Unbecoming Me with Toi

Toi Waddles
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Unbecoming Me is a personal journey of shedding who we were told to be and growing into who we truly are. Hosted by Toi Waddles, this podcast explores healing after heartbreak, navigating lonely seasons, rebuilding self-worth, and learning to care for yourself in real and meaningful ways. Through honest stories and heartfelt reflection, Toi invites you to release old identities, face your truth, and step into your becoming — one layer at a time. If you're in a season of change, transformation, or rediscovery, you're not alone. This is where your unbecoming begins.

  1. 22h ago

    The Greatest Power of Consistency: Finding Peace Over Chaos

    In Episode 11 of The Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi reflects on her five-year healing journey, exploring how her perception of relationships transformed. She candidly shares how she once mistook chaotic, hot-and-cold relationships for passion, confusing nervous excitement with genuine compatibility. Through self-discovery, Toi learned that her nervous system had normalized drama and anxiety. Now, she champions consistency as the ultimate form of love, emphasizing that it represents peace rather than boredom. She encourages listeners to prioritize emotional safety, reject chaos, and recognize that true love never causes unnecessary pain or sleepless nights.   Timestamps Introduction to the Episode (00:00:46) Toi introduces episode 11, discussing her personal growth journey and how she is starting to find her breath again. When Consistency Starts to Feel Sexy (00:01:22) Toi explains how she used to confuse butterflies with compatibility but now finds consistency and communication incredibly attractive in relationships. When Chaos Stopped Being Attractive (00:02:51) Toi reflects on her past hot-and-cold relationships, realizing that the chaos she experienced was not her normal upbringing. Breaking Free from Chaotic Relationships (00:04:38) She describes being a "fixer" in past relationships, which left her exhausted and broken until her support system helped her. How the Nervous System Adapts to Chaos (00:06:52) Toi explains how her body and nervous system became accustomed to the constant drama and anxiety of unhealthy relationships. Excitement vs. Emotional Safety (00:08:38) The difference between the initial "honeymoon phase" excitement and the deep, trusting feeling of true emotional safety in a relationship. Creating Your Own Peace (00:10:28) Toi emphasizes her commitment to her own inner peace, stating she won't settle for anything less from a partner. Predictability is Peace, Not Boring (00:11:48) She reframes predictability in relationships not as boring, but as a comforting and peaceful presence that provides stability and security. Consistency is the Presence of Peace (00:13:04) Toi shares the episode's main takeaway: consistency isn't about a lack of passion, but about creating a peaceful foundation.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'I used to confuse butterflies with compatibility; now consistency gives me all the butterflies.' 'I then understood the difference between excitement and emotional safety.' 'I've created a sense of peace within myself that I'm not sacrificing or settling for anything less than this.' 'Now, predictable is not boring at all; it's a presence of peace.' 'Consistency isn't the absence of passion; it is the presence of peace.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Consistency isn't the absence of passion; it is the presence of peace."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  2. Aug 5

    The Most Important Lessons in Healing and Relationship Discernment

    In episode ten of Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi reflects on 200 days of her 365-day healing journey, exploring whether she is truly healing or simply hopeful. She shares lessons learned about self-worth, discernment, and relationships, including the mistake of prematurely trusting partners before they've earned it. Toi distinguishes between genuine leadership and love bombing, emphasizes consistency and how partners treat children as character indicators, and highlights that true healing means seeking nervous system regulation over fleeting butterflies — prioritizing lasting peace and emotional stability over excitement.   Timestamps Podcast Introduction (00:00:04) The host, Toi, introduces the "Unbecoming Me" podcast, focusing on healing, growth, and peeling back layers to become oneself. Am I Healing or Just Hopeful? (00:00:46) Toi introduces the episode's topic and shares she is 200 days into her 365-day healing journey. The Mistake of Crowning a Man Too Early (00:01:34) Toi discusses her past mistake of giving a partner the "man" title and benefits before he earned them. Knowing Your Worth (00:02:44) The importance of recognizing your own value to avoid situations where you are not appreciated or taken for granted. Trust is Earned, Not Gifted (00:03:52) Toi emphasizes that trust should not be given freely and must be earned through consistent actions and respect. The Importance of Consistency (00:04:55) Observing a person's consistency through all of life's seasons is crucial to understanding their true character and discipline. How a Partner Treats Children (00:05:54) A partner's treatment of your children (or their own) is a significant indicator of their character and capacity for respect. Leadership vs. Love Bombing (00:06:59) Toi explains the difference between genuine leadership in dating (courting, consistency) and manipulative love bombing (intense, short-lived affection). Recognizing a True Provider and Protector (00:09:06) A true masculine partner provides safety and reassurance through actions, making "struggle love" undesirable once experienced. Be Open-Minded in Dating (00:11:09) Your blessing might come in an unexpected package, so it's important to be open-minded about a potential partner's type. Nervous System Regulation Over Butterflies (00:12:22) True healing means seeking a regulated nervous system and peace, not the anxiety-inducing "butterflies" often mistaken for excitement. Episode Wrap-Up (00:13:35) Toi concludes the episode, reiterating the importance of nervous system regulation as a sign of true healing and discernment.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'I've had the problem of crowning a man too early and staying too long once I've crowned him.' 'You know what I learned in my grown age? That trust is earned and it's not gifted.' 'Another thing I learned is to watch consistency, even if the person is under pressure.' 'I'm not looking for butterflies anymore; I'm looking for nervous system regulation.' 'Your nervous system will be regulated, and that's when your body will finally be at peace.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Healing teaches you to stop chasing butterflies and start choosing the peace that lasts."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  3. Jul 22

