Terminal Addiction

Paul J. Bujdoso
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A drug counselor and a Registered Nurse in recovery talk about everyday struggles in recovery. 

  1. 3D AGO

    Bob Ney- Part 1

    Send us Fan Mail  An interview with Bob Ney: former U.S. Representative, veteran radio personality, and published author, who now shares his powerful journey as a person in long-term recovery  Support the show

    29 min

  2. APR 29

    BONUS: Can AI Chatbots replace basements and meetings? AI voice generated podcast.

    Send us Fan Mail This is a bonus podcast download of the Terminal Addiction podcast with two guest podcasters.  This episode will talk about the changes in recovery due to the 2020 pandemic.  As has been previously discussed, Paul B and Doug H began their recovery during the pandemic, and it changed the way that recovery happened.  Treatment centers were on lockdown and most meetings were shut down. Online meetings became commonplace and the only refuge for many in recovery.  Social media lead to the birth and explosive growth of support groups on Facebook, Instagram, Telegram, and others.  The scramble to find a meeting anywhere and anytime became essential. Now meetings have become not a local meeting but often a regional, national or even an international meeting among people who may never see each other in person. Today, with the birth and growth of AI, we have new tools, including Open Recovery, which is an AI recovery assistant that can help in moments when other help is unavailable or a chatbot is more comfortable than face-to-face discussions.  This and other mental health chatbots allow anytime, anywhere access to someone to talk to. The flipside of all of this technology is that it is reducing the face-to-face interactions so vital for sobriety.  Accountability to a chatbot is different than accountability to a person or group. What many of you may not be aware of is that this episode of the podcast was not hosted by humans but by AI.  This episode, though, was written by Paul B. Support the show

    22 min

  3. APR 26

    Surgery-Gratitude&Reflection-Meditation

    Send us Fan Mail Meeting Summary: Recovery & Resilience Date: March 12, 2026 | Location: Upper Doghouse Studio | Duration: ~31 min Key Highlights Surgery & Self-Advocacy: Paul B. (a nurse) shared his recent surgery experience for a pinched nerve. He emphasized the importance of patient advocacy, specifically his request to avoid ketamine due to past negative experiences, opting instead for a combination of propofol and non-narcotic pain management (Tylenol/Ibuprofen).Holistic Recovery: Paul attributed his rapid recovery—including performing household repairs the next day—to mental preparation and meditation. Both Doug and Paul discussed how techniques like silent retreats, guided sessions, and "moving meditations" (hiking) are vital tools for managing pain and maintaining sobriety.The Power of Gratitude: The hosts framed gratitude as an active practice rather than just a feeling. Doug highlighted his work leading gratitude sessions in treatment settings, focusing on non-material gains like relationships and health.Incremental Growth: The discussion centered on the "1% better" philosophy—focusing on small, manageable daily improvements in fitness, diet, and kindness rather than overwhelming, unrealistic goals.Quick Overview Focus Area | Core Takeaway: Medical | Clear communication with anesthesia teams is crucial for those in recovery. Mental | Meditation and mindfulness can significantly reduce the need for post-op narcotics. Lifestyle | Self-care (gym, massage, hobbies) is a pillar of long-term emotional stability. Community | Sharing personal stories and listener feedback strengthens the recovery network. Support the show

