Home Is Where The Body Is

Jenn
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Hi, I’m Jenn. I’m AuDHD and live with cPTSD, OCD, Ehlers Danlos syndrome, and POTS. I grew up in a religious cult and spent years searching for love and belonging. I eventually learned the home I was seeking wasn’t a place or another person, but a relationship with my body, nervous system, and myself. In this podcast, I share lived experiences of trauma, inner child care, and learning to give myself safety. I’m not a mental health professional, just a very marginalized engineer offering reflection and companionship. Content warnings provided.

  1. May 27

    What Online Dating Taught Me About Safety, Trauma, and Self-Reliance

    In this episode, I explore how my experience of dating exposed deep trauma patterns around love and safety. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: No one owes me a relationship (00:55)Self-reliance: I can be my own parent and savior (09:31)Removing external conditions for feeling complete (16:34)This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. This podcast also has a YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@home-is-where-the-body-is How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    34 min

  2. May 13

    Unlearning People-Pleasing After Parentification: Practical Steps to Stop Caretaking and Build Healthy Boundaries

    In this episode, I explore practical tips for re-parenting and self-regulating after a parentified childhood. I talk about: Release schedule update (00:55)Summary of previous parentification episode (01:34)Reiterating tips shared in previous episode (05:02)Continuing list of tips for re-parenting and self-regulating (06:38)Summary of list (24:18)This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. This podcast also has a YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@home-is-where-the-body-is How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    27 min

  3. Apr 29

    Parentification, Emotional Burnout, and Reparenting: How to Stop Managing Everyone Else and Start Regulating Yourself

    In this episode, I explore how recognizing the parentification of my childhood allowed me to leave behind obligatory caretaking in adult relationships. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: When Caretaking Replaces Childhood (00:54)How It Rewrites Adult Relationships (6:21)Reparenting and Nervous System Reset (11:36)This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. This podcast also has a YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@home-is-where-the-body-is How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    27 min

  4. Apr 22

    AuDHD, Trauma, and Ehlers-Danlos: How I Learned to Trust My Body Again

    In this episode, I explore how years of misdiagnosis and medical minimization shaped my understanding of autism, chronic illness, and identity. I reflect on how this influenced my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Connecting the dots of misdiagnosis and minimization (00:54)Moving from self-doubt to self-recognition(12:27)Building safety in a dismissive system (20:05)This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. This podcast also has a YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@home-is-where-the-body-is How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    29 min

  5. Apr 15

    From Control to Boundaries: Attachment Trauma, Autonomy & Safety

    In this episode, I explore how recognizing that I couldn’t change other people freed me up to detach from unhealthy dynamics more quickly, and invest in relationships that genuinely support me. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: I can’t change others (00:54)Relearning love and attachment (2:13)Safety, boundaries, and letting go (11:52)This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    24 min

  6. Apr 8

    How to Detach from Toxic Workplaces (Autism, Trauma, AuDHD Perspective)

    In this episode, I explore how to emotionally detach from discriminatory workplaces. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Summary of last week’s episode (00:54)A bit more on neurotype as a protected class (03:38)How to emotionally detach (10:07)Resources mentioned:  Study of sexism in the software industry: https://arxiv.org/abs/2203.10555Challenges for autistic women in the workplace: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27927031/This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    23 min

  7. Apr 1

    Why Workplaces Feel Impossible as an Autistic Woman

    In this episode, I explore how “misaugyny” put a chip on my shoulder very early in my working life. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Naming “misaugyny” (00:54)When systemic bias puts a chip on your shoulder (07:53)Autistic women statistics (13:43)Resources mentioned:  “Misaugyny” - https://medium.com/@autieadventures/misaugyny-the-relationship-between-misogyny-and-autism-e6d7df8a39a4“Autistiphobia” - https://autismspectrumnews.org/this-is-what-autistiphobia-looks-like-why-autistic-advocacy-matters/Why female autism is questioned - https://embrace-autism.com/why-female-autism-is-questioned/Danish suicide study - https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jamanetworkopen/fullarticle/2774853French sexual violence study - https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9087551/This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    27 min

  8. Mar 25

    Creative Self-Expression for Nervous System Healing: Why Making “Bad" Art Matters

    In this episode, I explore what I’ve learned from my attempts at content creation. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: The inherent value of self-expression (00:54)The value of “bad” art (04:02)The many benefits of creative self-expression (05:39)This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more. How to contact me: You’re welcome to share reflections, feedback, or thoughts at homeiswherethebodyis@gmail.com If this episode was meaningful to you: Leaving an honest review or sharing it with someone who might find it helpful is the best way to support this work.

    28 min
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Hi, I’m Jenn. I’m AuDHD and live with cPTSD, OCD, Ehlers Danlos syndrome, and POTS. I grew up in a religious cult and spent years searching for love and belonging. I eventually learned the home I was seeking wasn’t a place or another person, but a relationship with my body, nervous system, and myself. In this podcast, I share lived experiences of trauma, inner child care, and learning to give myself safety. I’m not a mental health professional, just a very marginalized engineer offering reflection and companionship. Content warnings provided.

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