You may have noticed I changed the name of my publication from The Curvy Hustle Reframe® to The Owning HER Health ™ Afterglow. I finally accepted that my prolific daily writing has got to get published. I woke up the other day and accepted a list of things about me you should know because I will be using this vocabulary. For example: I am a bio spiritual artist in my human being. I feel humans are designed to be and not designed to do things constantly. That is how I view my personal body’s use and the soul that houses my piece of spirit consciousness. I see the mind as a field of consciousness within, through and generated by me and the mind field that of all the other’s around me. That helps me separate and be the witness of their psychosocial stuff, outside mine and the flesh of me. I consider employment a job, the roles you play the work and that anyone can make a career out of their roles’ work as a service or have that inspire a product. I consider what someone may define as “their purpose for life” more like God’s intent and their personal intent is what I consider their will and the benchmarks of meeting that intent are their goals. I will be speaking more to this in the download of guides and lexicon I make available for paid members supporting the evolution of this publication. Fair warning, here are the basics: * I am called to publish in a few ways. Many notes begin,and get published, as streams of consciousness. * Most of my articles begin as streams of consciousness that I attempt to reengineer as formal articles if I can. * Many of my random notes are thoughts and may ask for help fleshing them put for my Podcast and while my Substack and Podcast are now linked, they are not the same thing. ( Btw- wrote this on my phone so excuse any visuals and my miss of any errors) Here are the more nuanced things you may see expressed in my writing: I Finally Accepted I Am Not Normal 1) I thank God everyday that I was not seduced by the American version of neuronormative for my entire life, yet I wouldn’t wish navigating the spaces of a Dark Night of the Soul or it’s more mature older sister, the Dark Night of the Spirit, on anyone but my enemies. I will eventually write about both here, and what makes them different, but I want to speak and write about the past decade in a way that can be helpful and relatable. The hero’s journey might be part of every human psyche, but trust me, this sacred success path is 100% a daily choice of integrity to stay on. Notice I did not say superiority or some cosmic transmutation. It is very, very human! And thus, it is not popular. Not yet, anyway. I will say that the Dark Night of the Spirit creeps in so much more subtle than that of the Soul. Just when you think you accomplished an escape from the mass illusion of American imperialism and things are getting good... BAM! Like I said, it needs an article for itself, but I want to let you know that it is out there. You are not regressing and have not failed. You are so damn close but it had you rest in a way no spiritual training prepares us for. That is why I stepped away from my podcasting. A Maturing Polymath’s Life is Very Interesting, Entertaining but Lonely 2) As a polymath who has forever enjoyed new things to learn , I was surprised by the sense of holding the duality of both feeling complete and feeling hungry for new knowledge. The way I can describe it is that before The Dark Night of the Soul, you may feel like the Hungry Catepillar. During the Dark Night of the Spirit, you actually feel inclined to fast, but it feels easy because you have refined your taste buds from wanting a bit of everything, to only wanting to consume for nutrient density, and you know exactly what you are missing at this point. I am calling this phase as the Butterfly, my “Uncounted Era”, and I know I am not alone in thinking these past 7 years have really been a necessary shit show we would have refused to participate in had we ever seen coming. Actually we all realize now we did so it had to be by some cosmic covering that we started the bio spiritual prep work, a long time before 2020 even hit. No matter how intelligent anyone was or claiming they were a multidimensional being, they did not have the level of debacle on their visionary bingo card. If you are reading this, you are likely relating to the heartbreak of it. I Will Need More Anchors in An Undemocratic US World of AI 3) I know how to be a leader in a crisis and as a consultant. I know how to be an anchor for myself since a kid, and eventually I learned how to be an anchor for others through my roles as a parent, therapist and coach, but the last few years hit me different. I was not needed much in those roles. Now comes in AI. Good news, if you are still reading this, you are much more inclined to use AI very well and much more mindfully with discernment, but we do need some natural intelligence and are likely not yet interested in using AI for vibe coding. Am I right? Even the US seems to be forcing it down our throats as it is going through a divorce and posting AI generated briefs and images of itself taking on this new role as a global villain. I don’t know about you, but the realization that there is a grandpa playing with tech they seriously do not understand, and connecting it to our military, financial and medical systems was a deeply, couture, diamond cut grief experience. But just because I accept the AI, and the US ass whooping we about to go through, I am still very much recalibrating. Therefore, I accept I need a small, intimate circle of maybe 5-10 people who want to use AI but also know, there is a major money push for it’s adoption. This “phase” of US facist FOMO is not disappearing by itself unless, we the people, make it go. We need to understand the possibilities to stop the bad outcomes and for that, we can’t just let the bad actors run amuck. The stats so far aren’t great. They are already to the point they are set to leave the women and more marginalized groups systemically and purposely out of it again to maintain caste like classes. So I will be writing about good use cases with it and bad use cases, like how I had to pull away from AI expert training because the company got majorly invested into by Meta. Also, I had to leave my platform Kajabi when the poor human/tech AI automations ruined the product experience for me. On top of that, I am very mindful of my Gen Z kid’s vibes. They are not the one’s vibe coding. They are in circles of Gen Z who are much more socially conscious and are not embracing AI with the same mass urgency of AI adoption some looking to cash out, before the market crashes out are. They are not stupid. It is being used against them if they are not already financially comfortable or sovereign or solvent. For good or bad, they ended up like me, not really motivated by the money yet, very motivated to contribute ans not add problems to the world. One last thing, 53 years inside the extractive commodity driven system has taught me that nothing is given for free. That being said, anyone want to go on a get myself off Google adventure in 2026 with me? There are people like this I do genuinely want to help myself off of that data mining suite I call for guardrails, not because I am scared but because I am intelligent. AI is imperfect tech and so I will be writing more leaning into AI health, human system infrastructural wellness and how the care economy can use it with good ethics. I will not be offering anything about becoming a tech millionaire using it. Our lives are already being reduced to care codes and syntax. So again, if you are curious, but aware of the market incentives like me, you too may need a few new anchors. Not a sales webinar or course on this so I won’t be writing one for you or making money off anything that is not aligned to secure, sustainable adoptions. I am Not Unkind 4) Kindness is clarity. Niceness is purposely avoiding any discomfort for the other person. Neither of these are confrontational unless we ourselves have no capacity to process uncomfortable emotions when exposed or reflective. If I offer an affiliate link I likely personally know the owner or use the product or service. I am more than happy to gift my paying supporters with taking over the load of finding good things that make their lives healthier and happier while we do the stressful things others won’t have the capacity for until we show them how to. This is network leverage. This is kindness, after a couple of decades of collapsed critical thinking and massive entertainment as a distraction. Human adults are not discerning without training and the market took advantage of it. ( Go watch the HBO show MadMen). I Am Not Unproductive and Lazy 5) Admit it. Actually, let’s own it! You and I have been doing what we could, but the definite signal for 2025 and so far in early 2026 was “Be the witness, Not the doer”. Am I right? Many of us stepping back in, took this last bit of a 40 year reality show season, likely not into selling new things online or even found yourself career pivoting. If you were, it hasn’t been the way it used to be. That is because the whole world moved from personal energy work,into the field work since the pandemic and project 2025 was a call in for coherence, not power moves from those who are going to be okay through this more than others. Think of it like this, we graduated from the 3D matrix, but we don’t have to die to do it like Jesus or a swami like Paramahansa Yogananda did. That’s because some of us aren’t untethered souls anymore. We got the anchoring in our nervous system everyone is talking about which is why we are ready to form some trust again with a select group of others. This is what living neuro regulated feels like. You don’t stop feeling anxious or sad or frustrated. You just get really adep
