The Medicine Spoke

Ashton
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  • SPIRITUALITY

he Medicine Spoke is a soul-baring podcast exploring healing at its root—from the womb to the wild unknown. Hosted by a mother of five and nurse turned spiritual seeker, this show dives into the raw, often unspoken layers of trauma, emotional inheritance, psychedelics, and rebirth. Each episode is a blend of storytelling, reflection, and remembrance—sometimes solo, sometimes with guides, therapists, or fellow travelers on the path. From a life-altering Ibogaine journey in Mexico to breathwork, rage release, motherhood, and the echoes of what we felt before we had language—this is a space for the ones who never felt quite at home in the surface world. Whether you’ve sat with plant medicine, cried in a therapist’s office, or screamed into a pillow at 2 a.m., you’ll feel seen here.

  1. 6D AGO

    How I Stopped Letting Ego Run My Life

    For most of my life, I thought ego was confidence. I didn’t realize it was fear quietly running everything. In this episode, I share how my healing journey — especially through ibogaine and DMT — helped me finally see the difference between ego and intuition, and how learning to listen to that quiet inner voice changed the way I live, work, love, and show up for myself. We talk about: • how ego shows up as anxiety, control, validation, people-pleasing, and survival • how intuition feels calm, grounded, and steady — even when it leads you somewhere uncomfortable • walking away from a job that caused constant dread • shifting from defensiveness to boundaries in relationships • letting go of identity, status, and the need to prove • releasing shame around motherhood and learning to give myself grace • how emotions move through the body — and what happens when we don’t let them • everyday intuition — from delays and red lights to losing (and finding) something meaningful • why you don’t need a big ceremony to heal • how intuition and manifesting are deeply connected • and why the real medicine has always been within you This episode is about slowing down, getting quiet, and learning how to tell the difference between fear and truth in your own everyday life. Because intuition is the medicine. And when you learn to listen, everything begins to align. ✨ If this resonates, take a breath, pause, and remember — nothing meant for you will miss you.

    36 min

  2. FEB 6

    Forgiveness Starts With You

    In this episode of The Medicine Spoke, I talk about why true healing begins with self-forgiveness — and why letting go of the past isn’t possible if we’re still punishing ourselves for who we were. I share parts of my story that I carried shame around for years: becoming a mom at sixteen, divorce, regret, mistakes, and the fear of being alone with myself. I explore how shame keeps the nervous system stuck in survival, how self-judgment can feel like control, and why forgiveness is actually an act of self-love. This episode is also about release and momentum — what I let go of in 2025, what I released during the final full moon of the Year of the Snake, and how I’m stepping forward into a new season without dragging old versions of myself behind me. I share practical ways to begin forgiving yourself, stop taking revenge on yourself, and carry the lesson without carrying the weight. If you’ve ever struggled to love yourself because of your past, this episode is for you.

    18 min

  3. JAN 30

    Why Loving Yourself Is Essential (And Why I Say “I Am Happy, I Love Myself” Every Day)

    What does it actually mean to love yourself — beyond affirmations and self-care trends? In this episode, I share why I intentionally say “I am happy, I love myself” every single day, and how self-love has become the foundation for nervous system safety, self-belief, and alignment in my life. We talk about how loving yourself isn’t selfish — it’s essential. How self-love creates trust within your body. And how that trust allows you to stop chasing and start allowing what’s meant for you. I share real moments from my daily life — listening to my body, resting without guilt, setting boundaries without over-explaining, choosing joy freely, and trusting God and the process even when the path isn’t clear. I also open up about how self-love changes relationships, especially within a marriage, and why both men and women deserve permission to be human. This episode is about what changes when you stop abandoning yourself — how self-love creates safety, belief, and a deeper trust in the path you’re walking. This is where the medicine continues — in how you choose yourself when no one is watching.

    21 min

  4. JAN 23

    The Ordinary Moments Are the Medicine

    In a world that feels loud, divided, and overwhelming, it can be hard to know where to place your attention — especially when your own life feels just as chaotic. Between nonstop schedules, kids’ sports, co-parenting, work, relationships, and personal dreams, the noise doesn’t just live in the headlines… it lives in our homes and our bodies too. In this episode, Ashton reflects on a season of life where her calendar feels relentless and the world feels unsettled — and how she’s learning that healing doesn’t always come from big moments or escapes. Sometimes, the real medicine is found in the ordinary. She shares honestly about navigating a packed family schedule, relying on a true village, why her circle has gotten smaller, and the daily practices that help her stay grounded — prayer, boundaries, rest, and choosing herself without guilt. This episode is a reminder that you don’t have to wait for life to slow down to find peace. If your life feels full and you’re doing the best you can, this one’s for you. Because sometimes, the ordinary moments are the medicine.

