In this powerful episode of Listen Bitch Presents: Tell Me Why You’re Special, I sit down with Carolyn Sherrill, author, speaker, former physician assistant, and founder of Cords of Grace. Carolyn shares an intensely personal story of childhood trauma, dissociation, healing, faith, forgiveness, and discovering who she was beyond what happened to her. We talk about what dissociation can actually feel like, including Carolyn’s experience functioning as a medical professional while struggling with dissociative trauma. She shares her personal account of trauma-based mind control and ritual abuse, how those experiences affected her identity, and the long road toward healing. But this conversation goes somewhere even deeper: spiritual warfare. Carolyn talks about experiencing what she describes as demonic attacks, learning to stand in her identity as a child of God, the power she found in worship and the blood of Jesus, and what she believes it means to surrender the battle to God. We also get into PTSD, anger at God, forgiveness, justice, breaking unhealthy soul ties, and the difference between forgiving someone and allowing them back into your life. Carolyn shares how she eventually moved from asking, “Why did God allow this?” toward finding purpose, healing, and a calling to help other people walking through trauma. We also discuss her book My Personal Holocaust, her ministry Cords of Grace, and the resources she has created for people working through trauma, abuse, dissociation, forgiveness, and faith. This episode isn’t surface-level motivation. It’s a conversation about what happens when someone survives something that could have destroyed them — and then decides their story isn’t going to end there.Carolyn is an author, speaker, and survivor whose ministry through Cords of Grace exposes the works of darkness while illuminating the goodness of God. After enduring ritual abuse and mind control in her early life, Carolyn experienced profound healing through God's relentless love, compassionate counseling, and divine guidance. Her journey through a dissociative disorder became the foundation for a powerful testimony of faith, healing, and redemption. A former physician assistant who practiced medicine for twenty-three years, Carolyn brings both clinical insight and personal experience to her writing and speaking ministry. Her work focuses on the intersection of mental health, emotional healing, and spirituality, offering deep exploration into topics including soul ties, identity, forgiveness, judgment, and the spectrum of dissociation—from simple "tuning out" to the complexities of Dissociative Identity Disorder. Carolyn is the author of My Personal Holocaust: Triumphing Over the Devastation of Trauma-Based Mind Control, where she shares how yielding to God's gentle guidance led to profound transformation. Her writing has been featured in Pentecostal Evangel magazine, Chicken Soup for the Soul, and Bethany House anthologies. Through her books, blog posts, and speaking engagements, Carolyn helps readers and audiences collaborate with God to discover their true identity and understand the supernatural effects on the mind. Her mission is to help wounded souls develop dependence on God rather than on people, while reminding others that with God, no wound is too deep to heal. A lifelong Colorado resident, Carolyn enjoys her flower and vegetable gardens when not writing or ministering. https://cordsofgrace.com/