Defiance of Silence - A Sacred Witness

Valerie
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Defiance of Silence — A Sacred Witness is a space for survivors, healers, and those who walk beside them. Here, we don’t rush stories or try to fix them. We witness them.  Hosted by Valerie — a U.S. Army veteran, nurse, and trauma-informed witness — this podcast was shaped through her own long path of healing and the quiet power of being seen without judgment. Each episode holds real conversations about trauma, grief, moral injury, and what it means to keep showing up in a world that can wound. Some stories center around trauma. Others explore the unseen weight carried by caregivers, providers, and those who witness it. This is not therapy. This is not performance. This is a space where truth can land without spectacle. Take what steadies you. Leave what doesn’t. You don’t have to carry this alone. New episodes every other week.

  1. Lisa - Not in Crisis Enough

    4D AGO

    Lisa - Not in Crisis Enough

    Four months for an appointment can feel like a door slamming the moment you finally admit you need help. In this episode, we sit down with Lisa—a licensed clinical social worker, Army veteran, and trauma survivor—to talk about what breaks in the mental health system, and what it could look like if care actually met people where they are. If you’ve ever been told you don’t have the right insurance, you’re not in enough crisis, or you just need to fill out one more form… this conversation is for you. Lisa shares the vision behind the Wellness Collaborative, a nonprofit growing out of Peaceful Waters Retreat Center in LaGrange, Texas. Her approach is different: trauma-informed care in a park-like setting that supports the whole person—counseling alongside nervous system regulation, movement, yoga, nutrition, and other holistic modalities. We talk about why place matters in healing, how diagnosis-driven systems can miss the human in front of them, and what it could look like to expand access in rural communities through visiting providers, interns, and volunteers. And we go there, personally. Assault. Iraq. Grief. And the way anger can become the only emotion that feels survivable. Lisa shares what helps over time, what real self-care looks like for those who are always the helper, and tools like Alpha-Stim and VA virtual reality therapy that some people have found helpful for anxiety and sleep. If you’re trying to get help, have been turned away, or are supporting someone who is—this conversation offers perspective, possibility, and a reminder that the system may be broken, but healing is still available. Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    55 min
  2. Traci - The Call No Parent Wants

    APR 22

    Traci - The Call No Parent Wants

    The phone rings at 6:30am. You don’t recognize the number. Minutes later, everything changes. In this episode Traci takes us inside the day her 19-year-old son Trent suffered sudden cardiac arrest during a Navy fitness assessment—and the decade that followed. What began as shock became a long, unrelenting journey through ICU decisions, anoxic brain injury rehabilitation, and the invisible labor of caregiving that few people truly understand. This is not a story about a moment.  It’s about the long after. We talk about what caregiver burnout actually looks like when it’s not reduced to a buzzword: Sleeping in 15-minute fragments, forgetting to eat, living in a constant state of fight-or-flight, and carrying the quiet fear of what happens if you let yourself rest. Traci shares the weight of being asked to sign a DNR, the confusion of navigating medical systems that often misunderstand anoxic brain injury, and the hard-earned skill of becoming an advocate—inside both civilian hospitals and the VA. We also name what often goes unseen: The ripple effect of trauma on others, including the classmates who witnessed Trent’s collapse, CPR, and defibrillation—and were left without closure. And still, hope finds its way in. Through adaptive sports, brain injury clubhouse community, equine connection at Henry’s Home, and the slow, honest rebuilding of identity when “caregiver” becomes your whole world—until it can’t be the only thing anymore. If you’re caring for someone you love—whether you’re just beginning, deep in it, or somewhere you can finally look back—this conversation offers language, validation, and options. One clear truth remains:   You don’t have to do this alone. Ask for help. Let people show up. Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    1h 11m
  3. Melissa - A Sound Bath Sent Me Back In Time