    23 min

  5. JAN 16

    Happiness Is a Choice: Practicing It in Real Life

    In this honest and heartfelt episode of The Medicine Spoke, Ashton unpacks her 2026 mantra: “Happiness is a choice.” What began as a simple phrase on a piece of home décor in her first apartment has become a powerful daily practice for regulating her nervous system and responding — rather than reacting — to life. Ashton shares real-life examples of how this mantra shows up in her marriage, parenting, starting a new PRN nursing job, and even navigating frustrating moments in traffic. She explains how pausing, taking a breath, and intentionally choosing peace can shift the body out of fight-or-flight and create more safety, clarity, and connection in relationships. This episode isn’t about toxic positivity or getting it “right.” It’s about awareness, grace, and the messy work of learning to feel safe in your own body after deep healing experiences. Ashton also reflects on how her recent DMT experience echoed this truth — that her purpose is simply to be happy and at peace. If you’ve ever felt reactive, overwhelmed, or hard on yourself, this episode offers a gentle invitation to practice choosing differently — one breath, one moment, and one choice at a time.

    18 min

  6. JAN 9

    The Medicine Within — Starting the New Year with Intention

    What happens after the journey ends? After the medicine quiets… after you feel changed on the inside… but the world around you looks exactly the same. In this episode of The Medicine Spoke, we talk about integration — the often-overlooked part of healing. The return to everyday life. The grief, clarity, patience, and daily choices that come after transformational experiences. Using the New Year as a symbolic blank slate, this episode explores what it really means to heal in real time — in the same house, the same roles, the same responsibilities — while learning to live differently. You’ll hear reflections on: Feeling reborn internally while life stays the same externallyIntegration as a slow, honest, and sometimes messy processUsing intention instead of pressure in the New YearTrusting the medicine within you — not rushing the process This episode is an invitation to slow down, be patient with yourself, and remember: healing isn’t linear, and you don’t have to walk it alone.

    22 min

  7. JAN 3

    Between Death and Peace: My 5-MeO-DMT Story

    There’s a part of the healing journey nobody really talks about — the quiet after… the Gray Day… the place between fear and surrender. In this episode, I share my Gray Day after ibogaine and my 5-MeO-DMT experience — the fear, the letting go, the visions, the tears, the prayers, and the deep peace that followed. You’ll hear about: • what Gray Day actually is • why the silence is so intense • my 5-MeO-DMT experience and what it felt like inside it • the moment I thought I died — and what happened next • releasing shame, mom-guilt, fear, and old stories • meeting God, surrender, and rebirth • what integration felt like when I came home • and how all of this led me here — to you This is the story of how the medicine broke me open and helped me start again. And this is only the beginning — the next episodes dive into life after, integration, and how I began learning to truly heal.

    26 min

  8. 12/26/2025

    My Ibogaine Journey

    In this episode, I finally open up and share something deeply personal — my Ibogaine journey, from the moment the day began through the night that changed everything. I take you with me into the nerves, the prayers, the intentions, and then into the ceremony itself — the capsules, the visions, the purging, the fear, the tenderness, and the moments of love, clarity, and deep healing that felt like they were guiding me home to myself. There were parts that were intense. There were parts that were beautiful. And there were moments that felt like the truth I had been waiting my whole life to see. This was the night everything shifted — in my body, my heart, my relationships, my healing, and the way I see my life. Next week, I’ll share what comes after… The Gray Day, and the rest of our time in Mexico — leading into my 5-MeO-DMT experience. Thank you for being here with me — and for letting me share this part of my story with you. 🤍

    26 min
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About

he Medicine Spoke is a soul-baring podcast exploring healing at its root—from the womb to the wild unknown. Hosted by a mother of five and nurse turned spiritual seeker, this show dives into the raw, often unspoken layers of trauma, emotional inheritance, psychedelics, and rebirth. Each episode is a blend of storytelling, reflection, and remembrance—sometimes solo, sometimes with guides, therapists, or fellow travelers on the path. From a life-altering Ibogaine journey in Mexico to breathwork, rage release, motherhood, and the echoes of what we felt before we had language—this is a space for the ones who never felt quite at home in the surface world. Whether you’ve sat with plant medicine, cried in a therapist’s office, or screamed into a pillow at 2 a.m., you’ll feel seen here.

Information

  • Creator
    Ashton
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    17
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 The Medicine Spoke
  • Show Website
    The Medicine Spoke