Even if you're scared.

King Sil and special guests
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Even If You’re Scared is a podcast about showing up for your life… even when you don’t feel ready. Hosted by Sil, a Black, queer, transmasculine person, this space holds honest conversations about identity, love, grief, becoming, and everything in between. It’s about carrying loss while still making room for hope—and learning how to live with both at the same time. Some episodes go into the heavy things. Other days, we laugh, talk about music, books, culture, relationships, and the moments that make life feel good again. Nothing here is overly polished or perfect. This is a space for honesty—for the hard, the soft, and everything in between. Occasionally, there may be special guests where we bounce ideas, stories, and perspectives off each other for deeper conversation and connection. If you’re figuring it out as you go… you’re not alone here.

  1. 6d ago

    The Weight Of Softness

    I think avoiding first person actually makes the description feel more universal and inviting. Here's a version that keeps the same themes but speaks to the listener instead of summarizing the episode from your perspective. What does it mean to stay soft in a world that keeps asking us to harden? This week's episode of Even If You're Scared explores the quiet strength found in vulnerability, the courage it takes to receive love, and the difference between surviving life and truly living it. Through conversations about grief, relationships, masculinity, identity, plants, and the people who teach us it's safe to be seen, this episode asks whether softness is really something to outgrow—or something worth protecting. Because maybe resilience isn't about becoming unbreakable. Maybe it's about remaining open, even after everything. If you've ever mistaken independence for healing, struggled to let people love you, or wondered how to stay tender without losing your strength, this conversation is for you. If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

  2. Jul 4

    The Quiet After the Flags Came Down

    The calendar changed. But nothing else did. A deeply personal conversation about the emotional comedown after Pride Month, the parallels it shares with Juneteenth and other moments of collective remembrance, and the question that's been lingering ever since: Why does kindness so often feel conditional? An honest reflection on visibility, moral exhaustion, frustration, hope, and the choice to keep showing up for one another—even after the awareness month ends. If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

  3. Jun 25

    In Good Company..

    A guest episode, a loose outline, and entirely too much ground to cover in far too little time. This Pride Month conversation welcomes Veronica—a Black, Nigerian, queer Londoner, former podcaster, and longtime friend—for a funny, thoughtful, and deeply familiar conversation between two people who probably should've started recording years ago. What begins as a list of questions about identity, dating, friendship, queerness, community, and life across the pond quickly develops a mind of its own. Stories overlap. Topics wander. Side quests emerge. The outline does its best. Somewhere between laughter, lived experience, cultural nuance, and the kind of banter that only exists between people who genuinely love and respect each other, the conversation becomes something bigger than either of them planned. At its heart, this episode is a celebration of Black queer friendship, curiosity, joy, honesty, and the many ways community can find us. And with entirely too many questions left on the list, this conversation is far from over. If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

  4. Jun 20

    Roots, Rituals, and Remembrance

    This episode was supposed to come out earlier. Instead, it arrived on Juneteenth. What begins as a reflection on houseplants slowly unfolds into a conversation about grief, memory, Pride, community, survival, and the stories carried forward by the people and places that shape us. From a room called Grey Matter to a collection of plants connected to different chapters of life, this episode explores what it means to nurture something when everything else feels uncertain—and how growth can happen alongside loss. A thoughtful, occasionally funny, and deeply personal reflection on roots, remembrance, healing, and the surprising ways connection shows up in everyday life. Because sometimes a conversation about plants isn't really about plants at all. If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

  5. Jun 12

    Burning It to the Ground Part 2

    Part 2 of 2 The conversation with Tracy continues. Picking up where Part 1 leaves off, this episode dives deeper into long-distance love, queerness, pansexuality, polyamory, identity, Pride, and the ongoing process of creating a life that feels authentic. Together, this conversation explores belonging, visibility, relationship structures, personal freedom, and the courage required to keep choosing yourself while remaining connected to the people you love. What does Pride mean when it's lived rather than performed? What does authenticity look like in relationships? And how do we continue becoming ourselves while allowing the people we love to do the same? Thoughtful, funny, vulnerable, and deeply honest, this conversation creates space for curiosity, growth, and the many ways love can evolve. Find Tracy on all platforms @Tracy_Intransit Happy Pride. If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

  6. Jun 12

    Burning It to the Ground Part 1

    Part 1 of 2 For the first guest episode of Even If You're Scared, creator, traveler, storyteller, and digital nomad Tracy joins the conversation for an honest discussion about reinvention, risk, and what happens when a life no longer fits. After leaving behind a traditional career path, Tracy packed up what she could carry and stepped into a completely different chapter—an experience she describes as "burning her life to the ground." Together, this conversation explores travel, content creation, uncertainty, freedom, and the courage it takes to build a life on your own terms. The conversation also begins to explore the realities of maintaining a long-distance relationship while navigating a life that rarely stays still. What does freedom actually look like? What does it cost? And how do relationships survive while life is changing around them? A thoughtful, funny, vulnerable, and deeply human conversation about becoming. Happy Pride. Find Tracy @Tracy_Intransit on ALL platforms Happy Pride. If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

  7. Jun 5

    Glimmers

    A delayed guest episode turns into something unexpected. Between forgotten keys, a packed bar, awkward pedicure conversations, shirtless selfies, fresh flowers, and a long list of adult responsibilities, this episode explores the small moments that make life feel a little lighter. A conversation about being seen, finding joy where you can, and learning to appreciate the glimmers that show up when you're paying attention. Because sometimes the best stories aren't the ones that were planned. Happy Pride, y'all. 🌈 If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

  8. Jun 1

    Happy Pride, Y'all

    June holds a lot. Pride. Juneteenth. Community. Identity. Joy. This week, a reflection on first Pride memories, taking up space, finding belonging, and learning that sometimes the most radical thing a person can do is become more of themselves. A conversation about queer joy, chosen family, visibility, fear, and the freedom that comes from finally realizing there are more of us. Happy Pride, Y'all.  If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it. You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours. Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it. And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today. Just keep going gently. Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if you’re scared.

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Even If You’re Scared is a podcast about showing up for your life… even when you don’t feel ready. Hosted by Sil, a Black, queer, transmasculine person, this space holds honest conversations about identity, love, grief, becoming, and everything in between. It’s about carrying loss while still making room for hope—and learning how to live with both at the same time. Some episodes go into the heavy things. Other days, we laugh, talk about music, books, culture, relationships, and the moments that make life feel good again. Nothing here is overly polished or perfect. This is a space for honesty—for the hard, the soft, and everything in between. Occasionally, there may be special guests where we bounce ideas, stories, and perspectives off each other for deeper conversation and connection. If you’re figuring it out as you go… you’re not alone here.

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  • Creator
    King Sil and special guests
  • Years Active
    2026
  • Episodes
    17
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Even if you're scared.
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    Even if you're scared.