    APR 8

    Melissa - A Sound Bath Sent Me Back In Time

    What if healing doesn’t come the way you expected—but reaches you anyway? In this episode, Valerie sits down with Melissa —a Navy veteran, mother of three, and a fierce advocate with a servant’s heart—for a conversation that is as honest as it is human. Melissa brings humor, warmth, and just the right amount of spice as she shares her journey through trauma, healing, and learning to trust her body again. What starts with curiosity about a sound bath becomes something much deeper. Melissa opens up about what shifted when she stopped trying to heal the “right” way and allowed herself to experience something that actually reached her nervous system. She shares the moment she realized childhood trauma was shaping her marriage—feeling the pull to push her husband away while also fearing abandonment. From there, we explore the realities of therapy, barriers to care, and why modalities like EMDR can feel safer when words are hard to access. The conversation expands into sound therapy, somatic release, and what it’s like to revisit memories while still feeling grounded and safe in your body. If you’ve experienced hypervigilance, night terrors, or chronic insomnia, Melissa’s experience with improved sleep may resonate deeply. We also connect the dots between inner child work, mindfulness, parts work, and the daily practice of interrupting old narratives—especially the ones that say “something bad is about to happen.” Melissa shares how prayer supports her healing, how she serves fellow veterans by connecting them to VA mental health resources, and why holistic approaches like Reiki deserve a seat at the table alongside traditional care. There’s laughter in this conversation, too—because healing isn’t only heavy. Sometimes it’s surprising, sometimes it’s uncomfortable, and sometimes it’s exactly what you didn’t expect. If you’re searching for trauma recovery tools that meet you where you are, this conversation offers possibilities without pressure. Take what serves you. Leave what doesn’t.  You don’t have to carry this alone. Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    48 min
  4. Jason - Staying Human Under Pressure: What Trauma Surgery Teaches Us About Leadership, Presence, and Carrying the Weight

    MAR 24

    Jason - Staying Human Under Pressure: What Trauma Surgery Teaches Us About Leadership, Presence, and Carrying the Weight

    Defiance of Silence is a place for real stories of trauma and healing - where lived experience matters more than advice.  What holds a team steady when the stakes rise and the room goes quiet? In this episode, Valerie sits down with Dr. Jason Piefer—orthopedic trauma surgeon, OR leader, and host of Slice of Piefer—for a grounded and honest conversation about what it takes to stay human in high-pressure environments. Jason spends his days putting people back together after life has quite literally broken them apart. But beyond the technical skill required in trauma surgery, he shares something deeper: how presence, breath, and steady leadership shape outcomes just as much as surgical precision. Together, they explore what happens after the case—how to carry what you witness without bringing the full weight home, and how small, intentional practices like writing, prayer, and reaching out to a trusted person can help prevent compassion from turning into numbness. This conversation moves beyond medicine into something more universal: how we lead, how we regulate, and how we care without losing ourselves. You’ll hear practical insights for navigating high-stakes moments:  How to steady yourself when everything feels urgent  Why lowering your voice can calm an entire room  How to step back and reorient when you feel overwhelmed  Ways to process what you carry without isolating Valerie and Jason also speak to the quiet impact of silence—how it isolates both survivors and caregivers—and how being witnessed creates movement where people often feel stuck. There’s humor here too, because levity is part of the medicine. And there’s a reminder woven throughout: recovery—whether physical or emotional—doesn’t follow shortcuts. Scars may remain, but they don’t define us. If you’ve ever carried what you’ve witnessed, questioned yourself under pressure, or wondered how to lead without hardening, this conversation offers something steady to hold onto. Take what serves you. Leave what doesn’t.  You don’t have to carry this alone. Watch Dr. Piefer on his podcast Slice of Piefer!  Click Here - https://youtu.be/xNofebTduYM?si=uCR3bDF-OwGGaAcq Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    1h 4m
  5. Ayana - When Resilience Isn’t Enough: Choosing Transilience

