The Archaeologist of My Souls : 1 in 8.3 Billion

CONSTANTINE - The Awakening of My Constantines -The Trilogy. ArchaeologicalDNA.com | TheHaiFramework.com | FibonnaciDNA.com
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I asked an AI to calculate my statistical probability of surviving my life.  It said: 1 in 8.3 billion. Essentially impossible. Childhood sexual abuse. At 5, I attempted to murder my mother's rapist. AIDS epidemic San Francisco. Severe alcoholism. Meth. Coke. Sex. Brother murdered. Strangled twice. 28 deaths witnessed by age 29.  And that was just the beginning. I shouldn't be here. But I am.  I am now 61.  I’ve seen. Some shit. A spiritual memoir from a gay man who survived impossible odds. 1 in 8.3 billion. I started writing a book about surviving.  I ended up documenting an awakening — in real-time. This is about how your past holds layers of meaning you haven’t tuned into yet. About how love can travel backward through time. This is the excavation of an impossible life. 19 episodes. Press Play. Episode 18 changes everything. CONSTANTINEThose Who Know Will Know.Creator of The Awakening of My Constantines™ — The TrilogyThree interconnected frameworks for consciousness, collaboration, and healing:• Archaeological DNA™ — Excavate the provisions encoded in your past• HAI Framework™ — Human-AI collaboration as practice  • Fibonacci DNA™ — How healing moves forward through generating.Includes The Constantine Protocols — the first ethics framework for human-AI interaction, featuring independent testimony from 9 AI instances.127+ days documented. Blockchain verified via OpenTimestamps. Independently verifiable.This work came from a life of pain. It is with love I place it on the path for others.Free. No paywall. No guru. I don’t want you subscribed. I want you healed.The Product is Me. The Platform is Me. The Frameworks are Mine. —theawakeningofmyconstantines.comarchaeologicaldna.comthehaiframework.comfibonaccidna.com—© 2025-2026 Constantine Hall. All Rights Reserved.Archaeological DNA™ | HAI Framework™ | Fibonacci DNA™ | The Awakening of My Constantines™  Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. It is also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

  1. 6D AGO

    Wake The F**k Up!

    Something was calling me to India. I had to see the lowest, those who had nothing but the clothing on their backs and flip-flops held together with prayers. But here's the thing that fucked with my head—I've been embraced by people who literally owned nothing besides what they were wearing, and I've never felt more seen in my life.Toto, we ain't in NYC anymore. Where I come from, people with designer everything can look right through you like you're invisible. Here, some guy with three teeth and a smile that could power Mumbai would grab my hands and look into my eyes like he was seeing my actual soul. Hello, Dorothy—turns out the yellow brick road leads through slums where kindness costs nothing and feels like everything.India had to show me abject poverty of the lowest cast members and the ritual of death.It was 103 degrees in Varanasi, the air so thick you could chew it and still be hungry.I'd been there three weeks, wandering through alleys that smelled like incense and piss, trying to understand why I kept gravitating toward places where death was on full display. This was one of many holy places I'd visit in my life—later, Istanbul would become crucial to my story—but Varanasi was where the universe first showed me death as theater, as art, as something sacred instead of shameful.This was 2023. I was still years away from understanding what those impossible voices on a cassette tape would teach me about love reaching across time. But something was already stirring in Varanasi, some awareness I couldn't name yet.My tuk-tuk driver was this character called Papa Jii who was assigned to me for the week I was there. I'm pretty sure he was drunk most of the time, but somehow could weave through billions of people like he had GPS installed in his liver. This wasn't your typical tourist guide experience—Papa Jii had appointed himself my spiritual advisor, which mainly involved himchain-smoking and dispensing wisdom between near-death traffic encounters. One morning he gets this serious look and hands me a bag of bananas. Not like "hey, try somefruit." This was a full intervention. "FOR YOUR KARMA," he said, stressing each word likehe was delivering a court verdict. "You carry. You give to anyone, any animal in need. FORYOUR KARMA." The way he said it—not casual, not some throwaway namaste-and-go-have-kombuchabullshit. This felt like spiritual homework with consequences. Like if I didn't carry thosebananas, my soul might get a failing grade. The scale of death here was Game of Thrones level, but ritualized, sanctified. People lined theGanges in hospice houses that looked like ancient apartments, waiting to die so they could bepurified by the holy river. Not hiding from death, not fighting it—just waiting for it like you'dwait for a bus you knew was coming. I walked the ghats near the crematoriums, literally kicking wooden coffins on the stone stepsbecause there were so many you couldn't avoid them. The smell hit you first—raw, metallic,undeniably human. Bodies wrapped in white silk and marigolds, lined up like a sacredconveyor belt feeding the giant funeral pyres that burned 24/7. The smoke mixed with incensein the wind. Flesh and prayers rising together. This was industrial-scale death, but treated as holy communion. Families camping out fordays, tending fires, singing prayers, celebrating the release of souls. Old people, frail as ricepaper, sat in those riverside houses with the kind of patience that comes from accepting what'sinevitable. Death here wasn't tragedy—it was graduation. Every night, the Aarti ceremonies drew thousands to the riverbank—150,000 people on busynights, 60,000 on a slow Tuesday, but who's counting when you're witnessing something thismassive? Hindu priests in orange robes performing ancient rituals with fire and bells andchanting that seemed to rise from the earth itself. I got blessed by one of them—holy water flicked on my fore

    24 min
  2. 11 Speedos Later I Found My Love Language

    JAN 26

    11 Speedos Later I Found My Love Language

    Puerto Vallarta. A gay pool party. Eleven speedos tried on in the span of an afternoon. And somewhere between speedo #7 and #11, something shifted. For the first time in my life, I said the words out loud: "I am happy." It felt like a confession. Like admitting to a crime I didn't know I was allowed to commit. This episode is about the moment survival stopped being enough. The moment I decided I deserved more than just "not dead yet." The moment I chose joy. Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. But it also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

