Sacred Nonsense ∞ a Paperheart Bureau Podcast

Olive Kirkpatrick
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Sacred Nonsense is a podcast and publication on learning to see clearly–and how to stay with what we find. Hosted by Olive Kirkpatrick and recorded on the disturbed soil of the evangelical Southeast, episodes feature some of the Harm Reduction movement's "contemplative cuties" on themes of recovery, healing, power, liberation, grief, shame, healing, harm reduction, and peer sovereignty. All hearts are sacred. (Even yours.) sacrednonsense.substack.com

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  1. 4d ago

    🎙️ paper skin — sacred nonsense ep. 01

    🎙️ paper skin — sacred nonsense ep. 01paper is evidence. it’s not reality. before the bureau. before the (immaculate) binders. before the shart chart department — there’s a paper trail. one that starts long before we even arrive earthside. before we’re ever here at all, we’re on sonograms on fridges and in car visors. this whole episode is a slow mozy (mosie?) toward what happens when a culture forgets that. when a diagnosis stops being a door and starts being a sentence. when a mugshot outlives the person in it. when a sobriety date gets treated like the whole recovery instead of the one data point it actually is, in a much weirder, much longer story. that’s where the actual point lives. not “syringes good,” and also not “if people just saw the research they’d change” — the point is the much quieter chain / line-up of shaky dominos underneath all of it. attention becomes perception. perception becomes participation. perception doesn’t determine behavior, it determines what behaviors are even on the menu. if i can’t perceive someone’s humanity, compassion is unavailable to me–not bc i’m cruel, it’s unavailable because the door isn’t even on the wall i’m looking at. as far as harm reduction goes in the broader discourse: naloxone doesn’t make anyone choose recovery. it makes recovery possible. it keeps somebody alive long enough for willingness to show up uninvited, on its own timeline… which is the only timeline that has ever actually worked. from my paper heart to yours, olive thanks for listening/reading. this post is public-please share with the ones you love. 📎 filed under: harm reduction philosophy, spiritual abuse, high-control groups, purity culture, grief literacy, pattern recognition, sacred nonsense podcast, paperheart bureau, sober supremacy, trauma-informed storytelling Get full access to Paperheart Bureau at sacrednonsense.substack.com/subscribe

    22 min
  2. 🎙️ paper trails — sacred nonsense ep. 00

    May 15

    🎙️ paper trails — sacred nonsense ep. 00

    There are official records, and then there are true ones. Episode 00 of this Fool's Journey begins with paperwork: birth certificates, adoption documents, salon name tags, state forms, grant reporting, intake systems, binders, signatures. It’s about versions of ourselves that institutional language can't really fully contain. And the fibers that I remember anyway. Get full access to Paperheart Bureau at sacrednonsense.substack.com/subscribe

