Healer & Hope Giver: A Christian Podcast on Healing, Faith & Identity

Kim

Healer & Hope Giver: A Christian Podcast on Healing, Faith & Identity There are seasons when life looks steady on the outside but feels heavy on the inside. This Christian podcast is a space for honest conversations about healing, faith, grief, identity, spiritual growth, and the quiet work God does in the middle of real life. Hosted by author and speaker Kim Hawkins, Healer & Hope Giver: Practicing Out Loud explores what it means to live from who God says you are — not from pressure, performance, or old narratives that no longer fit. Each week you’ll find: • Long-form episodes on healing and growth in everyday life • Devotional episodes rooted in Scripture with real-life application • Gentle encouragement for anyone navigating grief, change, leadership, identity shifts, or spiritual formation If you’ve ever felt: – like you’re the steady one everyone leans on – like healing is happening but still unfolding – like faith is real but complicated – or like you’re carrying more than you can explain You are not alone. This is a faith-based podcast for those who want depth, not noise. For those who love God but are still becoming. For those learning to loosen their grip and live with open hands. New episodes release every Monday (long-form) and Thursday (devotional). Follow the show on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Amazon Music, or your favorite app so new episodes download automatically. You don’t have to rush your healing. You just have to stay.

  1. 4h ago

    The Story I Never Could Have Written

    For eight years, I prayed for one thing. A baby. When the prayers seemed unanswered, I finally reached the place where I told God, "If motherhood isn't Your plan for me... please take this desire away." What happened next wasn't anything I could have imagined. A nursery painted before there was a baby.  An adoption journey.  A heartbreaking failed placement.  A scheduled hospital visit to meet our son.  A positive pregnancy test at 2:00 in the morning.  Two boys born just six months apart. Looking back, I can see that while I thought God was silent, He was quietly weaving together a story far more beautiful than the one I had been trying to write myself. If you're waiting...  If your prayers haven't been answered the way you hoped...  Or if you're wondering whether God is still working behind the scenes... This conversation is for you. Continue the journey and find this week's Companion Guide at: https://healerhopegiver.com Extended Show Notes Episode Summary Have you ever looked back over your life and realized that God was quietly writing a story far more beautiful than the one you had imagined? In this deeply personal episode, I share the journey that changed the way I understand unanswered prayer forever. After eight years of infertility, I finally surrendered my dream of motherhood to God. I stopped asking Him to simply give me a baby and instead prayed that His will would be done—even if it looked completely different than my own. What followed was a story I never could have written. From decorating a nursery before there was a baby...  to walking through the heartbreak of a failed adoption placement...  to meeting our son for the first time...  to discovering I was already twelve weeks pregnant the very night we brought him home... this episode is a reminder that God's plans are often unfolding long before we can recognize them. If you're waiting...  wondering...  or trying to trust God with a chapter that doesn't yet make sense... I hope this conversation reminds you that He is still writing your story. In This Episode • The eight-year infertility journey that changed my faith • Why I stopped praying for a baby—and started praying for God's will • How a New Testament reading challenge became the foundation of my trust in God • Decorating a nursery before we knew if we'd ever bring a baby home • The adoption journey that taught us to love with open hands • A heartbreaking failed placement that became part of our story • The unexpected phone call that changed everything • Meeting James just twenty minutes after he was born • Discovering I was already twelve weeks pregnant the night we brought him home • Why God often writes stories far beyond our imagination Key Takeaways • Surrender doesn't happen in one prayer—it becomes a daily practice. • God's silence is not the same as God's absence. • Sometimes the greatest work God is doing is preparing our hearts before He changes our circumstances. • Every chapter matters—even the ones we wish had ended differently. • Looking backward often reveals God's faithfulness in ways we couldn't see while we were living the story. Scripture James 1:17 "Every good and perfect gift comes from above..." Proverbs 3:5–6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding..." Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him..." Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you..." Continue the Journey This week's Episode Companion Guide expands on today's conversation with: • Additional behind-the-scenes stories that didn't make the episode • Guided reflection questions • Scripture meditation • Journaling prompts • Space to recognize God's fingerprints in your own story Download this week's Companion Guide and explore additional resources at: https://healerhopegiver.com Stay Connected 🌿 Website https://healerhopegiver.com 🎙 Follow Healer & Hope Giver on your favorite podcast app so you never miss a conversation. ▶️ Subscribe on YouTube for weekly episodes, Coffee Table Conversations, and Shorts that encourage you throughout the week. If today's episode encouraged you, would you consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who may need hope today? Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