    29 min

  4. APR 12

    Family Dynamics part 2, Life on Life's Terms, Surgery Kayleigh part 2

    Send us Fan Mail Navigating family dynamics and the unpredictable nature of "life on life’s terms" while preparing for surgery is a significant undertaking, especially when maintaining recovery is the top priority. It requires a blend of rigorous self-care, transparent communication, and proactive medical advocacy. Here is a breakdown of how to manage these three pillars effectively. 1. Life on Life’s Terms: The Foundation "Life on life’s terms" means accepting reality as it is, rather than how we wish it to be. When a major event like surgery approaches, external stressors don’t pause. Surrender Control: Recognize that you cannot control the hospital schedule, the recovery speed, or others’ reactions. Focus exclusively on your "hula hoop"—your own actions and attitudes.The HALT Principle: Before reacting to any life stressor, check if you are Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired. Surgery prep often triggers all four.Daily Maintenance: Double down on your recovery routine (meetings, meditation, or reaching out to a support network) to build the emotional resilience needed for the physical toll ahead.2. Navigating Family Dynamics Family can be a primary source of support or a significant trigger. Setting boundaries early is essential for a peaceful recovery environment. Define Your Needs: Be clear about what kind of help you actually want. If you need someone to drive you but don't want "smothering" advice, state that kindly but firmly.The "Support Circle" Strategy: Identify who is in your "inner circle" (those who support your recovery) and who is in the "outer circle" (those who might be stressful). Limit your interactions with the outer circle during the high-stress pre-op and post-op phases.Transparency: If family members are aware of your recovery journey, involve them in the accountability process. Let them know the plan for pain management so they can support the boundaries you’ve set with doctors.3. Surgery Preparation in Recovery Preparing for surgery while in recovery requires a specialized approach to pain management and medical transparency. Clinical Transparency You must be your own advocate. Ensure your entire surgical team (surgeon, anesthesiologist, and primary care doctor) is fully aware of your recovery status. The Anesthesia Plan: Discuss non-opioid options or regional blocks (like epidurals or local nerve blocks) that can minimize the need for systemic narcotics.Pain Management Protocol: Work with your doctor to create a "Multimodal Pain Management" plan. This often involves using different types of medications that work together to reduce pain without relying solely on one class of drug.Practical Safeguards The Medication "Gatekeeper": Have a trusted family member or friend hold and dispense any necessary high-risk medications. This removes the "mental load" of self-administration.Post-Op Support: Increase your frequency of recovery-related check-ins (even virtually) during the first two weeks post-surgery, as physical vulnerability can lead to emotional vulnerability. Support the show

    33 min

  5. MAR 29

    Family Dynamics in Recovery- Kayleigh Interview Part 1

    Send us Fan Mail Navigating early recovery is often described as a "second adolescence." While the individual is working hard to stay sober, the family is often reeling from years of chaos, trying to figure out how to interact without a substance acting as the primary focal point. It’s a period of immense hope, but it’s also fraught with specific hurdles as everyone learns to play new roles. Common Family Role Shifts When addiction is present, family members often adopt survival roles to maintain a sense of balance (homeostasis). In early recovery, these roles suddenly become obsolete, which can cause friction. The Enabler: Often feels "out of a job" and may struggle with a loss of purpose or control now that they aren't managing the addict’s crises.The Hero: The overachiever who provided the family with a sense of pride may feel resentful that the person in recovery is now getting all the attention.The Scapegoat: May continue to be blamed for family tension even after the primary substance use has stopped.Key Challenges in the Early Stages 1. The "Pink Cloud" vs. Reality The person in recovery may experience a "pink cloud" phase—a period of intense euphoria and overconfidence about their sobriety. The family, however, is often waiting for the other shoe to drop. This creates a validation gap: the individual wants a pat on the back for a week of sobriety, while the family is still processing years of hurt. 2. The Trust Deficit Trust is broken in an instant but rebuilt in millimeters. The Family: May engage in "policing" behavior (checking receipts, smelling breath, monitoring phone calls).The Individual: May feel smothered or insulted by this lack of trust, leading to defensiveness.3. Re-establishing Boundaries In the past, boundaries were likely either non-existent or rigid and angry. Learning to say "no" without guilt—and hearing "no" without feeling rejected—is a steep learning curve for everyone involved. 4. Dealing with "Dry Drunk" Syndrome Sometimes the substance is gone, but the behaviors (irritability, dishonesty, or selfishness) remain. Recovery requires emotional sobriety, not just physical abstinence. If the person isn't working on the underlying issues, the family may feel like they are still living with the "addict version" of their loved one. Support the show

    32 min

  6. MAR 15

    Stress, Whack-A-Mole Effect Addictions

    Send us Fan Mail Dealing with Stress in Recovery In early recovery, the brain’s "alarm system" (the amygdala) is often hypersensitive, while the "braking system" (the prefrontal cortex) is still repairing itself. This makes ordinary stressors feel like emergencies. Emotional Regulation: Without a chemical buffer, feelings can feel loud and overwhelming. Learning to sit with discomfort—rather than running from it—is a core skill.The HALT Method: Many relapses occur when a person is Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired. Addressing these basic biological needs can lower stress levels significantly.Healthy Coping Mechanisms: This involves building a new "toolbox" that might include mindfulness, physical exercise, journaling, or reaching out to a support network (like a sponsor or therapist).Boundary Setting: Stress often comes from external pressures. Recovery requires the "audacity" to say no to toxic environments or draining social obligations.Substitution: The "Whack-a-Mole" Effect Substituting one addiction for another (often called cross-addiction or transfer addiction) is a common pitfall. When you remove the primary substance but don't address the underlying trauma or brain chemistry imbalances, the urge to soothe simply migrates. Common Substitutions From | To (Often)Alcohol/Drugs | Caffeine or Nicotine (high volume) Substances | Processed sugars or compulsive overeating Substances | "Process" addictions: Gambling, shopping, or sex Substances | Workaholism or excessive exercise Support the show

