In this episode of Talking Taboos: The Podcast, we're taking you inside a live event held the day after World Suicide Prevention Day 2025. We brought together lived experience, mental health expertise and community voices to talk about one of our most silenced taboos: suicidal thoughts. When life is difficult, Samaritans are here, day or night, 365 days a year. You can call them for free on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org to find your nearest branch. The conversation is chaired by Dr Yansie Rolston. Yansie is an incredible facilitator and trainer who designs, implements and evaluates actionable strategies on health equality and community cohesion. Her work covers Europe, Africa, the Americas and the Caribbean. Where she co-creates culturally appropriate health and social care projects for marginalised communities. She's joined by Merrick Joseph, a London firefighter and grandfather of one., Merrick shares his own experience and talks about the culture shift happening within the fire service around mental health and stigma. Lynette Charles, CEO of Mind in Haringey, Chair of Mind in London and Black Thrive Haringey Lead, also joins Yansie and Merrick. W Lynette brings both her professional experience and an important personal lens to the conversation. Together Yansie, Lynette and Merrick unpack the difference between having a suicidal thought and having a plan, the role guilt and shame play in keeping people silent, and why so many of us - whether we're firefighters, parents, or just exhausted by daily life - hold these thoughts alone rather than risk saying them out loud. Along the way, they talk about what actually helps: naming the thought, finding ‘your reason,’ noticing behaviour change in the people around you, and building spaces - whether that's a fire station mess table, a barber shop, or a living room - where honesty doesn't feel like a risk. Please note that this episode includes discussion of suicidal thoughts and suicide. Please listen with care. Closing Statement / Signposting If anything raised in this episode has affected you, please know you're not alone, and there is support available. If you're in immediate danger or are worried about someone else who you think is, please call 999 or go to your nearest A&E. For support any time, day or night, Samaritans are free to call on 116 123. You can also text SHOUT, for free and confidential support, on 85258. CALM, the Campaign Against Living Miserably, are available from 5pm to midnight on 0800 58 58 58, or you can find them online at thecalmzone.net. And if you're under 35 - or you're a parent or carer worried about a young person - Papyrus HOPELINE247 is there for you on 0800 068 41 41. If you work in a high-pressure environment, like the emergency services, Mind's Blue Light Programme offers mental health support built specifically for you — that's mind.org.uk/bluelight. And for local support, including crisis cafés, Mind in Haringey is open nine till ten, seven days a week, you'll find them at mindinharingey.org.uk. If there's one thing to take from tonight's conversation, it's this: find your mess table. Whether that's a colleague, a friend, or a stranger on the other end of a phone line, talking to someone, anyone, makes it lighter to carry. All of these links and details are in the show notes.