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Atifa Kele
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https://linktr.ee/atifa.k You just arrived... where messy meets meaningful. Prepare to tumble through a wild jungle of ideas, stories & everyday moments that make life worth living. It's raw, it's thoughtful, it's wonderfully weird & most importantly, it's always real. Expect bursts of creativity, tangents that make you wonder if you’re still on the same planet & tiny soulful moments that hit just right. It’s a ride through the unexpected where spontaneity bumps into structure, laughter sneaks in & maybe... just maybe, you'll find a little clarity in the beautiful mess.

  1. 4d ago

    WordVomit Wednesdays E7: the misunderstood of the alphabet mafia

    in this episode, I'm unpacking the labels and lived realities that get lost somewhere between stereotypes and google searches... from intersex, trans, genderfluid and non-binary identities to aromantic, asexual, pansexual and bisexual experiences. fun fact: everyone produces testosterone, regardless of sex, though levels typically vary between AMAB and AFAB people. testosterone contributes to motivation, vitality and libido, and low levels can leave you feeling like absolute c**a. speaking of libido, did you know it comes from the latin word for desire? freud later explored it as psychic energy driving human instincts, including sexuality, before psychology and everyday language increasingly narrowed it to sexual desire. somewhere along the way, we lost sight of the pulse of life! as promised... SOGIESC in full: Sexual Orientation Gender Identity Expression Sex Characteristics I forgot to mention how much I love queerplatonic connections! rooted in aromantic and asexual communities, these relationships transcend conventional friendship in their depth of commitment, emotional intimacy and resource-sharing, while generally centring non-sexual connection. kink has purpose beyond pleasure, you know. when “no” becomes part of your own vocabulary, you begin to understand that it’s less about rejection and more about autonomy. learning to respect boundaries without taking them personally? that’s alchemical. Note: now, don’t get me wrong. I am a primal lover and I have definitely experienced physical arousal around people I’m sexually involved with. the body remembers and flashbacks are not lost on me, but I typically don’t think about sex much until it’s right in front of me. the desire isn't absent, it just shows up differently. and that's on the ace spectrum. and to the people constantly accusing bisexuals of being inevitable cheaters, we need to talk. cheating isn’t an orientation, let's be so fvcking fr. cheaters, boredom isn’t a relationship emergency and chasing thrills at someone else’s expense is not a personality trait. you should learn to sit with boredom and find excitement without betraying someone’s trust ORRR just break it off instead. remember! non-monogamy isn’t a cure for a struggling relationship or an escape from commitment. approached with care, it’s an expansion of it. language key: when I say men, I mean cis men... when I say women, read womxn/AFAB people 🌈

    WordVomit Wednesdays E7: the misunderstood of the alphabet mafia

  2. Aug 22

    SpeakEasy Saturdays E8: free fall splash (into an) orgy of the palettes

    SAPPHIC EROTICA OH SAPPHIC EROTICA how I love you so I get real goofy and real deep in this episode so buckle up & enjoy!    ALSO point to note if you've gotten to poem #3's backstory... I WAS NOT READY! I FAFOed HARD! reality is a bitch but I love it here bc I love the truth even if it hurts I'm a masochist soooo anyway mercury retrograde did not come to play y'all  I don't read poems as they unfold but true to my instinct, this was just a stopover reconnection soon after recording this episode I had to break things off bc as much as this n***a had changed... those aspects of their personality that were lingering brought more confusion and second guessing into a situation that was already facing some power struggles. I concluded that their intention was to waste my time from how they were behaving and I moved my ass on outta there. I know that they stopped by to show me that I was accepting less than I am worth... that there's a gap between what I know I deserve and what I'm allowing in the name of being an understanding person.  yk its funny bc I've spent most of my life feeling misunderstood and what that eventually taught me is that no one can truly understand me but me. I've lived this life anyway... no one else has. from now on that applies to everyone else. NO I don't get what you were intending to do when you repeatedly hurt me despite multiple conversations about the same damn thing. the version of me that understands others to the point of betraying myself is DEAD. so move! call me a bitch... call me a villain... you know I love that shit! here's what else I took away with me: - trust what people do... NOT what they say. that's why they're called SWEET NOTHINGS. - when sb has the emotional capacity for you, you will feel it and eventually be reassured in it despite your probable anxiety about the situation. - some people will look at what you're asking and say "HIYO TU? You deserve even more." - sometimes you're just asking the wrong people... it doesn't mean they're bad, it just means they're not right for you at that point in time. - a stranger can teach you so much about yourself even if they're not meant to stay in your life. - more is out there! do not settle for less. you will resent yourself and the person you settled for. - confusion is a message, uncertainty is an indicator... not that you should prove yourself or push or force... NO! sit down and be honest with yourself if the other party won't be honest with you (or themselves) - if sb doesn't know themselves, they will not be able to distinguish the truth from their own lies. you will believe those lies because they believe them themselves. in that case, it's up to you to observe and act accordingly. - being self-aware is not enough... practising embodying better > just knowing things about oneself.