    29 min

  7. MAR 1

    Recovery Burnout Rule 62

    Send us Fan Mail 1. Recovery Burnout: The "Tired of Being Better" Phase Recovery burnout occurs when the mental and emotional effort required to maintain sobriety becomes a source of chronic stress rather than a source of healing. It’s not about wanting to use again; it’s about being exhausted by the process of staying clean. The "To-Do" List Overload: Attending constant meetings, working the steps, therapy, and helping others can eventually feel like a second full-time job.The Perfectionism Trap: Many in recovery swap an addiction to substances for an addiction to "doing recovery perfectly," leading to high anxiety and self-judgment.Signs to Watch For: Irritability toward your support group, feeling "bored" with sobriety, or a cynical attitude toward spiritual principles you used to value.2. Rule 62: "Don't Take Yourself Too Seriously" Rule 62 is a legendary piece of wisdom from Alcoholics Anonymous lore. It originated from a story about a group that tried to build an overly complex, multimillion-dollar recovery center with a massive list of rules, only to realize they had lost the plot. Why it Matters Perspective Shift: It’s a reminder that while recovery is a serious matter of life and death, you are still a fallible, occasionally ridiculous human being.The Ego Eraser: Burnout is often fueled by the ego's need to control every outcome. Rule 62 tells the ego to sit down and relax.The Power of Humor: If you can laugh at your own mistakes, those mistakes lose their power to drive you back to a drink or a drug. Support the show

    26 min

  8. FEB 15

    Co-Dependency & People, Places and Things in Recovery

    Send us Fan Mail 1. The "People": Auditing Your Circle The episode argues that in codependency, we don't just love people; we "consume" their problems to avoid our own. The Change: Moving from Enablers to Elevators.The Action: Identifying the "Energy Vampires"—the people who only know how to relate to you when you are in crisis or when you are fixing theirs.The Shift: You stop being the "buffer" between your loved ones and the consequences of their actions.2. The "Places": Neutralizing the Trigger Map Our brains create "neural maps" of the places where we practiced our addiction or codependent behaviors. The Change: Avoiding the "Arena." If a specific coffee shop is where you always sat for hours obsessing over a partner's texts, or a specific bar is where you sought external validation, that place is "hot."The Action: Creating Sanctuaries. Finding new physical spaces—parks, libraries, or even a restructured living room—where the old patterns haven't been "recorded" yet.3. The "Things": Decoupling the Identity "Things" refers to the habits, objects, and rituals that keep us tethered to the old self. The Change: Moving from Compulsion to Intention.The Action: This might mean deleting social media apps (the "thing" used to stalk an ex), throwing away "relics" (gifts or clothes tied to a toxic period), or changing the way you spend your morning.The Insight: The episode emphasizes that "things" include our internal dialogue. Shifting from "I have to fix this" to "I have to feel this."Codependency is frequently a coping mechanism for anxiety. By "helping" or "fixing" someone else, the codependent person gains a temporary sense of security. The Behavior: Giving unsolicited advice, "nannying" a partner, or manipulating situations to prevent a loved one from failing or feeling pain.The Irony: This "help" often becomes enabling, as it prevents the other person from experiencing the natural consequences necessary for their own growth.Codependency creates a cycle of resentment. The codependent person gives until they are empty, expects the other person to eventually reciprocate or change, and then feels victimized when they don't.Self-Worth: The individual’s value is tied entirely to being "needed." Without a crisis to solve or a person to save, they may feel purposeless or deeply insecure. Support the show

    27 min
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A drug counselor and a Registered Nurse in recovery talk about everyday struggles in recovery. 

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  • Creator
    Paul J. Bujdoso
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    21
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Terminal Addiction
  • Show Website
    Terminal Addiction