PURE KAOS Podcast

PURE KAOS

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Welcome to "Pure Kaos," a raw and unfiltered journey into the life and struggles of living with alcoholism. Each episode dives into the real stories, the highs and the heartbreaks, and the kaos that comes with addiction. We explore the complexities of life and death through the lens of those who've faced alcoholism head-on, offering a space of honesty, understanding, and sometimes a little bit of hope amid the KAOS.

2d ago

The Lies We Tell

We talk about the lies addiction teaches us to tell, especially the ones we tell ourselves. We name how denial keeps the habit alive and why honesty is the first real step toward freedom. • calling out the familiar lines like “I’m just stressed” and “I’ve got it under control” • explaining how addiction survives on denial more than alcohol • describing how we become defenders and negotiators for the addiction • spotting automatic excuses like “I don’t drink that much” and “I’m functioning” • recognizing the shift from hiding from others to hiding for the bottle • naming the exhaustion of carrying secrets and performing wellness • landing on “I’ve been lying” as the sentence that opens the door to recovery • choosing honesty over perfection as the start of freedom We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

5 min
Jun 5

When Addiction Affects Your Job

I tell a raw story about how drinking derails my first gig with a mobile DJ company and costs me the job before it even starts. I break down the excuses, the anxiety, and the shame that show up when alcohol runs the schedule, then I ask you to share your own work fallout. • Alcohol and addiction affecting jobs, relationships, and daily life • Leaving club DJ to escape the party environment • A first mobile DJ gig at a university pub event • One drink turning into a night of heavy drinking • Waking up hungover and using the flu excuse • Boss trying to help by setting up equipment • Hair of the dog leading back to drunkenness • Ignoring calls and the boss showing up at the door • Losing the job and naming it as a consequence of addiction Leave a comment. We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

7 min
May 29

The Functional Alcoholic

We talk about the hidden danger of functional alcoholism and why “nothing has fallen apart yet” can keep addiction alive. We share what it feels like to survive on nightly drinking, secret shame, and constant bargaining, and why recovery is really about becoming present again. • defining functional alcoholism as the danger zone • comparing yourself to people doing worse as classic addict logic • drinking nightly to feel baseline instead of happy • addiction lowering standards and moving the goalposts • bargaining with “one more” and endless restart dates • hiding symptoms with mints, coffee, fake energy, and excuses • alcohol stealing peace even when life looks successful • recovery bringing back real feelings, clarity, and hope Stay tuned next week for more real talk, real truth, recovery with no filter. We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

5 min
May 22

The Lies Alcohol Tells

Alcohol doesn’t usually destroy us all at once, it talks to us first, quietly and convincingly, in a voice that sounds like our own thoughts. We name the lies, trace the hidden costs, and remind you that the pain of sobriety can be your mind waking back up and moving toward freedom. • alcohol’s “reasonable” lies that keep us drinking • using drinking to numb stress, anxiety, and pain • how the solution becomes the problem over time • the slow costs: mornings, motivation, relationships, identity • defending the bottle through excuses and blame • why telling the truth feels terrifying • recovery as a mental and emotional fight • healing pain as a sign of waking up Stay real, stay dangerous, and keep fighting. We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

4 min
May 15

Who Are We Without The Drink

We ask the question most people avoid when they’re trying to quit drinking: who are you without alcohol. We talk about how drinking turns into an identity, what gets taken from you over time, and why meeting your real self is the hard part that leads to freedom. • alcohol shifting from a habit into an identity • using drinking as confidence, escape, and an anxiety mute button • the “funny drunk” and “party guy” persona and what happens when you’re alone • alcohol slowly taking sleep, patience, and relationships • the silence after quitting and the fear of feeling everything raw • alcohol as armor that gets too heavy to wear • recovery as rebuilding the real version of yourself, one honest day at a time Stay real, stay dangerous, and keep fighting. We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

4 min
May 8

The "Tomorrow Loop"

We talk about the “I’ll start tomorrow” loop and why it keeps drinking habits alive while making us feel like we’re still in control. We shift the focus from big future promises to a single decision we can make right now, so we can rebuild trust in ourselves. • the deal we keep making with ourselves to delay change • why postponing the “no” keeps the pattern going • how tomorrow turns into a safety net that removes urgency • the quiet loss of confidence that comes from broken promises • replacing plans and negotiations with a simple yes or no today • why discomfort can be proof that the choice is real I hope you all have an amazing weekend and be good to yourself and continue fighting that struggle. Have a good Friday, everyone. We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

3 min
May 1

I Blacked Out At Fifteen And Woke Up In A Hospital

We ask a blunt question about drinking and memory: how many times have you blacked out, and what does that say about your relationship with alcohol. I share a personal story of blacking out as a teenager that ends with alcohol poisoning and a hospital visit. • asking how common blackouts are and why they matter • admitting blackouts happen repeatedly for us alcoholics • first blackout at 14 and how it sets a pattern • using alcohol as liquid courage after a breakup • the gap between how drunk talk feels and how it sounds • collapsing in the cold at a bush party and losing time • waking up in the hospital and getting my stomach pumped • linking blackouts with alcohol poisoning and risk We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

5 min
Apr 24

You Rebuild Self-Trust One Kept Promise At A Time

We talk about the quiet split second before a drink and why it matters more than the dramatic moments. We focus on rebuilding self-trust by closing the gap between what we say and what we do, one small promise at a time. • the “quiet moment” before drinking and what it reveals • addiction as the gap between knowledge and action • how repeated slips chip away at our word to ourselves • rebuilding trust through one kept promise today • handling the brain’s pushback and “start tomorrow” thinking • choosing differently in small moments that change everything • encouragement for anyone having a hard week We can choose to give in to the KAOS, or we can forge a new path forward!

4 min

Welcome to "Pure Kaos," a raw and unfiltered journey into the life and struggles of living with alcoholism. Each episode dives into the real stories, the highs and the heartbreaks, and the kaos that comes with addiction. We explore the complexities of life and death through the lens of those who've faced alcoholism head-on, offering a space of honesty, understanding, and sometimes a little bit of hope amid the KAOS.

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