The Medicine Spoke

Ashton
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  • SPIRITUALITY

he Medicine Spoke is a soul-baring podcast exploring healing at its root—from the womb to the wild unknown. Hosted by a mother of five and nurse turned spiritual seeker, this show dives into the raw, often unspoken layers of trauma, emotional inheritance, psychedelics, and rebirth. Each episode is a blend of storytelling, reflection, and remembrance—sometimes solo, sometimes with guides, therapists, or fellow travelers on the path. From a life-altering Ibogaine journey in Mexico to breathwork, rage release, motherhood, and the echoes of what we felt before we had language—this is a space for the ones who never felt quite at home in the surface world. Whether you’ve sat with plant medicine, cried in a therapist’s office, or screamed into a pillow at 2 a.m., you’ll feel seen here.

  1. MAR 6

    Peeling Back the Layers – The Medicine Was Me All Along

    This is the Season 1 finale of The Medicine Spoke… and it is a full-circle moment. In this episode, I reflect on the journey that started with recording Episode 1 and re-recording it over and over again because I couldn’t stand the sound of my own voice… to now sitting here with so much more grace for myself and the courage to share my story openly. Season 1 has been about healing out loud. It’s been about the moments that break us open, the lessons that shape us, and the realization that the tools we’re searching for are often already within us. In this episode, I look back on the toolbox we built throughout the season — the lessons on awareness, honesty, self-compassion, forgiveness, intuition, consistency, and faith — and how each one became a part of my own healing journey. I also share why honoring the medicines that changed my life — ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT — was such an important part of this story, and how what I thought I was doing for someone else ended up transforming me instead. And I share a very real reminder that healing is still happening every day — including a story from an aesthetic conference this past weekend that showed me how far I’ve come… and how much grace we all deserve to give ourselves. If there is one lesson I hope you take from this season, it’s this: It is never too late. It’s never too late to start healing. Never too late to choose yourself. Never too late to follow the thing that keeps calling you forward. This episode is for anyone who has ever felt behind, broken, or alone on their healing journey. You’re not behind. You’re not broken. And nothing meant for you will ever miss you. Season 1 may be coming to a close… but the healing continues. Thank you for being here. 🤍 The medicine you’re looking for… was you all along.

    31 min

  2. FEB 27

    Nothing Meant for You Will Ever Miss You

    This episode was not planned — it found me. After a chaotic weekend, an argument with my daughter, and a long drive to a small church I didn’t even want to attend, I walked in dysregulated and overwhelmed. Well into the service, something shifted in my body. My nervous system calmed. My heart opened. And I knew I was exactly where I was supposed to be. In this episode, I share: • The real-life moment that reminded me how intuition feels in the body • My full faith journey — from Apostolic roots to Baptist, Methodist, Catholicism, spirituality, and back to God • The shame, the healing, and the integration of believing in both God and energy • How my father-in-law’s testimony changed the way I see parenting and faith in our home • Why healing isn’t about perfection — it’s about coming back to center • And how divine timing works even when we don’t understand it If you’ve ever felt spiritually in-between… If you’ve ever felt like you didn’t belong in one box… If you’ve ever wondered if you were on the right path… This episode is for you. Nothing meant for you will ever miss you. We peel back layers here on The Medicine Spoke… and the real medicine has always been within you.

    20 min

  3. FEB 20

    The Boring Side of Healing

    We don’t talk enough about what happens after the breakthroughs. After the big realizations. After the emotional releases. After the moments that change everything. Because eventually, healing gets quiet. In this episode, I’m sharing what healing looks like for me right now in real life — not in ceremonies or dramatic shifts, but in the small, consistent choices that regulate my nervous system and create peace in my everyday life. We’re talking about the maintenance phase of healing. The 5:15 AM hot sculpt yoga class I never want to wake up for but always changes my day. Choosing sleep instead of overthinking after conflict. Drinking water, eating cleaner, and sitting with myself even when I don’t feel like it. Learning to care without carrying everyone else’s emotions as a nurse and an empath. Letting peace be routine instead of chasing intensity. If your healing feels “boring” right now — if it looks like repetition, boundaries, rest, and small daily habits — you are not doing it wrong. You are stabilizing. Healing isn’t always loud. It’s not always a breakthrough. Sometimes it’s the quiet, consistent practices that become the medicine within you. Peace is routine. Peace is repetitive. Peace is healing. This episode is for anyone who is in the maintenance phase — building a regulated, grounded life one small choice at a time.

    17 min

  4. FEB 13

    How I Stopped Letting Ego Run My Life

    For most of my life, I thought ego was confidence. I didn’t realize it was fear quietly running everything. In this episode, I share how my healing journey — especially through ibogaine and DMT — helped me finally see the difference between ego and intuition, and how learning to listen to that quiet inner voice changed the way I live, work, love, and show up for myself. We talk about: • how ego shows up as anxiety, control, validation, people-pleasing, and survival • how intuition feels calm, grounded, and steady — even when it leads you somewhere uncomfortable • walking away from a job that caused constant dread • shifting from defensiveness to boundaries in relationships • letting go of identity, status, and the need to prove • releasing shame around motherhood and learning to give myself grace • how emotions move through the body — and what happens when we don’t let them • everyday intuition — from delays and red lights to losing (and finding) something meaningful • why you don’t need a big ceremony to heal • how intuition and manifesting are deeply connected • and why the real medicine has always been within you This episode is about slowing down, getting quiet, and learning how to tell the difference between fear and truth in your own everyday life. Because intuition is the medicine. And when you learn to listen, everything begins to align. ✨ If this resonates, take a breath, pause, and remember — nothing meant for you will miss you.

