The Organic Reflection Podcast

Organic Reflection

Not everything we've been told about health, healing, and happiness is true. So we question it. Organic Reflection is a space for raw, honest conversations, the kind that shift how you think, feel, and live. We go to the places most people won't. The messy parts. The breakthroughs. The things people carry quietly for years before they finally say them out loud. If you've ever felt like there's more to life than what you've been given, you'll feel at home here. 🙏🏽🤍

  1. 2d ago

    From Grief to Grace | Jesse Akkerman: Plant Medicine, Spinal Energetics & the Brother He Never Stopped Carrying

    When Jesse Akkerman was eight years old, his twelve-year-old brother didn’t make it out of a cabin fire on a school camp in Canberra. That loss, sudden, violent, and too big for an eight-year-old to hold, settled into his body and stayed there for decades. He went on with life. He got into flooring. He became a father. He looked, from the outside, like someone who had moved on. He hadn’t. What came between was more than twenty years of grief he never had language for. In this conversation, Jesse opens up about growing up in a strict Christian household in Melbourne with a Dutch father and Samoan mother, the moment he watched his dad’s face as he delivered the news about his brother, and why it took until his thirties for him to understand what that loss had actually done to him. This episode isn’t just about grief or plant medicine or spiritual awakening. It’s about what happens when a human being finally stops burying the thing that broke them and starts building something from it. We explore a childhood defined by loss, a brother killed on school camp at twelve, a family held together by faith, and a young boy who didn’t understand what any of it meant for another two decades, a first ayahuasca ceremony that brought his brother back, even for a moment, and the year of monthly medicine work that followed, why integration is everything and what can go wrong without it, the Indian guru who redirected him from plant medicine to breath, the yoga teacher training that gave him a nervous system that could finally hold what he’d been through, the discovery of spinal energetics and the movements he’d been doing in meditation for years without knowing why, what ego death actually looks and feels like from the inside, the philosophy of archetypes and why you are your child’s first hero, fifteen years in flooring and what it means to phase out a trade and step into purpose, and why Jesse would do this work for free. Today Jesse Akkerman is a Melbourne-based spinal energetics practitioner, yoga teacher, and former flooring contractor. He spent his twenties running a trade business and his thirties finding out what he was actually here to do. He’s now working with clients to facilitate the kind of healing that took him thirty years to begin. We were honoured to sit with Jesse for one of the most tender, expansive and quietly powerful conversations we have ever had. Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: Growing up in Melbourne with a Dutch father and Samoan mother, and a deeply religious householdLosing his twelve-year-old brother in a cabin fire on school camp at age eightThe grief that was never named, and not fully faced until his thirtiesA first ayahuasca ceremony at thirty-one and the night his brother came and sat beside himA year of monthly plant medicine ceremonies, and the depression that came without integrationAn Indian guru in Melbourne, a reading that changed direction, and a month in RishikeshYoga teacher training and finally landing in his body for the first timeDiscovering spinal energetics and recognising the movements he’d been doing in meditation for yearsWhat ego death actually looks and feels like from the insideThe philosophy of archetypes, and why you are your child’s first heroFifteen years in flooring, and what it means to phase out a trade and step into purposeJonathan’s own Kundalini awakening during COVID and what neither of them can fully explainWhy Jesse would do this work for free, and what that tells you about whether it’s real🌍 Join the community beyond the mic📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

  2. Oct 16

    The Key in Her Heart | Dr Rita Trak: Fluoride, Spirit & the Dentist Who Sees What Others Can’t