    Embracing Peace in Relationships: How Leadership, Intentionality, and Safety Transform Love After Healing

    In this episode of Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi explores what peace looks like in relationships after surviving difficult seasons of healing and letting go. She contrasts chaotic "struggle ships" with peaceful, healthy connections characterized by leadership, intentionality, consideration, and predictability. Toi highlights meaningful gestures — planned dates, thoughtful surprises, and clear communication — as signs of a genuinely caring partner. She emphasizes that true peace feels like safety, allowing authenticity and vulnerability. Encouraging listeners who have done the inner work, Toi reminds them that peaceful love is quiet, steady, and deeply fulfilling — and absolutely worth embracing.   Timestamps What Peace Looks Like After the Storm (00:00:46) Toi introduces the episode's topic: finding peace in relationships after going through a difficult "detachment season" from past connections. Leadership Qualities in a Partner (00:01:26) The importance of a partner showing leadership, initiative, and intentionality in getting to know you and building a connection. Rejecting "Struggle Love" (00:02:38) Toi denounces "struggle ships" (struggle love), stating she is too mature for relationships that require constant effort and struggle. The Importance of Consideration (00:03:47) A partner's consideration, like remembering your children, is highlighted as a key sign of a healthy and caring relationship. Effortless Planning and Intentionality (00:04:48) Peace is when a partner plans things without being chased or hinted at, showing genuine effort and clear intentions. Predictability Feels Like Peace (00:08:19) Predictability in a relationship is framed as a positive, calming, and nourishing force, contrasting it with chaotic "struggle ships." Genuine Connection Over Superficiality (00:09:47) A peaceful partner values your genuine self, seeing the beauty within you beyond surface-level appearances like makeup and clothes. Safety as the Foundation for Trust (00:11:00) Feeling safe in a relationship allows you to let your guard down, trust your partner, and be your authentic self. Constructive Criticism and Final Thoughts (00:12:09) Peaceful relationships allow for constructive criticism given with love. Toi concludes by reiterating that peace is quiet and valuable.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'Struggle love is ghetto.' 'I'm not raising a significant other.' 'Predictability feels like peace, because it is.' 'Peace for me is when I can feel safe.' 'If I feel safe, I can show you who I truly am, flaws and all.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Peace isn't boring—it's the safety to be fully yourself without fear."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  4. Jul 8

    Why Detachment Is the Key to Ending Emotional Overextension and Finding Yourself Again

    In episode eight of The Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi introduces "Detachment Season," exploring why boundaries stop feeling mean. She discusses breaking cycles of over-giving, over-functioning, and emotional overextension in relationships. Toi emphasizes matching energy rather than over-functioning, using boundaries as tools for self-protection and data collection about who truly respects you. She also highlights the importance of observation over explanation, recognizing toxic behavioral patterns, and protecting children from unhealthy dynamics. The episode encourages listeners to honor themselves by setting firm boundaries without guilt, reframing them as acts of self-love rather than punishment.   Timestamps Welcome to Detachment Season (00:00:46) Toi introduces episode eight's topic: setting boundaries and detaching from over-giving and over-functioning in relationships and friendships. The Act of Detaching (00:02:38) Discusses practical acts of detachment, like stopping location sharing, and the controlling reactions this can provoke in others. Matching Energy, Not Being Petty (00:04:32) Explains that matching energy is about mirroring behavior, not pettiness, and why people who over-functioned struggle with this shift. Protecting Your Peace (00:06:06) Slowing down response times is not being nonchalant; it's a method of protecting your peace from takers and selfish people. Protecting Your Child's Peace (00:07:52) For parents, setting boundaries also protects their children, whose intuition about people is often pure and should be trusted. Observation Over Explanation (00:10:41) Emphasizes choosing to observe someone's actions and body language over listening to their words, as actions reveal true intentions. Boundaries as Data Collection (00:11:25) A boundary is not a punishment but a tool for data collection; how someone reacts reveals their true feelings.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'They liked the VIP treatment, the over-functioning, the over-giving; they loved being the priority of your life while you were an option in theirs.' 'Going from over-functioning and pouring your everything into them to being nonchalant is actually protecting your peace and your sanity.' 'You must learn how to choose observation over explanation.' 'The boundary wasn't punishment, it was data collection.' 'How a person reacts to and respects your boundary is how they care about you.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Boundaries don't push the right people away—they reveal who truly respects your peace."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  5. Jun 25

