Akathisia Stories

MISSD

Akathisia Stories is a podcast produced by the Medication-Induced Suicide Prevention and Education Foundation in Memory of Stewart Dolin (MISSD). Each episode shares real conversations to raise awareness of akathisia — a dangerous, medication-induced disorder that can cause self-harm, suicide, and violence. By combining lived experiences with education, the podcast advances MISSD’s mission to improve patient safety, prevent avoidable harm, and save lives.

Episodes

  1. 3d ago

    Episode 10 - Katinka Blackford Newman on Her Experience with Akathisia and Her Mission to Educate Others

    What happens when a prescribed medication changes your life overnight? In this powerful episode of Akathisia Stories, host Ivan Kaiser sits down with journalist, documentary filmmaker, author, and advocate Katinka Blackford Newman to discuss her extraordinary journey from award-winning BBC filmmaker to international campaigner for medication safety. After being prescribed an antidepressant in 2012 to help with temporary insomnia following a stressful life event, Katinka experienced a devastating adverse drug reaction that led to akathisia, psychosis, hospitalization, and more than a year of life-altering harm. Once she recovered, she dedicated her career to investigating the risks associated with antidepressants, documenting the experiences of others, and raising awareness to help prevent similar tragedies. In this conversation, Katinka shares: Her personal experience with antidepressant-induced akathisia and psychiatric drug injuryHow her recovery inspired her book The Pill That Steals Lives and subsequent documentaryThe creation of AntidepressantRisks.org and its mission to support those harmed by psychiatric medicationsThe importance of recognizing akathisia and improving education among healthcare professionalsDetails about Prescribed Harm Awareness Day and the global Stolen Lives Picnics honoring those affected by medication-related harmThis episode is an honest and thought-provoking discussion about patient safety, informed consent, lived experience, and the urgent need for greater awareness of akathisia.

  2. Jun 26

    Episode 8 - Cael from the PSSD Network

    At 19 years old, shortly after moving out of his family home, Cael began experiencing severe anxiety and panic attacks. Seeking help, he turned to his longtime family doctor, who diagnosed him with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and prescribed Lexapro. Cael was not informed of the potential risks or side effects. While the medication initially brought relief, it soon led to emotional numbness, social withdrawal, depression, and persistent suicidal thoughts—symptoms he had never experienced before. Over the next several years, Cael was prescribed multiple psychiatric medications, including Lexapro, Effexor, Zoloft, Pristiq, Seroquel, Mirtazapine, and Cymbalta. With each treatment, his condition worsened. He experienced severe emotional blunting, cognitive difficulties, sexual dysfunction, insomnia, panic attacks, and escalating suicidal ideation. Despite repeatedly reporting these symptoms to medical professionals, his concerns were often dismissed or attributed to underlying mental illness rather than the medications themselves. At age 21, after discontinuing Zoloft, Cael experienced a prolonged withdrawal syndrome that left him struggling with extreme anxiety and insomnia. Eventually, after taking Cymbalta, he developed severe and persistent sexual dysfunction, genital numbness, emotional numbness, and a profound loss of pleasure in everyday life. A urologist later diagnosed him with Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction (PSSD), and he was also diagnosed with idiopathic neuropathy. Now 23 years old, Cael continues to live with the lasting effects of these medications. His story highlights the challenges faced by individuals who experience serious adverse reactions to psychiatric drugs and underscores the importance of informed consent, patient advocacy, and greater awareness of conditions such as PSSD.

  3. Feb 26

    Episode 4 - Katie Brennan returns with an update on her legal hearing

    In Part 1, you met Katie Brennan — a Teacher of the Year, mother of six, and respected educator whose life changed after she developed medication-induced akathisia. With no prior history of mental illness, her symptoms were misdiagnosed as DSM-labeled disorders, leading to civil commitments that damaged her career, reputation, and her family. In Part 2, we turn to what comes next. Although medical experts have concluded that her civil commitments were rooted in misdiagnosed and mistreated akathisia, Katie is still seeking to have those commitment records expunged — records that continue to affect her professional standing and civil rights. Katie also raises important questions about how psychiatric diagnoses are defined. Disorders in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) are developed through committee review and voting by expert panels. These decisions shape how human experiences are understood and labeled in clinical settings. For example, the DSM labels "Prolonged Grief Disorder" as grief lasting beyond 12 months (6 months for children and adolescents), as a diagnosable condition — a change that has prompted discussion about where grief ends and pathology begins. Genetic differences in drug metabolism can increase the risk of adverse reactions to medications like SSRIs, yet most patients are prescribed these drugs without prior pharmacogenomic testing. Akathisia is one of several medication-induced disorders that can cause extreme inner torment and suicide. Others harmed by prescribed psychiatric drugs — including those suffering from PSSD and severe withdrawal — have also experienced life-altering consequences and iatrogenic death. Katie’s story is about accurate diagnosis, informed consent, and recognizing medication-induced injury before lives are permanently altered. Watch Part 2 — because surviving iatrogenic harm is only part of the journey. Reclaiming your name and your future is also a difficult path. One misdiagnosis can change everything.  One informed voice can help protect others.

  4. Jan 30

    Episode 3 - Katie Brennan on her misdiagnosis and related legal battle

    Katie Brennan is a former finalist for Minnesota Teacher of the Year, with a Masters Degree in Education and 48 additional upper division graduate credits in Education and English. During her 20 year teaching career, Katie taught high school English, including English for college credit. Katie is a woman of strong faith and the mother of six children and nine grandchildren. At age 48, with no history of mental illness, Katie was prescribed Ambien and Prozac during a stressful job transition and developed crippling akathisia. While suffering from akathisia, Katie was misdiagnosed as mentally ill, which led to three wrongful civil commitments within five years. These commitments justified the continued inappropriate and harmful use of the psychiatric medications causing the akathisia, perpetuating her suffering for an agonizing seven years. She has been in an ongoing legal battle since 2021, in both federal and state court, to vacate the wrongful civil commitments and restore her reputation, her dignity, and her civil and constitutional rights. Katie’s journey has taught her that her experiences in the mental health system, in which akathisia and other life-threatening medication reactions are often dismissed and ignored, are not unique. Katie, who is alive by the grace of God, is now dedicated to raising awareness of akathisia to prevent more needless suffering, offer hope, and save lives. She also advocates for better training on akathisia for providers, social workers, and court officers and the need for oversight and accountability in civil commitment proceedings.

About

Akathisia Stories is a podcast produced by the Medication-Induced Suicide Prevention and Education Foundation in Memory of Stewart Dolin (MISSD). Each episode shares real conversations to raise awareness of akathisia — a dangerous, medication-induced disorder that can cause self-harm, suicide, and violence. By combining lived experiences with education, the podcast advances MISSD’s mission to improve patient safety, prevent avoidable harm, and save lives.