I Have A What?! Surviving A Brain Tumor

Johnathan "TeflonJohn" Smith

Join me as I share my deeply personal journey of being diagnosed with a brain tumor; a moment filled with confusion, fear, and uncertainty. I navigate the emotional rollercoaster of surgery and the fight for survival, revealing the highs and lows along the way. This podcast is for anyone interested in health and inspiring stories of resilience. Each episode features heartfelt storytelling, interviews, and discussions with fellow survivors and experts. Tune in for open conversations that acknowledge the stress of such a diagnosis while offering hope. New episodes are released twice a month. 🎧 Support the Show If you enjoy my content and want to help me keep creating inspiring stories and conversations, you can support my work here: https://buymeacoffee.com/Teflonjohn Every coffee helps fuel new episodes, better equipment, and meaningful content for the community. Thank you for your support! ☕️

  1. 1d ago

    The Morning of Brain Surgery: Facing Fear Before Anesthesia | Season 2 | Episode 8 | Finale

    🧠 Episode Description The morning of brain surgery was the moment everythingbecame real.   In this Season 2 finale, I take you through the final hoursbefore my surgery, from the day and night before, to the drive to UVA, thecheck-in process, seeing my family, meeting the surgical team, and the momentfear finally broke through the mask I had been wearing.   This episode begins with March 14th, 2024, the day beforesurgery, which was also my wife’s birthday.   That day felt blurry. I was there, but I was not fullythere. I was trying to shop for recovery, prepare for the hospital, take careof what needed to be done, and be strong for the people around me. But inside,I knew the next morning could change everything.   The morning of surgery carried a weight I will never forget.   The drive to the hospital.The check-in.Taking off my clothes.Putting on the hospital gown.Seeing my family surprise me and show up together.Meeting the nurses, anesthesia team, and surgeon.Hearing the risks again.Facing the possibility that I may not wake up the same, or wake up at all.   Up until that point, I thought I knew what fear was.   But when I sat there at UVA, dressed for surgery, hearingthe risks again right before they took me back, I realized the differencebetween nervousness and real fear.   This was the moment the mask finally broke.   My wife saw it.My mom saw it.And for the first time, I could not hide what I was carrying anymore.   This episode is about fear, faith, family, vulnerability,surrender, and the final moments before brain surgery.   Season 2 ends where my certainty ended.   Right before anesthesia.Right before everything went black.Right before I had to trust God with what came next.   Season 3 begins when I wake up. 🎯 What You’ll Take FromThis Episode What the day and night before brain surgery felt likeHow my wife’s birthday landed the day before surgeryWhy preparing for recovery felt emotionally heavyWhat the drive and check-in at UVA felt likeHow my family surprised me before surgeryWhy hearing the surgical risks again broke me downThe difference between nervousness and real fearHow faith and fear can exist in the same momentWhy Season 2 ends right before anesthesia   📣 Support the Podcast If this episode connects with you, consider supporting themission: 👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn   🔗 Stay Connected 🌐 https://www.teflonjohn.com/ Make sure you follow the podcast, share it with someone whoneeds it, and stay tapped in for Season 3. 🔜 Next Season Season 3 begins when I wake up. The surgery is over.The ICU is real.The recovery begins.And I have to find out what version of me came back. This is not the end of the story. One love. Be blessed.

  2. Aug 12

    The Last Few Days Before Brain Surgery: Family, Work, and Final Moments | Season 2, Episode 7

    🧠Episode Description Sometimes you do not know a moment is important until later. In this episode, I take you inside the last few days before brain surgery, when life still looked normal on the outside, but everything felt different on the inside. The countdown was almost over. I was no longer months away from surgery. I was no longer weeks away. I was days away. And during those final days, every ordinary moment started to carry more weight. My last day at work felt different.Seeing family felt different.Visiting my grandparents felt different.Trying to stay present felt different. This episode is about the final stretch before brain surgery, the last days of trying to live normal before everything changed. One of the most meaningful parts of this episode is looking back on the time I spent with my grandfather before surgery. At the time, I thought it was just another visit. But now, knowing what would happen later in my journey, that moment carries a much deeper meaning. This episode is about presence. It is about family, faith, uncertainty, and learning not to rush past the moments that matter. It is about realizing that sometimes God gives you memories before you even know why you will need them. If you are facing surgery, preparing for a diagnosis, supporting someone you love, walking through uncertainty, or learning to appreciate life differently, this episode is for you. Do not rush past the moments that matter. Sometimes the ordinary moments become the ones that carry you later. 🎯 What You’ll Take From This Episode What the last few days before brain surgery felt like emotionallyWhy my last day at work felt heavier than I expectedHow visiting family helped ground me before surgeryWhy seeing my grandfather before surgery means so much nowHow faith and fear can exist in the same seasonWhy presence matters when life feels uncertain 📣 Support the Podcast If this episode connects with you, consider supporting the mission: 👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn 🔗 Stay Connected 🌐 https://www.teflonjohn.com/ Make sure you follow the podcast, share it with someone who needs it, and stay tapped in for what’s next. 🔜 Next Episode Next episode… we reach the night before surgery. The house gets quiet.The thoughts get louder.The countdown is no longer days away. It is hours away. And everything I had been preparing for is now right in front of me.

