Soul Medicine with Carina Bull

Carina Bull — Helping Women Recognise Where Survival Became Identity
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You might think you need more clarity. But most women already know what they feel. They've just spent years overriding themselves to survive. Hi, I'm Carina Bull—trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. I help women recognise the survival patterns and roles they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Every week, I invite you into the conversations I'm already having with the women I work with. Conversations about survival. Self-abandonment. Identity. Relationships. Boundaries. Self-trust. And what becomes possible when we finally begin seeing ourselves differently. No quick fixes. No performative positivity. Just honest conversations. Thoughtful questions. Fresh perspectives. Nervous system awareness. And the kind of emotional truth-telling that quietly changes the way you see yourself. Because sometimes healing doesn't begin with finding the answer. Sometimes it begins the moment you see yourself differently. Welcome to Soul Medicine.

  1. Sep 21

    Why Do I Feel Guilty When I Stop Being the Responsible One in My Family

    A lot of women know they’re the responsible one in their family. The daughter who checks in. The sister who sorts things out. The peacekeeper who smooths over tension. The one everyone relies on. But what happens when you stop? When you don’t immediately fix the problem.  When you let someone else handle it. When you say no without explaining yourself into the ground. Sometimes the hardest part isn’t knowing the role is exhausting you. It’s the guilt that appears when you try to put it down. In this episode, Carina explores why family loyalty isn’t always only about the people we love. Sometimes it’s also loyalty to who we learned we needed to be around them. In this episode, we explore:  Why stepping back from family responsibility can trigger guilt  How being the fixer, peacekeeper or responsible one can become connected to belonging  Why you can love your family and still feel resentful or exhausted  The difference between wanting to help and feeling like you don’t know how not to  Why guilt doesn’t automatically mean you’ve done something wrong  What becomes possible when your family role becomes a choice If you’ve ever found yourself thinking: “If I don’t do it, who will?” “I know it isn’t my responsibility, but I still feel guilty.” “I don’t want them to think I don’t care.” This episode is for you. Because you can love your family without continuing to perform the role you learned would keep you connected to them. Continue the Conversation: If this episode has made you wonder where else you might be quietly putting yourself second, explore my free private audio series: Six Hidden Ways Women Quietly Abandon Themselves Six short conversations to help you recognise the survival patterns you may have spent years calling personality. → Start the free six-part audio series here — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor and host of Soul Medicine. Her work helps women recognise where survival became identity, so they can stop abandoning themselves in real time and reconnect with who they are beneath the roles they learned to perform. Music from Uppbeat Mountaineer — Juciest License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

  2. Aug 24

    Why Do Relationships Change When You Start Choosing Yourself?

    A lot of women know they struggle with people-pleasing, over-functioning or feeling responsible for everyone around them. But recognising the pattern is one thing. What happens when you actually stop performing it? When you don’t organise everything. When you say no. When you let somebody be disappointed. When you stop explaining yourself until everyone feels comfortable again. Because sometimes changing a survival pattern doesn’t only change you. It changes the relationships that learned how to function around the old version of you. In this episode, Carina explores why choosing yourself can feel so unsettling when being helpful, agreeable, easy or needed once helped you feel safe and secure in relationships. And why someone else’s discomfort with your changing behaviour does not automatically mean you’ve done something wrong. In this episode, we explore: Why relationships can feel different when you stop over-functioningHow being useful, agreeable or easy can become connected to belongingWhy another person’s disappointment can trigger guilt, fear or the urge to backtrackHow relationships develop unspoken roles and expectations over timeWhy healing can reveal which relationships have space for the fuller version of youWhat becomes possible when you stop abandoning yourself to restore connectionIf you’ve ever found yourself thinking: “Maybe I should just do it.” “I don’t want them to think I’m selfish.” “They never used to be upset with me like this.” “Maybe I’ve changed too much.” This episode is for you. Because not every relationship will immediately know what to do with the version of you who stops abandoning herself. And someone being uncomfortable with your growth doesn’t automatically mean you need to become the old version again. Continue the Conversation: If this episode has you wondering where survival might be showing up in your own life in ways you’ve learned to call normal, I’d love to invite you into my free private audio series: Six Hidden Ways Women Quietly Abandon Themselves Across six short conversations, we explore some of the everyday ways survival can become woven into how you think, behave, relate and move through the world... often so quietly that you begin mistaking those patterns for personality. Listen privately. At your own pace. And start noticing where survival may still be running the show. → Start the free six-part audio series here — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor and host of Soul Medicine. Her work helps women recognise where survival became identity, so they can stop abandoning themselves in real time and reconnect with who they are beneath the roles they learned to perform. Music from UppbeatMountaineer — JuciestLicense code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

