VOICES - before it was written

Francis Rosenfeld

These are spoken fragments—reflections, passages, and pieces of stories that have not yet settled. Some of them have written forms. Some of them point to places that already exist. Some of them are the only version. francisrosenfeld.substack.com

  1. 1d ago

    Cathy: Reading from the novel Terra Two - Chapter 2 - In Perpignan

    “Our story began in the year of our Lord twenty one hundred and five at a farm in the south of France, a small stone building surrounded by vineyards and lavender fields baked by the Mediterranean sun. Our sun, the yellow one, pampered to have the firmament all to itself. In the modest garden surrounding the edifice I first saw the dirt of our promise.” “The most fertile soil in the universe looked like the scrap pile of a brick kiln, ruddy and dusty, impossible to stabilize, incapable of holding water, so silky that it didn’t stick to the soles of our shoes. I didn’t know how dear this pitiful rubble was going to become, I was young, educated and plucky, out to conquer the world, and my challenge was not to cultivate the impossible medium but to vanquish its unyielding grit.” She arrived in Perpignan on a clear Sunday morning carrying a backpack filled with communication gadgets and testing equipment and a couple of changes of clothes. Since there was no obvious means of transportation to the farm Sarah shrugged her shoulders and started ahead with the thought that she will get there when she got there. It wasn’t very far, though, a couple of hours of pleasant strolling through a landscape of vineyards and lavender plantings. The farm was atop a gentle hill, evidently well cared for but with no signage, test lots or any other indication of the scientific research conducted inside. Sarah approached the front door of the old stone building haunted by the eerie sounds of a wind chime collection that hung from the bay tree by the entrance. She knocked with a pleasant smile on her face and after what seemed like forever the massive wooden door with wrought iron hinges opened accompanied by a blood curdling screech. A tall young woman with raven hair was standing in the doorway. Her piercing nearly transparent eyes reached into Sarah’s brain like a spear and brought to the foreground of her mind every moral failure and second guessing she had experienced through the current year. “I am...” Sarah started sweetly. “I know who you are, we could watch you move through the landscape like a burning bush, that hair must be visible from the moon.” She stopped abruptly, turned her back and started walking down the hallway. Sarah hesitated a moment, not knowing what proper etiquette dictated in circumstances like this, but then realized that she really had no another option but to go inside. She followed the tall woman in silence recognizing her stance, that very familiar soft walk, almost sliding across the stone floors, with no sounds. There was such sparseness in the decor surrounding her, such silence, that Sarah started feeling a little anxious and reevaluated her life choices, beginning with the curiosity for unfamiliar settings that had brought her there. The host stopped abruptly in front of the door leading to a large hall containing twelve beds. “That one is yours,” she said, pointing to one of them. “We meet at seven,” and she left. Sarah would have liked to ask her a few questions, like what her host’s name was, where was everybody else, and if by seven she meant morning or evening, but the young woman was already gone so Sarah resigned herself to slide her backpack under the bed and take a much needed nap. She didn’t even realize where she was the next morning when very crude rays of sunlight burst through the windows as if aiming specifically for her eyes and the room was disturbed by a mild commotion of shuffling bed sheets and dropping shoes. Souhaitez-vous lire cette histoire en français ? Vous pouvez la trouver ici. Nobody seemed to care that there was a new resident in the room so Sarah cleaned up the best she could and followed the others to the mess hall. ‘At least they’re all women,’ she thought, a little surprised but not giving this detail too much thought. The host was standing at the head of the table and waited for everybody to be seated before she began. “Good morning. We have a new student, her name is Sarah Feaherthy. She studied macro-biology and botanical genetics at CAHS. For her sake I will go through a few things about us. This is an international experimental farming program that accepts interns for the duration of one year. Ours is a teaching enterprise, unless you want to pursue the path of an educator, there is no reason for you to stay longer. My name is Seth Rosenfeld, I am the leader of the program. Our schedule is as follows: from eight till three we work in the gardens, from four till seven we study in the library. There is a fountain outside if you need to wash yourself. We prefer not to speak unless absolutely necessary, we find it distracts us from our tasks. We grow all our food here, if you need anything else you’ll have to walk to town to get it.” Sarah felt twelve pairs of eyes probing her intently and she had this strange feeling that she would have to explain her hair again and again, as if she did it on purpose. “Any questions?” Seth asked Sarah. Sarah wanted to ask who named her Seth and why, where was all the equipment, what did the science program consist of, what was expected of her, why did they all except for Seth have to sleep in the same room, if she could visit the library and take a look at the books before her first study session, if the schedule was any different on weekends, how she was going to communicate with her family, and most of all why did this place look more like a convent than a school? She quietly signaled no and they all ate breakfast in complete silence. The first week unfolded at the speed of a snail and during the entire time Sarah kept asking herself what on earth she was doing there. The program’s wherewithal was more modest than the set-up on her parent’s farm and there was really no schedule set for her, nor did anybody there seem to expect her to do anything. The vegetable beds were well tended and food was always abundant but there was no attempt to try new breeds or do fancy analysis. Sarah found it difficult to occupy her time since everything that needed done seemed to have already been done, and short of undoing work only to do it again there really was nothing to keep her busy. Library time went quicker because the bookshelves were well stocked with books, not necessarily specific to horticultural studies but definitely educational in every way. After the first week Sarah gathered enough courage to track down Seth (which was a project in itself, really, because Seth liked to move around the premises with a ghost-like demeanor that made it seem as if she was never there) and ask her for a few moments of guidance to help her understand what exactly she was supposed to do there. She pointed out there was no biology lab or structured course of instruction and she didn’t seem to fit in at all. It was the silence that built up Sarah’s anxiety since she was used to talk talk talk all the time with relatives and neighbors and colleagues and friends, and ask questions, challenge results, offer opinions. The quiet was maddening. Seth frowned and the steely resolve of her transparent eyes became even more intense. Sarah was starting to regret her audacity and quickly assessed the library hall for possible nooks and crannies to hide in before the thunderbolt in Seth’s eyes descended upon her and struck her down. It was a very uncomfortable situation for her, given her completely non-confrontational upbringing; according to her family mores getting into a conflict was among the worst things one could do. “You came here for post graduate education. We all assumed that you wouldn’t be interested in going through the same experiments and do more of the same things you did before, please correct me if I’m wrong.” Sarah wouldn’t have dreamt of correcting, interrupting, or in any way bringing attention to her own breech in protocol, because every time Seth looked at her the redhead remembered something else that she wasn’t particularly proud of. “You have one year to do something new. Can you do something that was never done before?” She saw the dazed look in Sarah’s eyes and didn’t wait for the answer. “Everything you did so far relied on equipment invented and built by somebody else, the tests you ran were replicas of originals by others. What did you do, personally? What would you do if you had to run your experiments with just a handful of seeds and a magnifying glass?” Sarah went from uncomfortable to mortified and wished she could roll back her life to the point when she was not in this awkward situation and stay there. “Chicken!” Seth said, with a tone that sounded more disappointed than angry. “Don’t ask me what to do with your life. I’m your guide, not your master.” Sarah took her wretched self back to the garden, went through the remainder of the day in silence and cried herself to sleep. From that day forward she abandoned all attempts to look busy and started paying close attention to what the others were doing, which looked to her like gardening as usual. Since she couldn’t garner excitement over tomato production and nobody paid attention to her she put together her own schedule, a subset of a master schedule that was so vague it was almost impossible to disturb. As a first order of business she took an early morning to walk around the building and found out what was in each room. She found the kitchen, the seed storage, and the tool shed. She found a large ball of rough yarn and a pair of scissors. She found the technology lab, yes, they really did have one after all. She found peat pods and a watering can. She set out to replicate the transparent rose experiment without the centrifuge, the spectral analysis computer program and the wavelength isolation equipment. She didn’t know how she was going to run anything successful in one year without the benefits of genetic growth acceleration but in a couple of weeks, amazingly enoug