    Dr Rita Trak’s story is one of grief, awakening, and a dentist who suddenly found herself working between two worlds. Rita had wanted to be a cosmetic dentist since she was 12. She was driven, studious and, by her own admission, running on autopilot, doing what she thought she knew best. She wasn’t spiritual. Neither was her Dad. Then he passed away unexpectedly. In this conversation, Rita opens up about the dream three weeks after his death, on what would have been his birthday, when he put a key in her heart. When she woke up, she could see and hear spirit for the first time in her life. She shares how that changed the way she practises dentistry, why she spent a year as a closet holistic dentist, and what happened when two dentists tried to buy her clinic so they could push her out. We also dive deep into the ideas behind her practice: why she walked away from fluoride after years of advocating for it, why she sees teeth as little time capsules that hold memory, how every tooth links to a pair of meridians and wisdom teeth link to four, and the patient whose X-ray looked like a bomb had exploded inside his tooth. This episode isn’t just about dentistry. It’s about what happens when the unseen world shows up in the middle of a clinical one, and you choose to listen. We explore losing her Dad and the dream that opened everything up, seeing and hearing spirit for the first time, going from strongly pro-fluoride to fluoride-free, hydroxyapatite and what to look for in a toothpaste, a dental chair surrounded by crystals, the interdimensional visitor and the symbols on her bathroom mirror, the patient she interrupted to say she could see his Dad, BPA in fillings and the problem with mercury removal, teeth as time capsules and the meridian connection, chipped teeth before weddings, school and loss, the bomb in the tooth and the Spotify moment that followed, why wisdom teeth might be the wisest of all, and what holistic really means when anyone can use the word. Today Dr Rita Trak is a holistic dentist, kinesiologist and medium, practising at Dental and Skin. She found her gift through grief, and now she’s changing what a visit to the dentist can feel like. Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: Wanting to be a cosmetic dentist since the age of 12Losing her Dad and the dream where he put a key in her heartWaking up able to see and hear spirit for the first timeGoing from strongly pro-fluoride to fluoride-freeHydroxyapatite, nano vs non-nano and choosing a toothpasteA year as a closet holistic dentist and the dentists who tried to push her outA dental chair surrounded by crystals and setting intentions for every patientThe interdimensional visitor and the symbols on her mirror“Sorry to interrupt, but I think I can see your Dad”BPA in tooth-coloured fillings and why it surprised herTeeth as time capsules and how each tooth links to the meridiansChipped teeth and the life events that followedThe bomb in the tooth and the Spotify momentWhy wisdom teeth connect to four meridiansWhat holistic really means and how to choose the right practitioner 🌍 Join the community beyond the mic📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

  3. Oct 2

    Follow Bliss | Daniel Tadinac: Sepsis, Surgery & the Holistic Path Back to Himself

    Daniel Tadinac's story is one of crisis, clarity, and the moment a near-death experience handed him the life he was always meant to live. Growing up in Melbourne with three younger sisters, Daniel was always the kid who'd rather be outside than on a PlayStation - drawn to nature, movement and a different way of seeing the world. He just hadn't found his language for it yet. That came the hard way. In this conversation, Daniel opens up about the knee surgery that went wrong, the sepsis infection that almost cost him his leg and very nearly his life, and waking up in ICU with 38 tablets a day - a man who wouldn't even touch a Panadol. He shares what happened when a surgeon told him to kiss his career goodbye and prepare for a knee replacement at 25, and why walking out of that consult room was the moment that set him free. We also dive deep into the holistic principles Daniel has built his life and practice around - the six foundations of eating, breathing, thinking, moving, sleeping and drinking, what functional blood work actually reveals, why your knee pain might be coming from your hip, and how a French bulldog, a cold oval at 6.30am and a flash of sunlight on his face reminded him that the universe is always listening. This episode isn't just about recovering from a medical crisis. It's about what becomes possible when you stop asking why me and start asking why not me. We explore growing up different and the quiet knowing that came with it, a football injury, surgery and a sepsis infection that nearly ended everything, waking up in ICU and being handed 38 tablets a day, a surgeon who told him his career and his knee were finished, the holistic path that proved the surgeon wrong, the six foundations of a healthy human life, functional blood work, postural assessment and looking at the body as a system, peptides, isometrics and ten weeks of locked-in training, the metabolic typing approach and why there is no one-size-fits-all diet, a 100-day tai chi practice and the morning the universe answered, masculine and feminine energy and the balance we're losing, self-love as the foundation of everything else, and what it means to follow bliss. Today Daniel Tadinac is a holistic health and performance coach working with athletes and entrepreneurs to build strong bodies and resilient minds. He found his purpose through pain and now he helps others find theirs. Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: Growing up different and preferring nature over PlayStation A knee injury, surgery and a sepsis infection that changed everything Waking up in ICU with 38 tablets and a body that had nearly given up A surgeon who told him to kiss his plumbing career and his knee goodbye Walking out of that consult and choosing the holistic path instead The six foundations: eating, breathing, thinking, moving, sleeping and drinking Postural assessment, biomechanics and looking at the body as an integrated system Functional blood work and metabolic typing for individual diet Peptides, BPC-157 and a ten-week cycle documented on socials Wild caught fish, organic whole foods and the 80/20 philosophy A 100-day tai chi gong and what happened on day 200 Masculine and feminine energy and why the balance is shifting Self-love as the starting point for everything else The fear of judgement and the solo road trip that cleared it Why the universe is always listening when you're aligned 🌍 Join the community beyond the mic📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