    15 min

  3. Mar 23

    🎙️not everyday's an ace – sacred nonsense | paperheart bureau | no. 02

    The first thing Shelby ever said to me wasn’t hello. It was “that girl has secrets.” Loud enough for me to hear. We were standing outside the mobile exchange on a Tuesday afternoon and she said it to her guy like I wasn’t right there, and then she looked at me and said: “I think she’s gonna be my friend.” She was right. She usually was. Sometimes rude about being right, but right. Shelby had hepatitis C for thirteen years before anyone helped her treat it. The system kept turning her away for drinking her drug of choice. By the time I met her, she’d filed that particular hope under things that happen to other people. So I went with her to her first appointment. And every appointment after that. That’s the job — you go until they no longer want or need you to go. She was a Cancer. She thought I must be a Scorpio because I had so many secrets. She loved to say: “Not every day’s an ace, girl.” Weeks later her daughter called. Shelby had been hit by a car. Once going forward, once in reverse. She didn’t survive. 🖇️ Her death wasn’t caused by Hep C. Not by any bloodborne disease. Not by Fireball or by the occasional meth she used to stay awake on the streets — to avoid the assaults she’d already survived once. It wasn’t the substance. It was never the substance. The overdose awareness infrastructure wasn’t built for her. The grief apparatus wasn’t built for her. The system applauded itself for curing her hepatitis C and had no field in the database for the fact that the conditions were always going to kill her anyway — and that those conditions were never the drug. 🖇️ When we talk about “drug-set-setting,” we’re really talking about risk-set-setting. Remove the substance and the conditions remain. It’s conditions that kill. Nobody brings a casserole for that kind of loss. When her daughter called, I felt something I want to name carefully: I felt lucky. Not lucky she was gone. Lucky that I never had to wonder if I’d done her wrong. I knew in my body I had done my job. Public health’s job was done. The hardest part of mine was just beginning. You don’t get to be whole in a system built on severance — severance from self, from parts of self. And sometimes you look across the desk or the curb or the intake form and you see someone being asked to do the same thing. To cut a part of themselves off to secure belonging through exile. Shelby never did that. That’s what I want you to know about her. In a video she made before she died she said (about me, lol): “I knew that girl got more stories than Walt Disney.” ∞ Saint Shelby: Who shot dope in gas station bathrooms and still held the door for the woman behind her. Whose last text to me was asking if I could spot her an airplane bottle of Fireball. Who could read your whole interior life before you finished a sentence and would call it friendship anyway. ∞ Harm reduction is a genre, if you ask me. (Albie will be thrilled.) It has a structure. It goes like this: Here’s a person the world decided wasn’t worth the trouble. Here’s what they actually were. Here’s what it costs to see that. This is Sacred Nonsense — where Shelby gets canonized, right now, in this dispatch, by name. Where we stop apologizing and give ourselves permission to make art out of the hardest work most people will never understand. Where we fund ourselves by being undeniably, specifically, irreplaceably real. Not every day’s an ace. But some days you wander into someone’s orbit and they look at you and say they’re going to be your friend. And they mean it. Get full access to Paperheart Bureau at sacrednonsense.substack.com/subscribe

    9 min

  4. Mar 14

    🎙️ i have a theory about harm reductionists — sacred nonsense | paperheart bureau | no. 01

    I Have a Theory About Harm Reductionists An incomplete list of things that are art! A serenity prayer nobody assigned you. A theory about harm reductionists that had to come out sideways, because that's the only way truth moves when you've been holding it too long. This is the first dispatch from Sacred Nonsense — a space where harm reduction, astrology, grief literacy, and the irreducible logic of a curb at 3 AM get filed in the same drawer. Where we call the work what it is, even when the grant application didn't have that box. In this episode: what ruins your eyes (in the good way). What 12-step probably got right and what it built on top of it. A prayer from Target. Curb logic. The Paperheart Bureau. And why a poet with forty pairs of glasses accidentally mapped the whole machine and then waited in the front row for someone to say it out loud. Welcome. I've been waiting for you too. Sacred Nonsense is a Paperheart Bureau podcast. Hosted by Olive Kirkpatrick. Get full access to Paperheart Bureau at sacrednonsense.substack.com/subscribe

    23 min
  5. one-minute welcome to sacred nonsense

    Season 1, Episode 1 Trailer

    one-minute welcome to sacred nonsense

    Sacred Nonsense | Trailer We're all on the edge of something. This project starts there. Curb Logic is my preferred name for the the idea that a lot of us are out here at 3 a.m., in the dark, figuring it out without a roadmap. And when your eyes adjust, you start noticing other people doing the same thing. The nurse on her smoke break. The dealer who keeps Narcan in his console. People looking out for each other in ways that don't get counted. Shame kills people quietly before anything else does. This project takes that seriously. Get full access to Paperheart Bureau at sacrednonsense.substack.com/subscribe

    1 min

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Sacred Nonsense is a podcast and publication on learning to see clearly–and how to stay with what we find. Hosted by Olive Kirkpatrick and recorded on the disturbed soil of the evangelical Southeast, episodes feature some of the Harm Reduction movement's "contemplative cuties" on themes of recovery, healing, power, liberation, grief, shame, healing, harm reduction, and peer sovereignty. All hearts are sacred. (Even yours.) sacrednonsense.substack.com

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