    Cathy: Reading from the novel Terra Two - Chapter 2 - In Perpignan
  2. Aug 29

    Elena: Reading from The Garden of Belief - Blue Roses

    The world shifted again that morning, when Cimmy woke up in a garden not unlike the one in her old dreams, and right before awaking, in that twilight space between dream and reality, Cimmy saw a healthy rose bush overflowing with blue blossoms. It was so close she could smell their perfume, a sweet honey and citrus scent, and when the breeze blew through it, one of the soft petals touched Cimmy’s cheek. The vision lasted but a moment, and yet it felt so real, she wasn’t even phased by the fact her surroundings had changed again: it was summer, it seems, a beautiful summer morning in a garden filled with flowers, with sun shining through the tall foliage, and a cool breeze wicking up the sparkling dew. “Am I not in the world of things anymore?” She asked herself, because nothing she’d ever seen before, other than in her dreams, could ever compare to this wholesome, eerie beauty. Beliefs about the afterlife are as old as humanity, and of course, if someone were to ask Josepha, she could recount all the wonders and rewards of the blessed, if only to emphasize how unworthy and sure to be cast out someone like Cimmy was. One had to work hard for one’s rewards, which were not likely to be bestowed on one, even by a higher power, without the approval of one’s elders, so now Cimmy hesitated contemplating the obvious thought, that she had passed and was now enjoying her great rewards, because, by all societal rules, she didn’t qualify for the privilege. Truth be told, she never gave a lot of thought to thereafter, not many young people do, even in a village like hers, where tragedy visited often and took its share of lives indiscriminately, but she had been sure whatever awaited her on the other side must be modest and common, as was befitting her station. She got scared to find herself surrounded by such unearthly beauty, thinking she might have trespassed into the forbidden garden area, and as exciting as that thought felt in the world of the living, she was sure the afterlife would not look kindly upon it. Maybe it was all of her wanderings through the dream garden of her childhood that had brought her there, and she breathed a sigh of relief, reassured she was probably asleep. “Cimmy! I was looking all over for you! Do you want to hear Bertha holler? You were going to meet with her to go over the crop rotations and she’s been waiting for you for over half an hour. Did you fall asleep in the flower garden again? You know she gets all weird every time she remembers she approved it: if you can’t eat it or wear it, what’s the point?” ‘What a strange dream I’m having, and Rahima is in it!’ “Cimmy, shake that dazed look off your face and go talk to Bertha before she blows her top!” Cimmy frowned as she tried to get up from the bed of grass she’d been sleeping in, and noticed a scratch on her arm, which looked very much like the kind one would get in a lost battle with a thorny rose bush. The scratch stung a little, enough to make it clear to Cimmy that whatever this afterlife body was made of, it could still feel pain. “I had the strangest dream!” She whispered in a daze. “Considering the regular contents of your mind, that’s scary enough for me!” Rahima teased her. “Weirder than usual?” “No. That’s just it: everything looked just like reality, just like here. In fact, I suppose it was here. I was right here, Rahima, seeing everything I see right now, except for this one rose bush. I think it scratched me, see?” “So, what’s so strange about a rosebush?” “The flowers were bright blue.” “You know there are no such things as blue roses. Roses can’t be blue, Cimmy. They have the wrong pigment for it.” “I know.” “So, did you imagine them, then?” “It felt so real: the sight, the scent, the touch of the petals. It felt absolutely real, Rahima, as real as you are now.” “How do you know I’m real?” Rahima teased her again, but retreated quickly when she saw the terrified look in Cimmy’s eyes. “Cimmy, it was just a dream! For crying out loud, here, take my hand. I’m as real as it gets.” “So were the blue roses,” Cimmy uttered a tiny whisper. “Ok, we’ll talk about this later. Obviously, you’re very shaken by this experience, but right now you have to go talk to Bertha before you’re even more shaken by her batting your ears.” Cimmy attended her elder’s instruction, copiously seasoned with verbal discipline, as if from another world, taking in her surroundings, which were still unfamiliar to her, with bemused detachment: the grand hall with the heavy wood furniture, the bay windows overlooking the flower garden, the pond, with the skipping stones and the gazebo, all looking so much like her old dream she now had no doubt she had passed, and figured since she didn’t do enough to earn her blissful place in heaven, the perceived presence of Bertha must be her penance. “Are you even listening to me, you useless airhead? What did I just say?” “The onions should go into quadrant three this year, to allow quadrant four to lie fallow and rest, since there are no other plantings planned there.” Bertha stared her down intently, meant to say something, but sighed instead and dismissed her to her task. The feeling that everything was surreal followed Cimmy around, like a sudden awakening, and all the strange events of her life, her skipping through reality and its unlikely details, Fay, the constant reshaping of her surroundings, all snapped into place to let her know she hadn’t been in the world of the living for a long time now, and whatever this place was, this illusion of life, was no more real than the blue roses. “Cimmy,” Rahima whispered, careful not to further distress her friend, “are you alright?” Cimmy looked at the face she knew so well, and could remember all the memories they’d made together, sharing sorrow, mischief and trust, but she also remembered that every time her reality shifted her friend didn’t seem to remember anything from their previous life. It almost felt like an untold number of Rahimas lived in all these different worlds, all recognizable as herself, but with completely different pasts. How can one love a person who isn’t real? And yet, as she looked at the worry in Rahima’s eyes, she felt blessed by their years of friendship and the memories she had of her, memories maybe not shared by the latter, but real nevertheless. Her world might have been nothing but, but the memories of it were real. Maybe that was all real was, just pictures of a pretend life we make up for ourselves in our own heads, but if that is all there is, then does it even matter, if we can’t shake our own illusion? If it’s there, it’s real. It can’t get realer than that. She could still hear Bertha’s familiar rant in her head. Another memory, maybe another manufactured moment, who’s to say, which had lost all its emotional weight, like a picture you stared at for too long. “Do you want to talk about the blue roses?” Rahima enticed. She did! She wanted so much to talk about the blue roses; she wished she could share that feeling, but there weren’t any words for it, and it all sounded so banal in spoken form, so unworthy of wonder and awe. “It was just a dream, it doesn’t matter,” she said in the end. “Anyway, I’m glad to have you back. You scared me a little, you know? I’ve never seen you this unraveled. Whatever you do, don’t tell Bertha and Josepha. Can you even imagine what they would say about that?” “Who cares what they would say about that?” Cimmy replied, her soul far away, already longing for the blue roses. “Maybe I should stay with you for a few days,” Rahima’s eyed filled with worry again. “You know, you didn’t even ask about Fay. I’m seriously concerned for you, Cimmy.” “I’m sure he’s around,” the latter smiled. In all her falling through reality, Fay had been an unquestioned constant, and she didn’t doubt he was somewhere close by, ready to follow her in the next step of her journey, wherever that journey might lead. Was there a point to this ever evolving experience? She didn’t know, but she felt it in her gut that there was more to the story than what she could see and touch - meaning, purpose, direction, a path to follow, laid at her feet one stepping stone at a time - and maybe for the first time in her life she wondered whether there was something or someone out there, something much bigger than her, unbound by space, time and the fleeting illusion of materiality. Strangely enough, after all these years of devoting herself to scientific discovery and to shattering unfounded convictions and passed down myths, she felt what it meant to have faith. This is a public episode. 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    Elena: Reading from The Garden of Belief - Blue Roses
  3. Aug 21

