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Stephanie Fuccio

After years of illness, injury and well, the menopausal transition, I'm taking the reins back on my strength, balance and flexibility. I'm experimenting with some weights, exercise bands, and more in order to find exercises that fit my life and help me feel strong.

  1. 2d ago

    Do I Dislike Cute Exercise Gear? S1E25

    Hey! I'd love to hear your thoughts, send me a voice note. I didn’t expect this to be the thing I uncovered during my 30-day movement experiment, but here I am: somewhere between dumbbell reps and editing my own voice for the 25th day in a row, discovering a weird little streak of resentment toward cute workout gear. And the more I heard myself say it, the more I realized I needed to sit with it instead of letting it float by like background noise. I record a lot of these episodes while I’m actually moving. Today’s was during my dumbbell workout; the overhead variations, the slow lifts, the huffing and puffing that happens when 2.5 kilos suddenly feels like ten because I’m paying attention to form. Something about exercising while talking always cracks open a different part of my brain. The filter drops. The truth spills out. I think more clearly when I’m using my body. While I edited the recording, I noticed something that surprised me: every time I mentioned pretty workout clothing, my tone wasn’t neutral. It wasn’t curious. It wasn’t mildly annoyed. It sounded… disdainful. Like I had a problem with it. That was confusing because I don’t actually dislike cute workout clothing. I’m not anti-color or anti-fun or anti-intentional outfits. I just don’t wear a lot of that stuff right now, mostly because I’ve been living in super basic clothes for years, especially during my time in Denmark when everything I bought ended up being black or neutral simply because nothing else fit me the way I wanted. But I don’t have any real issue with the clothing itself. So why did I sound so irritated? The more I listened, the more I realized it wasn’t about the gear. It was about what I associate with the gear. I’ve watched people prioritize looking good over doing what feels good or supportive for their bodies. Not everyone. Not most people. But enough that the story stuck in my brain. At one point during an overhead lift, I said out loud, without planning to, something I hadn’t fully acknowledged: I carry resentment toward people who seem to prioritize aesthetics over accessibility or honesty in fitness. Not resentment toward them as individuals… but toward the idea I’ve built around them. The idea that exercise is supposed to be performed rather than practiced. That it’s about appearing strong instead of building strength in real time. That it’s about looking the part rather than showing up with the body I actually have. But as soon as that thought was out of my mouth, I recognized it wasn’t really about anyone else. It was about me.

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After years of illness, injury and well, the menopausal transition, I'm taking the reins back on my strength, balance and flexibility. I'm experimenting with some weights, exercise bands, and more in order to find exercises that fit my life and help me feel strong.