  3. Aug 17

    I Thought I Was Coping Because I Was Functioning: When Survival Mode Looks Like Strength

    Content note: This episode includes discussion of bereavement following murder, depression, alcohol, smoking and self-harm. Carina does not go into graphic detail, but she does speak honestly about what that period of her life looked like. Three days after my sister was murdered, I went back to work. I told myself I needed routine. Normality. Something familiar when everything else had suddenly become incomprehensible.  And for around three months, I kept functioning. I went to work. I did what needed doing. I carried on. And because I was functioning, I thought I was coping. I wasn’t. In this deeply personal episode, Carina shares one of the lived experiences behind her work and explores what survival can look like when it doesn’t look like falling apart at all. Sometimes survival looks remarkably capable.  It gets dressed. Goes to work. Answers messages. Looks after everybody else. And keeps moving. Because functioning and processing are not always the same thing. In this episode, we explore: Why functioning does not necessarily mean you are copingHow routine can initially support us but sometimes become somewhere to hideWhy some women become incredibly capable when life feels unbearableHow emotional pain can begin speaking through behaviour when we do not yet know how to process itWhy survival responses are not something to shameWhat happens when the thing that helped you survive becomes the way you continue abandoning yourselfWhy receiving support can be very different from proving how much you can carryWhy you do not have to completely fall apart before your pain is worthy of supportIf you have ever found yourself thinking: “I’m fine. I’m still getting everything done.” “I just need to keep busy.” “Everyone thinks I’m coping.” “I don’t know what would happen if I actually stopped.” This conversation is for you. Because some women don’t fall apart when life becomes unbearable. They become incredibly good at carrying on. And sometimes the question is not whether you are strong enough to keep going. You probably are. The harder question is: Are you moving through what you’re carrying... or staying in motion so you don’t have to feel it? Continue the Conversation: If this episode has you wondering where survival might be showing up in your own life in ways you’ve learned to call normal, I’d love to invite you into my free private audio series: Six Hidden Ways Women Quietly Abandon Themselves Across six short conversations, we explore some of the everyday ways survival can become woven into how you think, behave, relate and move through the world... often so quietly that you begin mistaking those patterns for personality. Listen privately. At your own pace. And start noticing where survival may still be running the show. → Start the free six-part audio series here: — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor and host of Soul Medicine. Her work helps women recognise where survival became identity, so they can stop abandoning themselves in real time and reconnect with who they are beneath the roles they learned to perform. Music from UppbeatMountaineer — JuciestLicense code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

  4. Aug 10

    Why Do I Keep Ending Up in the Same Relationship Patterns?

    A lot of women believe they keep choosing the wrong people. They wonder why every relationship seems to leave them feeling unheard, emotionally alone, or responsible for holding everything together. But what if the repeating pattern isn’t only the person you choose? What if it’s what happens inside you when something feels wrong? In this episode, Carina explores why women can recognise that something has hurt them, then immediately begin questioning their own experience. They ask: “Am I overreacting?” “Is this bad enough?” “Would anyone else be upset by this?” Because sometimes the pattern repeats at the moment you stop trusting what you felt and begin negotiating with your own reality. In this episode, we explore: Why women ask other people for permission to trust their own experienceHow emotional dismissal can slowly erode self-trustWhy you may keep moving the line for what counts as “bad enough”How understanding someone else’s behaviour can become a way of abandoning yourselfWhy questioning your reality may once have helped you preserve connectionWhat becomes possible when you stop cross-examining your own feelings If you’ve ever found yourself thinking: “Maybe I’m being too sensitive.” “They didn’t mean it like that.” “Other women have it worse.” “Am I allowed to take this seriously?” This episode is for you. Because you do not need a unanimous verdict before your experience becomes real. If this episode resonated with you, I'd love to continue the conversation through my weekly email. It's not a traditional newsletter. It's a written coaching conversation. One new way of seeing yourself each week, straight into your inbox. → Join the Conversation — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. Every week, she invites listeners into the conversations she's already having with the women she works with. Conversations about survival, self-abandonment, emotional exhaustion, and what becomes possible when we begin seeing ourselves differently. Her work helps women recognise the survival patterns they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Music from UppbeatMountaineer — JuciestLicense code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