    Amelia: Reading from The Gates of Horn and Ivory - Inspired

    Every four years in the middle of summer, the mortals gathered to celebrate the muses in a gentle valley at the feet of Mount Helicon. The nine daughters of Mnemosyne, they weren’t your usual goddesses; they were a gift to humankind. Nobody talked about them as such, out of fear these wonders that fired the human mind to create masterpieces might be taken away, to leave mankind only the toiling and the wars, a drab existence made of hopeless and uninspiring days, all the same. The muses were born of the goddess of memory and the highest of the gods, a splendid metaphor for the mind’s union with the sublime. And, just as happens with the human minds, their relationships and connections with other gods and with the mortals got complicated from there. Unexpected friendships and mentoring roles emerged, and if one wanted to understand them, one had to know their whole family history. Pegasus himself had struck the ground with its hoof to open their source of inspiration, the stream of Hippocrene. Their mother, Mnemosyne, the keeper of the fount of memories in Hades, was Hypnos’s neighbor and friend. Remembering is the opposite of forgetting, and therefore, it embodies the same concept. They are two halves of the same whole. Every object in a universe of duality must have an opposite, and the two opposing elements are intrinsically the same essence. They are what is, reflecting itself into what it is not. So, naturally, Mnemosyne and Hypnos had strong ties of common understanding, and her nine daughters, who had grown up around the morose god of sleep, felt great affection and kinship towards him. One would wonder how the muses became the disciples of Apollo, if one didn’t know the latter spent every night in Hades, floating down an underworld river or another in a large golden cup until sunrise. As I mentioned, the gods liked to exchange aspects with each other, appearing in whatever form best suited their purpose, and in time, Apollo and Helios became indistinguishable from each other. Many a time had the radiant deity passed them by, his makeshift golden vessel gliding slowly on the waters of the Acheron, in the shade of the mournful Heliades, playing his lyre and singing melancholy tunes to accompany his daughters’ dirge. It took everybody by surprise, when they got to know Apollo better, that the sun god was not at all cheerful and extroverted, as one would expect, and felt more in his element at funerals than he did at joyful celebrations. So, caught between their mother’s analytical detachment and their uncles’ melancholy temperaments, the muses grew up sensitive, artistic and given to strong emotional expression, which they doled up on the world in poetry, music and dance. A couple of them took after their mother and followed more exact fields of interest, such as history and astronomy, while the drama queens, Thalia and Melpomene, who never showed up anywhere without their comic and tragic masks, inspired theater. They were beautiful, willful and unencumbered, the muses, and their creativity and passions fired human thought, inspiring literary masterpieces and beautiful works of art, but most of all, music, which seemed to resonate and flow directly from their beatific voices. Poets, playwrights, bards, philosophers and scientists revered them and worshipped at their feet, and would walk across rivers of fire hoping to receive even one drop of their divine inspiration. Their mother, Mnemosyne, rarely left Hades, since memories are safest when kept buried in deep recesses, and because she could never be there for her daughters during the summer Mouseia, she organized her own festivities, in the underworld, to celebrate their nine consecutive birthdays. Celebrations were scarce in Hades, where everyone, except for the blessed and the damned, waited patiently for the next transport topside, not the most exciting atmosphere, Persephone had to grant, so the nine days of the muses were eagerly anticipated every year and enjoyed fully, with everyone engaging in performing poetry and music, whose reverberations were carried by the waters of the Acheron and brought to the surface, to surprise and delight the occasional mortal who got exposed to them in the dead of winter. Because they had been so impactful in every aspect of human culture, people often forgot how young the muses were, and still possessed with the boisterousness of childhood, and they could run a person ragged when they focused their attention on them. Many a bard or poet had been brought to the edge of insanity by their presence, which was more intoxicating than wine. Persephone could hear their giggles all the way from the palace, as they chased each other along the banks of the Acheron, to the outrage of the Heliades. The latter, who had now forever taken the form of black poplar trees, and who mourned perpetually the death of their sibling Phaeton, crying tears of condensed sunlight, which turned into precious amber, couldn’t bear the muses’ joyful noises and frequently admonished them, threatening to discuss their behavior with their mother and their gloomy uncle, Hypnos. The muses were particularly careful not to get on the wrong side of the latter, because his dreams were vehicles for ideas that inspired. Their valuable conveyances, free from the burdens of worry, practicality and reason, could deliver concepts in their purest form, straight from the spheres above, to the minds of the artists, but they required the favor of the god of sleep to help make them vivid enough to be remembered in the morning. During the rare instances when they found their uncle in a good mood, the muses liked to hang around his cave, lounging on his ebony sofas, and share stories, jokes and little fragments of melodies which mingled with the gentle whisper of the Lethe, while Hypnos, forgetting his usual brooding, joined in, running his fingers through the waters. Between these cozy brainstorming retreats in his cave and his dramatic affectations, Hypnos had inspired many of Thalia and Melpomene’s plays, which drew upon the tragedy or the comedy of the situation, according to the personality of the muse who received them. Terpsichore walked sheepishly behind her sisters after the Heliades admonished the group, keeping her head down to hide a smile, and when she was out of sight she burst into a flourish of twirls and pirouettes, grabbing Erato’s hands to spin around until they both got dizzy and dropped to the ground, with the sappy stems of the poppies to break their fall. The two laughed out loud, evidently entertained by the feat, with infectious, irrepressible, self-perpetuating giggles which they seemed to pass endlessly among themselves. “Am I getting old, or are they getting noisier every year?” Hades whispered from behind. He’d been watching Persephone follow the activities of the inspired children for some time now, quietly, in the background as he liked to do. “They’re lovely!” Persephone replied, outraged. “They’re like a breath of fresh air. Everywhere they go, there is music and laughter. Who could ever find fault with that?” “Hypnos,” Hades answered. “Hypnos always finds fault with that. They’re disturbing his sleep right now, even through all that poppy juice he keeps guzzling down. I already got a headache from anticipating his complaints.” “It’s only nine days a year. He’ll be fine,” Persephone smiled. “I’m guessing Mnemosyne is going to give him a litany of all the times he wasn’t the greatest neighbor, and her memory is long. By the time she gets to the end of that list, he will be asleep again.” She looked at Hades, suddenly feeling very young, light and inspired. “There will be music, dancing, we’re going to hear recitations of poetry and theatrical performances, isn’t this wonderful? Why aren’t you excited?” The god of the dead smiled, pleased to see his beloved so happy, but said nothing about her excitable state, which had obviously been induced by the proximity of the muses. “I have to get ready,” she started pacing. “There is so much stuff to do, the flower arrangements, the incense, the attire, oh, I forgot the attire, what am I going to wear? The golden sandals, of course, and the belt. Those would go better with the crimson chiton. What do you think?” She turned to Hades, who had never, in their entire marriage, ever expressed any opinions regarding her garments. Fashions were the appanage of women and he had more important things to do. “Persephone, sweetheart, please, move away from the window. You’re getting a little intense.” Persephone looked at him, not understanding what he meant at first, and then pouted, displeased. “Come on! It’s once a year! This place could do with a little overexcitement!” “I thought you liked quiet,” Hades frowned. Persephone, who was now a safe distance away from the driving intensity of the muses, settled down a little, awkward about acting strange towards her husband. “Hypnos may have a point. They can be really disruptive,” she pondered, smiling, “but they’re worth it.” “So, what are you going to wear?” Hades teased her. “Don’t gibe! Attire is important. I am the queen. I need to look the part.” “You are the part, my love. You could wear sackcloth and still look like the queen. Come to think of it, it would be interesting to try it out sometime, just to see what happens; you might start a trend,” he smiled. “I’ll wear the silk gauze, if that’s all the same to you,” Persephone parried, and then got lost in her mental imagery again. “I was thinking the crimson one, but maybe white would be more appropriate for the celebration. What do you think? Red or white?” Hades remembered both outfits, which looked as if they’d been made by the gods specifically to flatter his beloved. How did she not realize how beautiful she was? He curtailed a smile and replied. “I’ve