    MAR 11

    Ayana - When Resilience Isn’t Enough: Choosing Transilience

    Defiance of Silence is a place for real stories of trauma and healing—where lived experience matters more than advice. Start with a breath. Then meet Ayana—a Navy veteran, therapist, author, caregiver, and peer support leader whose story moves from Brooklyn to the nuclear pipeline, through MST and grief, and into a life devoted to witnessing others with care. In this conversation, we explore the difference between breaking silence that isolates and honoring silence that protects. This isn’t trauma porn and there’s no pressure to share more than your nervous system can hold—just real language, lived experience, and practical tools for safety and healing. Ayana shares how one sentence from a therapist changed the course of her recovery, why anger often masks fear, and why regulation must come before processing trauma. We also unpack what peer support actually means—trained, ethical support grounded in lived experience—and why it can be a lifeline for veterans and families navigating complex systems of care. We talk about choosing therapy wisely—asking about modalities, tracking what actually helps, and remembering you can request a provider who fits your identity and needs. EMDR, Brainspotting, IFS, ART—these aren’t badges of honor. They’re pathways. Readiness is the gate. Along the way we explore the drama triangle, the cost of rescuing others, and the courage it takes to prune relationships that no longer support growth. Ayana introduces the idea of “transilience”—not just surviving what life hands you, but transforming it. If you’re breathing, you qualify for care. For workshops, speaking engagements   https://www.linkedin.com/in/ayanabrown/ I currently see clients at Hope Village Wellness Center.  https://www.hopevillagewellnesscenter.com/ Check out Ayana's book here: Buy Myka and the Mystery of the Treasure Trust A special thanks: This episode is gifted to you by a sacred witness & friend, Tara Pitcock - Thank you for the support, Tara!!! Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    1h 5m
  6. Lauren - Not at the Expense of Me

    FEB 25

    Lauren - Not at the Expense of Me

    What happens when the story you’ve carried for years—I should have known, I should have stopped it—meets the truth your body has been holding all along? In this episode, Valerie sits with Lauren—a mother, veteran, and grassroots community advocate committed to building authentic connection and resilient communities. Lauren served two tours in Iraq as a logistician, later worked as an IT project manager, led change as a nonprofit executive, and has successfully administered multiple programs and businesses. Beneath all of those roles is another identity she rarely spoke about for years: survivor. That lived experience became a catalyst for earned wisdom and deep transformation, shaping her commitment to paying forward the grace and compassion she herself received. Together, Valerie and Lauren walk through betrayal, survival, grief, and the long middle space where healing isn’t dramatic or linear—but real. This is a grounded conversation about naming rape, navigating high-performance environments after trauma, and what silence can quietly cost our faith, relationships, and sense of self. Lauren shares the moment everything shifted—a call for help from a parking lot—and the unexpected turning point of working with a male therapist through cognitive processing therapy. She speaks candidly about releasing stored grief, rebuilding safety with men, and how co-regulation, breath, and simple presence can bring a spiraling nervous system back to steady ground. Along the way, humor, ceremony, and community become anchors, reminding us that healing rarely happens alone. Listeners will also find practical wisdom for rebuilding after trauma or moral injury: choosing one safe person, moving at your own pace, setting boundaries with the reminder not at the expense of me, and marking heavy moments complete through intentional ritual. Valerie and Lauren gently explore the complicated realities of reporting, career impact, and how agency can grow as language—and self-understanding—changes. At its core, this episode is not about what was done to someone.  It’s about what becomes possible when someone is finally witnessed. Take what steadies you. Leave what doesn’t.  You don’t have to carry this alone. Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    59 min
  7. Victoria - Safety First: Science, Heart, Humor & EMDR

    FEB 11

    Victoria - Safety First: Science, Heart, Humor & EMDR

    Ready for a gentler way to face hard memories without getting stuck retelling the same story? In this episode of Defiance of Silence, we sit down with Victoria Garcia, a warm, down-to-earth therapist with over ten years in the mental health field, trained in EMDR and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Passionate about helping people untangle the past and build lives that truly work for them, Victoria blends science, heart, and humor to make healing feel human, accessible, and grounded. Together, we demystify EMDR and explore what “being ready” really means. Victoria explains in plain language how bilateral stimulation works, why pacing matters, and how therapists identify targets by pairing memories with core beliefs like I’m not safe, It was my fault, or I should have done more. This isn’t about reliving trauma—it’s about helping the nervous system reorganize so the past no longer runs the present. We talk about the preparation that makes EMDR effective: naming body sensations, using slow body scans, and even working with colors as anchors for those who struggle to label emotions. For people who dissociate, overthink, or feel disconnected from their bodies, these practices become bridges back to safety and presence. Victoria shares real-life examples of healing in motion, like panic softening into neutrality and triggers losing their grip. The story doesn’t disappear, but its hold loosens. We also cover when EMDR isn’t the right move, why safety skills come first, and how virtual EMDR can be surprisingly effective using apps that tailor pace and visual cues. For first responders, nurses, caregivers, and helpers, EMDR applies deeply—often touching beliefs like I should have done more. Victoria shows how those quiet burdens can finally be witnessed and released. We close with a gentle guided body scan you can return to anytime. Your story deserves a witness.  Your body deserves peace. Learn more about Victoria’s work at  🌿 www.victorioustherapy.com Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    1h 11m
  8. Nicole - Breaking The Vow Of Silence