    36 min

  5. FEB 6

    Forgiveness Starts With You

    In this episode of The Medicine Spoke, I talk about why true healing begins with self-forgiveness — and why letting go of the past isn’t possible if we’re still punishing ourselves for who we were. I share parts of my story that I carried shame around for years: becoming a mom at sixteen, divorce, regret, mistakes, and the fear of being alone with myself. I explore how shame keeps the nervous system stuck in survival, how self-judgment can feel like control, and why forgiveness is actually an act of self-love. This episode is also about release and momentum — what I let go of in 2025, what I released during the final full moon of the Year of the Snake, and how I’m stepping forward into a new season without dragging old versions of myself behind me. I share practical ways to begin forgiving yourself, stop taking revenge on yourself, and carry the lesson without carrying the weight. If you’ve ever struggled to love yourself because of your past, this episode is for you.

    18 min

  6. JAN 30

    Why Loving Yourself Is Essential (And Why I Say “I Am Happy, I Love Myself” Every Day)

    What does it actually mean to love yourself — beyond affirmations and self-care trends? In this episode, I share why I intentionally say “I am happy, I love myself” every single day, and how self-love has become the foundation for nervous system safety, self-belief, and alignment in my life. We talk about how loving yourself isn’t selfish — it’s essential. How self-love creates trust within your body. And how that trust allows you to stop chasing and start allowing what’s meant for you. I share real moments from my daily life — listening to my body, resting without guilt, setting boundaries without over-explaining, choosing joy freely, and trusting God and the process even when the path isn’t clear. I also open up about how self-love changes relationships, especially within a marriage, and why both men and women deserve permission to be human. This episode is about what changes when you stop abandoning yourself — how self-love creates safety, belief, and a deeper trust in the path you’re walking. This is where the medicine continues — in how you choose yourself when no one is watching.

    21 min

  7. JAN 23

    The Ordinary Moments Are the Medicine

    In a world that feels loud, divided, and overwhelming, it can be hard to know where to place your attention — especially when your own life feels just as chaotic. Between nonstop schedules, kids’ sports, co-parenting, work, relationships, and personal dreams, the noise doesn’t just live in the headlines… it lives in our homes and our bodies too. In this episode, Ashton reflects on a season of life where her calendar feels relentless and the world feels unsettled — and how she’s learning that healing doesn’t always come from big moments or escapes. Sometimes, the real medicine is found in the ordinary. She shares honestly about navigating a packed family schedule, relying on a true village, why her circle has gotten smaller, and the daily practices that help her stay grounded — prayer, boundaries, rest, and choosing herself without guilt. This episode is a reminder that you don’t have to wait for life to slow down to find peace. If your life feels full and you’re doing the best you can, this one’s for you. Because sometimes, the ordinary moments are the medicine.

    23 min

  8. JAN 16

    Happiness Is a Choice: Practicing It in Real Life

    In this honest and heartfelt episode of The Medicine Spoke, Ashton unpacks her 2026 mantra: “Happiness is a choice.” What began as a simple phrase on a piece of home décor in her first apartment has become a powerful daily practice for regulating her nervous system and responding — rather than reacting — to life. Ashton shares real-life examples of how this mantra shows up in her marriage, parenting, starting a new PRN nursing job, and even navigating frustrating moments in traffic. She explains how pausing, taking a breath, and intentionally choosing peace can shift the body out of fight-or-flight and create more safety, clarity, and connection in relationships. This episode isn’t about toxic positivity or getting it “right.” It’s about awareness, grace, and the messy work of learning to feel safe in your own body after deep healing experiences. Ashton also reflects on how her recent DMT experience echoed this truth — that her purpose is simply to be happy and at peace. If you’ve ever felt reactive, overwhelmed, or hard on yourself, this episode offers a gentle invitation to practice choosing differently — one breath, one moment, and one choice at a time.

    18 min
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he Medicine Spoke is a soul-baring podcast exploring healing at its root—from the womb to the wild unknown. Hosted by a mother of five and nurse turned spiritual seeker, this show dives into the raw, often unspoken layers of trauma, emotional inheritance, psychedelics, and rebirth. Each episode is a blend of storytelling, reflection, and remembrance—sometimes solo, sometimes with guides, therapists, or fellow travelers on the path. From a life-altering Ibogaine journey in Mexico to breathwork, rage release, motherhood, and the echoes of what we felt before we had language—this is a space for the ones who never felt quite at home in the surface world. Whether you’ve sat with plant medicine, cried in a therapist’s office, or screamed into a pillow at 2 a.m., you’ll feel seen here.

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  • Creator
    Ashton
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    20
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 The Medicine Spoke
  • Show Website
    The Medicine Spoke

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