    SpeakEasy Saturdays E8: free fall splash (into an) orgy of the palettes

  3. Jul 15

    WordVomit Wednesdays E6: frolicking through the flower fields of my brain

    it's been a while my lovelies... I hope you've missed me as much as I've missed you I AM back! refreshed, rejuvenated & reborn tbh I'm just a-yappin away on this episode some new moon musings if you will a pleasure-based life is within my reach 🪬 it is within yours too

    WordVomit Wednesdays E6: frolicking through the flower fields of my brain

  4. May 11

    Mantra Mondays E1: Tribal Root Chakra Mantra to Clear Fear of Success and Release Stagnation (Morning Meditation)

    this is a spell to remove blocks and restore motivation in your life readiness is best approached as an intentional decision instead of a fleeting feeling it has been specially designed for the root chakra which is blocked by fear through my loving words and energy, I empower you with the ability to take risks and stand at the edge of the cliff with excitement rather than petrification feel the blood rushing through your limbs... you are ALIVE & most importantly, you CAN close the gap between gravity and becoming. tips for use: repetition rewires the debilitating conditioning of the mind best in the morning or before tasks/projects/endeavours/journeys that require spiritual intervention visualise your blood washing you of fear/hesitation... start from the top (back) of the head down to the base of your spine, where the debris is discarded from your body... let the waterfall of blood form a loop, rejoining the top (front) of your head... repeat until you feel lighter if possible: red candle for risk-taking, white candle for obstacle-clearing

    Mantra Mondays E1: Tribal Root Chakra Mantra to Clear Fear of Success and Release Stagnation (Morning Meditation)

  5. Apr 25

    SpeakEasy Saturdays E7: train track's deadest end

    Happy Lesbian Visibility Weekend! If you catch a moan or grunt or two... that's my gift to the lesbians (｡･･｡) I swear I'm not farting, I have a new setup... ignore my chair, she's gassy I don't think I'll be able to watch spider-man across the spider-verse for a while... especially the part where Mona Lisa by Dominic Fike comes on *proceeds to say "god help me" and listen to the song five more times than necessary* I hope this goofball never finds my podcast... I'd be mortified some people should remain memories of the creativity journey after all

    SpeakEasy Saturdays E7: train track's deadest end

  6. Apr 1

    WordVomit Wednesdays E5: Why I disliked living abroad (not a fool's day prank)

    the million-dollar question this episode poses is... IS IT BECAUSE I'M AFAB OR IS IT BECAUSE I'M BLACK?! lemme clarify that the weather changes were extreme in every way too cold when it's cold = I usually run cold so PAIN so much PAIN (muscle aches)... too hot when it's hot = eczema flare-ups my body hated it there, I had to leave uni was a pro tho, no harassing lecturers but smelly STEM guys are EVERYWHERE I have found no escape yet Disclaimer: I am not of the opinion that anyone shouldn't make the move abroad. This is my experience & my journey to authenticity involves honouring my truth. I just want to see my country & the rest of Africa unshackled from neocolonialism and the slavery of the colonial mindset. We are rich, always have been, we just have a bunch of leeches sucking us to the bone.

    WordVomit Wednesdays E5: Why I disliked living abroad (not a fool's day prank)

  7. Mar 28

    SpeakEasy Saturdays E6: Shortcake's (bs) two second rule (spoken word)

    I only stayed as long as I did cause of those scrumptious hugs... oh and not being sexualised or objectified lol that was lovely.

    SpeakEasy Saturdays E6: Shortcake's (bs) two second rule (spoken word)

  8. Mar 18

    WordVomit Wednesdays E4: African Queen Njinga - Twist of Fire & Fate (Women's History Month)

    this women's history month, we are reminded of the might of the matriarchy... & the truth of Africa's history. Check out the Limited Series "African Queens: Njinga" on Netflix

    WordVomit Wednesdays E4: African Queen Njinga - Twist of Fire & Fate (Women's History Month)
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https://linktr.ee/atifa.k You just arrived... where messy meets meaningful. Prepare to tumble through a wild jungle of ideas, stories & everyday moments that make life worth living. It's raw, it's thoughtful, it's wonderfully weird & most importantly, it's always real. Expect bursts of creativity, tangents that make you wonder if you’re still on the same planet & tiny soulful moments that hit just right. It’s a ride through the unexpected where spontaneity bumps into structure, laughter sneaks in & maybe... just maybe, you'll find a little clarity in the beautiful mess.

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    Atifa Kele
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    2026
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