    The Story I Never Could Have Written
  2. 4d ago

    Devotional 34: When God's Answer Looks Different

    What do you do when God answers your prayer—but not the way you hoped? Sometimes the hardest part of faith isn't believing God can answer. It's trusting Him when His answer looks nothing like the one you were praying for. In this devotional, we explore Proverbs 3:5–6 and discover that God doesn't always give us the explanations we long for—but He has never stopped giving us reasons to trust His heart. If you've ever wrestled with unanswered prayers, long seasons of waiting, or questions that seem to have no answer, this conversation is for you. Extended Show Notes Scripture Proverbs 3:5–6 Romans 8:28 Isaiah 55:8–9 Psalm 27:13–14 Psalm 46:10 Hebrews 11 James 1:2–4 In This Devotional Sometimes the hardest part of faith isn't believing God can answer. It's trusting Him when His answer looks different than the one we hoped for. Together we'll explore: • Why we naturally long for explanations • What Proverbs 3 really means when it tells us to trust instead of lean on our own understanding • Why God often gives promises instead of spoilers • What Scripture teaches us about trusting before we understand • How God's character becomes our anchor when life doesn't make sense • One simple prayer to carry into every uncertain day If you've been carrying unanswered questions, this devotional is an invitation to stop trying to understand everything—and begin resting in the unchanging heart of God. Continue the Journey Continue the conversation with the free Episode 34 Reflection, designed to help you pray through unanswered questions, remember God's faithfulness, and process what He may be teaching you in this season. You'll also find previous episodes, devotionals, companion guides, reflective workbooks, and additional resources at: https://healerhopegiver.com Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

    Devotional 34: When God's Answer Looks Different
  3. Jul 27 ·  Bonus

    Integration: Living From Who You're Becoming

    What if one of the clearest signs of healing isn't that your circumstances have changed—but that your decisions have? Over the past several weeks, we've explored health, grief, relationships, identity, and the quiet work God does beneath the surface. Looking back, these weren't separate conversations. Together, they reveal something deeper. Healing doesn't simply change what you've been through. It changes the place you're living from. In this integration episode, Kim reflects on the quiet transformation that often goes unnoticed until one day you realize you're responding differently than you used to. Not perfectly. Not all at once. But faithfully. Because healing isn't just about understanding your story. It's about slowly learning to live from who you're becoming instead of reacting to what happened to you. Expanded Show Notes Throughout this arc, we've explored conversations about: • The Sponge Principle and what comes out under pressure • Health as an act of stewardship instead of shame • The people who walk with us through different seasons • Living beyond a diagnosis • Finding beauty after grief • Questioning the stories that shaped how we see ourselves • Noticing the quiet work of becoming Taken together, these conversations point toward a deeper realization: Healing isn't only changing what happens around you. It's changing what your life grows from. In this episode, we'll explore: • Why healing often shows up quietly before it feels dramatic • The difference between reacting from survival and responding from formation • How small, everyday choices shape who we're becoming • Why transformation is usually recognized in hindsight • The quiet strength God builds over time • Living from who you're becoming instead of what happened to you This episode is an invitation to pause, look back with gratitude, and recognize the quiet work God has already been doing within you. Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

  4. Jul 27

    When God Doesn't Answer the Prayer You Keep Praying

    What do you do when you've prayed the same prayer for years... and nothing seems to change? In this deeply personal episode, I share some of the most difficult seasons of my life—from years of infertility to losing two men I dearly loved—and what those experiences taught me about trusting God's character when His answers looked very different than I expected. This isn't a conversation about having all the answers. It's a conversation about learning to trust the One who does. If you've ever wondered whether God hears your prayers, if you've wrestled with delayed dreams, or if you're carrying grief that still feels heavy, I hope this episode reminds you that you're not walking through it alone. Continue the conversation and explore free resources at: https://healerhopegiver.com Extended Show Notes We all have prayers that seem to linger. Some are whispered for months. Others for decades. In Episode 34, I share the deeply personal journey of praying for a child through years of infertility, learning to surrender my plans to God's will, walking through the loss of my father-in-law during COVID restrictions, saying goodbye to my dad while holding his hand, and discovering that God's faithfulness often becomes clearest when we look backward instead of forward. Together we'll explore: • trusting God during seasons of waiting • surrender without giving up hope • why God's character matters more than immediate answers • finding peace when life unfolds differently than expected • recognizing God's quiet mercies • continuing to pray with honesty Whether you're waiting for healing, reconciliation, direction, provision, or simply enough strength for tomorrow, this episode is an invitation to keep bringing your whole heart to God. Visit https://healerhopegiver.com for additional resources and to continue the conversation. Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