    Amelia: Reading from The Gates of Horn and Ivory - Inspired
  4. Aug 20

    Elena: Reading from The Garden of Hope - Worlds Within

    And did the world provide! When you stop being afraid of it, reality opens up to you to reveal all its beauty and its mysteries, and they are wondrous and strange, and so far from what you can even imagine that the only response you are capable of is awe. Humans may not be able to understand without limits, but they have an extraordinary capacity for wonder, and their wonder creates its own magical realm of splendid things, a realm where the human spirit as a whole comes alive. It lives in stories, and in art. It lives in science and discovery. It shines its light on valor and on faith and always yearns for transcendence. To the human spirit, a beautiful red rock is not an inert detail, it is potential. Somehow, the spirit secretly knows that the whole of reality is there to nurture its development and provide opportunities to grow. The philosopher’s stone, they called it in jest; a found magical object, which brought upon them the wrath of Bertha, who saw it as yet another time waster on Cimmy’s long list of useless enterprises, but which was so much more than that. There is the physical aspect of things, the solid reality of the substance they’re made of, their shape, their color, their properties, their limited footprint in reality, and then there is another aspect, that of what the things represent. In this aspect, objects are not inert lumps of matter. They always mean something and carry inside them the kernels of becoming more; they embody all their future uses and all the discoveries inherent to their nature and all the feelings they inspire in all of humankind. In this way, they transcend their mere substance and turn into an endless spectrum of potentiality. So this amorphous red rock became curiosity, an avid thirst for knowledge, confidence in one’s scientific abilities, and in the mastery of extensive practice. It sparked the imagination, lead it in directions it couldn’t see before, and allowed hope for a better life. After all, life is as much about what things mean as it is about what things are, and what the red rock was about was daring to walk past the boundaries of the unknown. Cimmy’s little shed became so filled with samples and experiments in progress even Josepha stopped dropping in, for fear some of the airhead’s experiments might jump out of dark corners and eat her alive. “What’s that, Cimmy?” Rahima masked her apprehension while she pointed to a bubbling alembic whose ominous fumes cast a greenish evil aura around it. “Do you want to see something wonderful?” Cimmy asked, uncovering a table whose contents telegraphed through the sheet thrown over them to conceal them from sight like the ghosts of reality. “Did that use to be Josepha’s copper pot? Cimmy, if she finds out, you’ll never see the end of her unpleasantness! What were you thinking?” “I’ll make her another one. Watch this!” The pot had been painstakingly refashioned to add a soldered lid and spouts in strange places, and the leftovers of the process had been chopped into tiny pieces which Cimmy fed one at a time to a vat of vinegar underneath the alembic like one would offer little morsels to a caged snake. The vat had copper threads growing like hair from its outer surface, all attached to the monstrous apparatus above. Two of them accidentally touched, generating an unearthly spark which turned Rahima’s apprehension into pure dread. The contraption huffed and puffed, creating pressure and steam, distilling and separating, moving the evil vapors through its intricate set of pipes, and finally condensed them by passing them through an ominous looking coiled tube into a viscous liquid which started accumulating, one drop at a time, in the bowl at the end of the still. “It’s glowing!” Rahima gasped, and took a step back, against her will. “That’s not natural! It can’t be! Please don’t do this! Throw it away before it’s too late. That’s fox fire, Cimmy! ” “Exactly,” Cimmy continued, unperturbed. “But there is more. Do you know that place in the forest where the trees were felled by the storm?” “Yes,” Rahima regained her wits. “We sometimes go there to pick mushrooms after the rain.” “Well, last time I went there, I found the glowing ones. There were so many of them, the entire place lit up at dusk.” “You didn’t!” Rahima burst in outrage. “Gathering devil’s mushrooms! Cimmy, how could you?” “They’re not devil’s mushrooms.” “Yes, they are! That’s what people call them.” “Just because you want to call me a tulip, that doesn’t make me one,” Cimmy didn’t falter in her pursuit of logic. “You boiled devil’s mushrooms in Josepha’s pot! You’re going to poison us all if she doesn’t kill you first!” “Actually, I don’t think they’re poisonous. I saw Fay gorge himself on them earlier and he’s fit as a fiddle.” “What could