  4. Sep 18

    The Race Back to Himself | Tyler Murphy: Childhood Abuse, Meth & the Triathlon That Changed Everything

    Tyler Murphy's story is one of survival, resilience, and the fierce, unlikely path back to the self. Born to a single nineteen year old mum in Melbourne, Tyler had a childhood that looked ordinary from the outside until it wasn't. From the age of nine, he was sexually abused by someone close to the family, and the abuse continued for seven years. He buried it so deep he didn't connect it to anything until he was twenty-three. What came between was years of running from something he couldn't name. In this conversation, Tyler opens up about the drug use that started at sixteen and escalated to ice by eighteen, the violent attack at nineteen that left his jaw broken in three places, the hundreds of times he thought about taking his own life, and the two stints in a psychiatric detox unit. He shares the moment he finally told his mum what had happened, and the seven more years it took after that conversation before he was truly ready to get clean. We also dive into the DMT experience that cracked his atheism wide open, the mushroom therapy sessions he designed himself, seven years of work with his psychotherapist Pete, and the sprint triathlon he entered on a whim in 2023 that landed him on the podium and changed the entire direction of his life. Within months he deleted his social media, went dark, and was on the bike by 3.30am. Within two years he was one of the top five half ironman athletes in his age group in Australia. This episode isn't just about recovering from trauma. It's about what a human being is capable of when they finally decide to stop running and start racing toward something. Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: Being raised by a single teenage mum and the early years Seven years of childhood sexual abuse by someone close to the family Drug use from sixteen, ice by eighteen, and the spiral that followed A violent attack at nineteen, a broken jaw, and surgery with titanium plates Two stints in psychiatric detox and the conversation with his mum at twenty-three Seven more years before getting truly clean from meth A DMT experience that shattered his atheism and opened something spiritual Designing his own mushroom therapy sessions with set and setting Seven years of work with his psychotherapist Pete A sprint triathlon in St Kilda, a podium he didn't expect, and what it unlocked Rising to the top five half ironman athletes in his age group in Australia A court case underway as his abuser prepares to plead guilty Forgiveness, not for the man who hurt him, but for his own freedom 🌍 Join the community beyond the mic 📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠ 📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠ 🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠ 🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

  5. Sep 4

    Nurturing Life | Nick Lawson: Childhood Trauma, Qigong & the Tea Ceremony That Brought Him Home

    Nick Lawson's story is one of running, searching, and the long road back to the self. He spent his teenage years terrified and performing, surrounded by violence and chaos, while quietly falling apart inside. When his father left at sixteen, the already shaky ground beneath him turned to sand. What followed was fifteen years of movement. In this conversation, Nick opens up about the heartbreak at nineteen that brought him to the edge, running barefoot across Africa in search of something he couldn't name, and the First Nations aunty who stopped him cold and asked, simply, where do you come from? He didn't know. That question sent him somewhere no passport could take him. We dive into the morning tea ceremony he has kept at 3am for years, the qigong practice that taught him to listen to his body, a four-day vision quest where death felt close enough to touch, and the meditation that finally handed him the truth about what happened to him as a three year old. It remains the most painful and most liberating moment of his life. This episode isn't just about one man's healing. It's about what becomes possible when you finally stop running and sit still long enough to meet yourself. Today Nick Lawson is a qigong teacher, ceremony keeper, and father — and one of the most quietly extraordinary humans we have ever had in the room. Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: A childhood marked by fear, violence and an absent fatherHeartbreak at nineteen and the call that changed everythingRunning barefoot across Africa and what he thought he was looking forThe First Nations aunty and the question that redirected his lifeThe 3am tea ceremony as daily ritual and living mirrorQigong and the ancient practice of nurturing lifeA four-day vision quest where death gave him a choiceThe meditation that uncovered what happened to him as a three year oldWater as God, Daoism and the thread that connects all spiritual pathsRaising a son with presence, not programmingWhat it means to finally love yourself after everything you've carried 🌍 Join the community beyond the mic📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