    JAN 28

    Nicole - Breaking The Vow Of Silence

    Silence can protect us for a while—but eventually, it costs everything. In this powerful episode, Valerie sits down with Nicole, a decorated veteran, detective, and survivor whose 26-year career in law enforcement and the military was defined by service, strength, and relentless achievement. Rising to the role of Special Agent in Charge and Sergeant in the MA Army National Guard, Nicole Ferry also graduated from the FBI National Academy and holds advanced degrees in Criminal Justice and Public Administration. Her journey, however, was marked by unspoken trauma: military sexual trauma at age 19, the moral injury of losing a colleague to suicide, and the toll of chronic hypervigilance and pain.  Nicole shares the messy reality of recovery—navigating the VA system, seeking culturally competent care, and spending 142 days in a first responder treatment program where she confronted her own patterns: addicted to leadership, willing to abandon herself to save others. She opens up about the somatic fallout of panic, insomnia, and a near-fatal medication reaction, and how a service dog named Cash quietly transformed her sense of safety.  Through her advocacy for mental health and suicide awareness, Nicole leads impactful discussions and global resilience training, drawing from her own battle with PTSD and trauma. She sits on the Board of Directors for the Survive First Foundation, helping others find hope and healing.  This episode offers practical tools and gentle honesty: Setting boundaries after sharing hard storiesUsing shaking and rhythmic movement to discharge what isn’t yours to carryThe importance of safe witnessesHow healing begins when the vow of silence finally breaks If you’ve ever felt alone in service, believed you had to be exceptional to be worthy of help, or carried strength at the cost of your own safety, Nicole Ferry's story will meet you where you are and invite you to breathe, soften, and try again.  nicoleferry.com nicole@nicoleferry.com www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-ferry-mpa CopLine 1-800-copline 1-800-267-5463 Contact Valerie Support the show Remember YOU are loved and worthy of being witnessed! If today’s episode stirred heavy feelings, you are not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend or a professional if you need support: National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) | rainn.orgSAMHSA Mental Health/Substance Use: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)988 LIFELINE: Call, Text or Chat https://988lifeline.orgVeterans Crisis Line: Dial or text 988, then press 1Help for Veterans suffering with CPTSD https://saveawarrior.org/*This podcast is not therapy. If you’re in immediate danger, please call 911 or your local emergency number. Want to tell your story? Send a DM or an email Find us on IG @defiance_of_silence_podcast    valerie@defianceofsilencepodcast.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/defiance_of_silence_podcast?igsh=MWVxMHI3OXY1cm1paA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr A special thank you to https://www.broadcastingtexas.org/ for believing in this project!

    1h 25m
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Defiance of Silence — A Sacred Witness is a space for survivors, healers, and those who walk beside them. Here, we don’t rush stories or try to fix them. We witness them.  Hosted by Valerie — a U.S. Army veteran, nurse, and trauma-informed witness — this podcast was shaped through her own long path of healing and the quiet power of being seen without judgment. Each episode holds real conversations about trauma, grief, moral injury, and what it means to keep showing up in a world that can wound. Some stories center around trauma. Others explore the unseen weight carried by caregivers, providers, and those who witness it. This is not therapy. This is not performance. This is a space where truth can land without spectacle. Take what steadies you. Leave what doesn’t. You don’t have to carry this alone. New episodes every other week.

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