possibly be the use of this evil soup?” “I’ll think of something if I must. Why does it have to be useful? Why isn’t simply discovering we can do this enough?” Rahima warmed up to the merits of the scientific process for its own sake, so she picked up the bowl, whose contents had spilled a little on the outside, and stained her fingers as she lifted it off the table. “Great, now I got demon soup on me. If this ends up killing me, it will be on your head, Cimmy!” “As I said: not poisonous.” Rahima did her best to wipe her fingers on her apron, and since the substance didn’t seem to stain, the incident was soon forgotten and they both went about their daily chores. As dusk arrived, both of their fingers started to glow, faintly at first, but growing brighter the darker it got, stirring Rahima into a full panic. She rushed back to Cimmy’s shed, and the latter could see her friend approaching from afar. One could make up Rahima’s movements in the dark by the ghostly light of her fluttering apron and the swinging of her glowing hands as she ran. “It wasn’t hard to find you,” the latter started breathless the moment she was close enough to her friend. “Do you know how brightly your hands glow, Cimmy? I’m surprised nobody noticed yet, but they will, they will…” she started crying, dejected. “Every problem comes with a solution,” Cimmy reassured her. “Take off that apron and we’ll just wear mittens.” “And how are we going to explain to Josepha why we’re wearing mittens in July?” Rahima didn’t relent. “Besides, she will have noticed her pot is missing by now, and you’re her usual, nay, her only suspect. You know everything that goes wrong in this village eventually ends up landing in your lap.” “Excellent point! Do you know how Bertha always preaches proper girls should keep their hands to themselves and out of sight? Here’s a new apron. I’ll wear mine. We’ll both be modeling behavior for the other girls tonight by keeping our hands tucked under our aprons.” “There isn’t a chance in places that this harebrained plan of yours will work. You know that, right?” “Do you have a better idea?” Resigned, the two of them started off towards the community bonfire, hands neatly tucked under their aprons and quiet: the picture of propriety and obedience. They sat very close to the fire, hoping that, if the ominous glow on their fingers showed, it would be dulled and maybe even explained away as the glare from the flames. An hour in, just when they started breathing easier, a terrifying sight prompted the entire audience into blood-curdling screams: walking slowly across the meadow, Fay approached the fire surrounded by a ghastly green glow, so bright it made him look twice his usual size. “It’s a demon! Kill it!” Bertha jumped to her feet and started gathering rocks to throw at the poor creature, and in that moment of panic, Cimmy forgot her problem and jumped to protect her friend. “No! Stop! Stop! It’s Fay!” she beseeched Bertha with her outstretched hands, which were now glowing much brighter than the rat and more intensely green. “Grab her too! And that gullible friend of hers! We’ve seen enough of this evil, Josepha. I keep telling you people, but nobody ever listens!” She looked around, more annoyed than terrified, maintaining a posture that screamed dignified outrage. “Where’s the demon rat?” Fay slithered under the thicket of thistles, getting deeper and deeper into it until his bright glow turned into a faint flicker and disappeared. “Your rat bested us again,” Rahima whispered in Cimmy’s ears, annoyed that her epic efforts to conceal her involvement in this drama were foiled by a rodent. “I wish I were born a rat sometimes, you know?” “Away with them, I say! Begone, demonic spawn!” “What?” Josepha asked. “In the middle of the night?” “No! Let’s keep them here till dawn to fulfill their evil plans!” Once again, Cimmy and Rahima left the village behind to find their way through the fields in the dark by the light of their fingers. “See? It is useful.” Cimmy commented, and the glow of her hands was bright enough to see the spark of outrage and revolt in her friend’s eyes. The latter was too angry to talk. “It’s not like we haven’t done this before,” Cimmy argued. “We’ll take the float to the island tomorrow. It’s really nice there, no?” Rahima’s ire started mellowing in anticipation of her favorite activity, but she kept stubbornly quiet to make her point. The trip to the beach took over an hour, during which the light on their fingers showed no signs of abating. It was a beautiful night, and they knew the fields well enough by now not to worry about dangers lurking in the shadows. As they approached the beach, the vegetation started morphing into the wispy sand and salt grasses that grow close to the shore, and once they got to the top of the dunes on the edge of the sea, an enchanting sight welcomed them. Half of its surface glowed bright