  5. Aug 4

    Why Do I Feel Like I've Lost Myself?

    Have you caught yourself thinking... “I don’t feel like myself anymore”? Maybe your life still looks mostly the same.  You are still working, parenting, answering messages, remembering what everyone needs and keeping everything moving.  But somewhere underneath all of that, you no longer recognise the woman doing it. In this episode, Carina explores why feeling lost does not always mean you have drifted away from yourself. Sometimes it is what happens when the version of you who knew how to survive no longer fits, but the woman you are becoming still feels unfamiliar. Because healing does not always feel like coming home straight away. Sometimes it feels like losing the map. In this episode, we explore:  Why you may no longer want to return to the woman you used to be  What happens when familiar survival roles begin to loosen  Why saying no, asking for space or behaving differently can feel unsettling  How the nervous system can mistake familiar roles for safety  Why feeling unlike yourself does not necessarily mean you are going backwards  What it means to become someone you have never had room to be before If you have ever found yourself thinking: “I just want to feel like myself again.” “This isn’t like me.” “I don’t know who I am anymore.” “But I don’t want to go back to who I was either.” This conversation is for you. Because maybe you have not lost yourself. Maybe you are between identities. And maybe finding yourself is not always a return to who you were. Sometimes it is finally becoming who you never had room to be.  Listen Next If this episode opened something for you, continue with: Episode 48: Who Were You Before Survival Taught You Who You Had to Be? That episode explores the parts of you survival may have asked you to leave behind. This conversation takes the next step by asking what happens when returning to yourself does not mean returning to the past. → Listen to Episode 48 here: https://soulmedicinewithcarina.com.au/48  — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor and host of Soul Medicine. Her work helps women recognise where survival became identity, so they can stop abandoning themselves in real time and reconnect with who they are beneath the roles they learned to perform. Music Credit Music from UppbeatMountaineer — Juciest License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

  6. Jul 27

    What If Your Relationship With Food Was Never The Problem?

    A lot of women believe they have a problem with food. They tell themselves they have no willpower. That they should be more disciplined. That they should be able to control it. But what if your relationship with food makes more sense than you’ve ever allowed yourself to believe? In this episode, Carina explores why some women reach for food when life feels overwhelming, while others lose their appetite completely. On the surface, they couldn't look more different, yet both may be survival strategies. Because sometimes food is not the problem. Sometimes it is the strategy survival found. In this episode, we explore: Why emotional eating isn't simply about willpowerWhy anxiety can make eating feel almost impossible How food can become comfort, control, protection or relief Why survival repeats what once helped What becomes possible when shame is replaced with curiosity If you’ve ever found yourself thinking: "Why can't I just eat normally?" "When I'm stressed, I completely lose my appetite." "What is wrong with me?" This episode is for you. Because maybe your relationship with food makes more sense than you've ever allowed yourself to believe. If this episode resonated with you, I'd love to continue the conversation through my weekly email. It's not a traditional newsletter. It's a written coaching conversation. One new way of seeing yourself each week, straight into your inbox. → Join the Conversation — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. Every week, she invites listeners into the conversations she's already having with the women she works with. Conversations about survival, self-abandonment, emotional exhaustion, and what becomes possible when we begin seeing ourselves differently. Her work helps women recognise the survival patterns they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Music from UppbeatMountaineer — JuciestLicense code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

  7. Jul 20

    Why Is It So Hard To Stop Being The Strong One?

