Loners & Rebels

Heidi Robinson Swimmer
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Loners & Rebels is a storytelling podcast about family, inheritance and the things we don’t talk about. Host Heidi Robinson Swimmer digs through genealogy, generational trauma and the chaos of what we pass down with dark humor, honesty,and lived experience. Main title music by Jeff Hime.

  1. May 24

    And Somehow, We’re Still Here

    After a season full of ship captains, pirates, rebels, grief, memory and women who refused to behave, we have somehow made it to the end. In this finale, I look back at the stories that shaped the season, what they left behind and the strange little threads that kept connecting them. It’s a reflection on family history, emotional rabbit holes and the weird fact that researching the dead has a way of making you think harder about how you’re living.

  2. May 24

    A Caged Lioness

    Some women are remembered as brave only after enough time has passed to make them less inconvenient. In this episode, I follow my connection to Elizabeth Cady Stanton and the way her story still echoes in conversations about power, religion, work and what happens when women refuse to make themselves smaller. It’s part family history, part feminist side eye and part personal reckoning with the very familiar crime of being “too much” in rooms that prefer compliance.

  3. May 24

    Like a Clock, I Guess

    Clara Elizabeth Bryant’s story is soft on the surface, but heavy underneath. In this episode, I follow her through marriage, motherhood, devastating loss and the resilience of a woman who kept moving through life even when life kept asking too much of her. It’s a story about emotional labor, survival and what it means to carry everything while still somehow being seen only in fragments.

  4. May 24

    Three Men and a Mutiny

    A desperate ship, a notorious pirate and one very bad moment with a jammed gun. In this episode, I follow the tangled story of Captain Mark Haskell, John Fillmore Jr. and John Phillips through survival, mutiny and the kind of impossible decisions that history tends to flatten into a few clean sentences. This one has pirates, violence, bad odds and the unsettling question of what people are capable of when there is no easy way out.

  5. May 24

    The Story Billye Mae Told Me

    Some family stories do not come from documents. They come from the people who carry them. In this episode, I follow the story Billye Mae shared with me and the way one person’s memory can open a door that records alone never could. This is where the season starts to shift beyond names, dates and ancestry, into trust, connection and the stories we are allowed to inherit because someone chose to tell them.

  6. May 24

    No Property, No Possessions

    What is left behind when a life ends with no property, no possessions and almost no paper trail? In this episode, I follow the story of John Henry Robinson, a ship captain whose life stretched across oceans, records and family history before ending at Sailors’ Snug Harbor. It’s a story about endurance, instability and the strange ache of trying to piece together a person from the fragments they left behind. Special thanks to Taliesin Gamache at the Stephen B. Luce Library Archives at SUNY Maritime College for helping me better understand John Henry Robinson’s time at Sailors’ Snug Harbor.

  7. May 24

    A Quick Catch Up Before We Get Weird

    Before we dive into the family ghosts, ship captains, rebels and deeply questionable historical decisions, we need a quick catch up. This episode sets the tone for the season, where the research has been leading, and why these stories keep pulling me back in. Think of it as the warm up before the weird: personal updates, loose threads and a little look at the strange road ahead.

  8. 12/03/2025

    Where the Paper Trail Turns Personal

    In this episode, the research stops being just records and timelines and starts hitting home. I talk through how the process becomes emotional excavation — how a name on a census turns into a person, how facts turn into feelings and how the paper trail eventually points back at you. It’s the moment the work stops being academic and becomes human.

    Where the Paper Trail Turns Personal
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Loners & Rebels is a storytelling podcast about family, inheritance and the things we don’t talk about. Host Heidi Robinson Swimmer digs through genealogy, generational trauma and the chaos of what we pass down with dark humor, honesty,and lived experience. Main title music by Jeff Hime.

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  • Creator
    Heidi Robinson Swimmer
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    14
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Heidi Robinson Swimmer
  • Show Website
    Loners & Rebels