    Elena: Reading from The Garden of Hope - Worlds Within
  5. Aug 17

    Amelia: Reading from The Gates of Horn and Ivory - Life and Prophecy

    Those blessed with the gift of prophecy form a small but very special community. They instinctively seek each other’s presence, they are drawn to those who are similarly blessed. If they are mortal, they become oracles and seers whose wisdom is sought and revered, and people travel from far away to seek their counsel. They are the living vessels of the gods, who speak through them in cryptic messages, which are only understood in retrospect. It’s not that the gods were trying to make their teachings obscure, or that they even cared if they were. People can’t form concepts about things that don’t yet exist. Immortal prophets like Apollo, Phoebe, the Moirae, doled their wisdom onto the world below, speaking through their official oracles, like those of Delphi, or Cumae, who were famous and revered and to whom people dedicated temples and compounds, theaters and springs. And then there were the quiet visionaries, who saw a lot but kept it to themselves, not wanting to put any more strain on the greater order of things than it was already under, and staying out of the affairs of the mortals, whose misinterpretations of godly wisdom were a constant source of disaster and false hope. Persephone had gained enough wisdom in Hades to understand that not all the figments of the mind were meant to be taken at face value, and only a precious few were meant as prophecy. The denizens of the world beyond our sights weren’t any more good or bad than the dwellers of the physical one. Their pranks and straight out lies were just as self-serving, only in an unfamiliar context. It was another realm, out of sight but just as real as the world of the senses, whose artifacts occasionally slipped into our range of perception to surprise and awe us, its bewildered inhabitants. Just because a vision, or a dream, had come from beyond, that doesn’t make it trustworthy. Future truths like to hide behind shiny objects, just like present ones, and cryptic prophecy can suddenly flip on its head in relationship with what actually happens, to reveal it meant the exact opposite of what was hoped. And yet, people seek to see into the future, and go to great lengths to receive the oracular wisdom, because they hope the latter reveals the will of the gods. Persephone knew for a fact the gods rarely cared, most of them, anyway. Between the guidance of her mentor, Hecate, and of her mother, she wasn’t a stranger to having visions and speaking in tongues, even if she often second guessed her visions, and those were the prophecies that always came true. Olympus had a twisted sense of humor about that. She had learned to tame the properties of herbs to assist her in her dreams and travels into the imaginary, and she often visited the bizarre realms outside of reality with no specific question in mind, just to enjoy their eerie beauty. They had mountains and streams, plants and animals, and their own people, and everything looked just like real life there, only to flip on her without warning, throwing strange details at her, details that didn’t fit the picture and had no connection with the story, as if a higher wisdom was trying to pierce through the veil of the known, but didn’t know how to relate to reason, so it spoke in weird images and sensations hard to describe. Persephone had turned to art in the hope of making some sense of this unfamiliar information, which was too arcane for words, and often a bit scary. The unknown can be a lot scarier than Tartarus, especially if you’re the queen of and can command the latter. That was one of the first things Hecate had taught her: not to assume she knows what reality is truly like, because in this uncharted territory her privilege, her title, even her immortality, meant nothing. Only people who fake these travels outside of reality will insist they can control them. You don’t control the world of dreams anymore than you do the real one. It’s a place you visit, where you go to see things that are as foreign to your own projections as other people’s thoughts. You are a traveler, graciously afforded safe passage, as long as you don’t flaunt the rules, an uninvolved observer, nothing more. You are there to learn what the outside of reality has created to tell you. Time moved differently in those visions, and more than once Persephone was awakened from her reverie to notice hours had passed in what she thought were mere minutes, or stranger still, she found herself thrown back into the past, before the time she had entered her vision. People use prophecy exclusively to divine what the future has in hold for them, but the real visions are not about that at all: they are windows into another world, whose rules we find very hard to understand, and only manage to do so after the fact. Hades approached her, careful not to disturb her vision, and only spoke when she felt his presence and turned around to face him, smiling. “Did you see anything interesting?” He asked, joking. “I suppose I won’t know that for a while,” Persephone replied. “I see fragments, flashes of things, insignificant details. I get forebodings of doom and sudden reassurance, but I never see the full picture. What good is it to see things you can’t understand?” “Maybe we’re not supposed to peek through that veil,” he commented. “Maybe there is no set future, the figments of the Land of Dreams are constantly in battle with each other, and what we experience as our future are the winners. Maybe what you just saw in your vision was hanging onto a leaf in the Elm of False Dreams only moments ago.” “But where do you think these figments are coming from? They always feel like they emerge from nothing, but things, feelings, concepts, they can’t be made from nothing. Their source must be elsewhere, in a place we can’t see. Doesn’t it bother you? That we can’t see past that?” She asked Hades suddenly. “I mean, we’re supposed to be omniscient and all powerful.” “Where did you get that idea?” Hades retorted. “We’re making things up as we go, just like mortals do. We just have a longer time frame for our mistakes.” “What is the meaning of all this, then? It can’t be all about sacrifices and offerings, can it? There doesn’t seem to be any reason to take one path instead of another. Everything looks equal in value and only interpretable in retrospect, for all the good that does. Last night I had a vision of a beautiful golden chalice I’d never seen before and this morning it was waiting for me in the middle of the table in the palace hall. What does that mean, my lord?” Persephone had great regard for her beloved’s wisdom and often sought his counsel when things got too thorny to tease apart alone. He had seen a lot, and experienced a lot, and he often had insights into things she never would have guessed. She always called him lord under such circumstances, and Hades was pretty sure she wasn’t even aware of it, a detail he found endlessly entertaining. “Persephone, you’re thinking too much,” he countered, amused. “Life here is reasonably pleasant, is it not? Why don’t we put that in the not broken category and enjoy it? Forget about the golden chalice: maybe it was a gift from Minos. He’s always trying to get on our good side.” “You know very well it wasn’t a gift from Minos,” Persephone looked at him, serious. “So maybe you brought it to reality from that Land of Dreams you so love to frequent. What of it? Speaking of, be careful in there, my love. You might get lost in your own visions one day and it will be a bear of a task to find you.” “But how does one turn thought into things? The chalice is real.” “Maybe there is nothing else but thought,” Hades replied, distracted. “What does it matter? I’m here, you’re here, we’re home, we’re happy. Can’t that be enough?” “But what if it isn’t real?” Persephone asked. “Especially if it isn’t real.” If we all live a dream, if everything is a figment of our imagination, as insubstantial as fog, if all our accomplishments and secret yearnings are nothing but illusions, if there is nothing to leave behind, because there is no before, or after, just a continuous experience of being in the present that we make up as we go and disappears when we do, then the one prayer we have to find meaning in this experience, and the only thing that matters is for this dream to be a pleasant one. After all, what would better epitomize the essence of Tartarus than the fact it’s not even real, it only exists in your head, an artifact your mind carefully constructed for itself, your custom-built ultimate prison made from your own thoughts and fears? The realms of bliss and despair are not places, they are states of mind. “I want you to be happy with me, Persephone,” his eyes warmed up with deep and abiding affection, and just a tinge of worry. “Of course I’m happy,” she smiled, while her eyes welled up with tears and she threw her arms around his neck. “It is because I’m happy that I am afraid. I don’t want this to be a dream that I wake up from one day. I love you. This is my home. I have friends and mentors, and my mother. What would be the point of existing forever in the absence of all that?” “I’ll be here for as long as you want me to be. What in places brought up all this existential angst? Did something happen?” Hades frowned. “I dreamt we were mortals dreaming we were gods,” Persephone whispered. Hades laughed heartily and kissed her. “You are what you think you are, my love.” This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit francisrosenfeld.substack.com

