🔥 Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!

Brian Mueller
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Follow Me to the M-R-O-P! is a podcast for men considering the Illuman Men’s Rites of Passage (MROP). Through real, honest conversations with men who’ve been through the rites, we share what the experience is actually like—so you can discern whether this initiation is the right next step for you. - https://initiationpod.com

  1. Episode #25 feat. Dave Kraybill

    6d ago

    Episode #25 feat. Dave Kraybill

    What happens when an academic who built his entire identity around achievement suffers a major heart attack, only to be found sitting in his hospital bed still frantically emailing his co-workers? In this twenty-fifth episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Dave Kraybill for a profound conversation about his 2024 initiation at Aravaipa Canyon, Arizona. Dave, a retired agricultural economist who spent 11 years working in Africa, shares how a therapist’s simple recommendation led him to discover Illuman after years of treating his body like a machine and overworking to earn esteem. Dave reflects on his journey from a Mennonite farming community—where rhythm and drumming were viewed as "potentially evil"—to crossing the creek at Aravaipa and entering a completely different, deeply somatic world. He speaks movingly about overcoming performance anxiety during a grief ritual, finding a powerful metaphor in a resilient desert plant, and applying Richard Rohr's wisdom that "pain that is not transformed is transmitted". Whether you are struggling to stay present in your relationships or wondering if you should attend the Men's Rites or the Elder Rites, Dave’s wisdom provides a brilliant roadmap for the second half of life. Episode Highlights Not Performance, But Prayer: How a single piece of instruction from a ritual leader shattered Dave's lifelong performance anxiety.The Plant in the Rock: Discovering a beautiful metaphor for flourishing in impossible circumstances during his desert solitude.The Hospital Wake-Up Call: Realizing his foundation was flawed when he immediately resumed working after a major cardiac event.The "Glow": Returning to his men's group after the rites radiating an unexplainable, transformative energy.Men's Rites vs. Elder Rites: Dave's practical counsel on how to discern which initiation experience is right for you based on your unresolved wounds. Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor)Practicing Presence AppIlluman MROPAdam's Return by Richard RohrBrian Mueller (Host)Aravaipa Canyon Ranch and Retreat Center Credits First and foremost, thank you to Dave Kraybill for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    41 min
  2. Episode #24 feat. Al Selder

    May 25

    Episode #24 feat. Al Selder

    What happens when a retired engineer sitting in the Arizona desert suddenly starts singing Doris Day, only to realize he's being called to help heal the brokenness of other men? In this twenty-fourth episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Al Selder for an inspiring conversation about his 2005 initiation at a YMCA camp in Oracle, Arizona. Al shares how trusting the invitation of other men led him to one of the very first rites held outside of Ghost Ranch, where Weaver Richard Rohr guided him into a profound period of self-reflection. Al recounts a mystical vision of quaking leaves and running water he experienced in the desert—a vision that ultimately led the Arizona chapter to discover the sacred, liminal grounds of Aravaipa Canyon. He speaks about his transition from simply attending the rites to taking on the monumental task of running the kitchen for over 90 men, eventually becoming the chapter's convener. From the poignant "starfish story" of helping just one person, to the beautiful realization that his own adult son is now seeking out council circles, Al's story is a testament to the quiet, generational power of service. Episode Highlights "Que Sera, Sera": Why a Doris Day song and the memory of his late father-in-law sparked a lifelong commitment to men's work.The Vision of Aravaipa: A mysterious desert vision of running water that led to finding a sacred retreat space with a deep, complex history.The Starfish Story: Remembering that you don't have to change the whole world—you just have to make a difference for the man standing in front of you.Feeding the Brotherhood: The logistical feat of managing a kitchen and camp for 92 men in the middle of a remote canyon.Generational Ripples: The joy of witnessing his son decide to start his own council circle after years of observing the work. Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor)Practicing Presence AppIlluman MROPAdam's Return by Richard RohrBrian Mueller (Host)Doris Day - Que Sera SeraAravaipa Canyon Ranch and Retreat Center Credits First and foremost, thank you to Al Selder for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    41 min
  3. Episode #23 feat. Mike Whitman

    May 18

    Episode #23 feat. Mike Whitman

    What happens when an arrogant, 60-year-old youth minister who thinks he has his spiritual life completely "figured out" arrives at the rites terrified and is forced to tear down his carefully constructed walls? In this twenty-third episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Mike Whitman for a deeply reflective conversation about his 2008 initiation at Pilgrim Park, Illinois. Mike shares how a master's class with former guest Bill McElroy led him to blindly say yes to an experience that left him questioning his decisions just four hours into the drive. Mike reflects on the terror of his first ritual, his instinct to constantly rebuild his emotional walls, and the miraculous softening that occurred when he unexpectedly stepped into a paternal role for two younger men. As an Enneagram Type One, Mike speaks with profound wisdom about asking God for "radical inner honesty," learning to accept his own imperfections, and finally dropping his lifelong "spousal spirituality" out of his head and into his heart. Whether you are a man hiding behind a mask or looking to soften your own sharp edges, Mike's story is an inspiring invitation to step into true vulnerability. Episode Highlights The Arrogant Arrival: Thinking you have your spiritual life completely figured out, only to realize you are stuck behind your own masks.Tearing Down Walls: The cyclical terror of having boundaries broken down in ritual, only to nervously rebuild them again.The Enneagram One: How recognizing the "Perfectionist" mask softened a lifetime of harsh internal criticism and made him "a lot less negative".Radical Inner Honesty: Stepping into the pain of recognizing personal dishonesty and mixed motives instead of escaping into an image.Spousal Spirituality: Dropping a lifelong faith from the intellect down into the heart. Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor)Practicing Presence AppIlluman MROPAdam's Return by Richard RohrBrian Mueller (Host) Credits First and foremost, thank you to Mike Whitman for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    33 min
  4. Episode #22 feat. Matthew Lyda