    When God Doesn't Answer the Prayer You Keep Praying
  5. Jul 23 ·  Bonus

    Devotional 33: The Quiet Work of Becoming

    Why does real growth often feel so slow? Many of us become discouraged because we can't see dramatic change in our lives. But what if God is doing His deepest work beneath the surface—like the roots of an oak tree growing long before anyone notices the branches? In this devotional, we'll explore Philippians 1:6 and discover that God is far more committed to your formation than your performance. Because the deepest work He does is often the work you cannot yet see. 🎧 EXTENDED SHOW NOTES 📖 Scripture Philippians 1:6 Romans 12:2 2 Corinthians 3:18 Galatians 6:9 James 1:2–4 🌿 In This Devotional This week, we're exploring a simple but powerful truth: God's deepest work is often happening long before we recognize it. Together we'll explore: • Why spiritual growth often feels slower than we expect • What an oak tree can teach us about becoming • Why God cares more about roots than appearances • How ordinary faithfulness quietly shapes extraordinary lives • Why looking back often reveals growth we couldn't see while living it • How to recognize God's quiet work in your own life 🌿 Continue the Journey If today's conversation encouraged you, I invite you to listen to Episode 33: When Healing Changes Who You're Becoming. You'll also find previous podcast episodes, devotionals, companion guides, reflective workbooks, and additional resources on the Healer & Hope Giver website. Healing isn't only about changing your circumstances. It's also about becoming the person God is quietly shaping you to be.  Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

    Devotional 33: The Quiet Work of Becoming
  6. Jul 20

    When Healing Changes Who You're Becoming

    Have you ever looked back at an earlier version of yourself and wondered how you became the person you are today? Not because life suddenly became easy. But because somewhere along the way... you began responding differently. You became slower to judge. Quicker to extend grace. More comfortable taking up space. Less driven by fear. In this deeply personal episode, I reflect on the woman I was ten years ago—homeschooling two young boys while recovering from brain surgeries, navigating autism before we even had the diagnosis, and simply trying to make it through each day. Looking back, I realize God wasn't just helping me survive. He was quietly shaping who I was becoming. Together we'll explore: The difference between survival strength and healing strength. Why healing changes more than our circumstances. Learning to release control without losing responsibility. Seeing people through compassion instead of assumptions. Why grace has become a better teacher than shame. The freedom that comes from realizing you'll never "arrive"—and why that's actually good news. Healing doesn't erase your story. It transforms the person your story is creating. Extended Show Notes Most of us imagine healing as getting back to who we used to be. But what if that's never been God's goal? What if healing isn't about returning to an earlier version of ourselves—but allowing God to shape us into someone we couldn't have become any other way? In this conversation, Kim reflects on the ordinary moments that quietly changed her life: homeschooling two young boys after recovering from Moyamoya brain surgeries, navigating years of uncertainty before an autism diagnosis, learning to release control in marriage, discovering the power of compassion through personal pain, and finding the courage to use her voice even when fear never completely disappeared. Rather than presenting healing as a finish line, this episode explores it as an ongoing journey of becoming. You'll discover why survival isn't something to be ashamed of, how God uses even our hardest seasons to build empathy and wisdom, and why the person you're becoming matters far more than the person you think you're supposed to be. Whether you're rebuilding after loss, navigating a difficult season, or simply wondering if you're growing at all, this episode is a gentle reminder that God is often doing His deepest work long before we recognize it. Healing doesn't create a different person. It reveals the person God has been patiently forming all along.  Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