    Amelia: Reading from The Gates of Horn and Ivory - Life and Prophecy
  6. Aug 11

    Amelia: Reading from The Gates of Horn and Ivory - Strife

    On the westernmost edge of the Oceanus, which spans the vast distance between the world of the living and the underworld, there is a splendid garden, constantly bathed in the glow of the sunset. The garden belongs to Hera, a wedding gift from her grandmother, and wonderful apple trees with golden fruit grow there, under the jealous guard of the dragon Ladon, an offspring of the Typhon, and the rather distracted oversight of the Hesperides, the daughters of night and of the evening star. The legendary orchard was far from the real world, in both location and appearance, and because of its priceless bounty, a perpetual temptation for those driven by greed. When someone broke in to steal the apples, the circle of displeasure, complaint and requests for retribution invariably closed in the Underworld, a constant source of annoyance for Hades, who was expected to do something about it. “Who was it this time?” Persephone asked. “It was one of ours, actually. Eris decided to take it upon herself and plot against Hera. You remember Hera, don’t you?” “Vividly,” Persephone replied. Hera took exception to the smallest slight, never forgave an offense, and always made sure to drag the entire Olympus into her drama, satisfied only when she was the center of attention. Her never ending unreasonable demands were legendary among the gods. “Can you try to see if you can appease the spirits? Three goddesses fighting over a young man’s attention, what could go wrong!” Hades entreated. “Please? For me?” For all her familiarity with the Underworld, there were beings there Persephone had never warmed up to. She viscerally disliked Eris, who was the female embodiment of Ares’ bluster and brutality, and improved on the latter’s disturbing attributes with a deceitful personality, which found joy only when she created chaos and strife. Everywhere Eris went, suffering and war were soon to follow, as she took pleasure in destruction and trickery and couldn’t stop herself from inflicting them, even on her allies. If Persephone had to choose, she’d definitely have picked Ladon over her. At least Ladon was an honest monster who didn’t take pleasure in perpetrating his evils. Eris’ mother, Nyx, was intentionally oblivious to the endeavors of her children, who were so different from each other as night was from day, so much so one would never have guessed they shared a parent. One had to comment that Eris didn’t balk at stealing from her own sisters, the Hesperides, just to create chaos and war on earth and wrath in Olympus, and Hera was her perfect partner in this game, easily triggered by lèse-majesté and being made to look like a fool, and eager to take offense. So Persephone set the meeting with the latter for later, and was trying to figure out which of the other two goddesses was more amenable to mending bridges. Aphrodite, as the winner of this unholy contest, may have been her best chance for a friendly ear, but she was also hare brained and constantly involved in some pathetic love affair, and like most of the gods, also eminently vain, vindictive, and fickle. Aphrodite could be surprisingly cruel for a goddess of love, especially when she wasn’t given the worship and admiration she thought herself entitled to. That left Athena, who, one had to assume, was not at all pleased about losing to what she secretly deemed to be a redolent sack of hair, and for the dumbest reason too. Persephone sighed, and braced herself for an unpleasant meeting where she would have to act her part as queen of the Underworld, and take responsibility for Eris’s misdeeds again. Hermes arranged the meeting in secret, as not to unsettle Hera’s wrath, since the latter would have surely considered herself entitled to be consulted first. The meeting was to take place in Crete, at Minos’s palace, itself a sign of contrition and opening to good will to the patron goddess of Athens. It was out of the way and as far from Troy as possible, and the three sons of Zeus and Europa, all of whom had now found a home and an eternal purpose in Persephone’s kingdom, would make sure the two would not be disturbed. It was impressive, Minos’s palace, even for a queen. Its vast stepped plaza and massive stone masonry walls had been laid out by cyclops before the god wars, and the artistry of its dark pottery and colorful frescoes had remained unequaled for centuries. Persephone walked slowly up the shallow steps towards the main building. Their limestone glowed blinding white in the midday sun, and she shuddered at the thought of how many human sacrifices those patient steps had seen over the centuries. At the top of the stairs, she was greeted by Athena, who was always on time and appreciated punctuality in others as well. Minos’ throne room provided the two with welcome shelter from the unforgiving sun and the eyes of the gods. Its sumptuously decorated room, surrounded by red columns and walls covered in beautiful frescoes, had only one throne, carved in the stone of the back wall, so both goddesses stood instead, in unspoken and mutually deferent agreement. At the end of four hours, the two parted ways, and Persephone headed back to the underworld, exhausted. Hades was waiting for her at the western gate, eager to hear the outcome. “How did it go?” “Not well. Apparently Artemis was offended as well and now she got involved in the war too.” It is amazing how much damage can be done with the minimal amount of effort. One glossy fruit and some poisonous comments were enough to ensure the wrath and discord of four goddesses, the sacking and ruin of a city, gruesome battle deaths, and the shocking blood sacrifice, revenge conspiracy, murder and destruction of an entire Spartan king’s family. And as it usually happens under these circumstances, every party involved in this disaster got so entrenched in their umbrage and retaliations they completely forgot what had started the nightmare in the first place, and didn’t even bother to ask Persephone to account for Eris’ conniving. The meetings with the other two goddesses didn’t go any better. Aphrodite arrived at the Fortunate Isles in Helios’ chariot, drenching her surroundings in a cloud of perfume, and getting cheered and fussed over by the pampered population. She refused to step foot on Hades’ mainland, praised the pleasant surroundings of the isles and their temperate weather, but made it very clear she’d already held up her part of the bargain and didn’t intend to pay attention to any of the consequences it ensued. She despised any activity that didn’t promise her pleasure and couldn’t be bothered to waste her attention on it. As for Hera, the queen of the gods considered beneath her dignity to have another Olympian negotiate terms about her private affairs, even if the latter had the best of intentions, and curtly declined to meet with Persephone at all. “I guess that settles it, then,” Hades sighed, resigned. He was relieved by the surprisingly minor role the Underworld had to play in this brouhaha and decided to keep his kingdom out of the picture altogether, if he could. And this is how the fates of men are sealed. Every tragedy is a predictable chain of events, all seemingly unavoidable, which they never are, and triggered on purpose by cunning actors whose carefully planned actions get lost in the fog of war they generate, while said perpetrators distract and confuse all the parties involved with extraneous blather, and waste everyone’s attention and resources in trivial pursuits during which the sequence, the timing and the details of the events become impossible to follow. The dangers are rarely evident; the threats are always veiled; the words have double meaning and the participation of the conspirators can never be proven. A convoluted circus act of diverting attention during which the actors seem to disappear, only to transpire, in retrospect, to the audience, that they had never been there to begin with and what the audience thought they saw was only in their heads. Every epic tragedy starts with a simple game of exploiting one of the classic spiritual weaknesses: greed, vanity, lust, pride, desire for power, and that insignificant initiating event cascades downhill, picking up speeds and magnitudes in the process which dwarf the plans of their conniving masterminds. And while the conspiracy gets naturally limited by the capacity of the small minds that generated it, reality itself seems to intervene, adding natural disasters, unlikely phenomena and poor timing to make everything worse. At the end of the debacle nothing is gained, much is destroyed, dignity is never restored, lives are lost, situations are permanently made worse and nobody, for all their efforts, can trace the fateful unfolding of events backwards to its source. The Olympians go back to nurturing their secular grudges, while the humans forget the harsh lesson in a few years. The generation which bore witness to the calamity dies off and the whole process can start again, donning a fresh look to surprise the next one. Persephone wasn’t proud to admit it, but she was relieved her role in this fateful negotiation had been brief and marginal. Getting involved in the fights between gods was a fool’s errand, because the latter never stopped one-upping each other and kept escalating their conflicts until something priceless was irretrievably broken or lost. Trying to interfere with this process only made things more frustrating, while delivering no benefit at all. “I suppose it’s too much to ask that Eris should answer for creating this nightmare,” Persephone offered a rhetorical comment. “You know whatever answer she will give me is going to be a convoluted bundle of lies. I’ll let her spend some well-deserved time with her other siblings, Nemesis, the Erinyes, and Apate; family is important.” Persephone shrugged and headed to her gardens to find s

    Amelia: Reading from The Gates of Horn and Ivory - Strife
  7. Aug 7

    Elena: Reading from The Garden of Hope - The Thingness of Things.