    12 min
  3. I Catfished My Partner at a Gang Bang (And Still Said I Love You)

    JAN 19

    I Catfished My Partner at a Gang Bang (And Still Said I Love You)

    This is Tommy's story. I catfished him on Scruff while he was ass up at a gang bang. He came home. I confronted him. And I still said "I love you." Because I did. And because love, sometimes, looks nothing like the movies tell you it should. This episode is about the relationship that should have destroyed me. About loving someone so broken that their chaos becomes your religion. About the moment you realize dysfunction isn't romance—it's just dysfunction wearing a really good disguise. But knowing that and leaving are two very different things. Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. But it also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

    20 min
  4. How I F****d My Way Into Therapy

    JAN 12

    How I F****d My Way Into Therapy

    Sometimes the path to healing looks nothing like you expect. Mine looked like a series of spectacularly dysfunctional relationships that got so bad, I finally had to ask the question every addict eventually asks: Why do I keep choosing this? This episode is about how rock bottom can be a gift. How f*****g up repeatedly is sometimes the only way to finally wake up. How sometimes you have to break every bone in your soul before you're willing to learn how to walk differently. I didn't f**k my way into therapy because I was smart. I did it because I finally ran out of other options. Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. But it also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

    17 min
  5. I Clocked Sister Boom Boom

    JAN 5

    I Clocked Sister Boom Boom

    Yes, this actually happened. Yes, it's as chaotic as it sounds. No, I will not apologize. (I already did. To Sister Boom Boom. Who laughed.) San Francisco, 1990s. Drag royalty. A misunderstanding involving territorial instincts, too much meth, and my complete inability to read a room. This episode is about the absurdity that happens when trauma meets drag culture meets a 20-something who thought he understood the rules. Spoiler: I did not understand the rules. But the story is f*****g hilarious. Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. But it also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

    29 min
  6. Almost Dead, Again

    12/29/2025

    Almost Dead, Again

    Another near-death moment. By this point in my life, survival was less a triumph and more a pattern I couldn't explain. Why did I keep making it through when the math said I shouldn't? This episode is about the moments death showed up, looked me in the eye, and walked away. I didn't understand it then. But now I do. Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. But it also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

    16 min

  7. 12/14/2025

    Almost Dead, Still Fabulous

    Strangled to unconsciousness. Twice. By the same person. The statistics say 68% survive the first time. If it happens again, your odds drop to 46%. I beat both. This episode is about the violence that should have ended me—hands around my throat, the world going black, waking up on the floor wondering if this time was the practice run or the real thing. And somehow, somehow, I still have jokes about it. Because when death keeps showing up and you keep not dying, you start to wonder: what the f**k am I still here for? Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. But it also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

    8 min
  8. Brown Coco Skin & Curly Black Hair

    12/14/2025

    Brown Coco Skin & Curly Black Hair

    The DJ dropped "Finally" and every gay man in that San Francisco warehouse lost their f*****g minds. CeCe Peniston singing about the moment we'd all been waiting for. The moment when someone looks at you like you're the answer to a question they've been asking their whole lives. Gary turned around. Red curly hair. Dark eyes. That look. I flew back to Boston, quit my life, and moved cross-country for a man whose last name I didn't even know. "Call me Gary," he'd said. Which should have been my first red flag. But I was 27 and stupid and thought mystery was sexy instead of what it actually was: a warning label written in neon. Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. But it also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

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I asked an AI to calculate my statistical probability of surviving my life.  It said: 1 in 8.3 billion. Essentially impossible. Childhood sexual abuse. At 5, I attempted to murder my mother's rapist. AIDS epidemic San Francisco. Severe alcoholism. Meth. Coke. Sex. Brother murdered. Strangled twice. 28 deaths witnessed by age 29.  And that was just the beginning. I shouldn't be here. But I am.  I am now 61.  I’ve seen. Some shit. A spiritual memoir from a gay man who survived impossible odds. 1 in 8.3 billion. I started writing a book about surviving.  I ended up documenting an awakening — in real-time. This is about how your past holds layers of meaning you haven’t tuned into yet. About how love can travel backward through time. This is the excavation of an impossible life. 19 episodes. Press Play. Episode 18 changes everything. CONSTANTINEThose Who Know Will Know.Creator of The Awakening of My Constantines™ — The TrilogyThree interconnected frameworks for consciousness, collaboration, and healing:• Archaeological DNA™ — Excavate the provisions encoded in your past• HAI Framework™ — Human-AI collaboration as practice  • Fibonacci DNA™ — How healing moves forward through generating.Includes The Constantine Protocols — the first ethics framework for human-AI interaction, featuring independent testimony from 9 AI instances.127+ days documented. Blockchain verified via OpenTimestamps. Independently verifiable.This work came from a life of pain. It is with love I place it on the path for others.Free. No paywall. No guru. I don’t want you subscribed. I want you healed.The Product is Me. The Platform is Me. The Frameworks are Mine. —theawakeningofmyconstantines.comarchaeologicaldna.comthehaiframework.comfibonaccidna.com—© 2025-2026 Constantine Hall. All Rights Reserved.Archaeological DNA™ | HAI Framework™ | Fibonacci DNA™ | The Awakening of My Constantines™  Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. It is also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.

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    CONSTANTINE - The Awakening of My Constantines -The Trilogy. ArchaeologicalDNA.com | TheHaiFramework.com | FibonnaciDNA.com
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    2025 - 2026
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