  3. Aug 8

    Brain Surgery Made Me Rethink My Life: What Really Matters | Season 2, Episode 6

    🧠EPISODE DESCRIPTION Sometimes you do not realize how important a moment is until later. In this episode, I take you inside the last few days before my brain surgery, when the countdown was almost over and life started feeling different in ways I could not fully explain at the time. This was not just about preparing for surgery. It was about walking through the final stretch of normal life. My last day at work.The quiet weight of stepping away.Visiting family.Seeing my grandparents.Trying to stay present while knowing everything was about to change. And one of the most meaningful parts of this episode is looking back on the time I spent with my grandfather before surgery. At the time, I thought it was just another visit. But now, knowing what would happen later in my journey, that moment carries a much deeper meaning. This episode is about presence. It is about realizing that some moments do not reveal their full meaning until after life changes. It is about appreciating the people God places in your life, holding on to what matters, and understanding that the ordinary moments can become the ones you remember most. If you are preparing for surgery, facing uncertainty, walking through a diagnosis, or simply trying to hold yourself together while life keeps moving, this episode is for you. Do not rush past the moments that matter. Sometimes God gives you memories before you even know why you will need them. 🎯 What You’ll Take From This Episode: What the final days before brain surgery felt like emotionallyHow my last day at work carried more weight than I expectedWhy visiting family before surgery became so meaningfulThe importance of being present with the people you loveHow ordinary moments can become powerful memories late📣 Support the Podcast If this episode connects with you, consider supporting the mission: 👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn 🔗 Stay Connected 🌐 https://www.teflonjohn.com/ Make sure you follow the podcast, share it with someone who needs it, and stay tapped in for what’s next. 🔜 Next Episode Next episode… we reach the night before surgery. The house gets quiet.The thoughts get louder.And everything I had been preparing for… is now only hours away.

  4. Aug 6

    Brain Surgery, Faith, and Fear: When My Mom’s Faith Challenged Me | Season 2 | Episode 5

    There’s a difference between having faith… and having your faith challenged when fear is loud. In this episode, I take you inside one of the most emotional parts of my brain tumor journey: the tension between my fear and my mom’s faith. As my brain surgery date got closer, I was still trying to process what was happening. I was scared. I was uncertain. I was wearing a mask, trying to act like I was okay, while internally I was struggling with the reality of what was coming. But my mom saw things differently. Her faith was strong. Her belief in what God could do was on another level. She would say things like, “You never know, you might go down there for surgery and they can’t even find the tumor because God removed it.” And honestly… that bothered me. Not because I didn’t believe in God, but because I was scared to believe that deeply. I was afraid of getting my hopes up. I was afraid of believing for a miracle, then being devastated if I still had to face surgery. This episode is about that real tension. Faith vs fear. A mother believing for the impossible… and a son trying to survive the reality in front of him. I talk about why her faith challenged me, why it made me uncomfortable, and how looking back, I realize that pressure was exactly what I needed. At the time, it felt like we were bumping heads. But in hindsight, she was pushing me to face the fear I was trying so hard to hide. If you’ve ever struggled between believing God and being honest about your fear… if you’ve ever had someone close to you speak faith when you were still trying to process reality… this episode is for you. 🎯 What You’ll Take From This Episode: What it feels like when faith and fear collide during a health crisis How a parent’s faith can challenge you when you’re scared Why fear can expose areas where your faith is still growing The emotional weight of trying to look strong while struggling inside How God can use uncomfortable conversations to build something deeper in you 📣 Support the Podcast If this episode connects with you, consider supporting the mission: 👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn 🔗 Stay Connected 🌐 https://www.teflonjohn.com/ Make sure you follow the podcast, share it with someone who needs it, and stay tapped in for what’s next. 🔜 Next Episode Next episode, my mom joins me. For the first time, you’ll hear this journey from her side, what she saw, what she felt, and how she carried her own faith while watching her son prepare for brain surgery.