  6. Aug 21

    The Body Doesn't Lie | Kaitlyn Menere on Grief, Crohn's & Healing from the Inside Out

    Kaitlyn Menere's story is one of loss, avoidance, and the slow, hard won discovery that the body keeps score of everything we refuse to feel. Growing up in Melbourne with a classic Aussie upbringing, Kaitlyn's world looked completely ordinary until the day she was nineteen and her mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. What followed was chemo, radiation and a double mastectomy. And then, at twenty, the day her mum went in for one final operation and simply didn't wake up. They were planning her twenty-first birthday party when it happened. In this conversation, Kaitlyn opens up about the eight years that followed, the party scene that swallowed her whole, the drugs and alcohol that made it easier not to feel, and the Crohn's disease diagnosis at twenty-seven that finally forced her to stop running. She walks us through six operations, injections she had to refrigerate and self-administer, and the moment a doctor told her the next step was a colostomy bag, then later told her she'd be back when she chose to heal herself naturally instead. She didn't go back. We also dive deep into the holistic healing journey that followed, a book that cracked her world open, a sacred cacao breathwork ceremony that finally unlocked the grief she'd buried for years, the carnivore diet, cold ocean swims, and the full remission she now lives in, completely symptom free, without medication. This episode isn't just about Crohn's disease. It's about what happens when a body runs out of ways to ask for help and finally gets your attention. We explore losing a parent at twenty and the grief that had nowhere to go, eight years of the Melbourne party scene as a survival mechanism, a Crohn's diagnosis that started with symptoms she ignored for years, multiple operations and a medical system that never once asked about her lifestyle, the book that planted the seed, a breathwork breakthrough that broke her open, five years sober and how it started as just one weekend, the carnivore diet and what three years of it did for her body, going off medication and what the doctor said when she came back in remission, the contraceptive pill and what it does to women's bodies over time, and nervous system regulation as the foundation of all true healing. Today, Kaitlyn Menere is a holistic psychotherapist based in Melbourne working with women on their nervous systems, anxiety, lifestyle and the root causes of disease. She reached out to us herself, slid into the DMs, and we are so glad she did. Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: Losing her mum on the operating table at twenty, mid birthday party planningEight years of drugs, alcohol and the Melbourne party scene as grief avoidanceA Crohn's diagnosis at twenty-seven and the symptoms she ignored for yearsSix operations, self-administered injections and the threat of a colostomy bagA medical system that never once asked about diet, lifestyle or stressHow To Do The Work and the book that changed everythingCold ocean swims, meditation and the seed being plantedA sacred cacao breathwork ceremony that unlocked eight years of buried griefFive years sober, how it started as one weekendThe carnivore diet and three years of following itGoing off medication, full remission, and what the doctor saidThe contraceptive pill, women's bodies and what we're not being toldThe four phases of the menstrual cycle and why women need to know themNervous system regulation as the foundation of healingWhy not giving a f**k is actually one of the most healing things you can do 🌍 Join the community beyond the mic📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

  7. Aug 7

    Bronya Benvin | From Corporate to Psychic - Trauma, Tarot & Learning to Trust the Path

    Bronya Benvin's story is one of awakening, surrender, and the slow, mysterious unfolding of a life that was never going to fit inside the ordinary. Growing up in Nelson, New Zealand as a deeply sensitive child who felt the energy of every room she walked into, Bronya always knew something else was at work beneath the surface. What followed would take three lifetimes to live. In this conversation, Bronya opens up about the three awakenings that have defined her life, one by grace, one by trauma, and one by grace again. From a spontaneous spiritual activation at fifteen that she told no one about for nearly two decades, to a dark night of the soul that followed one of the most violent and terrifying experiences of her life, to the heartbreak that cracked her open a third time and gave birth to an entirely new body of work. This episode isn't just about psychic gifts or tarot cards. It's about what happens when a woman stops running from her sensitivity and finally lets it lead. We explore childhood marked by empathy and the unexplained, corporate burnout and a plea deal with the universe, a trauma that changed the entire trajectory of her life, the deck of tarot cards that arrived and immediately began to speak through her, Neuro Soul Architecture and what it means to live in true coherence, and the live tarot reading that happened right here in the studio. Today, Bronya Benvin is an intuitive tarot reader, psychic and creator of Neuro Soul Architecture, a transformational alignment framework she is currently delivering to her second cohort of clients. We were so glad the path brought her here. Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: Growing up deeply sensitive and perceptive in Nelson, New Zealand A spontaneous spiritual awakening at fifteen, kept secret for nearly two decades Searching for God in India and finding the journey was always internal Burning out in a corporate IT career and making a plea deal with the universe A violent trauma and the moment of profound surrender that followed The dark night of the soul and the lost years A deck of tarot cards that arrived and immediately began to speak through her The difference between a psychic and a medium Neuro Soul Architecture, the four fields of being and what true coherence looks like Synchronicities, angel numbers and how to read the patterns of your life A live tarot reading in studio 🌍 Join the community beyond the mic📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