    When Healing Changes Who You're Becoming
  7. Jul 16 ·  Bonus

    Devotional 32: When Today Is the Gift

    What if the life you've been waiting to enjoy is already happening today? So often we spend our days replaying yesterday or worrying about tomorrow that we miss the gift God has already placed in our hands. In this devotional, we'll explore Psalm 90:12 and discover that God isn't asking us to control how many years we receive—He's inviting us to faithfully steward today. Because today isn't a rehearsal for life. Today is the life God has entrusted to you. 🎧 BUZZSPROUT EXTENDED SHOW NOTES 📖 Scripture Psalm 90:12 James 4:13–15 Colossians 3:23–24 1 Corinthians 6:19–20 Ephesians 5:15–16 🌿 In This Devotional Earlier this week, we explored how caring for our health is one of the ways we love the people around us. Today we narrow that conversation to one simple invitation: Receive today as the gift God has already given you. Together we'll explore: • Why we often miss today while worrying about tomorrow • Moses' prayer to "number our days" • The difference between fear-based living and grateful stewardship • Why ordinary faithfulness matters to God • One simple question to ask before today ends • How gratitude changes the way we care for the life we've been given 🌿 Continue the Journey If today's conversation encouraged you, I invite you to listen to Episode 32: Health as a Gift to the People You Love. You'll also find previous podcast episodes, devotionals, reflective workbooks, companion guides, and additional resources on the Healer & Hope Giver website. Healing isn't built all at once. It's built one conversation, one faithful choice, and one ordinary day at a time. Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

    Devotional 32: When Today Is the Gift
  8. Jul 13

    Health as a Gift to the People You Love

    Why do you really want to be healthier? For years, my answers sounded like everyone else's. Lose weight.  Lower my blood sugar.  Have more energy.  Feel better. Those are good goals. But somewhere along the way, my motivation quietly changed. I realized the healthiest version of me isn't something I get to keep for myself. My husband experiences her. My children experience her. My church family experiences her. Every conversation I have is shaped by the way I steward the body God has entrusted to me. In this episode, we explore a different way of thinking about health—not as a pursuit of perfection or a guarantee against suffering, but as an opportunity to remain present for the people we love. We'll talk about: Why health is really about participation, not perfection. Watching illness slowly shrink someone's world. Why taking care of yourself isn't selfish. Learning to return after setbacks instead of starting over. How gratitude can become a healthier motivation than fear. None of us knows how many years we've been given. But each of us has an opportunity to steward today. And maybe that's where real health begins. Extended Show Notes For much of my life, I thought health had one destination. Lose the weight. Reach the goal. Then finally begin living. Over time, I've discovered something much different. Life was never waiting on the other side of perfect health. Life has been happening all along. In this conversation, I share how living with Moyamoya disease, diabetes, watching my dad's world slowly become smaller through pulmonary fibrosis, and years of learning through my own health journey completely reshaped how I think about stewardship. This isn't a conversation about chasing the perfect body. It's about protecting the ability to participate in the moments that matter most. The older I get, the more convinced I become that the people we love aren't asking us to become perfect. They're simply hoping for more ordinary Tuesdays. More holidays. More vacations. More laughter. More conversations around the table. More opportunities to simply be together. We'll also explore why health isn't a guarantee against suffering, why faithful stewardship looks different from fear, and why returning after setbacks may be one of the healthiest habits we ever develop. Whether you're managing a chronic illness, rebuilding after a difficult season, or simply trying to care well for the life God has given you, I hope this conversation reminds you that your health isn't simply about you. It's one of the many ways you continue showing up for the people you love. Send us Fan Mail Support the show First Conversation: The First Conversation Want to stay connected throughout the week?  Come hang out with me on social media for daily encouragement, real-life stories, and the behind-the-scenes pieces of this healing journey. If you feel led to support the show, you can do so through the link in the show notes — and please know, your generosity means the world. You’re a gift.

    Health as a Gift to the People You Love

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Healer & Hope Giver: A Christian Podcast on Healing, Faith & Identity There are seasons when life looks steady on the outside but feels heavy on the inside. This Christian podcast is a space for honest conversations about healing, faith, grief, identity, spiritual growth, and the quiet work God does in the middle of real life. Hosted by author and speaker Kim Hawkins, Healer & Hope Giver: Practicing Out Loud explores what it means to live from who God says you are — not from pressure, performance, or old narratives that no longer fit. Each week you’ll find: • Long-form episodes on healing and growth in everyday life • Devotional episodes rooted in Scripture with real-life application • Gentle encouragement for anyone navigating grief, change, leadership, identity shifts, or spiritual formation If you’ve ever felt: – like you’re the steady one everyone leans on – like healing is happening but still unfolding – like faith is real but complicated – or like you’re carrying more than you can explain You are not alone. This is a faith-based podcast for those who want depth, not noise. For those who love God but are still becoming. For those learning to loosen their grip and live with open hands. New episodes release every Monday (long-form) and Thursday (devotional). Follow the show on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Amazon Music, or your favorite app so new episodes download automatically. You don’t have to rush your healing. You just have to stay.