    A lot of women believe they're "just the strong one." The peacekeeper. The responsible one. The woman everyone relies on. But what if those roles were never your personality? What if they were survival? In this episode, Carina explores why so many women mistake survival roles for who they are, and how the very patterns that once helped them feel safe can quietly become the things keeping them disconnected from themselves. Because survival has a remarkable way of disguising itself as identity. In this episode, we explore:  Why so many women become the peacekeeper, the fixer, or the strong one  How survival roles quietly become identity  Why letting go of those roles can feel surprisingly unsafe  The connection between nervous system safety and self-abandonment  Why compassion creates more change than self-criticism  How recognising the role is the beginning of reconnecting with yourself  What becomes possible when you stop mistaking survival for personality If you've ever found yourself thinking: "I've always been the strong one." "It's just easier if I do it myself." "I don't really need anything." "That's just who I am." This episode is for you. Because maybe you've mistaken a survival role for your personality. And maybe the woman underneath it has been waiting for you to remember her. If this episode resonated with you, I'd love to invite you into next month's Soul Medicine Circle, where we'll continue this conversation together. Next month we're exploring: Why Does Saying No Feel Unsafe? We'll gently explore the survival roles we've been carrying, what they once protected, and why putting them down can feel so much harder than we expect. 📅 Sunday 9th August 2026 🕙 10:00 am – 11:00 am AEST 💻 Online via Zoom → https://carinabull.com.au/soul-medicine-circle Or stay connected through my newsletter/community: → Join the Conversation — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. Every week, she invites listeners into the conversations she's already having with the women she works with. Conversations about survival, self-abandonment, emotional exhaustion, and what becomes possible when we begin seeing ourselves differently. Her work helps women recognise the survival roles they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Music from Uppbeat Mountaineer — Juciest License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

  8. Jul 13

    The Women Who Try To Heal Everything Alone

    A lot of women think they're struggling because they haven't done enough healing. Another book. Another podcast. Another course. Another thing to understand. But what if the problem isn't a lack of awareness?  What if you've been trying to carry your healing alone? In this episode, Carina explores the hidden survival pattern of hyper-independence and why so many women become incredibly skilled at understanding themselves while still carrying their grief, burnout, healing, and emotional struggles alone.  Because information isn't the same as support. And awareness isn't the same as transformation. In this episode, we explore: - Why so many women try to heal everything alone - The difference between awareness and transformation - How hyper-independence becomes a survival strategy - Why support can feel uncomfortable, even when we need it - The hidden cost of carrying everything yourself - How survival becomes identity - Why healing isn't something you're meant to do alone - What real support can make possible If you've ever found yourself thinking: "I should be able to figure this out myself." "I don't want to burden anyone." "I just need more time." "I've got it." This episode is for you.  Because maybe you've already spent years proving how strong you are.  Maybe the next chapter isn't becoming stronger. Maybe the next chapter is learning you don't have to carry everything alone. ✨ If this episode resonated with you and you're ready to explore the survival patterns shaping your life beneath the surface, I'd love to invite you to explore The Survival to Self Session™. https://carinabull.com.au/survival-to-self-session ✨ Or stay connected through my newsletter/community: →  Join the Conversation — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. She helps emotionally exhausted women recognise and interrupt the survival patterns underneath over-functioning, hyper-vigilance, people-pleasing, emotional burnout, and self-abandonment so they can reconnect with themselves beneath survival mode. Music from Uppbeat Mountaineer — Juciest License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

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You might think you need more clarity. But most women already know what they feel. They've just spent years overriding themselves to survive. Hi, I'm Carina Bull—trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. I help women recognise the survival patterns and roles they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Every week, I invite you into the conversations I'm already having with the women I work with. Conversations about survival. Self-abandonment. Identity. Relationships. Boundaries. Self-trust. And what becomes possible when we finally begin seeing ourselves differently. No quick fixes. No performative positivity. Just honest conversations. Thoughtful questions. Fresh perspectives. Nervous system awareness. And the kind of emotional truth-telling that quietly changes the way you see yourself. Because sometimes healing doesn't begin with finding the answer. Sometimes it begins the moment you see yourself differently. Welcome to Soul Medicine.

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  • Creator
    Carina Bull — Helping Women Recognise Where Survival Became Identity
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    57
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © 2026 Carina Bull
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    Soul Medicine with Carina Bull