  8. Jul 24

    Nerida Bint | The Emotional Home — Childhood Wounds, Shame & Learning to Become Your Own Safe Place

    Nerida Bint's story is one of survival, shame and the slow, courageous work of coming home to yourself. Growing up as her stepfather's stepdaughter, Nerida spent her childhood watching a man look at her with contempt, never understanding why she couldn't earn his acceptance. What she didn't know was that his rejection of her was rooted in a rejection he had carried since boyhood, sent alone to boarding school as a deaf child, abandoned by his own mother. The pain had to go somewhere. It landed on her. What followed were decades of not feeling like she belonged here. In this conversation, Nerida opens up about the years she spent planning to take her life, the suicide attempts that finally broke her open, and the moment she sat in a car park watching a TEDx talk about shame and burst into tears for the first time in years. She shares what it felt like to run a string of successful gyms, be surrounded by community and love, and still go home every night to a version of herself she couldn't bear to be with. We also dive deep into the emotional intelligence framework Nerida has spent years building from her own healing, the difference between your inner critic and your inner coach, why the emotions your parents couldn't hold become the emotions you can't hold, and what it means to finally stop running from pain and actually let it move through you. This episode isn't just about how dark it can get. It's about what becomes possible when you finally decide you're worth fighting for. We explore growing up as a stepdaughter and the wound of parental rejection, generational trauma and how one person's pain becomes another's childhood, the external facade of success masking internal devastation, suicidal ideation as a coping mechanism not a desire to leave, the Brené Brown car park moment that changed everything, the Covid dark night that stripped it all back, emotional intelligence and the scale of consciousness, the inner critic and how to move toward the inner coach, connection before correction and how to raise emotionally healthy children, group healing and why shame dissolves in the presence of others, and what it feels like to finally fall in love with the woman in the mirror. Today, Nerida Bint is an emotional intelligence coach and mentor working with women across Australia and beyond, helping them understand the childhood wounds driving their patterns, release shame, and step into the version of themselves they were always meant to be. She has recently moved to Melbourne, found the love of her life, and is building a life that once felt completely out of reach. We were so glad she stayed. Master Your Mindset online course usually valued at $499 down to just $250 Link: https://neridabint.app.clientclub.net/courses/offers/131fddcb-fb78-4765-8a75-209ae69643bf Use code: MASTER250 Get your C60 here 👇🏼🌐 https://www.organicreflection.com 🎙 In this episode, we explore: Growing up as a stepdaughter and the pain of unexplained rejectionA father shaped by his own abandonment and how that trauma passed to herFeeling broken, invisible and suicidal from a young ageRunning multiple women's gyms while secretly planning not to stayThe car park, the TEDx talk, and the first real understanding of shameMultiple suicide attempts and the friend who helped her find her way backCovid stripping away her business, her relationship and her identity overnightThe lockdown awakening that finally made everything make senseThe emotional home formed between ages zero and sevenWhy the emotions your parents couldn't hold become yours to carryInner critic versus inner coach and the 400 to 600 repetitions it takes to rewire 🌍 Join the community beyond the mic📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/organicreflection ⁠https://www.instagram.com/organicreflectionpodcast⁠📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/organicreflection⁠🐦 X (Twitter): https://twitter.com/OrganicReflect⁠🎥 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@organicreflection⁠

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Not everything we've been told about health, healing, and happiness is true. So we question it. Organic Reflection is a space for raw, honest conversations, the kind that shift how you think, feel, and live. We go to the places most people won't. The messy parts. The breakthroughs. The things people carry quietly for years before they finally say them out loud. If you've ever felt like there's more to life than what you've been given, you'll feel at home here. 🙏🏽🤍

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