    When Chemistry Distracts You from Character: How to See the Truth in Relationships

    In this episode of Unbecoming Me, Toi explores one of the biggest relationship traps: confusing chemistry with character. She explains how attraction, butterflies, and the excitement of a new relationship can distract us from seeing someone's true intentions and patterns. Through personal insight, Toi unpacks the dangers of breadcrumbing, inconsistency, and falling in love with someone's potential instead of their actions. She also discusses why overgiving without reciprocity leads to emotional exhaustion, how healthy relationships require leadership and accountability, and why observing a person's character is far more important than chasing temporary feelings. Toi closes the episode with a powerful reminder that we aren't always attached to the person—we're often attached to who we hope they'll become.   Timestamps Introduction & Episode Theme (00:00:46) Toi introduces the topic of how chemistry can distract us from recognizing someone's true character. Breadcrumbing and Emotional Inconsistency (00:01:40) She explains how avoidant behavior, mixed signals, and breadcrumbing create emotional confusion while keeping someone emotionally invested. Looking Behind the Mask (00:02:38) Using The Wizard of Oz as an analogy, Toi illustrates how excitement and attraction can hide a person's authentic character. Potential Isn't Reality (00:04:23) She discusses the danger of falling in love with someone's potential instead of evaluating their consistent actions. Giving Girlfriend Energy Without Leadership (00:05:30) Toi explains why overgiving without commitment, direction, or reciprocity ultimately leaves people emotionally depleted. Recognizing Bare Minimum Effort (00:06:42) She challenges listeners to stop accepting minimal investment while offering their highest level of love and commitment. When Attraction Stops Blinding You (00:07:58) Toi shares how recognizing that attraction alone isn't enough helps reveal unhealthy relationship dynamics. Final Mic Drop: Attached to Potential (00:09:46) The episode concludes with a powerful reflection on confusing attachment to someone's potential with genuine love.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode "If a person is not putting action behind that potential, then that's all it is, is potential." "You're just giving out your energy for free." "The moment you realize that the attraction isn't enough, that's when the distraction disappears." "I wasn't addicted to him. I was attached to who I thought he would become." "You have to realize that you weren't addicted to that person. You got attached to their potential."   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Don't fall in love with someone's potential—fall in love with their consistency."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  6. Jun 10

    The Art of Observing Love Instead of Auditioning for It

    In this episode of Unbecoming Me, host Toi shares her personal journey of recognizing and breaking free from the cycle of overgiving. She reflects on how constantly pouring love, energy, and financial support into others left her emotionally and physically depleted. Toi describes performing love without receiving it in return, tolerating disrespect, and losing herself in the process. Through honest self-reflection, she learned to set boundaries, trust what people show her, and stop auditioning for love. Her powerful takeaway: she stopped auditioning love and started observing it.   Timestamps Introduction to "Unbecoming Me" (00:00:04) The host, Toi, introduces the podcast's theme of healing, growth, and releasing old identities to become your true self. The Woman Who Overcame (00:00:46) Introducing the episode's theme about overcoming the habit of overgiving in relationships by showing up, loving, and giving more. The Illusion of "Enough" (00:01:33) Reflecting on the past belief that pouring endlessly into others would be enough, only to realize it was a bottomless cup. Realizing the Truth (00:02:54) The moment of clarity when you understand the other person will never see you and isn't right for you. The Dangers of Overextending (00:04:05) Overgiving financially, emotionally, and physically is draining and depleting, leaving your own cup empty while filling someone else's. Performing Love vs. Receiving It (00:05:18) The wake-up call of disrespect and realizing you were performing acts of love without ever receiving any love in return. Testing the Dependency Theory (00:06:39) Withdrawing contributions revealed the relationship was based on dependency, not partnership, leading to the decision to let go. Releasing the "Fixer" Identity (00:07:52) Comparing personal depletion to a car on empty with no one to call for help, leading to a breaking point. Setting New Standards (00:08:53) Establishing new personal rules: no longer being a "Bob the Builder," an ATM, or a therapist for everyone else. Believing People the First Time (00:09:57) Adopting a new mindset of observing people's actions, believing who they show you they are, and setting firm boundaries. The Biggest Takeaway: Stop Auditioning Love (00:11:18) The key lesson is to stop auditioning for love and start observing it to prevent overgiving and make better choices.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'I used to think that if I showed up more, loved more, and gave more, it would be enough.' 'Realizing that you're the one who overgave means no longer pouring from an empty cup.' 'I was performing love instead of receiving it.' 'I had to release that fixer identity because that wasn't hurting anybody but me.' 'I stopped auditioning for love and started observing it.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "The moment I stopped auditioning for love was the moment I started recognizing my worth."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  7. May 27