    May 11

    Episode #22 feat. Matthew Lyda

    What happens when a "top-heavy" intellectual, whose marriage and worldview are crumbling, lies face down in a dry creek bed and finally lets his body do the weeping? In this twenty-second episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Matthew Lyda for a deeply moving conversation about his 2018 initiation at Pilgrim Park, Illinois. Matthew, a spiritual director from Spartanburg, South Carolina, shares how he arrived at the rites in the midst of the "full catastrophe"—navigating interrupted dreams of living overseas, a marriage left in ashes, and a 30-year religious paradigm shift that was losing its grip on his life. Episode Highlights The Top-Heavy Stick Figure: Moving away from a life dominated by head-knowledge to recovering a deep trust in the body's wisdom.The Dried Creek Bed: The visceral power of laying prostrate in nature and bypassing the thinking brain to release tears.The Grandfather Ambush: Unloading 20 years of hidden grief and the mysterious synchronicity that prepared him for a real-life loss.The 500-Year Rummage Sale: Navigating the terrifying freefall of a religious paradigm shift when deeply held beliefs stop working.A Warning for Young Men: Matthew's reverse-psychology advice on why you absolutely shouldn't attend the rites if you aren't ready to be loved and transformed. Episode Specific Links Matthew Lyda: Recover the WildThe Center for Sexual and Relational HealthRecover The Wild: Unfiltered Poems and PrayersDefeated by Great Waters: Where is the hope inside of impossible places?Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor)Practicing Presence AppIlluman MROPAdam's Return by Richard RohrBrian Mueller (Host) Credits First and foremost, thank you to Matthew Lyda for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    42 min
  5. Episode #21 feat. Matt Domyancic

    May 4

    Episode #21 feat. Matt Domyancic

    What happens when an ex-SWAT officer and first-responder chaplain arrives at the rites, only to find that the hardest part is holding space for other men trying to "fix" him? In this twenty-first episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Matt Domyancic for an incredibly raw and unique conversation about his initiation in Big Bear, California. Matt shares his perspective as a high-alpha, former football player and cop who had already spent decades diving into psychoanalysis, silent retreats, and spiritual direction before arriving at the rites. Episode Highlights The Helper's High: Why men need to trade their desire to "fix" others for an experience of mystery and awe.The Myth of the Father Wound: Matt's experience of being pushed to manufacture trauma, and the beauty of honoring a good father.True Inner Work: Why shooting guns, crawling in the mud, and doing cold plunges isn't the deeper spiritual work men actually need.Butterflies in Formation: A powerful sports psychology lesson on jumping off the platform and embracing communal vulnerability. Episode Specific Links Matt Domyancic: https://www.tacticalchaplain.comhttps://www.instagram.com/thinbluelinespiritualityhttps://www.linkedin.com/in/matt-domyancic-b7203b6"Helping, Fixing or Serving?" by Rachel Naomi Remen, MD: https://www.dailygood.org/story/218/helping-fixing-or-serving-rachel-naomi-remen-md Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor): https://choosingpresence.orgPracticing Presence App: https://choosingpresence.org/appIlluman MROP page: https://illuman.org/mropAdam's Return by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/3PzVESHBrian Mueller (Host): https://brianmueller.com Credits First and foremost, thank you to Matt Domyancic for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    48 min
  6. Episode #20 feat. Bill McElroy