  5. Apr 22

    Life Doesn’t Stop: Pushing Through Pain Before Brain Surgery | Season 2 | Episode 4

    🧠 Season 2, Episode 4 Description Life doesn’t pause just because you’re going through something. In this episode, I take you deeper into a part of my journey that most people never see, the space between knowing something life-changing is coming and still having to show up every day like everything is normal. While preparing for brain surgery, my body was already sending signals. Daily headaches. Constant nausea. Moments where I felt off, but still had to function. Still had to work. Still had to lead. Still had to be present for the people around me. Because the reality is, life keeps moving. Deadlines don’t wait. Responsibilities don’t disappear. And most people don’t know what you’re carrying internally. So you learn how to operate while dealing with something heavy behind the scenes. This episode is about that tension. The pressure of pushing forward when your body and mind are under stress. The discipline it takes to keep going when you don’t feel like it. And the mindset shift that helped me realize that what I was going through wasn’t just something to survive, it was something that was preparing me. Because sometimes the season you’re in right now… is training you for what’s ahead. If you’ve ever had to show up in life while quietly dealing with pain, uncertainty, or fear, this episode will speak directly to you. 📣 Support the Podcast If this episode connects with you, consider supporting the mission: 👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn 🔗 Stay Connected 🌐 https://www.teflonjohn.com/ Follow the podcast, share it with someone who needs it, and stay tapped in for what’s next.

  6. Apr 17

    Brain Surgery Countdown: Living With Fear, Faith, and Uncertainty | Season 2 | Episode 3

    🧠 Season 2, Episode 3 Description Brain Surgery Countdown: Living With Fear, Faith, and Uncertainty | Season 2 | Episode 3 There’s a difference between making a decision… and living with it. In this episode, I take you inside what it really feels like after the date is set, when you’re no longer avoiding it… but you still have to wake up every day and live your life. Nothing around me stopped. I was still going to work, still showing up, still laughing, still being myself. On the outside, everything looked normal. But internally… it was different. Because now, I wasn’t just living life… …I was living with a countdown. I talk about what it felt like to carry that weight every day. The back and forth between feeling normal one moment, and then being hit with the reality of what was coming the next. There were days I could forget.And there were days it wouldn’t leave my mind at all. And that tension… that’s where the real battle started. Faith vs fear. Because it’s one thing to say you trust God… It’s another thing to trust Him when you’re facing something you can’t control, something you can’t run from, and something you don’t know the outcome of. 👉 That’s when the real question shows up:How do you keep living… when you know what’s coming? If you’ve ever lived in uncertainty, carried something heavy in silence, or tried to stay strong while battling your own thoughts… this episode is for you. This is what it looks like to live with a countdown. 🎯 What You’ll Take From This Episode: What it feels like to live with a life changing countdownThe mental and emotional weight of knowing what’s aheadHow normal life and heavy reality can exist at the same timeWhat happens when faith is tested in real time 📣 Support the Podcast If this episode connects with you, consider supporting the mission: 👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn 🔗 Stay Connected 🌐 https://www.teflonjohn.com/ Make sure you follow the podcast, share it with someone who needs it, and stay tapped in for what’s next. 🔜 Next EpisodeAt some point… I couldn’t keep it to myself anymore. Because the closer the date got… the harder it became to act like everything was okay. 🔥

  7. Apr 15

    Choosing My Brain Surgery Date: The Moment It Became Real | Season 2 | Episode 2

    🧠 Season 2, Episode 2 Description Choosing My Brain Surgery Date: The Moment It Became Real How do you choose the day… that your life might change forever? In this episode of I Have a What? Surviving a Brain Tumor, I take you inside one of the hardest decisions I faced during my journey, choosing the date for brain surgery. This wasn’t just about scheduling a procedure. It was about coming to terms with reality. For weeks, I avoided it. Not because I didn’t understand what needed to happen… but because I knew once that date was set, everything would feel real. The uncertainty. The fear. The weight of what could happen next. In this episode, I open up about: The internal battle between faith and fearWhy I delayed making the decisionThe pressure of protecting my family while struggling internallyWhat it feels like to live with a countdown you can’t escapeAnd how I started facing something I could no longer avoid This is one of the most honest chapters of my journey so far. If you’ve ever had to make a decision you weren’t ready for… If you’ve ever tried to stay strong while dealing with something heavy… If you’ve ever faced the unknown… This episode is for you. ❤️ A Personal Note Each episode in this series is dedicated to my late grandfather, who taught me that faith isn’t always loud. Sometimes, it’s trusting God even when you don’t know what’s coming next. 📣 Support & Stay Connected If this episode speaks to you: Follow the podcast so you don’t miss what’s next Share it with someone who needs encouragement Leave a rating to help this message reach more people You can also support the journey here: 👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn And stay connected with everything I’m building: 👉 https://www.teflonjohn.com/ 🔜 What’s Next The closer that date got… the harder it became to ignore. brain tumor, meningioma, brain surgery, tumor journey, faith vs fear, health podcast, cancer support, personal story, survival journey, mental resilience, overcoming fear