    Once one gets seduced by wanderlust, any reason is a doorway to indulge it. Cimmy remembered that in one of the remote corners of the island, upon which they stumbled earlier in their quest for firewood, there were shallow pools which filled up with the tide and dried slowly at high noon, steaming up in the fiery sun, which turned their water to almost boiling temperature. Scattered around the pools’ edges, where the scalding water and foul fumes made them inaccessible, were stunning red rocks. Some were translucent, others matte, adorned with beautiful turquoise veins or speckled like plover eggs. Something about those rocks fired Cimmy’s imagination: she fancied them magical. She liked to believe they were the holders of happiness and immortality, appropriately guarded by isolation and danger, a quest only fitting for the most daring. “You don’t really believe that nonsense, do you?” Rahima taunted her, leisurely sipping her lime flower tea and blowing gently to cool it. “I don’t know about them being able to grant immortality, but what if they truly are special?” “What’s so special about a rock?” “Did you ever see any this beautiful before?” Rahima agreed the deep ruby color of the rocks was indeed unusual, but pointed out the smell of those ponds and the vapors that rose from their depths like bad miasmas were proof enough they ran into some evil realm best left untouched and unknown. Besides, even assuming one could reach those rocks without getting burned or melted by the ominous gases, what use could one possibly find for a rock, even one as beautiful as that? “They look poisonous,” Rahima decreed, closing the argument. “How can you possibly know?” “I know,” Rahima enumerated. “Colorful mushrooms are poisonous, colorful wild berries are poisonous, …” “What does that have to do with rocks?” “The law of similarity,” Rahima replied, sure of herself. “Everybody knows that.” “I’m not sure if I believe that’s true,” her friend whispered, trying to make sure nobody else heard her. If Bertha caught wind of even a word of such heresy, Cimmy’s life would immediately become a lot more difficult. “I don’t know, Cimmy,” Rahima rolled her eyes at the enormity of the statement. “If all the healers swear by it, it’s probably true. You don’t use willow bark to get blue pigment, do you? Indigo flowers are blue, that’s where blue essence is stored: in blue things.” “Willow bark dye is actually pink,” Cimmy pointed out. “Besides, if the essence of a color is stored in everything that dons that color, vegetal, animal or mineral, how do those rocks not embody the essence of red?” Rahima took a moment to consider, and her friend eagerly seized the chance to transform a partial belief into a complete certainty. “Think about it: by this time tomorrow you can be the proud owner of a garment as red as a rose. Wouldn’t you like that?” “I would never wear that garment. I’d worry it would burn my skin off.” “You didn’t worry about the blue dye.” “Flax doesn’t grow in poisonous looking, foul smelling, bubbling yellow green swamps!” “Well, the red rocks are beautiful. Don’t you want to know more about them?” “You’re still convinced they are magical,” Rahima gave in reluctantly. “If they are, they must be committed to the fire element. We could extrapolate their properties from that.” “We can burn some and find out,” Cimmy doubled down on the persuasion. “Rock doesn’t burn.” “We haven’t seen red rock before. Brown-colored rock doesn’t burn, because it is committed to the earth element,” Cimmy pointed out. “Maybe red-colored rock does.” It sounded well thought through, and Rahima, who was a stickler for the scientific method, had to yield to the wisdom of her friend’s observation, but then remembered the latter’s taste for adventure and flashed her an ironic smile. “You’d do anything that requires you to get on a boat, wouldn’t you?” “Wouldn’t you?” Cimmy pointed towards their underwhelming surroundings. Safety and boredom often come bundled together, and one only appreciates the former when the latter is gone. On the following day, they set foot on the island, equipped with knapsacks for rock collection and wearing multiple layers of sheepskins around their legs to shield them from the noxious fumes of the green-yellow swamp. Rahima maintained her distance as she watched her friend cautiously venture onto the unsteady rocks, giving her advice on which ones were less slippery and how to maintain her balance. Eventually she grew frustrated with her friend’s lack of coordination and called her back to show her how it’s done. She skip-stepped the rocks sprinkled through the green miasma with the agility of a young mountain goat, and once she reached the red rocks, she signaled to her friend not to venture there. “Which ones do you want?” “A couple of each should be good. I don’t want you carrying heavy loads and losing your balance.” Rahima dismissed her with an assured hand gesture, filled the knapsack, and confidently jumped back from rock to rock and out of the swamp the same way she went in. “Let me see,” Cimmy looked in the bag, eager to find out if the rocks were as beautiful up close as they were from a distance. The red crystals were magnificent, capturing each sunbeam and transforming it into the warmth of a blazing fire. “I told you they were magical,” she mumbled, filled with emotion. “How do you figure?” “Look inside. Look! Don’t you see how they store fire inside?” “Maybe,” Rahima conceded. “So, what do you want to do with them?” “We need to find out if they burn.” “Here?” “Do you want to try it back in the village, within smelling distance of Bertha and Josepha? We can start a fire on the beach, right there,” Cimmy pointed to a natural hearth made of calcareous rocks, whose raised edges would keep their fire protected from the winds. The red rocks initially resisted, prompting Rahima to voice numerous protests against the fundamentally absurd concept of burning them. When they eventually ignited, their bursting enthusiasm cracked them open and caused them to melt, releasing a thick glistening mist that transformed into metallic dew upon touching the cold rocks. Cimmy and Rahima watched in disbelief as a substance that looked like metal slowly flowed down the crevices of the stone, pooling in its shallow depressions and glistening in the bright light of the sun. The red rocks were completely consumed by the fire and transformed into black glass. Cimmy didn’t dare look at Rahima, waiting for the inevitable I told you so, which was delivered with gusto. “What did I say about the law of similarity? Was it even possible for these rocks not to be evil and poisonous, forming where they did and donning that color? God knows what evil spirits we freed from that rock to make it turn black and cry metal tears! Have you ever seen metal that flows like water, Cimmy?” “So much more the proof it is magical.” “And obviously evil! It’s an evil, metal sweating rock!” “We should find something to carry the liquid metal in.” “You want to bring this back to the village? You’ll never hear the end of Bertha’s scolding!” “I’ll hide it. I need to study it. I can’t come here every day for that. What do you think about it?” “Obviously, this rock exudes metal, as could be expected, since its color commits it to the element of fire, which is also associated with metal,” Rahima started, her scientific curiosity whetted. “It also seems to have components committed to the element of air, through its vile vapors, and obviously its burned black substance, relieved of its fire and air elements, returned only the essence of earth. It seems to have no water, though. Too hard and glossy to contain water. The aether goes without saying: all things in nature contain aether. You can’t have matter without aether, alive or not.” “What do you think we could do with it?” Cimmy asked. “I think we’re better served not to touch it at all: a rock that burns and weeps metal and menacing fumes? I think we should leave it alone, as I said in the first place,” Rahima pouted. “It would make a good paint pigment.” Cimmy examined one of the non-burned specimens in her bag. “Shouldn’t be that hard to grind.” All the way home, holding on to the little improvised vial containing liquid metal, which she’d made from a large seashell, she pondered on the essence of things, on how matter changed when it interacted with air, water and fire, how its very substance was transformed, in dramatic or subtle ways, but irreversibly. It was as if things were made from the essence of those things, tiny portions of their thingness, as different from each other as the things themselves, and if one unlocked the secrets of the thingness hidden in the things, reality itself would reveal its mysteries. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit francisrosenfeld.substack.com

    Elena: Reading from The Garden of Hope - The Thingness of Things.

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