    May 1

    Episode #20 feat. Bill McElroy

    What happens when a man searching for a "mystical" vision in the desert instead discovers a hidden, intergenerational wound—and decides to end his family's lineage of pain with a single pound of his fist? In this twentieth episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Bill McElroy for a powerful conversation about his 2004 initiation at Ghost Ranch, New Mexico. Bill reflects on his spiritual journey leading up to the desert and speaks openly about redefining masculinity. Whether you are carrying the weight of a "father hunger" or simply looking for men to walk shoulder-to-shoulder with in the second half of life, Bill's story is a brilliant reminder to trust your intuition and enter the sacred container. Episode Highlights No Kings in My Life: How discovering the four masculine archetypes made Bill realize he lacked mature male mentors."It Stops With Me": The powerful moment in a grief ritual where Bill took on the pain of his patriarchal lineage and dropped to his knees.Beyond John Wayne: Unlearning the toxic toughness of popular culture to embrace a healthy masculinity that is present and generative for others.Shoulder-to-Shoulder: Why Bill continues to return to the rites year after year as an elder, setting up chairs and holding the space for new men. Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor): https://choosingpresence.orgPracticing Presence App: https://choosingpresence.org/app“Healing” by D. H. Lawrence: https://justiceconversation.org/2018/12/28/healing-by-d-h-lawrence Illuman MROP page: https://illuman.org/mropAdam's Return by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/3PzVESHFalling Upward by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/4uUM64PBreathing Under Water by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/47qLNVpFrom Wild Man to Wise Man by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/3PKkHmjBrian Mueller (Host): https://brianmueller.com Credits First and foremost, thank you to Bill McElroy for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    31 min
  7. Episode #19 feat. Doug Shirley

    Apr 27

    Episode #19 feat. Doug Shirley

    What happens when a stressed-out doctoral student, given just three weeks to save his academic career, finds himself completely unplugged in the desert and invited to dismantle his ego? In this nineteenth episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Doug Shirley for a profound conversation about his 2016 initiation at Aravaipa Canyon. Doug, an academic, therapist, and convener for Awaken 2026, shares how he arrived at the rites "freaked out" after his dissertation extension was denied, searching for a "flashy" spiritual experience to stroke his intact ego. Doug speaks with raw honesty about the unglamorous reality of real growth—joking that transformation usually "sucks ass" in the moment—and recounts how a timely intervention from a brother kept him from quitting early. Episode Highlights The Dissertation Crisis: Arriving in the desert unplugged and under immense pressure from a looming academic deadline.Transformation Isn't Pretty: Confronting the feeling of being an impostor in ritual and realizing that profound shifts often feel like longing and disruption.The River Intervention: How a firm nudge from a trusted brother stopped Doug from packing it in and going home.The "We" of Masculinity: Moving past the idea of a singular masculine ideal to discover the sacred rhythms that exist shoulder-to-shoulder in community.Surprised by Support: Entering the rites expecting judgment and puffed-up chests, only to find an overwhelming environment of love. Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor): https://choosingpresence.orgPracticing Presence App: https://choosingpresence.org/appIlluman MROP page: https://illuman.org/mropAdam's Return by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/3PzVESHFalling Upward by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/4uUM64PBreathing Under Water by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/47qLNVpFrom Wild Man to Wise Man by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/3PKkHmjBrian Mueller (Host): https://brianmueller.com Credits First and foremost, thank you to Doug Shirley for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    28 min
  8. Episode #18 feat. Tom Melancon

    Apr 24

    Episode #18 feat. Tom Melancon

    What happens when a man is told by Father Richard Rohr that he isn't "old enough" to have a profound spiritual experience, only to realize exactly what he meant thirty years later? In this eighteenth episode of Follow Me to the M-R-O-P!, host Brian Mueller sits down with Tom Melancon for a fascinating look at his lifelong spiritual journey. Tom, a recently retired federal mediator from Seattle, first attended retreats with Richard Rohr in the early 1990s, but it wasn't until he made his official rites at Sky Camp in Oregon at age 64 that he fully experienced the deep transformation he had been seeking. Tom speaks openly about his 24-year journey in 12-step recovery and the beautiful parallels between recovery mentorship and the open spirituality of Illuman. Whether you are navigating the transition into retirement or looking for a healthier path for the young men in your life, Tom's story is a brilliant testament to trusting the long arc of your own spiritual growth. Episode Highlights "You're Not Old Enough": A breakfast conversation with Richard Rohr in the 90s that finally made sense three decades later.Jumping Off the Tower: Embracing the metaphor of building a career of accomplishments and then finding the courage to jump.The Posse: How volunteering for a ritual on the very first day led to a deep bond with a group of brothers.A State of Grace: Walking in a "liminal space" for months after the rites, where the world simply looked and sounded different. Links & Resources Choosing Presence (Sponsor): https://choosingpresence.orgPracticing Presence App: https://choosingpresence.org/appIlluman MROP page: https://illuman.org/mropAdam's Return by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/3PzVESHFalling Upward by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/4uUM64PBreathing Under Water by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/47qLNVpFrom Wild Man to Wise Man by Richard Rohr: https://amzn.to/3PKkHmjBrian Mueller (Host): https://brianmueller.com Credits First and foremost, thank you to Tom Melancon for sharing his journey and his heart with us today.Thank you to Fr. Richard Rohr and the men of Illuman who have stewarded the Men’s Rites of Passage since 1996.Thank you to Jim Heaney and Jim Taylor for their dedication to Choosing Presence. Music Credits: Slow Mo Dreams by SoundrollBecoming a Legend by Vens Adams

    38 min
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Follow Me to the M-R-O-P! is a podcast for men considering the Illuman Men’s Rites of Passage (MROP). Through real, honest conversations with men who’ve been through the rites, we share what the experience is actually like—so you can discern whether this initiation is the right next step for you. - https://initiationpod.com

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