  8. Apr 10

    The Day I Could No Longer Run From Brain Surgery | Season 2 | Episode #1

    🧠 Season 2, Episode 1 Description After being told I needed brain surgery, everything shifted. In this episode, I take you beyond the moment of diagnosis and into the quiet, often overlooked aftermath, the days where life continues moving forward, but mentally and emotionally, everything feels different. I was no longer just living with a brain tumor under a “watch and wait” plan. Now, I was living with the reality that I would have to choose a date… a day where everything would change. I share what it felt like to walk through everyday life while carrying that weight in silence. Going to work, staying active, podcasting, and doing the things I loved, all while a constant thought ran in the background: What happens after surgery? Will I be the same? This episode dives into the internal battle that began during this time. The tension between fear and faith. The moments where I tried to stay strong on the outside for my wife and my mom, while internally wrestling with uncertainty, doubt, and the unknown. I also open up about going down the rabbit hole, searching for answers, watching stories of both hope and hardship, which only made the emotional conflict even deeper. More than anything, this episode is about that turning point, when something that once felt like a possibility becomes real. When you can no longer avoid it. When you have to start asking yourself deeper questions about strength, purpose, and belief. This is the beginning of a new chapter in my journey, not just physically, but mentally and spiritually. If this episode resonates with you, make sure to follow the podcast so you don’t miss what’s next. Share it with someone who may need encouragement, and leave a review to help this message reach others who are going through their own battles. If you’d like to support the podcast and help me continue sharing this journey, you can do so here: 👉 After being told I needed brain surgery, everything shifted. In this episode, I take you beyond the moment of diagnosis and into the quiet, often overlooked aftermath, the days where life continues moving forward, but mentally and emotionally, everything feels different. I was no longer just living with a brain tumor under a “watch and wait” plan. Now, I was living with the reality that I would have to choose a date… a day where everything would change. I share what it felt like to walk through everyday life while carrying that weight in silence. Going to work, staying active, podcasting, and doing the things I loved, all while a constant thought ran in the background: What happens after surgery? Will I be the same? This episode dives into the internal battle that began during this time. The tension between fear and faith. The moments where I tried to stay strong on the outside for my wife and my mom, while internally wrestling with uncertainty, doubt, and the unknown. I also open up about going down the rabbit hole, searching for answers, watching stories of both hope and hardship, which only made the emotional conflict even deeper. More than anything, this episode is about that turning point, when something that once felt like a possibility becomes real. When you can no longer avoid it. When you have to start asking yourself deeper questions about strength, purpose, and belief. This is the beginning of a new chapter in my journey, not just physically, but mentally and spiritually. If this episode resonates with you, make sure to follow the podcast so you don’t miss what’s next. Share it with someone who may need encouragement, and leave a review to help this message reach others who are going through their own battles. If you’d like to support the podcast and help me continue sharing this journey, you can do so here:👉 https://buymeacoffee.com/teflonjohn For more content, updates, and resources, visit:👉 https://www.teflonjohn.com/

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Join me as I share my deeply personal journey of being diagnosed with a brain tumor; a moment filled with confusion, fear, and uncertainty. I navigate the emotional rollercoaster of surgery and the fight for survival, revealing the highs and lows along the way. This podcast is for anyone interested in health and inspiring stories of resilience. Each episode features heartfelt storytelling, interviews, and discussions with fellow survivors and experts. Tune in for open conversations that acknowledge the stress of such a diagnosis while offering hope. New episodes are released twice a month. 🎧 Support the Show If you enjoy my content and want to help me keep creating inspiring stories and conversations, you can support my work here: https://buymeacoffee.com/Teflonjohn Every coffee helps fuel new episodes, better equipment, and meaningful content for the community. Thank you for your support! ☕️

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