    The Unbecoming Process: How Motherhood Forced Me to Relearn Love, Selflessness, and Strength

    In this heartfelt episode, host Toi reflects on the profound transformation motherhood brought into her life. She shares how becoming a mother in 2017 forced her to release bad habits like people-pleasing and codependency while embracing selflessness and unconditional love. Toi also opens up about grieving her grandmother's passing and finding comfort in believing she sent her son to her. Now, as her son turns nine, Toi remains dedicated to breaking cycles of financial struggle and building a stronger foundation for his future.   Timestamps Unbecoming the Old Me After Motherhood (00:00:46) The host reflects on becoming a mom, giving everything to her son, and stopping bad habits like people-pleasing. Grief, Love, and a New Beginning (00:01:33) The host discusses losing her grandmother, the deep depression that followed, and how her son's birth felt like a gift. Letting Go of a Past Self (00:02:48) She talks about releasing the life she imagined for herself and embracing the new reality and bond with her son.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'Over the past five years, I've been through the fire, releasing who I thought I had to be so that I could finally become who I'm meant to be.' 'I had to stop some of my very bad habits, which were people-pleasing and releasing the codependency, because I had a little one that depended on me.' 'I had to let go of the person I thought I was going to be.' 'I had to grieve the old me. I had to put my son first. I had to wise up. I had to face my fears.' 'Motherhood has shaped me into being more compassionate, more understanding, more loving, more protective, more aware.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Motherhood didn't just change my life—it transformed the woman I thought I was meant to be."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  8. May 13

    The Most Powerful Step You Can Take: Saying "Enough" to Settling in Relationships and Friendships

    In Episode 4 of Unbecoming Me, host Toi delivers a heartfelt monologue about unbecoming the version of herself that settled for less than she deserved. She reflects on years of overgiving, weak boundaries, and tolerating disrespect in both friendships and relationships. Sharing personal experiences of being mistreated despite her generosity, Toi emphasizes the importance of recognizing self-worth and refusing to accept low effort or toxic behavior. She encourages listeners to stop settling, trust when people show their true selves, and embrace the relationships and blessings they truly deserve.    Timestamps Unbecoming the Version of Me That Settled (00:00:46) The host introduces the episode's topic: her personal journey of no longer settling and putting others' needs before her own. The Pain of People-Pleasing (00:01:24) The host reflects on overextending herself for others who didn't reciprocate, leading to being used and feeling unappreciated. Realizing Her Self-Worth (00:03:53) A look back at the past 15 years and the realization that she deserves better, including love, respect, and reciprocity. Settling in Friendships (00:05:05) The discussion shifts to settling in friendships, where someone might support you but won't let you into their world. The Danger of Throwing Things in People's Faces (00:06:13) The host explains why she won't share secrets with people who might use her vulnerabilities against her later on. Letting Go and Moving On (00:08:36) Accepting that it's okay to outgrow people and situations, and to stop settling for what no longer serves you. No Longer Settling for the Bare Minimum (00:09:43) A declaration of no longer accepting low effort, low energy, or anything less than what she deserves in life.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode "I allowed people to use me up to the point where I had literally nothing for myself left." "I spent years and years of overextending and people-pleasing, and I had put me last for so long." "I realized that I was settling. I realized that that wasn't what I was worth." "I am no longer a settler. I won't settle for the bare minimum." "Don't settle because you don't have to."   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "The moment you decide you deserve better is the moment you stop settling for less."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

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Unbecoming Me is a personal journey of shedding who we were told to be and growing into who we truly are. Hosted by Toi Waddles, this podcast explores healing after heartbreak, navigating lonely seasons, rebuilding self-worth, and learning to care for yourself in real and meaningful ways. Through honest stories and heartfelt reflection, Toi invites you to release old identities, face your truth, and step into your becoming — one layer at a time. If you're in a season of change, transformation, or rediscovery, you're not alone. This is where your unbecoming begins.

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  • Creator
    Toi Waddles
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    22
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2025
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    Unbecoming Me with Toi