slow & Deep to step into practice yourself, and turn your December Chaos in a conflict free zone (we start Sunday Dec 7th): https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/slowanddeep/salespage Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thewidewoman/ Sign up to my Love Letters to get free goodies and invitations:https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/loveletterssignup Join for this Sundays’ (Dec 7th) Pelvic Pleasure workshop: https://sara-steden-s-school.teachable.com/p/pelvic-pleasure-workshoppt2 Get to know more of me on my website:https://thewidewoman.com/