FERAL: Diaries of an Uninhibited Woman

The Taboo Temple
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A space for messy stories, taboo conversations, radical authenticity, and the beautifully complex experience of being human. Come as you are, leave a little more feral. wildwomanhood.substack.com

Episodes

  1. 3d ago

    The Parts of Me You Don’t See

    You might know me as Mistress Mahara—the confident, unapologetic woman behind The Taboo Temple. But confidence doesn’t mean I don’t have my own shit. In this intimate, unfiltered live, I pulled back the curtain on three things that have been very alive for me lately. My prayer is you connect to the parts of yourself that are mirrored through my story. This isn’t a polished “I’ve healed this” story. It’s me sharing what I’m actively moving through—and what I’ve learned about holding myself through the waves rather than collapsing when they come. Because beneath the Mistress, beneath the confidence, beneath the woman who seems to have it all figured out, there is still a deeply human woman navigating desire, grief, belonging, longing, comparison, and the full range of being alive. And that’s really what The Taboo Temple is about: Learning to become the authority of your own life. To hold yourself through the chaos.To let yourself receive the goodness.To stop making your humanity something you need to hide.To become the Mistress of your own life. Enjoy, and I would love to hear your reflections in the comments. Until next time, xoxo. Get full access to The Taboo Temple at wildwomanhood.substack.com/subscribe

    The Parts of Me You Don’t See

  2. 4d ago

    Why I Dropped My Therapist License

    What happens when you outgrow the career (or life) you spent years building? In this episode, I’m taking you behind the scenes of one of my many plot twists: dropping my therapist license and eventually finding my way into professional domination, BDSM, and expression work. I’ll share the moment I first realized I might be done with therapy, what burnout taught me about how to discern what is actually aligned for you, and why I ultimately chose to trust my intuition—even when keeping my license seemed like the much more logical choice. We’re also getting into what therapy taught me, what I wanted to do differently, my relationship with touch and power, and how my work as a pro-domme has actually become an evolution of the work I was already doing. Because sometimes you don’t need more self-care. Sometimes you need to admit: this life isn’t working for me anymore. And then get brave enough to build something that does. If it delights you to support an unapologetic woman’s expansion, upgrading to a paid subscription and/or contributing via my CashApp $missmahara would bring me much joy. Thank you for being here! xoxo Get full access to The Taboo Temple at wildwomanhood.substack.com/subscribe

    Why I Dropped My Therapist License

  3. Aug 20

    I Came Out As Gay. Then I Fell in Love With Men Again.

    What if changing your mind about your sexuality isn’t a failure—but evidence that you’re alive? In this deeply personal episode of FERAL, I’m sharing a part of my sexuality journey: coming out as gay, leaving a marriage with a man, spending nearly two years in a relationship with a woman, and choosing to return to men. I talk about the parts that were liberating, the parts that were messy, the relationships I had to leave, and the unexpected experiences that opened my heart in completely new ways. I also share why lesbian energy has become such an active part of my work right now—not only with women exploring their attraction to women, but with men exploring feminization, lesbian fantasy, and the parts of themselves they’ve been taught they “shouldn’t” want. Because one of the things I love most about BDSM and kink is the permission field they can create: a place to try something on without immediately needing to decide what it means about you. This episode is ultimately about something bigger than sexuality: the permission to evolve. To change your mind. To explore something that once felt impossible. To trust what is true for you now without demanding that it remain true forever. You are allowed to live many different lifetimes within this one life. And you are allowed to let every version of yourself be part of your evolution. Supporting The Taboo Temple is elevating a mission around embracing the taboo parts of us in the name of authenticity. Thank you for being here. xoxo. Submitting to Me * Ritual BDSM + Kink Sessions (In Person or Virtual) A session with me is an invitation to meet the parts of yourself you’ve been taught to suppress. Together, we create a deeply intentional, consent-centered container where power exchange becomes a doorway into greater self-awareness, liberation, and aliveness. Through an intuitive blend of BDSM, kink, rope, sensation, and Sacred Theater Somatics, I guide you into honest expression—whether that looks like reclaiming your power, practicing surrender, exploring long-held desires, moving shame through the body, or discovering entirely new parts of yourself. Every experience is uniquely crafted around your boundaries, curiosities, and intentions, with spacious integration and aftercare to help you carry what unfolds back into your everyday life. Photographer: IG - @barenatureboudoir My muse: IG - @autumnfairyflow My kinky desires: * Impact play (flogger, riding crop, spanking, face slapping) * Feminization / sissification * Shibari * Choking * Latex * Foot worship * Tease & denial * Pet play * Mommy kink * Role play Travel locations (I’m based in SLC, UT) * NYC area x 2 - September 2026 + December 2026 * Northern California - October 2026 * Toronto, Canada - October 2026 * Miami, Florida - December 2026 * Available for FMTY Investment: * $750 for 2 hour session in-person (tour rates may apply) * $375 for 90 minute virtual session * 1:1 Virtual Coaching + Mentorship You’re longing to feel more alive in your relationships, more confident in dating, more connected to your sensuality, or more unapologetic in expressing who you are. My virtual coaching is a space to untangle shame, deepen authenticity, navigate intimacy and relational patterns, and cultivate the kind of self-trust that allows you to stop performing and start living from your deepest truth. Next steps: Email missmahara@proton.me to introduce yourself, your desires, and location and request a free 30 minute call with me to connect about your desires for me to determine if we would be a good fit. Get full access to The Taboo Temple at wildwomanhood.substack.com/subscribe

  4. Aug 15

    I Kept Choosing a Relationship I Didn’t Even Want

    There was a relationship I stayed in for almost two years that, if I’m being completely honest, I knew wasn’t right for me before it even started. And yet, I kept trying to make it work. I tried to become someone who wanted the things she wanted. I pushed away desires that felt inconvenient. I convinced myself that things that mattered deeply to me simply weren’t that important. I self-abandoned myself to be chosen. I became a cat person for someone who loved cats. I told myself I didn’t really need the kind of masculine, daddy energy I actually craved. I kept finding little ways to contort myself so I could stay in a relationship I didn’t even truly want. In this first episode of FERAL: Diaries of an Uninhibited Woman, I’m telling the story of that relationship—and the relationship that came after it that showed me what it could feel like when you don’t have to contort yourself to be loved. Because sometimes the relationship you desperately want to make work is the very thing that teaches you what you actually want. And when you finally stop negotiating with yourself? Things get really f*****g interesting. I’m talking about relationships, sexuality, desire, self-abandonment, compatibility, and what happened when I finally got unapologetically precise about how I wanted to be loved. Because here’s what I’ve come to believe: You don’t need to become more lovable. You need to become more you. What do you actually want? How do you want to be loved? What turns you on? What parts of yourself have you edited out because you decided they were too much, too weird, too inconvenient, or too unlikely to be accepted? And what might become possible if you stopped assuming that the people who could love all of you don’t exist? That’s the heart of what I’m creating with The Taboo Temple. Not a place where you’re taught how to become more acceptable. A place where you get to become more you. Because I don’t believe we’re here to be tolerated. We’re here to be celebrated, cherished, and fully ourselves. Welcome to FERAL. 🖤 If you’re inspired to support an unapologetic woman’s expansion, I’d be so delighted if you blessed me through a paid subscription and/or my Throne Wishlist: https://throne.com/mahara Get full access to The Taboo Temple at wildwomanhood.substack.com/subscribe

    I Kept Choosing a Relationship I Didn’t Even Want
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